Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I could not accrue all of my points last night due to connectivity issues. I don't know if it was my wireless provider or the SP site. I gave up and "left points on the table" so to speak.
Today, I see they will be doing maintenace for EIGHT hours starting tonight, so I had to hustle to get my points in today. GRRR!
I came to work today and discovered that I have no business taking nondrowsy cold medicine. I had taken it so that I would not get sent home today with that seal bark cough. But it made me feel very strange and this was the nondrowsy stuff! Even as heavy as I am, I can take only a half or a quarter of the "may cause drowsiness" meds, but never before have I had problems with nondrowsy meds. It has been a struggle all day!
Having used up vacation time being sick this week, I must cancel tomorrow's already long since scheduled day off and come in. I just want to be home in bed! Tomorrow is Veterans Day and I always take that day off so I can honor our vets. I was not able to serve so I feel the need to pay homage to those who have.
Yesterday, when I was home sick, dosing, I dreamed that I came back to work and was laid off because I have missed so much time. I have missed more time than I have ever missed in my life, but not an exhorbitant amount generally. But the dream was so vivid and the work so pressing that I feel I must come in tomorrow.
I could not blog last night because of the internet issues, so I did not share that yesterday was well below in the food world. I had almost no appetite and that is a rare occurence, believe me! I did not push it. Today, I will probably end within range, but scant on the exercise realm. I walk only a few yards and I am wiped out. I don't feel terrible any more, but I sure am drained!
Asode from the drain that the nondrowsy meds unexpectedly gave me, today was the best day I have had yet this week!
Thanks for the comments and support!
Thank a Veteran tomorrow!
Monday, November 08, 2010
I dragged myself to work this morning, still feeling lousy. I sound fine, but I feel lousy. My VP sent me home when he found out I felt lousy. I had to take it as a vacation day as I have no sick time left. I am grateful to have it, but ............ I just wish I felt better.
Not much exercise, low on food etc. I am taking it easy and have not yet decided whether I will attempt to go in tomorrow or not.
Kind of hungry all day but nothing sounds good except junk. I don't have any junk so.........ignoring the feeling as much as I can.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
I could have just as easily titled this blog "I don't wanna!" but Dad would roll over in his grave at that kind of sloppy English!
I mentioned yesterday that the scale was unkind to me. That really surprisedme.
The migraine + sinus + tinnitis are unrelenting, though they have decreased.
Tomorrow will be "work" but I am glad to have my job.
Tomorrow will also be "work" because I do not feel like eating right, caring about choices, water, exercise, the whole ball of wax.
But, neither do I want to see this reversal continue.
I will continue on, but it will feel like "work" until I recover my mental and emotional equilibrium.
Thanks, everyone, for the comments and encouragement. My well is dry and I cannot yet reciprocate, but my silence is not because your touches are not appreciated.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
I stepped on the scale and was stunned to see it back up again. First time it was up about 2.5 and when I repositioned the scale, it was up even more. Stunned. So much for feeling thinner this week!
I have not been as active, so I am sure that is a large part of it. I was very inactive today. The headache is mostly gone, but, if I move around, the nausea and other unpleasant feelings come back. I am chafing about this. Not at all happy. The tinnitis is quieter, but it is still constant....
Friday, November 05, 2010
I still have my headache, I still have the sinus issue and I still have the tinnitis, but everything is less intense than it was yesterday. I made it through the day at work more by stubbornness than anything else.
A few days ago, I was in the grocery store and the bagger commented that I have lost a lot of weight. I don't remember ever seeing him before, so I think he was thinking of someone else. I just said, "Thanks, I am working on it."
Today, a coworker saw me heating up my lunch which included 2 cups of mixed veggies and he said something about how that was a lot of veggies. I said I am trying to lose some tonnage. Every time he walked past my desk, it seemed as if I were eating. I don't feel quite as self-conscious about it as I used to.
This coming week, my Toastmaster club is doing a "grab bag" meeting. No one knows what their role is until they get there. That means I have to have a speech ready. In order to get credit for doing a manual speech, it has to be a new speech. I am going to prepare #3 which is get to the point. I am going to talk about walking and why I use a pedometer and why I use the one I do. Someone on a message board asked me about that and, from that dialog, a speech will be born. Who knows what my role will be? But I will at least have a speech ready for the next opening.
If anyone would have said that exercise of any type would be a part of my life, that I would volunteer to do a fundraiser walk, that I would deliver a speech advocating walking - I would be sure you did not know me! I have very far to go. While I don't see a huge change in the mirror and that "these clothes feel looser" is a fleeting feeling, - when I read about the marathons, the pounds and inches that others on SP have done and lost, I feel as if I am not doing enough - but today, I was thinking about that and realized that comparative thinking is not healthy, - I take credit for this incremental change.
While I did not walk much today, I will walk this weekend. Even BF does not think I can do the fundraiser walk in 2 weeks. That comment last night hurt, but I am using that to get into that "I'll show you" mode! I may even walk the route twice!
Get An Email Alert Each Time JUNEAU2010 Posts