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Pasta Shocker!

Sunday, January 02, 2011

A friend of mine gave me some money for Christmas and I used it at Ross Dress for Less when I found the Fit and Fresh food containers. Tomorrow is the first day of work for the new year, so I prepared my breakfast and lunch tonight (partially). I use a higher fiber vegetable pasta but had never measured it out. I did that tonight out of curiosity. Two ounces of pasta is not very much! And that is 200 calories! Yikes! No wonder my weight loss has been so slow! Just shows that portion distortion is alive and well!

Now I am afraid I will feel hungry despite the veggies and fruit and protein. I have been having too much pasta!

I walked a very little bit today and it felt ok. Tomorrow, I will walk at work and it will be good to be back in that routine. My new walking shoes are already in the car. But it will be a tough day at work. Not just for the work and because it's the first day back since 12/23, but my friend Wendy called this evening to say that she fully expects to be fired tomorrow. I hope she's wrong!

Also looming is my personnel review. Those are never comfortable experiences. My boss is a wonderful man, but he is so busy with big picture stuff that he lost sight of me a long time ago. It does not help that I started reporting to him as a result of a reorganization. I still feel as if I got dumped on him. The other awkward thing is that he is 3 timezones east of me, so the review will be done over the phone and via email...I'm still getting used to how weird long distance reporting is...

This year is not starting well despite my intentions. I have yet to do any meaningful exercise. I could let that fester, but I won't. A new page turns in the morning and I know I will get it done.

Tomorrow is also my first meeting with the VA Toastmaster club as their mentor. I hope I do a good job with them! Years ago, I was a teacher. I was in my early 20s, fresh out of college and scared to death. I was so scared because I know teachers can have a profound impact on students. I was not a good teacher because I had no self confidence. Now, I have some, but is it enough? Will my passion and enthusiasm carry the day?

I am full of self doubt tonight, mostly about my weightloss journey. The funk will pass, but I know I need to do more work.

I am so grateful for SparkPeople and for my Spark Family! I could never adequately express how much this site and you have contributed to my success and to my life. I am richer for these 11 months.

The pasta shocker is just a reminder that there is always something else to learn...

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MYSTERY4EVER 1/3/2011 11:22PM

    Portion control along with the Nutrition Tracker have been the big help for me. It is amazing how a little bit of some foods has a tremendous calorie load. These things all take time. It is good that you got a set of storage containers. That helps in the long run. All the best in the New Year.

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CARRAND 1/3/2011 8:14PM

    I was amazed when I started to measure things like rice. 1/2 cup of rice just isn't much.

I can relate to the work review, too. I had mine in December, and lets just say my manager doesn't appreciate me. She trusts me enough to move me to manage another group that's having problems, which is where I started today. She wants me to clean up.

But, I went to the gym for strength training after work, which I love to do, so that gave me something to look forward to all day.

Hang in there. You're on the right track, and I'm sure you'll get to where you want to be.

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JHADZHIA 1/3/2011 12:12AM

    So you have discovered pasta's secret. I unfortunately loved pasta too much and for sure was in the portion distortion mode. I ended up cutting it mostly out of my diet because it was hard to stop at that tiny 1/2 cup serving, even expaneded with veggies! All I can say is I am glad there is no Olive Garden here, because I sure wouldn't go out to eat there just to have a salad!!!
That is one strange or very large company you work for that your boss is that far away!! But I guess they feel there is no such thing as borders in the modern age of communications. I for one would hate a phone or video conference. I prefer in person dealings.
There is no subsitute for weighing and measuring everything you eat. Its what made the difference in me losing weight (and keeping it off). I still weigh and measure everything. I know I am no good at guessing. Though I am getting more knowledgeable with portion sizes now as I get more experienced at it.
All the best with it, you can do it!!!

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MISSY455 1/2/2011 10:55PM

    emoticon Perhaps you can add in some extra veggies, most are pretty low in calories, until you get used to the portion size of the pasta. I could never figure out the ounce sizes of anything, so I usually just go by the SparkPeople rule of 1/2 cup cooked for starches.

