Thursday, January 27, 2011
On the heels of yesterday's news about the death of our founder's widow, I came in to work today to find an email announcing that one of our longtime scientists died Saturday while on vacation in Hawaii. I could not get it out of my mind. It's a huge loss for the company, a painful sorrow for friends and an incomprehensible loss for his family.
My last interactions with Chuck were a couple of months ago when we had some technical conversations, background to some research he did and wrote about years ago. I was impressed by the depth of his knowledge, his ability to explain the technology to a layperson (me) and his extensive knowledge of the history of the company.
Rest in peace, Chuck. You will be missed on many levels. I will pray for your family.
I did not get to take a nice long walk at lunch and I chose not to do so when I had a break between work and Toastmaster officer training. Surprisingly, I got in over 10K steps anyway and some very light ST. I am ending the day on the lower end of nutrition.
I found out that the attorney who was originally going to be supervising the paralegal is now not owning that responsibility. It turns out that my former boss will be handling it. I think he is fabulous, but I am not 100% sure the feeling is reciprocated. I also found out that someone else within the company has applied. Supposedly, I know who this is, but I don't! (The attorney who was the original supervisor told me that.) I am not dwelling on it - no point in doing so since the whole thing is out of my control, but I certainly am curious.
The Toastmaster officer training was hosted by a fancy high tech company's club. Nice facility. I found the training to be both simplistic and alarming. I am not sure I should be club secretary! I missed one meeting already this year, so my record is incomplete. (I did not know I was supposed to maintain notes about meetings - I thought it was only for officer meetings!) I will, of course, continue, but it is a bit more involved than I anticipated.
I wore PXL slacks today (Petite Extra Large) and I really should donate them! Woohoo!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Not much to say tonight, which is kind of odd.
What did I do today?
I walked for 53 minutes which included a different walk at lunch time. I walked a different direction so, while it was not quite as long as yesterday's walk, I felt the work because of the hills. I know it raised my heart rate, but I still have a way to go before I reach what SP calls the target heart rate for cardio. (Almost a year on the site and I am still not there yet!).
I came home and did some strength training and I feel that, too.
The food is within range, with dinner still to occur, and the water is covered.
There are a few things I can share that do give me something to say.
There are now two openings for attorneys where I work. One is to replace an attorney who gave his notice last week and the other is to add an attorney in our Knoxville office. Our newest attorney starts next week (she is replacing the one who was let go in December). With all that and with the company's notoriously slow action on responding to internal applications, I have not heard anything about my application for the paralegal position. I know there are reasons why they might not hire me, but there are also reasons why they should. My insecurity creeps in and I fear that I will not be seriously considered. If I don't even get an interview, does that mean I should take the hint and start job hunting?
I need to drop a lot of weight soon if I do need to job hunt. I don't have the wardrobe to do that and I can't spend nor do I want to replace this size. I would like to defer wardrobe spending until more pounds are history!
My company's founder died in 2007 at the age of 95. He was in the office the day before he died. We had a party for him at his 90th and 95th birthdays. Someone asked what he had to say about his longevity. He said that, had he known he was going to live so long, he would have taken better care of himself. By the end of his life, he used a walker and was in a lot of pain due to zero cartilage in his knees. He was a real inspiration to me. How could I complain about how I feel at my age when he was still active and contributing and working at 95? I am still in awe of his intellect, his humor and his humanity. He started the company after a full life as a teacher, as a nuclear engineer and was already a grandfather! I love the story about him trying to join the military at the outbreak of WW II. The recruiter asked him what he did and when he said something about nuclear energy, the recruiter sent him home saying "you can do more for us at your job." His patented design for cooling nuclear fuel in power plants is still in use in some countries.
His widow died this weekend at 94. I walked past his portrait several times today and all I could think is that they are now reunited in Heaven. I don't know exactly, but I am sure they were married for over 50 years. Their anniversary falls on my birthday (though they were married years before). The company is sending flowers and I sent a card to their daughter. I met her at his memorial service and we spoke briefly. Oddly, I had been thinking of his widow a lot in the past few days. Now I know why.
Monday, January 24, 2011
65 - minutes walked today (not all at once)
02 - mintes on the elliptical (!)
06 - strength training exercises
05 / 02 hip flexor time without help
I can do hip flexors all day long as long as I have at least a finger touching the wall. Standing on my right leg, I can last 5 seconds without help. Standing on my left leg, I can last 2 seconds on a good day without help. I will keep working on this balance exercise.
My legs felt like jello after the 2 minutes on the elliptical. It sets for a minimum of 20 minutes - it will take me a while to work up to that!
I am feeling pretty chunky, but I am not going to focus on THAT number (scale) right now. I am going to keep moving forward (literally and figuratively) and work on building up my energy (I still am TIRED after this month of blah!)
THANK YOU for all the support and encouragement. I really appreciate it!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A migraine threatened all day. Again, I did nothing productive. I am a bit down. I am tired of tracking food, of exercising, of the journey. I hope the mood passes very soon. I gave in and ate way over today. I am not particularly depressed, angry or upset, just beaten down.
Thank you, SparkFriends, who have posted comments and sent goodies. You are a lifeline!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I did not sleep much at all last night and spent today dealing with really weird back spasms and a headache that is threatening to become a migraine.
No walk or other exercise.
Still within range for food, but I am also fighting the urge to inhale all kinds of stuff. I have healthy food, it would be just a matter of more than I should have...
The scale is up about 1.5 pounds. Not surprising - I think it's just my body getting back to life after this dreadful cold.
I am tired of having these aches and pains!
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