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"Vacation" Day

Monday, November 08, 2010

I dragged myself to work this morning, still feeling lousy. I sound fine, but I feel lousy. My VP sent me home when he found out I felt lousy. I had to take it as a vacation day as I have no sick time left. I am grateful to have it, but ............ I just wish I felt better.

Not much exercise, low on food etc. I am taking it easy and have not yet decided whether I will attempt to go in tomorrow or not.

Kind of hungry all day but nothing sounds good except junk. I don't have any junk so.........ignoring the feeling as much as I can.

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LIBBYFITZ 11/9/2010 3:35PM

    emoticonhope you get well sonn. Rest up. emoticon

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/9/2010 9:42AM

    I hope you feel better. Take care of yourself.

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JHADZHIA 11/9/2010 12:33AM

    If you don't know what it is ailing you, might be time to see a Dr.,
Please take care of yourself and rest when your body tells you to.

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EMPTYNESTER60 11/8/2010 11:10PM

    Have you been to the doctor? I suffered for over a week before I finally went & found out that I had a sinus infection - along with the strep & ear infection. I think the sinus infection made me the sickest & took away my energy & appetite. This has been going on too long for you not to get it checked out. Hope you feel better soon! emoticon

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PRYDEQUEEN 11/8/2010 10:15PM

    I hope the cootie bug goes away!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/8/2010 9:47PM

  Hope you're feeling better soon.


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ACIMPEGGY 11/8/2010 9:43PM

    Chicken soup? Juice? Honey, you gotta eat something! It will help you feel better.

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CARRAND 11/8/2010 9:40PM

    I hope you feel better soon.

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There's a Reason Why "Work" is a Four Letter Word

Sunday, November 07, 2010

I could have just as easily titled this blog "I don't wanna!" but Dad would roll over in his grave at that kind of sloppy English!

I mentioned yesterday that the scale was unkind to me. That really surprisedme.

The migraine + sinus + tinnitis are unrelenting, though they have decreased.

Tomorrow will be "work" but I am glad to have my job.
Tomorrow will also be "work" because I do not feel like eating right, caring about choices, water, exercise, the whole ball of wax.

But, neither do I want to see this reversal continue.

I will continue on, but it will feel like "work" until I recover my mental and emotional equilibrium.

Thanks, everyone, for the comments and encouragement. My well is dry and I cannot yet reciprocate, but my silence is not because your touches are not appreciated.

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VICD25 11/8/2010 9:07AM

    Work can help you focus. Find your routine. It's tough, but you are tougher.

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/8/2010 8:59AM

    On the other hand, "rest" is a four-letter word too. Frankly, I always find the first few days after the end of Daylight Savings Time to be very tough. Keep up the good work. Even if you are not getting positive results, what you are doing is important for your body. Again, I hope you feel better today.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/8/2010 8:53AM

  i am so familiar with "i don't wanna!". ;-) i hope things get better for you soon.


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JHADZHIA 11/8/2010 12:46AM

    I so understand where you are coming from. I wish I didn't have to get out of bed at 4am tomorrow and do my phsyio then some regular exercises and hit the shower early enough not to interfere with them coming to replace my bedroom window. No relaxing in jammies for me, it will be off to work and then an executive meeting tomorrow (yucky)
So lets just do it and get it over with, shall we?

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CARRAND 11/7/2010 8:00PM

    My Dad always said God gave us work to keep us out of trouble. But it's hard to see that when you're not feeling good.
I hope you'll be better soon. You've done so well so far.

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PUGRAD1995 11/7/2010 7:59PM

    I definitely know the feeling. I had a knee replacement and have been on short term disability and tomarrow is my first day back at work. I've kinda gotten spoiled. So I sympathize with your I don't wanna.....

Good luck tomarrow. Diana emoticon

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RUTGERSM0M 11/7/2010 7:29PM

    There should be SparkTeam titled "I don't Wanna." I would join because "I don't Wanna" workout. But lets look at it positively. Once I workout, it will be over and I can move on to something "I Do Wanna" (very bad grammar). We can do what we don't wanna, make the best of it and move on to something more pleasurable.