Try to enjoy yourself at the VA Toastmaster club tomorrow! Your passion is amazing!!!

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ETTEZEUS 1/2/2011 10:46PM

    I can soooooo relate to the pasta problem! I normally eat pasta the night before my long runs and I tend to eat 3-4 portions!! Can you believe that???

My portions are way out of control for some things....like 1/4 cup of cashews....who can eat just a 1/4 cup??? What is that, like 4 whole cashews.....LOL

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PEDNURSEMOM 1/2/2011 10:35PM

    I am still trying to figure out portion control. It does seem like some of these serving sizes are small, but I think I'm just used to ones that were too big!

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Instead of Resolutions, Commitments

Saturday, January 01, 2011

01/27/10 was the day I finally signed up on SparkPeople. I had found it the week before, poked around and thought about it. Even after signing up, I still did not know much about the journey ahead, all I knew was what had failed or worked only for the short term in the past.

Eleven months later, it's New Year's Eve. Instead of making resolutions, I am making commitments. The difference is not pure semantics. For the past few years, I did not make resolutions because they had never lasted much beyond January 3rd or a week later. Now, I know what the journey is. The goal is not even the achievement of goal weight. That will only be one outward manifestation of the fruits of the journey. By this time next year, I will be some pounds lighter. I will be stronger and I will have integrated exercise into my life. I will have refined my eating habits.

So, for 2011:
I will make exercise a priority
I will make taking care of me a priority
Give myself permission to relax
Give me 8 hours of sleep
Smart food choices are part of taking care of me

The goal is not the scary totality of the pounds I need to lose, it is the new life that being healthy and fit will bring.

Somewhat nebulous and scant on details, but I DO know this is a commitment.

Happy New Year! Welcome the opportunities and victories of 2011!

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/2/2011 7:29PM

    Great commitments, gorgeous. Rock them!

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CARRAND 1/1/2011 2:24PM

    Great commitments! Taking care of yourself is so important, and that includes the points you hit: eat good foods, take time for exercise, get enough sleep, and find time to relax. I know this will be a great year for you.

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JHADZHIA 1/1/2011 8:54AM

    This sounds fabulous!! These few simple things will do it for you! I wish you all the best sticking to them! This is going to be your year!
All the best in the New Year and always!!

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STEELBUTT 1/1/2011 6:09AM

    Happy New Year I love the new thought to no resolutions and yes to commitments for 2011

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MISSY455 1/1/2011 1:37AM

    emoticon You have already come so far on your journey! Here is too a successful 2011!

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ULEWIJ 1/1/2011 1:27AM

    Go YOU!


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ETTEZEUS 1/1/2011 1:13AM

    I like your commitments!
I know you can keep them.

I don't make resolutions either....after a couple weeks, they are gone like the wind.

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MASAYAMM 1/1/2011 1:11AM

    I like your 2011 goals... Simple and to-the-point! Best of well wishes from Vegas! ~MaSaYa

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Freezing Cold Today!

Friday, December 31, 2010

I am feeling better today, but had absolutely zero energy. I did not move. No exercise at all. The fever has broken, I think and the cough is almost gone.

I accidentally figured out why my broadband access card was not working, It is GREAT to have speed on the internet again! Woohoo! Of course, I feel like an idiot for not knowing the simple fix! At least I did not pay a technician to troubleshoot something...

Tomorrow is supposed to be very cold and, right around midnight, rain. I am not a new years eve person, so I will be home when the storm hits. I pray for those on the road. I once had a conversation with a tow truck driver. Bad weather is very good for their business but he, like I do, always hopes the call is for a fender bender and not injury or death...

Be safe, be wise, be cautious!

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CARRAND 12/31/2010 1:36PM

    We always stay home on New Year's Eve. I am not a late night person anyhow. I hope you are feeling better today and got some exercise in. I went to the gym this morning after breakfast and did strength training for an hour. I really enjoy it. The gym was crowded, but everyone was polite and tending to business.

