Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Today was a long day...I made it through the day at work and got some good work done, but am drained as I type this. My head cold is centered on my throat and I am tired.
I ate lightly and got in over 8K steps. Not much strength training, either.
My friend Wendy was fired on Monday. (I found out today) My heart breaks for her. I don't know who will take her responsibilities. She was our senior paralegal and handled our IP transactions (patents, trademarks and copyright releases). I hope we will remain in touch...
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Yesterday's HVAC failure at work meant everyone was cold. I woke up with swollen glands and swollen tonsils so I stayed home and slept a lot. Another day of no exercise. Tomorrow I will go back to work and get some steps in...I am really unhappy to have to use a sick day the first week of the year!
I intended to eat lightly today and ended up in midrange. This year has a rough beginning!
On top of everything else, my microwave died this evehing.
Monday, January 03, 2011
A few days ago, I really overdid it housekeeping and hurt myself in some weird spots. My left arm hurts if I move it or attempt to carry anything of any weight. Today, I was glad to get back to walking at work, forgetting that the cafe was closed. I had not brought fruit with me and that made for a hungry day! (I did have some craisins for my cereal, but I missed the banana and apple).
While I was walking, something moved in my left heel, close to the very tender Achilles tendon. That cut short my walk and turned me into a limping mess of pain.
Today was my first day at the VA Toastmaster club as one of their mentors. They welcomed me as if I were a celebrity! What a boost to my ego! The more I interact with these people, the more I like them. One guest castigated the crowd for what he thought was an incorrect definition of the word of the day ("salient"). He went on and on and on. I was amazed. The definition given was correct, as was this guy's. I finally said, "One of the beauties of the English language is that some words have multiple definitions." The meeting did not go smoothly, but they are learning and the rough edges will smooth out. I ended up being away from the office longer than planned, but dealing with the parking situation and walking back to my car (before the heel flared up) helped add to my step total.
No strength training today. Too much pain. This is so frustrating.
Having posted my food for the day, I see again that shrimp is awfully high in cholesterol. Rats!
Today was the first day back at work since before Christmas and all kinds of things were haywire. All the fax machines had been turned off so nothing came through - despite orders to leave them in "sleep" mode. The finance department was really unhappy! One of the elevators had a sign on it that it was not working, so I unhappily took the four flights of stairs. Later, it turned out the elevator was ok. My knee sure was unhappy! The worst thing, however, was that the HVAC units were down. It was COLD in the office all day. Even after facilities sent an email that the problem was fixed, the buildings were cold. The first floor was warmer at 67 degrees. I have no idea how cold it was on the second floor, but it was colder. I never took my jacket off! Watch - tomorrow will be broiling!
I am failing at my exercise goals so far....Discouraging....
Sunday, January 02, 2011
A friend of mine gave me some money for Christmas and I used it at Ross Dress for Less when I found the Fit and Fresh food containers. Tomorrow is the first day of work for the new year, so I prepared my breakfast and lunch tonight (partially). I use a higher fiber vegetable pasta but had never measured it out. I did that tonight out of curiosity. Two ounces of pasta is not very much! And that is 200 calories! Yikes! No wonder my weight loss has been so slow! Just shows that portion distortion is alive and well!
Now I am afraid I will feel hungry despite the veggies and fruit and protein. I have been having too much pasta!
I walked a very little bit today and it felt ok. Tomorrow, I will walk at work and it will be good to be back in that routine. My new walking shoes are already in the car. But it will be a tough day at work. Not just for the work and because it's the first day back since 12/23, but my friend Wendy called this evening to say that she fully expects to be fired tomorrow. I hope she's wrong!
Also looming is my personnel review. Those are never comfortable experiences. My boss is a wonderful man, but he is so busy with big picture stuff that he lost sight of me a long time ago. It does not help that I started reporting to him as a result of a reorganization. I still feel as if I got dumped on him. The other awkward thing is that he is 3 timezones east of me, so the review will be done over the phone and via email...I'm still getting used to how weird long distance reporting is...
This year is not starting well despite my intentions. I have yet to do any meaningful exercise. I could let that fester, but I won't. A new page turns in the morning and I know I will get it done.
Tomorrow is also my first meeting with the VA Toastmaster club as their mentor. I hope I do a good job with them! Years ago, I was a teacher. I was in my early 20s, fresh out of college and scared to death. I was so scared because I know teachers can have a profound impact on students. I was not a good teacher because I had no self confidence. Now, I have some, but is it enough? Will my passion and enthusiasm carry the day?
I am full of self doubt tonight, mostly about my weightloss journey. The funk will pass, but I know I need to do more work.
I am so grateful for SparkPeople and for my Spark Family! I could never adequately express how much this site and you have contributed to my success and to my life. I am richer for these 11 months.
The pasta shocker is just a reminder that there is always something else to learn...
Saturday, January 01, 2011
01/27/10 was the day I finally signed up on SparkPeople. I had found it the week before, poked around and thought about it. Even after signing up, I still did not know much about the journey ahead, all I knew was what had failed or worked only for the short term in the past.
Eleven months later, it's New Year's Eve. Instead of making resolutions, I am making commitments. The difference is not pure semantics. For the past few years, I did not make resolutions because they had never lasted much beyond January 3rd or a week later. Now, I know what the journey is. The goal is not even the achievement of goal weight. That will only be one outward manifestation of the fruits of the journey. By this time next year, I will be some pounds lighter. I will be stronger and I will have integrated exercise into my life. I will have refined my eating habits.
So, for 2011:
I will make exercise a priority
I will make taking care of me a priority
Give myself permission to relax
Give me 8 hours of sleep
Smart food choices are part of taking care of me
The goal is not the scary totality of the pounds I need to lose, it is the new life that being healthy and fit will bring.
Somewhat nebulous and scant on details, but I DO know this is a commitment.
Happy New Year! Welcome the opportunities and victories of 2011!
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