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NANNER2121 11/7/2010 7:20PM

    There is a long list of things I dont wanna . . .

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LAINGMOM 11/7/2010 7:19PM

    I kinda like the title "I dont wanna" instead. I usually dont wanna but i do anyway. Nice to know others on sparkpeople dont wanna either. Work- here it comes!

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Down and Out For Now

Sunday, November 07, 2010

I stepped on the scale and was stunned to see it back up again. First time it was up about 2.5 and when I repositioned the scale, it was up even more. Stunned. So much for feeling thinner this week!

I have not been as active, so I am sure that is a large part of it. I was very inactive today. The headache is mostly gone, but, if I move around, the nausea and other unpleasant feelings come back. I am chafing about this. Not at all happy. The tinnitis is quieter, but it is still constant....

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LOSETHEWTIN08 11/7/2010 7:32PM

    Don't concern yourself with the scale for now...take care of the tinnitis so you can get back on your feet. Hope you feel better real soon.
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VARELSE 11/7/2010 7:14PM

    I just went over the last 2 weeks of your nutrition tracker and if you are religiously tracking everything you eat, then it looks like you are not eating quite enough. That could be part of the reason you aren't feeling well.

That fast of a weight gain *has* to be water, looking at your fitness and food trackers. You don't have the calorie surplus for it to be a real tissue gain!

I can only echo what the others have already said - rest, drink water, and be very mindful of your self-talk (make sure it is kind, supportive, and positive).

Hang in there, you are doing fine!

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TEENY_BIKINI 11/7/2010 7:01PM

    I hope you feel better soon. Don't worry about the scale now. One step at a time. When I was sick - I just ate smaller meals and drank lots of water if that helps.

You can get back to your regular program when you feel better.



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MYSTERY4EVER 11/7/2010 4:53PM

    Sorry you are still feeling somewhat ill. Perhaps your body is just conserving energy to help you get well and that is why you gained. Take it easy, health has to come first.

I'm here rooting for you.

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LIBBYFITZ 11/7/2010 3:57PM

    When I am inactive due to be unwell I try to eat lots of low cal foods like carrots and other vegies. If I feel like comfort food I go for trail mix bars at 107 calories each.Hope that helps.Hope you get well soon. emoticon

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CARRAND 11/7/2010 2:45PM

    Drink lots of water and get lots of rest. The scale will be kinder next week.

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ETTEZEUS 11/7/2010 10:32AM

    Do you sleep with a sound machine for your tinnitus? Mine has gotten much louder over the years and I was losing sleep at night since all I could hear was it.

Have you noticed that when you shower, the tinnitus is gone, well, not exactly gone as it never goes away but it is much quieter. It has something to do with the sounds of water.

I normally keep my machine on the sounds of the ocean or rain. It takes awhile for my ears to get accustomed to the sound but I do sleep much better now that I have it.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 11/7/2010 10:21AM

  sorry to hear that your scale isn't co-operating with you... mine isn't co-operating with me either today. just because it says a certain number - try to not let it get you down totally. hmm... maybe i should take my own advice eh? (haha)

hope you feel better soon.


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EMPTYNESTER60 11/7/2010 8:17AM

    Sorry you are still feeling bad and that the scale isn't being your friend right now. It almost sounds like your headache is sinus related, like maybe you have a sinus infection that is also causing the ear problems. Have you tried a decongestant like Sudafed? Take it easy and be sure to track what you eat so you can see what changes you need to make. Hope you feel better soon.

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JHADZHIA 11/7/2010 1:27AM

    You just have to take care of yourself. Go on the lower end of your calories while unable to exercise..
I hope you feel better tomorrow..
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Friday, November 05, 2010

I still have my headache, I still have the sinus issue and I still have the tinnitis, but everything is less intense than it was yesterday. I made it through the day at work more by stubbornness than anything else.

A few days ago, I was in the grocery store and the bagger commented that I have lost a lot of weight. I don't remember ever seeing him before, so I think he was thinking of someone else. I just said, "Thanks, I am working on it."

Today, a coworker saw me heating up my lunch which included 2 cups of mixed veggies and he said something about how that was a lot of veggies. I said I am trying to lose some tonnage. Every time he walked past my desk, it seemed as if I were eating. I don't feel quite as self-conscious about it as I used to.

