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Yvonne

Saturday, October 02, 2010

Yvonne was hired to take a position I was vacating 4 years ago. I trained her for the job she does now and, in that process, we became friends. Over the years, we got closer and even went on weekend trips together. Through this time, she has had times when she's been moody and full of self-pity. There have been times when I have been prickly and not nice to be with. We have worked through our communication difficulties, but are seemingly now at an impasse.

She has a lot of health problems and is on a ton of medications. I know some of what is going on, but not all. She has put on a lot of weight, some of it from her meds and some not. She spends thousands of dollars on dream vacations but never has money otherwise. Her parents are elderly and not in good health. She has a love/hate relationship with them, but I think she is now realizing what I have been saying for 4 years - that she will miss them when they are gone. They help her a lot financially and she stands to inherit a lot of money and two homes when they die. Therefore, she does not save for retirement.

I do not have a lot of health problems and am on no medications. I don't even remember to take vitamins. I have lost some weight this year and Yvonne is quite jealous of that. My father is dead and my mother might as well be (she disowned me when I was 13). I have no financial safety cushon other than my retirement (and I borrowed against that this year...very reluctantly). I seldom take vacations and have had only 2 "dream" vacations - both were trips to Hawaii (one of which was after my dad's funeral, so it was not optimal).

There is a lot going on in my life, but they are things I cannot talk about. Yvonne knows my workload has exploded, that I have suffered some losses this year and...well, we all have troubles.

Yvonne is jealous because I have a boyfriend. She is very man-hungry and feels incomplete without someone. I don't know the whole story, but I know she is divorced. She brushes off the fact that my relationship is less than ideal. She even compares the number of friends we have on FB!

Like my friend Valerie, Yvonne seems to forget that other people have troubles that, for them, could be as all-encompassing as theirs. I have been learning how to do part of Yvonne's job (something that she has been doing for about a year, something I never had to do when I covered her desk). Yesterday, there was a flurry of emails about one of the transactions I did. The other person made a mistake, I made a mistake and a 3rd person made a mistake. Yvonne was copied on all the emails, but she did not read them. She sent me an email this morning asking what was going on and, at the moment she sent it, I was on major overload and did not respond in the most professional manner. I said, "If you read the emails..." Poor judgment on my part. It set her off into one of her feeling sorry for herself email tirades.

She said, among other things, that she thinks I have been angry with her about my graduation! I was floored. She won't tell me what I said or did (or did not say or do) that gives her that idea. Yvonne is a very generous soul. She came to my graduation and took pictures. She had her friend video my walk etc. We had lunch together and she gave me a very expensive (to me) gift. I had that Mahalo Party at work and she videotaped that and took pictures. She put all those pictures in a bound book that she designed with my school colors. She also had a custom frame made with my announcement (that she had designed for me) with my tassel. Then she burned the videos on DVDs so I could share with my family. As I said, incredibly generous. At my Mahalo Party, I gave thank you gifts to a number of people, the best of which was the gift for her. I was just nonplussed by her statement and she won't tell me why she feels that way. I don't know what to do.

The San Francisco Giants lost the game tonight and I ate more calories than I should have...I got some steps in, just under 3 miles, a tiny bit of strength training, but I need to do a lot more.

I am going in to work tomorrow to put in the OT hours that I could not do this week. I have been exhausted...!

I feel terrible that my thorny personality has hurt her and I just don't know how to change me in that regard.

  
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NADJAZZ 10/4/2010 12:20PM

    I don't think you should be blaming yourself for having a "thorny" personality...Yvonne has some accountability in the all the events you described....she should have read the emails, or perhaps prefaced hers by saying "I'm having trouble following, can you just summarize the outcome". For your graduation, I think it's unfair of her to refuse giving you an explanation. You two have been friends long enough, I hope to eventually sort this out and put it behind you.

