Sunday, September 12, 2010
California's state mollusk (or something) is the banana slug, so called because it is often BRIGHT yellow. I guess the yellow is so bright because it gives the false message that the creature is poisonous. I felt slow, sluggish and nonspecifically yucky all day.
I am still banged up from the fall on Friday and my tendon is sending warning twinges. So I was, for the most part, a couch potato. I ate sparingly, even though I am hungry. I am not sure if the hunger is real or if it is bordom. I have covered the water and I feel good about that.
Friday at the picnic, an executive admin told me that she knows big changes will start this coming week. We have an all-hands meeting with the new CEO on Tuesday. Rumors abound, but I try not to put stock in them. Even though some of the past rumors have been later proved to be true, I cannot spend my energy on that. I am nervous. It is a bad time to be laid off and I am not young. So we shall see...
I wish I had lost the tonnage I need to so that, if I have to job hunt, I would look more employable instead of like a potential drain on a health plan. I am very healthy, but my weight is a real concern for the long term (if I don't make some changes, which I am doing, but ooooooooooohhhhhhh so slowly!)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
I weighed in this morning before I saw the advice from a Sparkfriend to avoid the scale today. She suggested, rightly I think, that the scale would be up because of the sodium increase from the picnic food yesterday. .3 is not terrible, but it is the wrong direction. I did drink enough water, but I drank more diet soda than I normally do ON TOP of the higher sodium foods. So...I am not beating myself up or hanging my head in defeat.
I am going to continue what I have been doing: walking as much as my body will allow, eating right and drinking water. Money is tight, but I may try the yoga class at work just to change things up. I have reservations about how much I might be able to do. The only way to answer that question is to try.
Friday, September 10, 2010
I appreciate the words of encouragement and advice about the picnic. The advice was to eat prior to the picnic - check. The other advice was to have fun and eat lightly. Partially done. I overate big time and it was mostly mindless eating. Even though I had eaten before I went, I was still ravenous! I entered a watermelon eating contest. I had never done that before. I ended up wearing more than eating it and laughing all the way through.
During the picnic, I had a very hard fall. Very superficial scrapes on both knees, both elbows and pain that worsened quickly. My shoulders and neck are really sore along with everything else. We were at a local park and the landscaping at the park includes some very large rocks. I have no peripheral vision straight down and I walked right into the rocks and fell over them. They had originally stationed trash bins around the rocks, but the cleaning staff had moved them. Everyone told me later that our VP of Legal Services fell in exactly the same way last year, but he bled more than I did, so I got teased about not having done as good a job. I left the picnic shortly thereafter and, as I was driving home, began to realize that I was really banged up. Fortunately, I made it home, though I was fighting falling asleep at every light.
I had a concussion two years ago that was pretty serious and it's possible that I rattled my brain with this fall. I could not focus on anything when I got home. I fell asleep for a while and am feeling much better. I expect to have some shoulder and neck soft tissue soreness tomorrow. But I have certainly had worse falls.
More concerning: why did I not, why could I not stop eating? It was as if I were watching someone scarf down all that food! I'll find out the consequences tomorrow morning when I weigh in...
Thanks for the encouragement! I wish I had handled this situation differently...
Thursday, September 09, 2010
My boyfriend's sister is undergoing radiation treatment for cancer. I think it's uterine cancer. Scared. Terrified. I wish Atlanta were not clear across the country! Of course, they have no money. I am not even sure she has insurance. They have a son who is mentally and physically challenged. He is in his late teens, maybe close to 20, but is a child. I cannot imagine how much he comprehends. BF does not handle stress well at all and I am praying that he does not fall off the wagon in his concern for Carmen. She is much older than he is and, in some ways, was more of a mom to him than his own mother had time to be.
Thank you to all of you who responded to my status post with promises of prayer and words of encouragement. It means more than I can express.
I have had a good week, but only time will tell if I make my weekly goal of a 1.5 pound loss. I have not kept that goal completely front and center. I have had an easy time getting the water in and a fairly good week staying in range with food (for the most part). On Tuesday, I did increase my step count by 500 to 6K a day. I've been able to exceed that, but having the low number reminds me to be considerate of my tendon!
Strength training progress is just barely perceptible, but it is there. Twice I did not do anything in the elevator, but that was after my tendon warned me to slow down.
I measured the length of my hair today. Not quite long enough to donate, but, if Carmen loses her hair, I am seriously contemplating shaving my head as a gesture of solidarity. I did not do that when a close friend had cancer of the esophagus (she would not have appreciated the gesture) and Dad never lost his hair, so.......thinking...Carmen already has balding hair anyway, so it won't surprise me if she does lose it all if only temporarily. There is at least one charity that takes donated hair and makes hair pieces for children who have lost their hair. It is against SP site policy for me to mention the name of this charity or that of the fundraiser walk in November...(different cause).
I mentioned last month that I saw a Secret of Success that someone posted where the puts money in her swear jar and is going to use that for her smaller wardrobe. I turned that to a positive and have been setting aside change every day for good acts such as: 8 glasses of water, 5 ST exercises, 10 minutes of exercise, 5K steps (I will raise that soon!), doing chores...I have over $18 so far!
And that's without succeeding in every measure every day! WOOHOO!
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Yesterday, I came to work to learn that my department was having lunch brought in for a team event. I knew today was going to be lunch in as well for a mandatory training session. I was actually disappointed - not only did I not get my lunchtime walk, I also had to miss the Toastmaster meeting. I knew it was going to be pizza and, much as I love pizza, I don't like the vendors the company chooses...
So....I ate half of the lunch I had saved from yesterday before the meeting. I DID have a piece of pizza, cheese with veggies. I did not finish it. It was a new vendor and it was disappointing....
Knowing I was going to miss my lunch walk, I took every opportunity I could to get steps in and I ended with over 9K. I still use the elevator, but I use the time in the elevator to do some very simple exercises (hip flexors, wall pushups, wall squats). While I nuke my lunch I do calf raises. While waiting for the elevator, I do Achilles tendon stretches. This last exercise is one my orthopedic surgeon gave me to do decades ago after the surgery. I can really feel that I did a lot today!
Thank you for your comments on my friend feed and page about the pizza challenge! You really helped me not cave in and eat 4 or more pieces!
I love my Spark Family!
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