This coming week, my Toastmaster club is doing a "grab bag" meeting. No one knows what their role is until they get there. That means I have to have a speech ready. In order to get credit for doing a manual speech, it has to be a new speech. I am going to prepare #3 which is get to the point. I am going to talk about walking and why I use a pedometer and why I use the one I do. Someone on a message board asked me about that and, from that dialog, a speech will be born. Who knows what my role will be? But I will at least have a speech ready for the next opening.

If anyone would have said that exercise of any type would be a part of my life, that I would volunteer to do a fundraiser walk, that I would deliver a speech advocating walking - I would be sure you did not know me! I have very far to go. While I don't see a huge change in the mirror and that "these clothes feel looser" is a fleeting feeling, - when I read about the marathons, the pounds and inches that others on SP have done and lost, I feel as if I am not doing enough - but today, I was thinking about that and realized that comparative thinking is not healthy, - I take credit for this incremental change.

While I did not walk much today, I will walk this weekend. Even BF does not think I can do the fundraiser walk in 2 weeks. That comment last night hurt, but I am using that to get into that "I'll show you" mode! I may even walk the route twice!

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CARRAND 11/6/2010 9:21PM

    You are amazing the way you do your speeches for Toastmasters! I'm not comfortable speaking in public at all.
I hope your sinus problems clear up soon. You need to be strong for your charity walk and I'm sure you will be.

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CATLADY52 11/6/2010 6:11PM

    emoticon and probably better than he can.

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MYSTERY4EVER 11/6/2010 10:27AM

    I am so glad you are feeling better. Have a nice walk, but take care of your knee. Please don't compare yourself to others and their weight loss. Everyone's metabolism is different. I am finding that I plateau for several weeks and then I lose a couple of pounds - a different kind of slow, but that is how my body is doing it.

What is important is that you are trying. Eventually that is what will work.

Have a great weekend.

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JHADZHIA 11/6/2010 8:17AM

    I am glad you are no longer trying to compare yourself to others. That is destructive and self defeating behavior. Not everyone's body, health and circumstances are the same. That is why we all do things differently and have different results. Keep in mind it took me TWO years to lose my weight, while my very own sister lost hers in six months. Not hardly fair, but you have to make the best out of the hand you were dealt..
Nothing like someone saying you can't do it, to get out and do it!! Your BF may have given you a slap, but he also gave you motivation. People have told me I can't do a lot of things. I enjoy proving them wrong, and you will too.
I am glad you have accepted exercise into all areas of your life! You are doing this healthy lifestyle!
Enjoy your weekend!
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LIBBYFITZ 11/5/2010 10:48PM

    So glad you are slowly improving. emoticon

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Migraine Day Two

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Left work early because of the migraine yesterday and stayed home today. It's actually a combo headache, migraine & sinus. And the ringing in my ears is loud and constant.

No exercise today, low on every nutritional metric.

Thanks for the comments & spark goodies!

I hope EVERYONE had a better day than I have!

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LIBBYFITZ 11/4/2010 9:38PM

    That is so not nice. Combination headache! Rest up and hope you start to feel better soon! emoticon

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CARRAND 11/4/2010 9:09PM

    Sure hope you're feeling better soon.

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JHADZHIA 11/4/2010 8:53PM

    So sorry, that is just awful :(( I have two Spark buddies already that have these frequently and never seem to find any relief from them :(( I wouldn't feel like eating or doing anything with those conditions either.
Rest and recover is all you can do. Feel better soon...

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ERNURSERN 11/4/2010 7:59PM

    I hope you feel bettter...I was so sick last week too...today we were walking through the grocery store and my ear POPPED...I mean REALLY POPPED..it was so painful but once it was over it was fine! I think I am on the other side of it...I hope you get some relief.. I know it is a horrible thing to feel this way!! GET BETTER SOON!!!

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SCHECK5 11/4/2010 7:49PM

    OOHH I know how that goes with the migraines...I was just in your shoes two weeks ago.
It will get better and your body just need a day of rest!! emoticon

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