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It Feels as if I Have Made a Leap Forward

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Feeling better really agrees with me! I feel better today than I have felt for a very long time. I had been feeling bored, drained, tired and run down long before I got the migraine and cold last week. I had not realized how badly I felt until I realized how wonderful I feel today.

I was in a different mood this morning and, when I headed to the cafe for my morning beverage, I actually jogged part of the way. Then I walked and when I reached the downhill part, I jogged there, too. It was a gorgeous morning, soft fall air that I love and I realized that I might fall at the bottom because I was running pretty fast. But I did not fall. I was out of breath afterwards, but it felt so good! It was fun! Yes, I was self conscious about jogging in my work clothes, but part of me also did not care. Instead of coffee or diet soda, I tried a new tea. It was decaf, but that was not the number one criteria. I wanted to try something new and did I ever. It was a lemon ginger tea that was really, really flavorful! I really enjoyed it!

I have spent the bulk of the last two days working on one stack of files on my desk. When I left today, 95% was completed, off my desk and filed. Wow! I have not felt that wonderful feeling of a good day's work in a long time! I also discovered a couple of oversights and set things in motion to get them corrected.

My attorney did not add anything to my plate yesterday. In fact, she took one thing off when I told her about the big project for the company's top attorney. I feel badly that I did not execute the work she needed done, but I thanked her for the adjustment.

Today, I was way over in calcium. I am usually under, so I was really surprised. When I looked at the full report, I saw it was because of the hot and sour tofu soup I had at lunch. I had no idea tofu had calcium!

People have been commenting about how much weight I have lost. Nice to hear and I always thank them for the compliment, but 22 maybe 23 pounds this year is not a lot. When I started at the end of January, I naively set my goal date for Sept 3 and then, later, the end of the year. Then I had that long plateau and pushed it to the end of next year. I am now thinking that may even be too soon! Still, even if I lose "only" 20 pounds a year and it takes me four years to lose the entire tonnage, if, along the way, I am changing my life, my habits and those pounds never come back, it will be worth it. If my length and quality of life are improved when I am no longer morbidly obese, it will be worth it.

My clothes sure feel looser today, even though I told BF this morning that I felt bloated and huge. I stepped on the scale after 2 glasses of water and a shower just out of curiosity. I read an article on SP yesterday that said to weigh more often than once a week in order to change things more quickly. I don't know about that, but I was curious. I forget what the number was, but it was either half a pound or more than a pound down from last Saturday. We shall see.

Nonie_C reminded me today is the day to do the update for the holiday challenge:

IT'S TIME FOR ACCOUNTABILITY AND CHECKING IN ON GOALS. THIS PAST WEEK I MET MY SHORT-TERM/DAILY GOALS

~ drinking 8-10 glasses of water a day
~beginning my day with uplifting thoughts
~planning my food and (mostly) staying in range
~keep exercising
~keep sugary snacks out of my life (except on an "occasion")
~do my charity walk on Nov 20th - still in the plan!

LARGER "SPECIAL EVENT" GOALS
~send out Thanksgiving letters - composed in my head but not written yet
~send out Christmas cards *before* Christmas
~index my Will Clark cards - 75% done
~clear out my closet and donate those larger clothes - not started

TO ENSURE I STAY ON TRACK NEXT WEEK, I WILL stick to the plan. We are not hosting nor attending a Thanksgiving meal, so it will not be hard! What I will have to watch is not compensating for the absence of celebration by stuffing with the foods of my childhood Thanksgiving meals.

TO ENSURE I STAY ON TRACK AND DO THE WORK I MUST TO ACHIEVE THESE LONG-TERM GOALS, I WILL keep doing what I am doing. I have a lot of work stuff happening and know I cannot handle much more now!

QUESTION FOR THE WEEK:
WHAT ARE THE CERTAIN TRIGGERS THAT WILL COME WITH THANKSGIVING, AND HOW CAN THEY BE CONFRONTED AND CONQUERED?
I have to watch for the sense of deprivation - not having turkey, trimmings, mincemeat pie with sharp Cheddar cheese. My plan is to have a wonderful meal with BF that is somewhat special but allows me to stay on track.

  
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CMRAND54 11/18/2010 10:10PM

    You sound great, and so positive, and that's good to hear.
Just keep doing what you're doing.

