Monday, January 17, 2011
I seldom do this, but I looked back at yesterday's food tracker and discovered I had made a double entry, so I WAS within range! Woohoo! I am today, at least in most things. Low in calcium and high in fat...I had lunch out with a friend and had to guess on ingredients.
Last week, I shared the news that our top paralegal had been let go. Late Friday afternoon, a coworker told me that her job was posted. I looked and saw that the job is being transferred from Charlotte to here! I read the job description and decided to see if I could apply. I emailed my boss and asked if I had his blessing to apply (that's the protocol). I had to wait until today to get his reply, given the time difference. He did give that blessing, so I dusted off my resume and posted it and applied. I included a cover letter and addressed my one weakness - the lack of experience working in a law office. I acknowledged that weakness and asserted that my company knowledge, my track record for learning new tasks, for working with the technical folks and all across the Institute were strengths that outweighed that weakness.
Given the changes, I don't know who the hiring manager is or anything else. I don't know how long it will take for me to find out, be invited to interview (or not).
I got in over 8K steps without seeming to have done much walking. Time for me to ramp it up. Still light on the ST and true cardio. More to do to have a strong journey this year!
My goals for the next 2 weeks: 750 fitness minutes and a loss of 2 pounds.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Wiped out again today. Zero energy of any kind. I did not exercise at all. I ended up 20 calories over the top. Not a good day save for a phone call with my sister.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
My fun plans were cancelled and I decided today would be a great day to take a nice long walk and do some strength training. But, when I woke up this morning, my body said today would be a great day of rest. I still feel pretty run over with this cold that won't end!
My appetite is returning and I have been surprised to stay within range today...
But the best news of the day was seeing a blog from Jhadzhia! Her surgery is over and now the long recovery begins. She's in a lot of pain and discomfort, but she's still trying to get her minutes in! I was beyond thrilled to see her blog!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Take 2 With Your Biggest Meal of the Day…This was the first instruction on a bottle of some sort of appetite suppressant. I almost started laughing. Now, my 3 main meals are roughly the same in terms of nutritional value. My two snacks are much smaller. Seeing the bottle got me thinking about then and now.
Even before I started on SP nearly a year ago, I knew that there were no pills, topical products, exercise gadgets or any other make-me-thin-soon quick fixes that could undo years of mindless eating and a couch potato lifestyle. But my heart sure hoped that the latest hype would turn out to be true. I wish I had the money I wasted on that fruitless search!
I experienced limited success with some of the bonafide diet programs out there. I left one program when the leader presented the program as the only way to lose weight. It came across as “preachy”, as if this were a religion. I had great success on another plan put out by a nationally known writer but that ended badly. I had about 25 or 15 pounds left to lose when my father died. I lost my focus. A few months later, I was laid off and, not only did I not have that job, but I did not have the four-mile a day walk that went with it. The pounds came back and then some.
On January 27, I will celebrate my 1 year SparkVersary. I am at the tail end of a terrible cold and have lost 5 pounds in less than 2 weeks. Of course, I expect some of that to come back because I had zero appetite during the peak of the cold. Thinking about that, bracing myself for the scale, made me realize that, much as I really want to lose the rest of this tonnage, I am actually afraid of losing it too fast.
On thinking about past failures and in almost holding my breath over present success, I realize something new about this journey. I don’t want to reach my goal too soon because I am still learning the life skills I need in order to maintain and to continue the success. I have not developed the habits of exercise that I need. I am still learning to make choices with food, not so much for the daily routines, but for those times when I am tired, stressed, in a celebratory environment or whatever.
I really am ok with the idea that it may take another year plus for me to lose the balance. I am 2/10ths away from having lost 30 pounds and would dearly love to achieve that (and have it stick) by my SparkVersary! But, the bigger picture is also true. This has to be a year of lifestyle integration of the exercise and food choices and nonfood coping mechanisms that I touched on during my first year with SparkPeople.
The prospect of reaching this milestone has given me a new Spark in my step. If I ever had the chance to meet Chris Downie, I would be hard-pressed to limit my contact to a polite handshake. I would want to give him a huge hug and wax on effusively about how SparkPeople has changed my life, perhaps even saved it. My life is changing in all the ways I knew it needed to. I just never could do it by myself. I would dearly love to meet my SparkFriends and give them the same hug! I have proved I could not change my life solo; I needed my Spark Community to get this far. I know I will need all of you for the rest of the journey as well. Thank you, in advance, for being part of my life and my Spark Journey!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
I know I will miss Miss Wrisley for the rest of my life. I called her that for many years and, as our friendship deepened, she asked me to call her by her nickname Winnie (short for Winifred, the only woman I've ever known with that name).
I sing songs in the shower and during my drive to work. These are songs that I learned from her. I could not sing today, my throat and heart are too full of tears. That does not diminish my confidence that she is making music with the angels, but another piece of my heart is gone.
The cold is not completely gone, but my energy and appetite are returning. A total of 49 minutes walking time today, eight different strength training exercises, on target for water and mostly on target for food.
Thank you, precious SparkFriends, for your comments and spark goodies. I cannot adequately express the depth of my grief, but I sense your compassion and am both deeply touched and profoundly grateful.
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