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CMRAND54 10/2/2010 10:28PM

    I have a friend at work who is not happy unless she is fighting with someone. I don't know why. Usually it's someone different every week. Sometimes she tries to fight with me, but I just ignore her for a while until she gets over it. I won't let her push me around, I don't fight back, I just walk away. We are never responsible for how others act. We can only control our own behavior. If you've done something you're sorry about, say you're sorry. Otherwise just live your own life and let your friend live hers.

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JHADZHIA 10/2/2010 9:42AM

    2nd what Libby says. Its her fault not reading the e-mails.. I really can't see why on earth she would think you blame her for your graduation!! That is just out there.. Unfortunately, you seem to have the misfortune to have had a lot of mentally unstable coworkers. Wish they would have gotten some help :(( Yvonne sounds like she could sure use some.
Sorry you have to work this weekend :(
Try to get some rest time in there somewhere.
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LIBBYFITZ 10/2/2010 3:55AM

    If she won't open up and explain then there is no more you can do! just be you, it is OK to be a bit short at times , you are human, not a robot! emoticon

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I Came in Second!

Thursday, September 30, 2010

My employer hosted the Area contest for humorous speech and evaluation contests. A coworker entered and won the humorous speech contest! I was thrilled!

I came in second in the evaluation contest and later learned that it was a tie. The speaker cast the tie breaking vote. I probably should not have told him that his topic made me feel squeamish! (he spoke about urinating)

The other day I blogged about the fact that pizza was going to be served at the contest. I bought a salad from the cafe at lunch time and saved it. To that, I added some imitation crab meat. The salad had a few grapes, walnut halves and mixed greens. I had my salad spray with me. It was very good! I had also filled up on water, though carefully because I knew it would be a long meeting.

Turns out they had sandwiches (halves) and cut veggies. I grabbed the only sandwhich made with wheat bread. It was a veggie sandwich. Not fresh because it was pretty wet. I ate it when I got home LATE! But I am ahead of myself.

Members of my Toastmaster club filled various roles. Toastmaster, judge, timer, registrar. And I knew that some had done the prep work - getting the signs up so no one would get lost, arranging for security so we could have the meeting at work after hours. They really made it happen!

It was really as if there were two meetings because they had a different Toastmaster (emcee of the meeting) for each contest. Same chief judge. The Area governor was there. He spoke so softly and with an accent that he was hard to hear and understand. I sat in the 2nd row, so, if I had trouble, certainly those in the back of the room were really lost. I did not know any of the Toastmasters from any of the other four clubs, even though two of them are company clubs on the same street.

This was my first time to attend an Area contest, much less compete in one. The order of speaking was determined by drawing lots. I was last, so I did not get to hear the other evaluators. I actually could hear #4 a tiny bit because the sergeant at arms left the doors open. He was a bit sloppy in his role and I tried to remind myself that he might be doing it for the first time or without sufficient instruction. I am really trying not to let my naturally critical self surface so much. Wanting to curb that trait was one of the reasons I decided to really focus on developing my skill as a speech evaluator.

For the uninitiated, the evaluator does not evaluate the person, merely the speech. They give feedback to the speaker. Did the speaker meet the goals of the speech project? Did they use the speaking skills learned/practiced in previous speeches? Those skills include: an organized speech (opening, body, conclusion), body language, vocal variety, using audio visual aids, persuasion, story telling, etc...

The evaluator should share observations about what the speaker did right and suggest some areas of improvement (with examples).

People at work asked me all day long if I felt nervous. I did not. Towards the end of the day, I was excited, but not nervous. When the sergeant at arms escorted s to the other room to write our evaluations, then, I felt a bit nervous. When I met the other contestants, I felt sized up and found wanting. Oddly, the guy who sized me up with that look is a very new Toastmaster but is in sales and does a lot of presentations. The guy who won apparently also won last year. He spoke for 3.29 and, had he gone on for 2 more seconds, I would have been the winner. I wish I could have heard his evaluation. Everyone was talking about it!

I got a lot of really good feedback. Apparently I made observations that no one else made and my evaluation was constructive and tactful. Interesting choice of words...

At the end, I hung around and helped take down the meeting room. The lady who had set out the food let me take home all the fresh veggies! I had 3 containers of carrots, broccoli, cucumber, zucchini, lettuce....

