Saturday, June 26, 2010
What a fabulous day! It was a long day, but a marvelous one! I had to be on campus by 7:30 am for 9:00 graduation. We were running late, so we stopped at Mcdonalds (cringe) and I had a sausage mcmuffin. Getting there that early meant lots of standing around. I parked on the edge of campus which meant I had a lot of walking to do. That was very necessary because the day also meant a lot of sitting!
I was blessed to get the chance to sit next to my favorite fellow student during the service. We are both Phi Theta Kappa honor graduates and there were not many of us there. There were lots of honor graduates, but only a small handful sporting the PTK regalia. From what I could see, we received extra loads of congratulations from the faculty, which was heartwarming.
I had no family there, but my BF was there. A close friend from work was there with her friend and my paralegal mentor also came. That meant a lot because it's a big deal to ask people to give a chunk of their Saturday!
As we left the field, we walked a gauntlet of faculty to rousing congratulations and applause. I was thrilled to see the director of the paralegal program there. He is not usually at the ceremony and for him to greet me by name and for me to be able to shake his hand and say thank you meant a lot!
I did not get to meet with my fellow graduate for the photo we wanted. That was one of two disappointments of the day.
We drove about half an hour away for lunch at Black Bear Diner. Again, I was humbled that people chose to come. Joining those who attended the graduation was my fellow student Dee (she has 3 more classes to go) and her husband. We had a great time. Excellent food, good conversation and lots of laughs. As it happened, BF and I were the last to arrive. He had forgotten his meds, so we drove home before going to the restaurant. About a block from the restaurant, we were rear ended at a stop light. Not seriously damaged, but I do have to fix one of the license plate lights because I think I risk a ticket if I don't. The bumper is dented a smidge and some paint is leaving, but I think it is structurally intact. The other driver did not have her license with her and I could have called the police. However, due to budget cuts, they don't like to come out if there are no injuries. She could have been arrested and had her car towed, I think. I did not want to keep my friends waiting any longer and I didn't feel like making her day any worse than it was. I did file a claim with my insurance company and also spoke with hers. I don't have a good feeling about that company, but it may be because we are already in an adversarial relationship. As it happens, I have already scheduled my car for service on Tuesday for other things and would like to get the light fixed at the same time. I told the agent I don't want to take it in twice and I don't want to risk a ticket. They want me to wait for an inspection by their agent and there's telling when that would happen since they may not even call me until Tuesday. ARGH! Yvonne had her camera there so she took pictures of the light and other damage.
The food was great and I ate way over the daily limit, but, for a week's time, I am still in range because I was low most of the week. Back in the saddle tomorrow!
It was a fabulous day! I felt great! I looked great! I enjoyed the entire day!
Friday, June 25, 2010
I am hungry, sore and tired. I am still staying on the low end of the nutrition because of tomorrow's post-graduation celebration lunch at Black Bear Diner. Even with a small cup of ice cream at work, I am low! Amazing! We have an ice cream social at work 3 times during the summer and I used to go through the line more than once with several scoops each time. I almost didn't have any at all, but they had some sort of triple chocolate decadence!
My tendonitis flared up again and I am taking it easy tonight. Tomorrow is the graduation procession, so I don't want to have balance or gait issues. The disability guy called me late this afternoon to let me know there WILL be a rail on the stairs to the stage. I told him I will get there early so I can get a front row seat. I need to be there by about 7:30 or even earlier! It is going to hot, so I worry about my guests and me in the hot cap and gown with the very heavy stole, double honor cords and Phi Theta Kappa key. I am bringing the tassel and stole the college provides with the gown. the stole says "Honors" and I am also brining my Phi Theta Kappa regalia. The bookstore does not show me on the list of PTK graduates, so I am bringing both in case there is an issue at the last minute.
Everyone at work asks me when I am leaving! I will be looking, but it would be horribly impolitic to say that at work! I don't expect to make any changes until or unless one of those great offers comes through...I am not in a hurry. I would love to make more money, but I don't need to add any more upheaval to my life right now. By the same token, with the new CEO coming on board in September, I would be prudent to dust off the resume and make sure my ducks are in a row...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I was so drained last night that, while I wanted to spark and get my daily points, I made the choice to go to sleep, figuring it would help me get through the day today. I hate being tired at work! Yesterday, I ended up below in almost all the food metrics, despite having eaten out twice! I will have a celebratory lunch out on Saturday at a restaurant that does not do anything in moderation, so I am not going to hit the panic button.
I hated leaving points on the table, more so when I had to nap in my car for lunch today instead of walking. I really hate not putting in a real day's work and I hated missing my walk! UGH!