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LIBBYFITZ 11/18/2010 3:10PM

    emoticonSo glad you are finally feeling better, it has been a long haul for you. Good on you for that jog down the hill! emoticon emoticon

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JHADZHIA 11/18/2010 12:20PM

    Wow!! This is fabulous!! Well done!! Welcome back the real you!! The go getter who is going to rock her program!!
Ginger tea is one of my favorites :) Tea doesn't have to be boring, lots of exciting flavors to explore! Grating fresh ginger in it and lemon peel will give it extra zing. I have never drunk coffee, can't stand it, and gave up pop long ago. All I drink is soy milk and water, but to give myself something warm in our long, bitterly cold winters, I got into herbal teas, and boy, was I glad to!
Good luck with this challenge, you can do it!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/18/2010 10:20AM

  It's great to read that you're in a much happier mind set. :-)

Congrats on all the weight you have lost! :-)

Love the "send out christmas cards *before* christmas" part. ;-)


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MYSTERY4EVER 11/18/2010 10:05AM

    I am so happy you are feeling better. Yesterday sounds like a great day. Twenty pounds is a real accomplishment. Be proud of it. Goals are just that - goals. It is your accomplishments that speak for you. You have had a significant weight loss. You are changing your lifestyle. Those are real; be proud of them.

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VICD25 11/18/2010 8:25AM

    WoW! You sound like a whole other person. I'm so glad for you. Love the jogging spirit!

Congrats on your weight loss. If you are not feeling proud with 23lbs. try going to the grocery store and pick up 20lbs of flour/ lard/ potatoes/ etc. That will make you realize just how far you have come!!

I hope you address Thanksgiving with the plan to eat everything you want but in moderation. It's so much easier than just avoiding all the good things you like. . .

Remember the 3 bite rule. (I can't find it now, but will e-mail it to you when I get it from CAROLYN 1314). In essence it's 3 bites of anything you want so you don't fee deprived!

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Connectivity Issues Have Kept Me on the Down-Low!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

For the last few nights, I have been unable to use the internet at home. I can get on, but the pages won't load. My wireless broadband card gets really hot. I am going to buy one of those cooling things for my laptop and see if that helps. Otherwise, I will be on the phone with my provider instead of on the internet. Thus, a short and early blog now.

Fundraising for Saturday's walk continues. I am humbled and pleased by my coworkers who have chosen to donate. Everyone expresses suprise tinged with doubt that I can do this. I have no doubt, though this recent energy drain of cold / sinus infection / migraine has me wondering just a tad.

I am working on a special project for my lead attorney and the rest of my job is very active, so I am so far from bored it is not funny! HA!

Cyberhugs to Chaotickitty on the disappointing and scary news that her hubby got laid off. I could not get to her page to post any supportive comments and *hope* she does not think my silence was ominous!

Congrats to Nonie_C for landing the job!

The world is full of good if we only choose to see it...

  
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JAKEANDNELLIE 11/17/2010 6:01PM

    I just read an idea you might want to try - it was to buy two inexpensive doorstops - the ones shaped like a wedge that you slip under the door - and put them under your laptop so air can circulate and the laptop will stay cooler. I don't know if it would work or not or yours, but it might be worth a try.
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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/17/2010 12:12PM

  emoticon ... You have been there *FOREVER* for me... so I know that you care without having to comment on my blogs. And, I do appreciate when you do comment on them too. ;-)

I have a *lot* of computer problems... and, I don't like em' either. In fact... my laptop died... and I'm on my husbands now... LOL! Ugh.

Hope you feel better before your walk.

Take care of yourself and get plenty of rest.

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/17/2010 9:12AM

    Yuck, I hate compute problems. I am so glad your co-workers are stepping up and that you are in the right frame of mind to step out on Saturday. Keep up the good spirits.

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MISSY455 11/16/2010 10:20PM

    I am hoping you will be fully recovered for your walk on Saturday. You should be so proud of yourself for taking this step! Let us know all about it when you can :-)

My laptop wouldn't load either at one point. I ended up placing it on top of a plastic cube where it could get air circulating under it. That helped a lot. Hopefully you will get it straightened out soon.
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CMRAND54 11/16/2010 9:18PM

    I have no patience with computer problems. I really feel for you. Congrats on the fund raising. I am confident you will be ready for this walk.

