Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Feeling better really agrees with me! I feel better today than I have felt for a very long time. I had been feeling bored, drained, tired and run down long before I got the migraine and cold last week. I had not realized how badly I felt until I realized how wonderful I feel today.
I was in a different mood this morning and, when I headed to the cafe for my morning beverage, I actually jogged part of the way. Then I walked and when I reached the downhill part, I jogged there, too. It was a gorgeous morning, soft fall air that I love and I realized that I might fall at the bottom because I was running pretty fast. But I did not fall. I was out of breath afterwards, but it felt so good! It was fun! Yes, I was self conscious about jogging in my work clothes, but part of me also did not care. Instead of coffee or diet soda, I tried a new tea. It was decaf, but that was not the number one criteria. I wanted to try something new and did I ever. It was a lemon ginger tea that was really, really flavorful! I really enjoyed it!
I have spent the bulk of the last two days working on one stack of files on my desk. When I left today, 95% was completed, off my desk and filed. Wow! I have not felt that wonderful feeling of a good day's work in a long time! I also discovered a couple of oversights and set things in motion to get them corrected.
My attorney did not add anything to my plate yesterday. In fact, she took one thing off when I told her about the big project for the company's top attorney. I feel badly that I did not execute the work she needed done, but I thanked her for the adjustment.
Today, I was way over in calcium. I am usually under, so I was really surprised. When I looked at the full report, I saw it was because of the hot and sour tofu soup I had at lunch. I had no idea tofu had calcium!
People have been commenting about how much weight I have lost. Nice to hear and I always thank them for the compliment, but 22 maybe 23 pounds this year is not a lot. When I started at the end of January, I naively set my goal date for Sept 3 and then, later, the end of the year. Then I had that long plateau and pushed it to the end of next year. I am now thinking that may even be too soon! Still, even if I lose "only" 20 pounds a year and it takes me four years to lose the entire tonnage, if, along the way, I am changing my life, my habits and those pounds never come back, it will be worth it. If my length and quality of life are improved when I am no longer morbidly obese, it will be worth it.
My clothes sure feel looser today, even though I told BF this morning that I felt bloated and huge. I stepped on the scale after 2 glasses of water and a shower just out of curiosity. I read an article on SP yesterday that said to weigh more often than once a week in order to change things more quickly. I don't know about that, but I was curious. I forget what the number was, but it was either half a pound or more than a pound down from last Saturday. We shall see.
Nonie_C reminded me today is the day to do the update for the holiday challenge:
IT'S TIME FOR ACCOUNTABILITY AND CHECKING IN ON GOALS. THIS PAST WEEK I MET MY SHORT-TERM/DAILY GOALS
~ drinking 8-10 glasses of water a day
~beginning my day with uplifting thoughts
~planning my food and (mostly) staying in range
~keep sugary snacks out of my life (except on an "occasion")
~do my charity walk on Nov 20th - still in the plan!
LARGER "SPECIAL EVENT" GOALS
~send out Thanksgiving letters - composed in my head but not written yet
~send out Christmas cards *before* Christmas
~index my Will Clark cards - 75% done
~clear out my closet and donate those larger clothes - not started
TO ENSURE I STAY ON TRACK NEXT WEEK, I WILL stick to the plan. We are not hosting nor attending a Thanksgiving meal, so it will not be hard! What I will have to watch is not compensating for the absence of celebration by stuffing with the foods of my childhood Thanksgiving meals.
TO ENSURE I STAY ON TRACK AND DO THE WORK I MUST TO ACHIEVE THESE LONG-TERM GOALS, I WILL keep doing what I am doing. I have a lot of work stuff happening and know I cannot handle much more now!
QUESTION FOR THE WEEK:
WHAT ARE THE CERTAIN TRIGGERS THAT WILL COME WITH THANKSGIVING, AND HOW CAN THEY BE CONFRONTED AND CONQUERED?
I have to watch for the sense of deprivation - not having turkey, trimmings, mincemeat pie with sharp Cheddar cheese. My plan is to have a wonderful meal with BF that is somewhat special but allows me to stay on track.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Another day of doing almost nothing. I felt worse today than I did yesterday. The lingering lack of energy is driving me nuts and is something I am not used to experiencing. I was very often tired when I worked 2 jobs and went to school, but this kind of fatigue is different. It is draining me physically and mentally.
