Thursday, October 28, 2010
Today was a better day. It was peppered with coworkers making comments about last night's Giants' win in Game 1 of the World Series! That was fun! Yesterday was a day of bouncing between fires or alligators or other analogies for urgent/hot tasks. I was busy all day but did not have much to show for it.
This morning, I walked in to find a couple of the alligators had grown overnight. My boss, bless his heart, sent an email to me, copying his boss and my supervising attorney telling me the priorities he wanted me to touch. That took some of the pressure off, not a lot, but it did help me focus. I made significant progress on the first alligator. There are some frustrating bits of data that I can't marry up and need to do so because this is a project in preparation for an A133 audit.
The second alligator, though smaller, is just as time-consuming. It involves an IP search in preparation for a release into public domain. I was given this task about a month ago and got only part of what I needed. It was back-burnered and forgotten about until another email surfaced yesterday. I still don't have the other pieces and the fact that this multi-sectored project is very late actually has very little to do with me. Someone forgot about the IP review until very late in the process. It usually occurs in the spring, so, while it was embarrassing that I had forgotten it, it was already late by the time it came to me. Still waiting for the other pieces...Such is my life!
I intended to go to yoga today, having turned down the chance to work with the new Toastmaster club at the VA. I had forgotten that a new leadership program was having its kick0ff meeting at the same time. As the program is getting extremely top drawer visibility, I chose to go to that. I had forgotten the kickoff included pizza.
Pizza is something I don't miss if I don't have it but have a hard time holding back if it's available. I had two pieces and easily could have eaten twice that. I had my lunch with me! (Yummy leftovers). The smell of the pizza coupled with the awkwardness that the host had purchased about 3 times as much pizza as there were people made me set aside my leftovers and chow down. I should know better. It did not taste as good as it smelled. I had the opportunity to take some home, but did not. I ate the leftovers for dinner.
But, as I was walking to my car this evening, I thought about the pizza. Instead of beating myself up about it, I am calling this "life" and "human". I will do better!
So what does the title have to do with today? When I started this blog, the Giants were in the midst of a big inning. After two men were out, they scored 7 runs, partly with good hits, but also with the generosity of the Rangers pitchers who donated four walks. That just shows life. I was down for those two pieces of pizza, but I am not out. I have the opportunity to start fresh tomorrow. I know, it's a weak analogy, but...it works tonight.
I need to think more about how that happened. Tomorrow is the Halloween party at work. I am on the Legal Department committee, so I will have to be out and about with all the costumes and candy and chaos. I need to plan my day carefully! It includes a potluck, and I am bringing a crockpot of chili.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
As I write this, Tony Bennett is singing "God Bless America" during the 7th inning stretch at Game 1 of the World Series (AT&T Park, home of the San Francisco Giants). How surreal! His voice is still smooth! The Giants always play his "I Left My Heart in San Francisco" when they win at home. What a geat way to exit the park! But I digress. The Giants are leading!
Today was my day to deliver CC #2 (Organize your speech). The goal of the speech is to present a speech that has an opening, body and conclusion. The speech was about my experience taping the tv show Toastmaster meeting. I wrote it on Friday and practiced it about 3 times - not my usual work. I was supposed to deliver this speech on November 17 and was asked late last week to fill a spot in today's agenda. I wrestled with the opening and changed it several times.
I left out a lot of information and I had time to have included it. (The speech has to be between 5-7 minutes) I forgot to look at my speech today, did not bring it with me, so I was really winging it. I was not proud of this speech.
This is my 3rd time through the CC manual. I did it many years ago while in Alaska. Back then, it was called something else and took 15 speeches to complete. I was the youngest member of my club and completed them in the shortest time that club had seen. I started working through the new manual a few years ago and dropped out of the club, disgusted with the lack of care the club demonstrated. I rejoined and decided to start over because I felt so rusty!
We are having a grab bag meeting on Nov 15. This means no one knows what their role will be until we get there. So I need to work up another speech!
The district president asked me to be an evaluator for a new club they are trying to launch at the local VA hospital. The problem is that their meeting conflicts with my yoga class! I turned her down for tomorrow and thought that would be that. She emailed me back and asked me to do the same thing on the 18th. That's the Thursday before Thanksgiving so I could not say no. I hate to say no to the vets. I always wanted to serve, but cannot pass the physcial. I tried every branch of the service 5 times and was unanimously rejected. I have always said that, when I can get my life together, I would like to volunteer at the VA. This is a way to contribute and support.