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JHADZHIA 11/16/2010 9:07PM

    Hopefully, you will be fully recovered from your illness by the time this race comes around.. You will show them!
Have you thought of using a wire for your computer until you can get the hot card problem solved (never heard of that one before). It would be an easy stopgap measure..
Feel better soon..

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Another Couch Potato Day

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Another day of doing almost nothing. I felt worse today than I did yesterday. The lingering lack of energy is driving me nuts and is something I am not used to experiencing. I was very often tired when I worked 2 jobs and went to school, but this kind of fatigue is different. It is draining me physically and mentally.

Tomorrow will be better!

Sleep well, SparkFriends!

  
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AJEAN_56 11/16/2010 1:55AM

    Like everyone else is saying, get some rest. Sometimes we need more than we realize and your body knows it. Take care and hope you feel better! emoticon

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LIBBYFITZ 11/15/2010 6:36PM

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    Hugs and smiles to you! I always enjoy reading your blogs even when you have a tiring and uneventful day. emoticon

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/15/2010 8:59AM

    Happy Monday. I hope you got a good night's rest. Make that a priority for the whole week. You have a big week this week and will need your rest. Don't worry about leaving points on the table. They are virtual; your need for rest is real.

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CMRAND54 11/15/2010 6:48AM

    Your body must be fighting something off. Get some rest and hope for a better week ahead.

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JHADZHIA 11/15/2010 12:04AM

    You needed a rest. Aim for a good night's sleep..
I hope you feel better tomorrow!
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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/14/2010 11:45PM

  Tomorrow WILL be better. Get some sleep.

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Not Very Productive Today

Saturday, November 13, 2010

I did not walk much today and did not do any other exercise. I ate sparingly, but I feel much better than I have for at least a week. Did the weekly grocery shopping, so I am home for the rest of the weekend unless I choose to go somewhere.

The upcoming week will be hectic. Overtime on the special project for the top attorney, overtime on the ongoing project and a lot of work during the normal workday. The auditors will be here starting Monday until almost Christmas for the first part of their work. Then I think they come back for a couple of months in winter.

I also have two meetings offsite next week, so there will be some unusual elements to the week. I feel completely overwhelmed at work! But I am not giving in to the stress by stuffing my face!

The scale showed I lost 3 pounds. I am sure most of that is because of the cold this past week. I am feeling much better, so I am not putting a lot of credence to the number this morning.

I could not log in last night so I left a lot of point on the table. That was frustrating. I tossed and turned last night, thinking about work, thinking about the computer issues, all kinds of things.

  
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MYSTERY4EVER 11/14/2010 3:47PM

    Three pounds is nothing to "sneeze" at. You earned it by eating right and taking care of your body when it needed it. You could have stuffed your face while you were sick, but you didn't. You have wisely set your food up for next week.

It is going to be a big week for you capped by the walk. But you have the tools to do it all. Have a great week!

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CMRAND54 11/14/2010 3:15PM

    Celebrate that 3 pound weight loss! I'm sure you've earned it somewhere along the line. I wonder why we get so upset if the scale shows a 3 pound gain, but don't believe a 3 pound loss?
You sure will be busy this winter at work. At least your cold is almost gone.

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ULEWIJ 11/14/2010 2:05PM

    I know what you mean about seeing the pound difference and not having that same feeling as if you worked out and had that same loss. At least there is no going up on that scale!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/14/2010 7:57AM

  wow.. congrats on the 3 pounds. sorry you lost it by feeling sick though. :( good to hear that you're feeling better. :)

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MISSY455 11/14/2010 12:25AM

    I am glad you are starting to feel a little better. You can catch up on the exercising once you are 100%. You are probably right that part of the weight loss was from not feeling well, but still you should feel good about the 3 pounds showing GONE on the scale today!

