Sunday, January 02, 2011
A friend of mine gave me some money for Christmas and I used it at Ross Dress for Less when I found the Fit and Fresh food containers. Tomorrow is the first day of work for the new year, so I prepared my breakfast and lunch tonight (partially). I use a higher fiber vegetable pasta but had never measured it out. I did that tonight out of curiosity. Two ounces of pasta is not very much! And that is 200 calories! Yikes! No wonder my weight loss has been so slow! Just shows that portion distortion is alive and well!
Now I am afraid I will feel hungry despite the veggies and fruit and protein. I have been having too much pasta!
I walked a very little bit today and it felt ok. Tomorrow, I will walk at work and it will be good to be back in that routine. My new walking shoes are already in the car. But it will be a tough day at work. Not just for the work and because it's the first day back since 12/23, but my friend Wendy called this evening to say that she fully expects to be fired tomorrow. I hope she's wrong!
Also looming is my personnel review. Those are never comfortable experiences. My boss is a wonderful man, but he is so busy with big picture stuff that he lost sight of me a long time ago. It does not help that I started reporting to him as a result of a reorganization. I still feel as if I got dumped on him. The other awkward thing is that he is 3 timezones east of me, so the review will be done over the phone and via email...I'm still getting used to how weird long distance reporting is...
This year is not starting well despite my intentions. I have yet to do any meaningful exercise. I could let that fester, but I won't. A new page turns in the morning and I know I will get it done.
Tomorrow is also my first meeting with the VA Toastmaster club as their mentor. I hope I do a good job with them! Years ago, I was a teacher. I was in my early 20s, fresh out of college and scared to death. I was so scared because I know teachers can have a profound impact on students. I was not a good teacher because I had no self confidence. Now, I have some, but is it enough? Will my passion and enthusiasm carry the day?
I am full of self doubt tonight, mostly about my weightloss journey. The funk will pass, but I know I need to do more work.
I am so grateful for SparkPeople and for my Spark Family! I could never adequately express how much this site and you have contributed to my success and to my life. I am richer for these 11 months.
The pasta shocker is just a reminder that there is always something else to learn...
Saturday, January 01, 2011
01/27/10 was the day I finally signed up on SparkPeople. I had found it the week before, poked around and thought about it. Even after signing up, I still did not know much about the journey ahead, all I knew was what had failed or worked only for the short term in the past.
Eleven months later, it's New Year's Eve. Instead of making resolutions, I am making commitments. The difference is not pure semantics. For the past few years, I did not make resolutions because they had never lasted much beyond January 3rd or a week later. Now, I know what the journey is. The goal is not even the achievement of goal weight. That will only be one outward manifestation of the fruits of the journey. By this time next year, I will be some pounds lighter. I will be stronger and I will have integrated exercise into my life. I will have refined my eating habits.
So, for 2011:
I will make exercise a priority
I will make taking care of me a priority
Give myself permission to relax
Give me 8 hours of sleep
Smart food choices are part of taking care of me
The goal is not the scary totality of the pounds I need to lose, it is the new life that being healthy and fit will bring.
Somewhat nebulous and scant on details, but I DO know this is a commitment.
Happy New Year! Welcome the opportunities and victories of 2011!
Friday, December 31, 2010
I am feeling better today, but had absolutely zero energy. I did not move. No exercise at all. The fever has broken, I think and the cough is almost gone.
I accidentally figured out why my broadband access card was not working, It is GREAT to have speed on the internet again! Woohoo! Of course, I feel like an idiot for not knowing the simple fix! At least I did not pay a technician to troubleshoot something...
Tomorrow is supposed to be very cold and, right around midnight, rain. I am not a new years eve person, so I will be home when the storm hits. I pray for those on the road. I once had a conversation with a tow truck driver. Bad weather is very good for their business but he, like I do, always hopes the call is for a fender bender and not injury or death...
Be safe, be wise, be cautious!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Day 3 of my 28 day plan. I "saved" 180 calories by not eating them and burned either 150 or 88 depending on if you believe the SP site or my pedometer. Either way, I did not function at a 500 calorie deficit, which is what I need to do every day in order to lose a pound a week.
I am not as sore as I thought I would be after yesterday's fall, but I sure am stiff. Tomorrow, the rain should diminish, so I will need to get some compensatory exercise in.
I went to a new eye doctor today and had the most thorough exam I can ever remember having. I had lots of eye exams as a child because I was born with crossed eyes. But, this was the best I have had as an adult. I have not ordered the new glasses yet - that will wait until next year (next week or so) when my new FSA funds kick in. They want to send in the pair I am wearing so the lab can do something comparative. I've never had that happen before and don't completely understand, but I'll cross that bridge later. I actually had no real problem with the puff test. They tested my peripheral vision twice - once the tech and the doctor did it the second time, using an eye patch. I did much better the second time. They also took a picture of my eyes (in lieu of dilation) and that was interesting. I gave both techs fits because I am a fast blinker and they had trouble getting good pictures. But the doc was pleased to see the blood vessels and the optic nerve. He is a bit concerned about the total health, but it's not an emergency. He wrote a scrip for me to see an opthamalogist through my health insurance just to rule out any problems he could not see. My grandmother had cataracts, so I am glad to so far receive a clean bill of health in that regard.
I'm contemplating dropping some teams and joining others. Thinking about it...I was on a message board earlier today where several SP folks expressed a desire for fitness buddies. I emailed them and asked if they would like to form a team. The answers were universally affirmative but no one had an idea for a name. I am the kind of person who thinks of a name and only LATER comes up with a better one.
So I throw it out there to my SP family: what names could you suggest?! Something fun, something descriptive, something that will bring these people together to give and get support.
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