Tomorrow will be better!
Sleep well, SparkFriends!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
I did not walk much today and did not do any other exercise. I ate sparingly, but I feel much better than I have for at least a week. Did the weekly grocery shopping, so I am home for the rest of the weekend unless I choose to go somewhere.
The upcoming week will be hectic. Overtime on the special project for the top attorney, overtime on the ongoing project and a lot of work during the normal workday. The auditors will be here starting Monday until almost Christmas for the first part of their work. Then I think they come back for a couple of months in winter.
I also have two meetings offsite next week, so there will be some unusual elements to the week. I feel completely overwhelmed at work! But I am not giving in to the stress by stuffing my face!
The scale showed I lost 3 pounds. I am sure most of that is because of the cold this past week. I am feeling much better, so I am not putting a lot of credence to the number this morning.
I could not log in last night so I left a lot of point on the table. That was frustrating. I tossed and turned last night, thinking about work, thinking about the computer issues, all kinds of things.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
It was a good thing I went to work today and cancelled my vacation day (and, yes, I did honor our veterans). I wore my aloha shirt that I bought aboard USS Midway and wore my USS Enterprise ball cap. My brother served on "Big E" and when he came home from Afghanistan, he came through San Diego and we went on the tour of the USS Midway together.
I got the urgent project completed for my boss and found out that our top attorney (Sr VP, second only to the CEO) needed my help on a new special project. I had told my coworker across the country who is a paralegal that I seldom get to do paralegal work. The project fits the bill, so I am thrilled. The overtime will be nice, too!
Today was the holiday potluck in the Finance Department. When I was invited weeks ago, I declined because I was going to have the day off. I went in to work having forgotten about it. I was in a teleconference until well after the time the meal celebration started; I had not brought anything to share; I hate to walk in to anything late and, most of all, I did not need the temptation of all that food. I happily ate the broccoli and chicken I brought and got ready for my meeting about the special project. I was proud of myself for not giving in to the cakes, cookies and everything else! I won today!
All in all, even though it was not the day I wanted, it was a very good day!
Here's my update on the ongoing challege (week 2):
THANKSGIVING IS A MERE TWO WEEKS AWAY, SO IT'S TIME TO MAKE A PLAN OF ACTION.
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF [drinking 8-10 glasses of water a day] I WILL [carry my water bottle around with me wherever I go/whatever I do].
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF exercise, I WILL seek every opportunity to me! No shortcuts! And, on the 20th, I am doing the fundraiser walk!
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF [staying in my calorie range] I WILL [enter food in my nutrition tracker at every meal. If an opportunity to eat differently presents itself, I will take the time to look online and learn how I can handle it (if it can be handled). If it cannot be handled, I will seriously think about the choice before I make it.
LONG-TERM "SPECIAL EVENT" GOALS:::
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF getting my cards out, I will work up a plan to draft the letter over Thanksgiving weekend, address the cards the following weekend and mail them then!
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF cleaning my office, I will spend 15 minutes on it every day until it is done.
IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF decluttering my house, I will spend an hour every weekend on it until I feel at peace with it.
ALSO, I WILL CREATE A "HOLIDAY GAME PLAN" TO HELP ME for the inevitable goodies at work and lunches out. Part of that is planning, part of it is having fruit and other "safe" foods around me. I am going to find my pottery turtle and put it next to my computer at work to remind me of this journey every day.
QUESTION FOR THE WEEK:
WHY IS IT IMPORTANT TO ACHIEVE THE GOALS I'VE SET FOR THIS HOLIDAY CHALLENGE?
For the first time in my life, I'm more motivated to reach my goals than I am fearful of reaching them.willing to "go with the flow" and be complacent about "the season." I am going forward. I am not going back. I mean that I can't (nor would I want to) unlearn what I've learned over this past year. I have said that I am on this journey because I am concerned about my length of and quality of life. I MUST put my money where my mouth is and act on that. It is important for me to achieve the goals I've set for this holiday challenge, because they are simply part of the process of moving forward.
BONUS ACTIVITY: between now and next Wednesday, check in with someone, either in this challenge or among your Spark Friends. See how they're doing on meeting their short-term goals, and let them know where you're at too. CREATE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR YOURSELF!
Kudos to NONIE_C for launching the challenge and thanks to her for most of this blog.
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