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MYSTERY4EVER 12/31/2010 10:36AM

    Enjoy your at-home celebration and take care of yourself. All the best for the New Year.

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JHADZHIA 12/31/2010 9:18AM

    Glad you fixed your internet! Enjoy your quiet time at home! Its probably where I will be too as all my relatives are sick and won't be getting together this year..

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ULEWIJ 12/31/2010 2:33AM

    ditto ditto and ditto!
I never go out on new years...amateur night, as people get drunk and act really stupid and a lot of people end up behind the wheel :(
I will be home as well...watching netflix movies, and guess what...probably starting a new knitting project! :)

Happy New Year!

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DWROBERGE 12/31/2010 12:43AM

    Wait around a while, and the weather will change.

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Fitness Buddy Circle & Other Thoughts

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

December 29, 2010
CHAOTICKITTY's birthday!
The 3rd anniversary of my cousin Kirsti's sudden death
Day 4 of my 28 day challenge
Day 1 of the new team "Fitness Buddy Circle"

I was a total couch potato today. When I got up this morning, I was too dizzy to stand and walk. Upper respiratory stuff or a cold. It was windy and rainy today, a good day to be home. I don't breathe easily without coughing.

Kind of ironic that today was a couch potato on a day when I set up the new team for some SP folks who were on a message board yesterday asking for help and wanting a fitness buddy. I have been wanting one for 11 months! I envision this to be a very interactive team where people can encourage each other and nudge each other if we (I) backslide on my exercise commitment. I hope it works out that way. I set it up as a "private" team only because I see so many teams have thousands of members and think that would just be overwhelming...That being said, if you want to join, let me know!

Kirsti was my youngest cousin and was a mother of 3 children. Two are teens now and their loss is still profound. Her youngest was not even 3 when she died and he probably does not remember her well. She died in a solo car accident on her way to work as a security guard at a private prison in a remote part of New Mexico. I don't know the details, but she had struggled with alcohol for a long time (I did not know). She was in the beginning steps of putting her life back together following a bitter divorce, but had an uphill battle. I miss my beautiful cousin. Her sudden death left a hole that cannot be healed.

I stepped on the scale this morning as I lurched about trying to figure out why I felt so weird. It said I have gained 8/10ths of a pound in half a week! Yikes! My lose-a-pound-a-week plan is not going well! I feel a bit panicked. (Short term reaction. I am NOT giving up!)

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LORILYNN101 12/31/2010 9:51PM

    don't feel bad about the weight gain, i am not doing so terrific myself. the new year is a good incentive to push forward. emoticon

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LORILYNN101 12/31/2010 9:51PM

    don't feel bad about the weight gain, i am not doing so terrific myself. the new year is a good incentive to push forward. emoticon

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LORILYNN101 12/31/2010 9:50PM

    don't feel bad about the weight gain, i am not doing so terrific myself. the new year is a good incentive to push forward. emoticon

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CARRAND 12/30/2010 7:46PM

    Don't worry about the small weight gain. In the long run you can do this if you don't give up.

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MYSTERY4EVER 12/30/2010 4:47PM

    I hope you are feeling better. Sometimes when I have a cold or viral thing, I seem to retain more water. Hopefully it will go right away when you are feeling better.

Congrats on your new team. It is good that you are stepping up for what you need. Keep up the good work.

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ROX2013 12/30/2010 12:09AM

    Glad you found a name and got your team started. I am looking forward to meeting a "bubby" here in my area soon. Be careful of the "cold" that is going around half my family is getting over it and the other half is starting it. I am getting to the over part. They say starting this weekend our temps are going to be in the 50's (believe it when I see it), but hope it is true so I can get some outside walking done. Don't worry about the weigh gain like anji_rae said there are alot of things that can throw off the scale. I am sorry for your loss and remember the good times sometimes helps. emoticon

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MISSY455 12/30/2010 12:04AM

    Congrats on setting up the fitness team. I had been in a real exercise rut for a couple of months, and my health care professionals weren't much help. My primary doctor told me to quit walking for a couple of months, and then sent me to Physical therapy. The PT guy told me to quit (permanently) some of the machines at Curves because of the injury to my back. I was starting to really make excuses for not exercising nearly as much as I needed too. I joined the 5% Winter Challenge and the accountability to the team has really helped keep me motivated. I hope the "Fitness Buddies" do the same for you!