I hope you can get some much needed sleep tonight.
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JHADZHIA 11/14/2010 12:22AM

    Sorry you are having such a rough go of it. It was frustrating when they shut Sparks down for maintenance, but probably overdue as lots were having issues with it. I hope this weekend gives you some recovery and recooperating time. Try to relax and enjoy the calm before the storm..
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MOMMA_BEAR_69 11/14/2010 12:21AM

    Congratulations on your 3 pounds lost this week. Sounds like you have a lot going on in your life that causes excessive stress. Sorry you are stressing but it sounds like you are not stress eating and that is emoticon!!
Praying for you that you can continue to handle the stress. Keep up the great work!!!
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Veterans Day 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

It was a good thing I went to work today and cancelled my vacation day (and, yes, I did honor our veterans). I wore my aloha shirt that I bought aboard USS Midway and wore my USS Enterprise ball cap. My brother served on "Big E" and when he came home from Afghanistan, he came through San Diego and we went on the tour of the USS Midway together.

I got the urgent project completed for my boss and found out that our top attorney (Sr VP, second only to the CEO) needed my help on a new special project. I had told my coworker across the country who is a paralegal that I seldom get to do paralegal work. The project fits the bill, so I am thrilled. The overtime will be nice, too!

Today was the holiday potluck in the Finance Department. When I was invited weeks ago, I declined because I was going to have the day off. I went in to work having forgotten about it. I was in a teleconference until well after the time the meal celebration started; I had not brought anything to share; I hate to walk in to anything late and, most of all, I did not need the temptation of all that food. I happily ate the broccoli and chicken I brought and got ready for my meeting about the special project. I was proud of myself for not giving in to the cakes, cookies and everything else! I won today!

All in all, even though it was not the day I wanted, it was a very good day!

Here's my update on the ongoing challege (week 2):

THANKSGIVING IS A MERE TWO WEEKS AWAY, SO IT'S TIME TO MAKE A PLAN OF ACTION.
SHORT-TERM/DAILY GOALS:::
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF [drinking 8-10 glasses of water a day] I WILL [carry my water bottle around with me wherever I go/whatever I do].

IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF exercise, I WILL seek every opportunity to me! No shortcuts! And, on the 20th, I am doing the fundraiser walk!

IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF [staying in my calorie range] I WILL [enter food in my nutrition tracker at every meal. If an opportunity to eat differently presents itself, I will take the time to look online and learn how I can handle it (if it can be handled). If it cannot be handled, I will seriously think about the choice before I make it.

LONG-TERM "SPECIAL EVENT" GOALS:::
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF getting my cards out, I will work up a plan to draft the letter over Thanksgiving weekend, address the cards the following weekend and mail them then!

IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF cleaning my office, I will spend 15 minutes on it every day until it is done.

IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF decluttering my house, I will spend an hour every weekend on it until I feel at peace with it.

ALSO, I WILL CREATE A "HOLIDAY GAME PLAN" TO HELP ME for the inevitable goodies at work and lunches out. Part of that is planning, part of it is having fruit and other "safe" foods around me. I am going to find my pottery turtle and put it next to my computer at work to remind me of this journey every day.

QUESTION FOR THE WEEK:
WHY IS IT IMPORTANT TO ACHIEVE THE GOALS I'VE SET FOR THIS HOLIDAY CHALLENGE?
For the first time in my life, I'm more motivated to reach my goals than I am fearful of reaching them.willing to "go with the flow" and be complacent about "the season." I am going forward. I am not going back. I mean that I can't (nor would I want to) unlearn what I've learned over this past year. I have said that I am on this journey because I am concerned about my length of and quality of life. I MUST put my money where my mouth is and act on that. It is important for me to achieve the goals I've set for this holiday challenge, because they are simply part of the process of moving forward.

BONUS ACTIVITY: between now and next Wednesday, check in with someone, either in this challenge or among your Spark Friends. See how they're doing on meeting their short-term goals, and let them know where you're at too. CREATE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR YOURSELF!

Kudos to NONIE_C for launching the challenge and thanks to her for most of this blog.

  
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NONIE_C 11/17/2010 12:37AM

    Your goals are achievable, your attitude is fantabulous, and you have a game plan!!!
GO YOU! GO YOU! GO YOU!


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CMRAND54 11/12/2010 10:17PM

    Great blog. You've really got the right attitude!

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/12/2010 10:26AM

    I am so happy for you. You sound much better. Good that you on focusing on your goals - that is how you reach them. Have a great weekend.

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MISSY455 11/11/2010 10:38PM

    emoticon Your goals are well defined, definitely the first step in getting them accomplished! You have laid out your plan very well. I know you will succeed!!!
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