I brought one container to work today and a frozen dinner for lunch. I ended up deciding not to have the frozen dinner and walked to the cafe. I bought a bowl of lentil soup, large, and combined half of it with the fresh veggies. I microwaved that together and had an absolutely tasty lunch. I will do the same with the other half tomorrow.

A department had a meeting this morning and put leftover bagels in the coffee room. I grabbed the only wheat one and set it aside. I ate half of it with my soup with some peanut butter on it (I'm not wild about cream cheese). I won't mind having the same thing for lunch tomorrow! It might sound strange, but the veggies were still very crunchy and included the cucumber. It was a delightful taste!

I'm writing in a free association kind of way (fatigue, I guess). The meeting did not start on time, ran late and, when I got home, I still had to get my Spark points in. Short night. Work is very, very, very busy.

When they called my name, I walked in the room thinking to myself that I needed to walk in as if I owned the room. I walked in with confidence and I SOLD it! I am happy with my 2nd place silver trophy! Not bad for a first attempt!

And, as a PS. I put a new battery in my pedometer and my step count skyrocketed. I did almost 12K yesterday it said and I felt as if I had not walked much at all!

  
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NADJAZZ 10/4/2010 2:11PM

    Congratulations! 2nd place in your first contest is a wonderful accomplishment! I liked how you walked into the room with confidence and sold it!

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CMRAND54 10/1/2010 9:15PM

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2nd place is great for your first try. And you made some great food choices, too.

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ACIMPEGGY 10/1/2010 8:10PM

    Wonderful, dear friend! I hope everyone on our Toastmasters SparkPeople team reads this!

You did great for the first time in an area contest!!!!

I also know what you mean by writing free association because of fatigue!

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LIBBYFITZ 10/1/2010 10:14AM

    That's what I could do with today, a new battery! emoticon

sounds like a great meeting. emoticonon 2nd prize and all your healthy food choices! emoticon emoticon

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MYSTERY4EVER 10/1/2010 9:41AM

    That is really an accomplishment. Congratulations. Also good work on sticking to healthy food. That is an even bigger accomplishment. I have been to too many Toastmasters events - contests, trainings, District meetings - where every single thing except the black coffee, was high fat and high calorie. I now always carry my own food.

I hope you will enter contests in the future. I learn from every one I attend. Also, volunteer to be Contest Master. It counts for one of the Competent Leader projects. I have learned a huge amount from that too.

Again, congratulations.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 10/1/2010 9:01AM

  congrats on coming in 2nd. :) awesome stuff!! :) and, congrats on the walking part too. :)

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MISSY455 10/1/2010 2:38AM

    emoticon job!!! Congrats on the trophy! You should be really pleased and proud. I think coming in second on a first attempt is amazing :-)

I used to have a volunteer job years ago where I had to speak in front of new people to the area once a month. I would literally be sick before each presentation. Later, when I got to college, I had a professor who recognized this fear in me and forced me to talk in front of groups all the time. During college I thought it was so cruel of him, but it definitely helped me (not that I ever like it now I just don't get physically sick anymore.) I find it very humbling that people choose to get up in front of others like you do at Toastmasters and speak publicly. You deserve a big pat on the back! WTG!!!

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IXCHEL23 9/30/2010 10:22PM

    emoticon for coming in 2nd place and getting a trophy! emoticon

I wish I could be like you and not be afraid to speak in public. That's one of my greatest fears, I dreaded it in college, and was always sick with nerves. I have 2 interviews next week and I hope I can survive them!

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Tomorrow is the Area Evaluation Contest (Toastmasters)

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

My club is hosting the area contest tomorrow evening so our normal noon meeting has been cancelled. There are five clubs in the area, so there will be 5 contestants for the humorous speech contest. I hope my club entrant wins. He is a wonderful speaker! I am one of the four contestants for the evaluation contest. I've never been in an area contest, so this will be a new experience.

