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I Want to Be Juneau This Weekend

Friday, March 05, 2010

Juneau is my 3 year old Maine Coon cat. I sometimes joke that, if I believed in reincarnation, I would want to come back as her - loved, pampered, never wanting for warmth, play, shelter and great health. I also would not mind getting some of her sleep! If I stopped the blog right there, that would just about sum up my couch potato life. But I am a member of the SparkPeople community
and it cannot end there. Juneau is also very athletic. She loves to run up and down the hall chasing a mouse on a string or the laser light! She takes running leaps and floats to her landing. She's loving, she loves attention and is very snuggly. I need to emulate her athleticism, find that playful fun that Juneau has. And I need to reach out to family and friends, reconnect and reignite that spark of love. I tend to shut down and withdraw when life is not smooth and I have been hibernating in the Silicon Valley for far too long. Time for me to act as if until it is real! Happy Cat!

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    Cats have the best lives! Good inspiration!

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NONIE_C 3/6/2010 1:25AM

    I hear you!!!! I also need to spend more time taking care of myself in those ways: more sleep AND more activity. More time reaching out, instead of withdrawing when things are rough. Great goal, and great inspiration. Go after it!!! Get it!!!

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Pedometer, Running and Motivation

Thursday, March 04, 2010

I put on my gift pedometer first thing this morning and later discovered that it was not accurately counting my steps. It flipped off 4 times, and I retrieved it the first three. When I discovered it was gone, I retraced my steps (which were many) and never found it.....................I met with a couple of friends over lunch, missing my lunchtime walk in the process, so we could talk about running. The two friends did not know each other and, voila, it sounds as if all 3 of us may be doing a marathon next year! But I did not start running yet. I was so tired by the end of the day, I was dangerously tired on the way home from work. Note to self: don't do that again! I polished off the water early in the day and found myself considering munching in the afternoon for some energy to keep awake...I need to make some changes because this cannot continue. My motivation with respect to the pedometer is quite tempered. At the moment, and it's probably the fatique, I am tired of exercising, of thinking about losing weight, of measuring food and choosing wisely.

HOWEVER, that does not give me license to throw in the towel. I am going to ignore those feelings and keep plugging on. That's a new approach! Yawning...

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LINOVER 3/4/2010 9:48PM

    I had the same problem(losing it) with my first pedometer. The second one I attached a piece of elastic to the clip and pinned it to my slacks. I never lost another one. Several of my friends did the same.

Enjoy your rest and just start again tomorrow!

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PONDERTHIS 3/4/2010 9:34PM

    I can understand working hard at soemthing and feeling at the edge of your resources. The good thing is that the edge keeps expanding, so you can go farther and do more as time goes by. You are doing great! A rest is a good idea. You might just feel recharged afterward.

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GWENFITNESS1ST 3/4/2010 9:22PM

    Hey hang in there. You will make it. Maybe you needed a day of rest! After awhile some of it becomes so natural that you forgot when you started to do it. Keep up the good work!

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Pedometer Wealth

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

The company employee newsletter carried my want ad on Monday asking for a pedometer. A coworker said she had one on Monday. Tuesday, another coworker called me and asked if I still needed one and I told her that the other friend had not found hers. She came in today with THREE pedometers. Two are the older style ones, one of which is a WW pedometer. The third is another WW pedometer. I clipped one on this monring, not 100% sure I had it set right, but I wore it all day and had fun watching the numbers climb! Two other coworkers asked me today if I still needed a pedometer. One had one to give and the other offered to pick up a $30 one for me if I gave her the $. (She was unclear on the "don't have $" concept). Then I came home, pulled out the tape measure and got it properly set. I am all set to have a more accurate count tomorrow!

I had lunch with a friend at the cafe next door to work. I had a great salad with almost no hidden calories (sesame soy dressing). But, before we sat down, without thinking, I ate a sample piece of dark chocolate with coconut. I was amazed that it was so easy to step back into mindless eating that easily! But I guesstimated the calories, fat ,etc. and logged it all in. Prior to SparkPeople, I would have talked myself into some reason NOT to be honest on the food log.