Last night, I turned in my final exam. I am not sure when the class grades will be posted, but I suspect it will be next week. That means going through the graduation ceremony without knowing my final grade! It is supposed to be HOT for the ceremony. I'm not looking forward to melting in my cap and gown. The school has such disjointed communications, I don't know what to expect. They say wear sun screen, carry water, but we are not allowed to carry anything! I went to talk to disability services yesterday. The letter we received for graduation said we had to call before June 14 if we had access concerns. I left 2 messages before that date and two after with no response. I went up to the office- I was a student there for 4 years without even knowing about this office! The secretary had a huge name plate on her desk but was busy chit chatting for several moments while I stood in front of her. Finally, she acknowledged me. I asked about the seating (it's on the track field surrounded by bleachers) because I was concerned about negotiating stairs without a rail. I also asked if there's a stage and, if so, if there are stairs with or without a rail. She could not answer my questions.
Turns out her supervisor is the guy she was chit chatting with! He could not tell me, either! He made several comments about not being one of their students and it took me a while to realize that he meant that I was not a student who was using their services. He said he could not tell me because they won't set everything up until tomorrow. Without thinking it will do any good, I gave him my name and cell phone number so he can let me know about the access. He was amazingly condescending...
I've resolved that I will need to get there even earlier than I planned just so I can hopefully secure a front row seat and scope out a rail or an available arm for the steps...Perhaps going through the ceremony was not a good idea! I do not want to do a face plant in front of thousands of people!
They do these graduations every year and I have been flabbergasted throughout the process how little information the employees who do this every year seem to have! I was in customer service for decades, so I have pretty high standards.
My attitude about my job has not improved. I hate this...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
This morning, someone brought in doughnuts. I love cake doughnuts. I love chocolate cake doughnuts. I love doughnuts. It was almost noon when I learned about the doughnuts and I did not have any carbo planned in my lunch. I could have had the last cake doughnut that was subliminally calling my name. I had room in my nutrition metrics.
Thank goodness for the nutrition section in SparkPeople. I saw the calories for the doughnut and decided my Kashi bar would be a better choice. I really, honestly, enjoyed that Kashi bar, too! I did not fully form the thought in my head, but I knew this was a decision point. Yes, I could "afford" the doughnut, but I deserved something that is more nutritionally beneficial.
Today is my paternal grandmother's wedding anniversary to her 3rd husband, the one I knew best. They are both long gone, but I cannot help but remember the date. Tomorrow is the anniversary of my aunt's death. She died 6 years before I was born and I am named after her. Either today or tomorrow is the 29th anniversary of my older brother's death. (We don't know for sure because he drowned on a camping trip while saving another Boy Scout's life) I am the only family member who remembers these dates. This week is not a sad week most years, but it is a week of remembrance. Such is the case this year.
Today, I received an email that blazed through my day. My sister filed for divorce this morning. They had been married just over 10 years (anniversary last month). They have 3 children, the eldest of which is seven. They are both teachers and she is the major breadwinner despite his PhD. Late this afternoon, she called me. It was so good to hear her voice! She is fragile and strong at the same time. She says now we will be able to talk more often. My heart hurts for her. They will tell the children on Saturday, she thinks, and he will move out early next week. Just unhappy and ugly. But I am so proud of her for making the decision she thinks is right for the children and for her. I am older, but I wish I could follow her example!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Virtual journey update: about 50 miles from Eureka, moving slowly, kind of burnt out and disinterested.
I realized today that I really don't like my present work situation, realized on a different level. Last week, I mentioned about the attorney chewing me out one day and being almost too nice the next. When she was chewing me out, she said I would never survive working in a law firm, that they'd chew me up and spit me out. Then she backtracked and said I could handle it, but you can't unsay something like that. I mentioned the conversation to my mentor, who is a practicing attorney and he was dumbfounded and disagreed with her.
Today she emailed me about a project I'm doing for her. I suppose she was just asking when it will be done, but it did not come across that way. Part of that is just the stiffness of email, part of it is that my hackles raised. So I kept my answer very short and to the point. Not terse or rude, just matter of fact. Her response was rather terse, but that could be just email. I probably should have called her, but didn't think of that until just now. I told her that I had taken some time off from the project because of school finishing up, the medical procedure that made me feel like crap for a week... This project is the one that I can do only on overtime. Glad to have it, but after that interaction last week, I am a bit gunshy about being anywhere near her! This is probably in the "just do it" category.
I was surprised to see my pedometer said I got over 7K steps today. I could hardly move due to the flareup of the tedonitis. On top of that, I have a really sore back for no known reason. It hurts to breathe! It's a sore area above my bra strap that aches if I breathe more than shallowly. It will pass.
I am trying to eat on the low end of the scale this week because Saturday is graduation day with a celebration lunch. That is the bright spot in a rather bleak week. I am a bit burnt out, unable to exercise, unenthusiastic in everything, stressed about work and finances.
I don't have the money to rev up my wardrobe for job hunting, am not ready for that job, but feel that the job of job hunting will be upon me soon.
However, I saw a car on the way home that made me think of Dad. When I first met him, he drove an older Volvo coupe that was a grey poupon color. The car I saw today was the same model and year, but a bright white. Not sure how much stock I put into "signs", but it did lift my spirits to see the car and think of him!
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