I agree with ANJI you can't let mid-week weight fluctuations upset you, too many variables especially when you aren't feeling well. I hope you feel better tomorrow!
emoticon Margie

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ANJI_RAE 12/29/2010 11:45PM

    That's great that you found a fitness buddy! I'm sorry about your cousin. Try not to panic about the small weight gain: when you're sick your body can retain excess water (edema) from the sickness itself plus medicine, so it can do wacky things on the scale. Take care and feel better!

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Eyes, Calories and Not Enough Steps

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Day 3 of my 28 day plan. I "saved" 180 calories by not eating them and burned either 150 or 88 depending on if you believe the SP site or my pedometer. Either way, I did not function at a 500 calorie deficit, which is what I need to do every day in order to lose a pound a week.

I am not as sore as I thought I would be after yesterday's fall, but I sure am stiff. Tomorrow, the rain should diminish, so I will need to get some compensatory exercise in.

I went to a new eye doctor today and had the most thorough exam I can ever remember having. I had lots of eye exams as a child because I was born with crossed eyes. But, this was the best I have had as an adult. I have not ordered the new glasses yet - that will wait until next year (next week or so) when my new FSA funds kick in. They want to send in the pair I am wearing so the lab can do something comparative. I've never had that happen before and don't completely understand, but I'll cross that bridge later. I actually had no real problem with the puff test. They tested my peripheral vision twice - once the tech and the doctor did it the second time, using an eye patch. I did much better the second time. They also took a picture of my eyes (in lieu of dilation) and that was interesting. I gave both techs fits because I am a fast blinker and they had trouble getting good pictures. But the doc was pleased to see the blood vessels and the optic nerve. He is a bit concerned about the total health, but it's not an emergency. He wrote a scrip for me to see an opthamalogist through my health insurance just to rule out any problems he could not see. My grandmother had cataracts, so I am glad to so far receive a clean bill of health in that regard.

I'm contemplating dropping some teams and joining others. Thinking about it...I was on a message board earlier today where several SP folks expressed a desire for fitness buddies. I emailed them and asked if they would like to form a team. The answers were universally affirmative but no one had an idea for a name. I am the kind of person who thinks of a name and only LATER comes up with a better one.

So I throw it out there to my SP family: what names could you suggest?! Something fun, something descriptive, something that will bring these people together to give and get support.

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CARRAND 12/29/2010 8:27PM

    I'm never sure how many calories I've burned. My treadmill says one thing, then SP says something else. I guess my body figures it out. Let me know if you start a new team.

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BIKERBABE2BE 12/29/2010 3:30PM

    Let me know if you form a team. I'm looking for some new things in 2011.

Glad you found a good eye doctor. My husband has glaucoma and my Mom has macular degeneration. They would both have benefited from better care earlier on.

Happy New Year!

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JHADZHIA 12/29/2010 12:57PM

    Glad you had a good eye Dr. appt. Lucky you having only photos, I always get the dilation, but then I see an opthalmologist and he has to check my eyes out thoroughly as RA can get in them.
Fitness Friends Forever. After all it has to be a lifetime commitment to a healthy lifestyle in order to lose the weight and keep it off. Good luck with it, hope it flies!

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EAGLE101 12/29/2010 8:27AM

    Sounds liuke a productive trip to the eye doctor. I'd like to know more about the pictures in lieu of dilation. I HATE THAT! Beside I'm always alone when I go and have to drive home. Then I sleep for couple of hours. It weaqrs me out!

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