Sunday, November 07, 2010
I could have just as easily titled this blog "I don't wanna!" but Dad would roll over in his grave at that kind of sloppy English!
I mentioned yesterday that the scale was unkind to me. That really surprisedme.
The migraine + sinus + tinnitis are unrelenting, though they have decreased.
Tomorrow will be "work" but I am glad to have my job.
Tomorrow will also be "work" because I do not feel like eating right, caring about choices, water, exercise, the whole ball of wax.
But, neither do I want to see this reversal continue.
I will continue on, but it will feel like "work" until I recover my mental and emotional equilibrium.
Thanks, everyone, for the comments and encouragement. My well is dry and I cannot yet reciprocate, but my silence is not because your touches are not appreciated.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
I stepped on the scale and was stunned to see it back up again. First time it was up about 2.5 and when I repositioned the scale, it was up even more. Stunned. So much for feeling thinner this week!
I have not been as active, so I am sure that is a large part of it. I was very inactive today. The headache is mostly gone, but, if I move around, the nausea and other unpleasant feelings come back. I am chafing about this. Not at all happy. The tinnitis is quieter, but it is still constant....
Friday, November 05, 2010
I still have my headache, I still have the sinus issue and I still have the tinnitis, but everything is less intense than it was yesterday. I made it through the day at work more by stubbornness than anything else.
A few days ago, I was in the grocery store and the bagger commented that I have lost a lot of weight. I don't remember ever seeing him before, so I think he was thinking of someone else. I just said, "Thanks, I am working on it."
Today, a coworker saw me heating up my lunch which included 2 cups of mixed veggies and he said something about how that was a lot of veggies. I said I am trying to lose some tonnage. Every time he walked past my desk, it seemed as if I were eating. I don't feel quite as self-conscious about it as I used to.
This coming week, my Toastmaster club is doing a "grab bag" meeting. No one knows what their role is until they get there. That means I have to have a speech ready. In order to get credit for doing a manual speech, it has to be a new speech. I am going to prepare #3 which is get to the point. I am going to talk about walking and why I use a pedometer and why I use the one I do. Someone on a message board asked me about that and, from that dialog, a speech will be born. Who knows what my role will be? But I will at least have a speech ready for the next opening.
If anyone would have said that exercise of any type would be a part of my life, that I would volunteer to do a fundraiser walk, that I would deliver a speech advocating walking - I would be sure you did not know me! I have very far to go. While I don't see a huge change in the mirror and that "these clothes feel looser" is a fleeting feeling, - when I read about the marathons, the pounds and inches that others on SP have done and lost, I feel as if I am not doing enough - but today, I was thinking about that and realized that comparative thinking is not healthy, - I take credit for this incremental change.
While I did not walk much today, I will walk this weekend. Even BF does not think I can do the fundraiser walk in 2 weeks. That comment last night hurt, but I am using that to get into that "I'll show you" mode! I may even walk the route twice!
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Left work early because of the migraine yesterday and stayed home today. It's actually a combo headache, migraine & sinus. And the ringing in my ears is loud and constant.
No exercise today, low on every nutritional metric.
Thanks for the comments & spark goodies!
I hope EVERYONE had a better day than I have!
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