So how can I balance my need for exercise (yoga at work is really cheap) and growing as a Toastmaster, expanding my heart by giving...I am already struggling with the yoga and Toastmasters at work because I don't get my steps in on those days.
I have not eaten dinner yet, but I think I will end the day within range...!
Work has been just crazy busy! I felt as if I were spinning my wheels today. I touched a lot of things but did not get to finish anything. One step forward, hold while I wait for information, start on something else and another thing crops up urgently. I feel absolutely overwhelmed and hopeless! ACK!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
When I woke up this morning, I did not want to get out of bed, but I felt ok, so I eventually dragged myself up and out the door for work. I had not felt great yesterday afternoon but I thought it was just the soreness from the yoga. A few years ago, I fell down two flights of concrete stairs (no broken bones!) and have had problems with my neck ever since. I had to undergo physical therapy afterwards and learned some great exercises that have helped. Before the fall, I could not sleep on my back because, in that position, I would feel nauseated. That nausea hit me this morning after threatening yesterday.
I took the afternoon off (vacation time as I have no sick time left), came home and slept and slept.
BF fixed a great soup for dinner and I am feeling much better.
Yesterday, I was over in calories. Tonight, I end the day under in almost all metrics and I am ok with that. Tomorrow will be a much better!
I have to give a speech tomorrow and I have not practiced enough. I hate "winging" it. Perhaps inspiration will come. The intro is weak. The content is ok and the conclusion ties in nicely with the title of the speech. The speech is about my experience taping the toastmaster show.
Monday, October 25, 2010
I wore my new Giants gear to work even though Monday is not casual dress day. I got lots of positive and envious feedback! it was fun! Orange is not a color I would wear except in support of the San Francisco Giants because orange is a color that was never meant for me!
Over the weekend, I dug out an old but seldom used pair of sweats and tried them on this morning. I had not been wearing them because they were so tight. But they were not tight today! Woohoo! I wore them to my first ever yoga class! The company allows this lady to come in twice a week during lunchtime to lead the class. The first class is free and it's $5 per class after that. I don't know if I can afford that, but I used the coupon today.
I was pleasantly surprised that I could do about half of the exercises/moves and was able to modify some of the others. Attempting to do one position, I rolled over but I was not even embarrassed! Imagine that! Wow! I ended up not doing some exercises, but, over all, I was really pleased with my first class.
I am sore in odd spots but very relaxed and feel great! Marti said that Monday yoga is harder, I forget the terms she used, but the Thursday class is more relaxing, I guess. The breathing was amazing! At some points during the class, it seemed to last forever and other times, the time flew.
We used a chair for some of the exercises and some of the exercises are things I can do outside of class and without the mat, strap, block and blanket.
I liked her comments about using some of the poses to open the heart, to share kindness (including with oneself) and so on.
I ended the day slightly up in calories, within range for everything else but low in fat. Ugh! All I can do is laugh!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Thank you, everyone, for your comments on my blog from yesterday. It was a really low day. Today was not a stellar day, but it was, in terms of choices, better than yesterday.
I did a lot of standing and walking today. It was rainy but that was welcome! We have needed it. I did not bring my pedometer, so I had to guess steps and time.
We went to the Giants Dugout store to get some National League Championship products. I was astonished to see the line! It was down almost the entire length of the shopping center! They allowed only a few people in at a time. We stood outside in the drizzle and chatted with the other fans. We waited two hours and the last 45 minutes were stressed because the clerk came out and announced that they were out of one shirt design and color and had low stock and sizes on the others. I was so afraid they would be out of everything!
and a couple more that don't have pictures. They don't have pins yet. I collect pins, so I was disappointed. I did get some pins, but not specific ones for the NL championship or the World Series.
This week, I will be going in to work early, especially on Wednesday and Thursday so that I can be home in time for first pitch!
I'm going to do a yoga class tomorrow - a first.
Thanks, everyone, for sustaining me through yesterday! I cannot do this journey alone. I look for opportunities to "pay it forward".
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