We are having pizza brought in. I have not been feeling well this week and, with nerves, I may not indulge. I do, however, need to have a backup plan in case the scent reawakens my appetite.

I have had an even harder time than usual getting work done. I find myself crying at odd moments, staring at the wall. One of my sparkfriends suggested I find time and place for a good cry. I have not been able to cry. I suppose that's why it seeps out at odd moments.

I am so tired, but it is too hot to sleep. The cycle continues!

Today was Yvonne's birthday and I brought in her favorite Krispy Kreme doughnuts for the team. I skipped the group lunch. I know she was disappointed, but we are having lunch tomorrow, so it will be ok. She did not want me to give her a gift and preferred I make a donation in her name to an animal charity. When I did that, I did order something for her. They did not send it and I learned today that it is still in the office! So her birthday celebration will continue.

Thanks, everyone, for the blog comments, the page comments and Spark Goodies. Your support really, truly, honestly helps!

  
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CMRAND54 9/29/2010 9:20PM

    If you give in to the pizza, just remember that two slices always has more calories than one. Practice portion control and you'll be fine.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 9/29/2010 3:11PM

  good luck with the contest! love the idea that you had for yvonne's gift to an animal charity. :) oooh... pizza... i hope you can find a way to not give into the pizza... hopefully you'll take something that is equally delish. :)

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JAKEANDNELLIE 9/29/2010 7:46AM

    Good luck with the contest! Let us know how it went.
You will slowly get through these difficult times and return to normal. Just give yourself time and allow yourself to go through the grieving process.
Sheila

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MRE1956 9/29/2010 4:45AM

    Good luck to you with your contest! (As a former Toastmaster this brings back some nice memories.....)

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JHADZHIA 9/29/2010 1:37AM

    All the best with the contest!
Love Yvonne's idea of no gift but a donation to an animal charity :)
Pizza will be very hard to resist when you are so down, its comfort food of the highest order -you should bring something similar, but way lower in calories for yourself to have if you get the growlies..
Good luck with it!
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RNSHARON 9/29/2010 12:15AM

    I wish I had the courage to start a Toastmaster's group!

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The Hits Keep Coming

Monday, September 27, 2010

I have not blogged since learning about Gayle's death. Saturday was the long ago planned lunch in honor of my fried Ruby who died this summer. Her birthday is in a few days, so a bunch of us wanted to get together and eat in her honor. It was at Fresh Choice. I piled on all the fresh goodies and avoided the prepared salads. I added some chicken (3 oz at almost $3) just to make sure I got some protein. I added a side dish of a couple of nearly microscopic baked sweet potatoes. I added some fat free sour cream and chives and was that ever yummy! I followed that with some grilled zucchini and about a half cup of cut fruit. Dessert was some fat free chocolate yogurt and not a ton. I was so proud of myself. I DID remember to bring my salad spritzer so I cruised right past the buffet of salad dressings and opted for water instead of my usual diet soda.

Valerie was there with her two daughters and youngest grandson. I've known her since the older girl was about 6 months old, nearly 30 years! I used to work with both husband and wife. She was laid off from that job and got a job at a luxury car dealership and was instrumental in getting me hired there part time. I worked there for about 14 years until I was laid off last fall. During the lunch, Valerie launched into her list of aches, pains and loss. I know she is like that, but I was completely unprepared for it at lunch. I did not have my guard up and when she mentioned Sally, apparently forgetting that I am also mourning her loss, I felt as if I had been knifed, it hurt so badly. I know the feeling was intensified because the sorrow at losing Gayle was not even 24 hours old.

I came home to find my home had been burglarized and my laptop stolen! Of course I had to replace it. So much for debt reduction. Now I am in the process of changing passwords and doing what I can to protect myself from ID theft.

Sunday was HOT and I was wiped out. Couch potato. I could not remember my email password, so I had to wait until getting to work today to retrieve it. So I am WAY behind on responding to emails, notes about SP blog comments etc. It will take a while for me to catch up.