I drank the water early in the day, but was off kilter in veggies and fruit. Tomorrow is a new day and it will be more on track. Today was not a bad day and I don't feel guilty for the mindless nibble, but I do take today as another example that I have not yet arrived. I cannot afford to skip vigilance with respect to what I put in my mouth! That does not mean I am undisciplined or bad or anything else negative, it means that I need the structure that SparkPeople provides while I learn how to manage this every day, every meal, every morsel.

The other thing I need to do is choose some short term goals to keep me moving forward. The 30 pound goal for the food bank is too far to keep me going full steam ahead. I also need to recalibrate my attitude about exercise. My March goal of a ten percent increase has been dampened by the frustration and apin and inability to execute...........

People are seeing me walk at work, seeing me use my food scale, seeing me use the stairs. I'm not doing this for the attention, but, if I inspire someone to change their life, I become even more blessed and inspired!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 3/3/2010 11:54PM

    You are making so much progress in so many areas! You should be very pleased with yourself and proud of how well you are doing.
Good luck getting your steps each day.

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PONDERTHIS 3/3/2010 11:02PM

    Wow, what great focus and determination. Good work. I'm glad for your abundance of pedometers. Will you use them simultaneously? :)

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DARK-WING 3/3/2010 10:53PM

    We are doing a walking challenge at work & I've been wearing my pedometer. Really does motivate me to move more.

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Not as Up as Yesterday

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

This morning started off wonderfully in terms of SparkPeople contacts! I received some very nice comments on my recent blogs! I was really touched!

That wonderful sunshine feeling did not sustain me very far through the day, however. Another night of not sleeping well made for a sluggish day. The kind of fatigue that I experienced today is becoming all too routine. It makes it so hard to concentrate at work, to do the kind of work that I'd be proud to add above my name. I work with the backdrop of the ever-present possibility that I'll be laid off, so I cannot complain about having work! I am fortunate and I know it, but the stress of looking over my shoulder is exhausting.

In the past, I would have overloaded on sugar and/or carbs in an effort to muster the energy to function. I did not do that today. I did get some exercise in, but not as much as I would have hoped. I walked a longer walk today and it took less time, so that monkeys with the time/calorie metric.

My head is full of "shoulds". I should go take a walk, I should do some strength training. I should do the housework that the BF is ignoring and I really should do my taxes. On the other side of that dialog is a bone-weary tiredness and the barest beginnings of a sore throat.

My walk today was interesting and challenging. The day has been "changeable" - raining like crazy for the morning commute, overcast and blue sky mix. When I walked, it was cool, damp, grey+blue sky. I walked down the hill to the street and walked up the street to the next driveway. Along that short walk, I saw some plants I've never seen before. I want to go that way again soon and see what kind of flowers will appear. When I walked up the next driveway, I was not out of breathe! The last time I walked up that driveway (at least 2-3 years ago, maybe 5!), I was nearly crawling by the time I reached the cafe! To discover that I was only slightly winded was a wonderful surprise! I grabbed a banana and walked the rest of the way up the hill to my desk. All that walking was only 16 minutes!

So, do I follow through on the "shoulds"? Do I, in the name of taking care of myself, take the rest of the day off? Or is that a convenient sliding back into putting off the rest of today's exercise? I am choose to believe that the growth I've experienced, am experiencing, the support of SparkFriends, etc. will help me stay moving forward after this respite. I will not slide back into the couch potato that I was........

I am frustrated by the fatigue, by the minimal exercise, by the betrayal of my body! And I don't like ending on such a note, but I am too tired to be lucid!

Thank you, SparkFriends! I really need you! emoticon

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MEGANC1988 3/3/2010 12:47PM

    Try making a plan for yourself for the day: I can let myself veg and relax for this 30 minutes, then I'm going to get up and start on my list of to-do's. Before you know it your list will be done and you'll feel so productive!

