Sunday, June 20, 2010
Tendonitis flared up again. My heel has been sore most of the week, but I thought it was manageable. Today, I am really hobbled, so no real exercise today. Just going grocery shopping was too much!
I tried on my dresses that I bought for graduation and the party. I did not remember that they are not identical patterns. They are identical prints, one in red and the other in blue. The red is a halter dress and is almost ankle length. The blue is a regular sundress with straps and the skirt falls to the calf. The red one is a bit more form fitting, but the bodice fits better on it than on the blue one. The blue one is just a tad big up top, and that, I assure you, is a novelty! Right now, I'm thinking I'll wear the red under my cap and gown for graduation day and the blue for the party.
Tomorrow is Father's Day. Dad died 02/13/2005. Some days I can handle it, others not. I am glad I have the final exam to do tomorrow. This will not a a year when father's day will be easy. But I won't drown my loss with carbs!
Friday, June 18, 2010
After I blogged yesterday, I continued to eat and I ended up eating about 15 calories above goal. I didn't want to log them in, but I had just seen a post about being honest in the food tracker.
Today, I woke up HUNGRY! I forgot that lunch was a celebratory lunch at Passage to India, an Indian buffet. I entered everything as well as I could and discovered that I ate about two max days of calories! YIKES! One of my supervising attorneys took me out to celebrate my pending graduation. A former employee joined us which was nice but awkward.
Despite great intentions, I did not get enough sleep last night and today was terrible.
I'm glad I am not stuck in "diet" thinking or I would be hating me right now. Plus, today's blowout would be the perfect excuse to give up and continue eating.
Not this time. I get to start again tomorrow!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I stayed within range for most nutritional metrics, did not walk as much as I thought I would.
It was a sluggish day. The day dragged on and I was TIRED.
I am discovering that sleep really is more important than the way I live it.
Tonight, to bed earlier and tomorrow should be more productive!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I was hungry most of the day and ended up at the top of almost all nutritional metrics, but not over in anything...
I had some short walks during the day and the usual lots of walking at school. I will have to make some deliberate choices with school ending in order to keep moving! I ended up with just over 11K steps...
It was so hot at class that we were all sleepy. The judge cut the lecture short and that meant that I was driving home much earlier than usual. The sun was at the wrong angle. I COULD NOT see the road for large chunks. I probably should have pulled over, gone and had a coffee or something, even gone for a walk, but I had gone a different way and I don't know the area well. So I crept, slowly, praying. Made it home, but I will plan it better for next week!
Ironic that this last class has included negligence and there I was risking negligent driving. UGH! Not smart.
I am so thankful that nothing horrible happened and I am home! My eyes feel burned (even with my HD sunglasses, it was super intense!). No one got hurt, no property damage...Thank you, Lord!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Thank you, SparkFriends, for your support! I posted a status note this morning that I was feeling on edge. That was because of the stuff at work. I really appreciate the support my SP community has given me.
I had the follow up meeting with the attorney today. This afternoon, she was all gentleness and professionalism, as if a light switch had been turned. I still feel as if the other shoe will drop. When I first asked for help on this issue months ago, her boss who used to be my boss, told me to see her. She kept putting me off. It started in February. We talked yesterday and she told me to do two things and that she was going to talk to outside counsel. Today it turns out what she meant was, since she was going to talk to outside counsel, I should hold off on those two things. ARGH. So not only did she talk to outside counsel, after we had our meeting this afternoon, she talked to our CFO. Steve is a wonderful guy and he came and asked me for the background on the situation. I really appreciated his very low key and practical approach!
The ultimate deal is, I think they are going to do what I suggested 2 years ago. That suggestion fell on deaf ears. I am not an attorney, I am very low on the hierarchy so of course it was not noted.
But I still get to deal with the fallout. The VP of Legal is the mercurial one and I do not want to get called into his office for another "coachable moment", especially since he does not investigate first and, in this snafu, I don't think I am in the wrong. We shall see...
I did not quite get my steps in today - I would have had I walked at lunch. But I thought I would want to walk after the meeting (midafternoon). But I was tasked with a ton of stuff, almost as if the attorney decided to clear some items off her to do list. I should not complain, I am glad to be busy, to be working, but I would dearly like to feel appreciated!
Food was within range except for low in calcium. I felt like chowing down, stuffing my face. Part of it is the stress and part is the threatened TOM. That may also contribute to the stress over the last two days at work. If so, it will pass! I am less afraid of being fired, but I am very worried about the office politics. I am already isolated from the rest of my team (both by reassignment and by proxmity or lack thereof). This situation could easily become even more untenable.
To answer a comment on a blog from a few weeks or days ago - I am taking the advice and backing down on everything I can just to get through the next 3 weeks. Tomorrow night is my last class lecture. We will take home the final
and turn that in next week (the 23rd). Graduation is the 26th and my party is July 7. Yesterday, several people made a comment about how skinny I am getting. That surprises me because I have not lost that much and I have so far to go, but it was nice to hear.
One person who commented is my good friend Yvonne. She has been gaining weight, partly because she is unhappy and partly because she is on steroids. She is not ready to embark on a journey such as I am, so all I can do is live the example.
The day ends with the sad news that a young former coworker has died. He was 24 and we worked together at a car dealership (I worked there part time for 15 years until the end of October last year). I don't know what happened, but he was only 26. Rest in peace, young Ray!
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