I told Yvonne at work today about my weekend - the news about Gayle and the theft. She made a comment about the number of people who've died around me this year (7) as if I am Pigpen of Peanuts fame. I brushed it off, but...it was tough. Late in the day, the director of the paralegal program sent out an email about Gayle's death and how she will be missed, what an asset she was to the program...The two schools will work together to do some sort of joint celebration of her life. I've been given permission to take time off to attend, whenever it is. Somehow, reading his email, the black and white, made it seem so much more real. I had to step away and cry.

The lady who made the snarky comment on my FB page did not say a word to me at all today. I said nothing to her, either. Early in the day, I was silent because I did not trust that I would be able to speak nicely and, later, our paths just did not cross
until she was leaving. At that point, a third person said something and the moment passed. Sigh.

I am ending the day WAY up in carbs. My stomach is KILLING me! Stress, probably.

  
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LIBBYFITZ 9/28/2010 6:42PM

    Considering all that you have been through I think you are holding up quite well. And well done on the food choices at the celebrationof Ruby's birthday. It must be so hard to have so many people you know pass away recently. emoticonMy thoughts are with you. emoticon

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SSCHULTZ59 9/28/2010 9:37AM

    Sorry for you loss and your pain, loosing someone you love is never easy, just remember they are in a better place, with no pain.. and no diet.....
Take the time to heal.


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JHADZHIA 9/28/2010 12:17AM

    Could it get any worse for you?? So sorry :(( I don't know how you are managing to cope :((
Great choices at your meal out!!
I am glad the schools are choosing to honor Gayle's life and her contributions, that they are not letting the stigma of what she has done overshadow what she achieved. Its good that they are going to give you the time off to attend..
I hope things improve for you this week and that something good happens for a change.
Take care of yourself,

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JAKEANDNELLIE 9/27/2010 11:55PM

    Wow - life is really challenging you right now! Stay strong.
My cousin's house was just broken into over the weekend also. She lost her computer and almost everything else of any value that could be carried out. I know she's devastated, as you must be.
Stay as positive as possible.
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CTTAGENT 9/27/2010 11:44PM

    I am sorry for your loss, and the events of the weekend.

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Ruby, Gayle...The List Continues

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Charlotte - coworker job #1
Chris - coworker job #1
Raymond - coworker former part time job
Ruby - coworker former part time job
Richard - coworker former job #1
Sally - coworker former job #1
Gayle -teacher, mentor

All these people have died within the last few months.
Charlotte had an undiagnosed heart defect and leaves a husband and young children
Chris died quickly from cancer
Raymond died from complications with diabetes
Richard - I don't know how he died, only that it was suddenly and unexpected
Ruby committed suicide
Sally died unexpectedly from diabetes complications during heart surgery
Gayle committed suicide after killer her estranged husband Thursday night

A friend sent me the news link about Gayle early yesterday afternoon. We thought at first it was a sick joke. We were in the paralegal program together and Gayle was one of our teachers. Dee now works in the law office of the attorney who runs the program. He called Gayle's law firm and learned that it was not a joke. She was supposed to teach the ethics class last night. The paper said the couple leaves 3 adult sons. One of the sons was still in high school when I had her as a teacher, so I know he is still rather young.

Gayle had been a paralegal for many years, long before some of the current statutory requirements came into being. She worked herself up to being a manager of a virtual army of paralegals. The paper said that she managed a team of 200! She also edited texts and taught at a couple of different schools. She was part of the local paralegal association and the last time I saw her was at a seminar earlier this year where she gave a talk about ethics. She traveled across the country speaking to paralegals adn other law office staff.

She said one of the reasons that she taught was to recruit new paralegals. I had hoped to work for her some day - I respected her that much. I could not sleep last night because my head was filled with the newspaper article and the shock of the news.

I weighed this morning but have not put it in my tracker. I did not weigh last week because of the carbo binge and today's number is .2 above where I was two weeks ago. It is also TOM, so I am not worried about it. I have been eating better this week, walking a lot more and doing a tiny bit more ST, so I am pleased.