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An Off Kilter Day & "Outed" as a Person Interested in Losing Weight

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

I started the day as per my new normal with SparkPeople. I begin the day with a lot more energy than I used to. It's still not much, but it is a noticable improvement. But, as the morning wore on, I just felt tired. I didn't feel like walking, it was hard to stay focused at work.

I was supposed to meet a coworker for lunch to talk about running. We're both in Toastmasters and she'd inspired me with a speech about how she began running last year. But I postponed it because a friend said she was going to be around the corner from me and wanted to get together. We had not firmed up a time and so I felt tethered to my desk. I took a shorter walk at lunch than I wanted to just because I thought I saw her car and did not want to miss her.

It was a good thing that I brought some food because the meet never happened. I used to be shy or embarrassed about using my food scale. That's not true any more! People see me using it and it becomes a conversation starter, some times...
I mentioned last week that I'd put a want ad in the company newsletter asking for a pedometer. A friend said that, if she can find hers, I may have it...We'll see.

Oddly, I found myself wanting to eat sugar and salt this afternoon, not literally, but I was thinking about pretzels, chocolate, cookies - all things I would not want to put in my nutrition tracker! I ended up eating half a banana with some chunky peanut butter. It did not satisfy, but, as I was eating it, I realized that I was not "hungry", that I was stressed, bored and tired. I pondered that for a minute, recognized and acknowledged the situation and moved on. This was not a victory, per se, but it is a step forward. I finished the water quotient early in the day.

This evening, I went to school and thought about eating. I had an apple and a small package of trail mix. The trail mix had fewer calories than my usual meal bar, which I had forgotten from my first week on SP.

It turned out that class was cancelled. This means another week's wait to find out about my midterm... I came home, did some chores and made a wonderful dinner. I ended the day within range in all categories. I also had a couple of shorter walks, so, cumulatively, I did get the time in. I did not burn as many calories as I wanted to - my goal this month is a 10% increase over last month.

I saw a SparkPeople blog early this morning that contained a link to a site where a company is matching pounds pledged to money for a food bank. I forget the name of the site, but I signed up and pledged a 30 pound loss. Before I really thought about it, a link was posted on my Facebook page. Astonishingly, I had almost immediate feedback from a couple of people! I guess that means that my losing weight journey is no longer my secret! Part of me is uncomfortable with that, but I am also a little bit freed by being "outed" as it were. Perhaps this is just another aspect of SP and it's not one that I anticipated. Caught by surprise, this will take a bit to absorb, process and integrate into my new self.

Perhaps these are building blocks or baby steps for my inner self. Could it be that getting my life back in shape radiating from food and exercise outwards will enable me to tackle the relationships in my life that are not working, to make the other courageous changes that seem to hover about me?

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NONIE_C 3/2/2010 1:28AM

    Great blog! And I do indeed think that making positive changed in one area of your life inevitably affects other areas in a positive way. In fact, it's one of the tenets that SP is based on. Do you have the book? I'm only on chapter 2, but it's really wonderful. Anyway, it sounds like even in the face of emotionally fueled cravings you made good choices, and even if you didn't quite meet your walking goal for the day, you still got out there and did some (as opposed to couching it), so all in all, you are doing great. And remember, even if you have a day where you don't get any exercise, and eat something not so healthy, you are STILL on the path to a healthier you...
it's sometimes a windy path is all emoticon (he-he)
But today was not THAT day. Today was a day where you made good, healthy choices in the face of adversity and you even had to deal with an event that caught you off guard and you gracefully took it in stride. You've been outted!!! And you are proudly owning it - pounds for food is a wonderful cause and, even if it was not your intention to let everyone know about your journey, you may find unexpected good will come of this. You may inspire others to do the same, or you may find support in places you wouldn't have expected it. But, like I said, and what truly matters, is how you faced it - with grace. Go you!!!!!

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ANNE1123 3/2/2010 1:06AM

    Wow, that was really reflective, thanks for the post, it helped me think, I hope the rest of your week goes well, thanks again!

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