Today is the lumch at Fresh Choice with former coworkers to honor Ruby. Ruby's birthday is later this week, so we are gathering a mile or so from where we all used to work with Ruby. I am going to walk all over the shopping center and make careful food choices. Fresh Choice is primarily a salad place, but they also have soups, pastas, pizza, breads and desserts. Even some of the salads are real calorie traps. I am going to pile on the fresh produce and skip the other salads, which is my norm. I may even bring my wish bone salad spritzer so I am not tempted by their salad dressings. I will pay the extra $ to add shrimp or fish or chicken to my salad and, thus, be less tempted to load up on unhealthy carbs.

I am the organizer for this lunch and, with yesterday'snews, am approaching this with mixed feelings. I was looking forward to the gathering, the fellowship and the chance to honor Ruby, but the fact that I am mourning another friend and they both died the same way is just a bit heavy.

When I posted comments about Ruby's passing on FB, without mentioning how she died, another former coworker posted a rather snarky comment about her suicide. A current coworker who did not know Gayle made a very similar comment on my page last night. I probably should have left off her last name and this coworker would not have found the newspaper article. Whatever your opinions are about suicide, passing judgment on the act to those who are grieving only makes it hurt worse. It goes back to the old adage: if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all. I don't know the story behind the newspaper article, I don't know what was happening in Gayle;'s life. I did not walk in her shoes and, while I have my own thoughts about her choice, I cannot judge her for that choice. Nor would I add to the pain her loved ones feel by saying anything other than words of condolence.

The coworker who posted that snarky comment outranks me and sits very close to my office. I have not said much to the former coworker who said this about Ruby and I don't know how I will deal with her when I see her on Monday. I will probably compartmentalize and just interact with her professionally and not even broach this subject. I have discovered that people who post these kidns of judgmental comments are not open to other points of view, that they feel very "right" or justified in what they said. They may be right, but I counter that infliction of additional pain is, at the least, unnecessary.

I am a bit off today, but less so than yesterday. I will be able to function at work. I left early yesterday, so I will probably go in today to make up the time...Thus, the pressure continues.

  
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KCLARK1355 9/27/2010 2:16PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about this!

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/27/2010 1:05PM

    I am so sorry, gorgeous.

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JAKEANDNELLIE 9/26/2010 2:36PM

    You've definitely dealt with a lot of sadness and grief lately, but you are a strong woman and will get through it.
I'm sorry about your friends - every loss hurts and it doesn't matter what caused the loss. I think you would be honoring Ruby and Gayle more by ignoring the snarky comments and remembering the good times with them.
Our friends live in our hearts forever.
Stay positive,
Sheila

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CMRAND54 9/25/2010 8:06PM

    Oh, I'm so sorry. You've had a rough few months.

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LIBBYFITZ 9/25/2010 8:05PM

    I so wish I could come over there a physically hug you! emoticonThis has been an extremely hard time. You are doing a great job. Just keep telling yourself that you are worth living a healthy lifestyle! emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 9/25/2010 3:43PM

  I am so sorry that you've lost a lot of co-workers and gayle. :(

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NANNER2121 9/25/2010 2:57PM

    Holy Cow! What a lot of stressors for you to endure. But I like your analysis and how you will deal with the individual(s) who are less than compassionate. Good for you.
Sending cyber hugs your way.

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SUGARSMOM2 9/25/2010 2:29PM

  when we do this to yourself we are in sad shape .not physically but emotionally .you are having a bad time of it . sorry so many of your friends and people you know are gone .they leave a hugh hole in your life . do not fill it with eating . stress is bad . take care of yourself . we do not want to have to write that you have passed .sending you good thoughts . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ACIMPEGGY 9/25/2010 1:50PM

    You need to find a way to release the stress and tension, honey. Possibilities: exercise? Meditation? Listing your blessings? Extra rest?

Realising that Spirit doesn't die (I know you know that), and your friends have gone on to something better...it doesn't make it right at this moment, I know.

Just knowing that you have a place to vent and friends here I hope will help, too.

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MRE1956 9/25/2010 1:46PM

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