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Thursday, May 27, 2010

Virtual Journey Update: 63 miles from Eureka. Today being a school night is usually a day when I get over 12K steps, but I woke up feeling really sore from yesterday's walking. I decided to take it easy today. I still walked and was on my feet a lot, but I shortened the walk at lunch. Even with that modification, I got in 10,015 steps. Amazingly, the stiffness did not last all day, but the soreness did.

I ended up eating within calories, but over on carbs and under on calcium and fat. I am surprised whenever everything is within balance. It's a work in progress!

The one day challenge today was to be calm and relaxed in the face of irritating drivers and other situations like that. I started the day, before I even read the post, with that mindset and it carried through the entire day! What a piece of heaven that was!

I found out my coworker Charlotte died Thursday morning from, probably, an undiagnosed heart condition. Her youngest is not even a year old. I don't know how old the other 3 children are, but their loss is incalculable. I emailed her husband, introduced myself, made a few comments about Charlotte, offered help and said he does not need to respond unless I can help - I didn't want him to feel any more burdened.

Yesterday, I mentioned the school a few blocks away from my house that was vandalized. My company is sending $1000 towards an alarm system, the admin council is working on sending copy paper and the IT and legal teams are discussing whether we can donate older laptops. I have been given the awesome opportunity to work with my coworkers for any other donations. I have dreams of getting some of our technical staff to go to the school (probably next fall) to do a career fair - something to show these students what they could do, what they could become. The school is a magnet school for science and I work at a science think tank. The school teaches the basic English, history, math and science, but in all the coursework, the focus is science. I am hoping the career fair would ignite some possibility thinking for these youngsters. (Kindergarten through 8th grade). I told the VPs who approved all this that I could not feel more ecstatic were this for my benefit. I am just so thrilled to help out this very poor school!

My class was short because the judge is the duty judge this week and he had to go sign a search warrant. He gave us 3 cases to read over this coming long weekend, so I can add that to the other 3 cases to read for the paper I need to write. I'll be stuffing my mind with no time to stuff my face this weekend! HA!

What a great day! Made all the better by the comments and feedback from you, my Spark family!

  
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BREW99 5/27/2010 2:17PM

    Sounds like you are so busy! Keep up the good work and don't worry about the values of each day. Tomorrow will come again for a new chance at getting it closer.

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CARRAND 5/27/2010 2:00PM

    Way to go with both the steps and the community involvement. You're a great lady.

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JAKEANDNELLIE 5/27/2010 10:48AM

    I am so proud of you for your involvement in getting your company to help the school!
You have truly done a wonderful thing!
I'm also glad to see how happy and positive you have become!
You have made incredible progress!
Sheila

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/27/2010 9:51AM

  nice that the company you work for is sending money to help out. :) you are a very nice person for emailing your coworkers husband and introducing yourself to him. i can't imagine what he is going through right now with their kids. :( so very *very* sad. :(

hope you have a great thursday

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JHADZHIA 5/27/2010 9:26AM

    Way to go on your steps! Awesome job getting on helping that school out! You are wonderful for doing that!! You are a very caring and considerate person, I am so lucky to have you as a Spark friend!
I too, struggle with my nutrient ratios, as I am perennially low on fat. Fruits and veggies just don't have that in them!
Keep up the great work!

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ROX2013 5/27/2010 1:18AM

    Way to go!!! You are a true wonderperson. I love the idea for the school donations and that you are getting involved in outside projects. Sounds like it is going to be a weekend of reading alot, but it does get you closer to your final goal. It is going to be quiet around here this weekend ( I hope). My one nephew who was laid off from where he worked for the last 10 yrs called him back this week, I am so glad he is back to work he is not a person who handles idle time well. I think my sister and I may have a cookout Monday but she wont be home till Saturday or Sunday so we may just have a quiet weekend. Have a great holiday weekend!!! emoticon

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15K, Reviewing, Loving My Community

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Virtual Journey Update: Over the past 3 days, I've logged in something over 8 miles, so I am now 67 miles away from Eureka. So much has been going on, I've forgotten to keep up....

Today was no exception. I was on my feet all day, off and on. I took a longer walk at lunch and thoroughly enjoyed it. I marveled that this was the longest distance yet and I STILL had time to eat and Spark before the hour was up. I walked for 25 minutes! When I started this journey, 5K steps a day seemed insurmountable. Today was 15445 and tomorrow is my day when I get a lot of steps normally (school tomorrow night). A long way to go, but I have come a long way. Walking is becoming a daily event and I can feel myself getting stronger.

I saw a news article today that the school a few blocks away from my home was vandalized for the second time. I live in a very poor part of a rich part of Silicon Valley. I sent a note to my Sr VP of Legal asking if my company could do anything and she told me to call the school, find out what they need and the company would make a donation. It probably won't be a big one, but when our experts get paid a speaker fee for a seminar, that money goes into the charitable fund and that's what she is authorizing for a donation. I called and asked for the principal after I found the phone number and her name. She was not in, but, when I told the receptionist why I was calling, I could hear how overwhelmed she was, so grateful!

This is a technical charter school and I'm also wanting to find out what they focus on. If it's an area in which our scientists have expertise, maybe I can persuade them to do a career day for these children. As Plutarch said, (paraphrasing) A mind is not something to be filled, it is to be kindled. That would make some good come out of the damage. Every classroom (13) was vandalized - stuff was broken, stolen and even plants that the chilren were growing were distroyed!

I had a big lunch today after having half an egg and cereal for breakfast. I've noticed when I have protein at breakfast, I usually don't get quite so hungry. The lunch was big in terms of calories, but not extravagant. I still have plenty for dinner. I did not have my usual 2 snacks, didn't need them.

As I think about the past few days, it has been rewarding to look at all the support you have given me. I was pretty close to giving up late last week. You kept me going. My Sparkfriend was verbally abused and left and I still feel horrible about that, but y'all supported me in my blog comments about that. My coworker died suddenly and you all shared in my sense of sorrow for her family - how could I be anything but grateful?! emoticon or, more to the point, I LOVE my SP community!

  
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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/26/2010 3:41PM

  You are doing so amazing. :) I noticed that also about the protein for breakfast - makes me feel fuller for the rest of the day. :) Now, that I know that... I will eat a lot of protein in the morning for breaky. :)

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LIBBYFITZ 5/26/2010 9:55AM

    You are one amazing woman and I am pleased you decided to stick with Sp. emoticon emoticon

So sad to hear about the vandalism, some very angry people out there. Love the thought of giving the children work experience.

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MEGANC1988 5/26/2010 12:17AM

    I love that you're making a difference with your neighborhood school, and all that walking is AWESOME! Keep it up!

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NONIE_C 5/25/2010 11:46PM

    I'm so excited for you and the progress you've made (are making). It makes me smile to hear of your successes. I'm also glad you are feeling the love and support of your SP community, even as another member had the horrible misfortune of seeing the darker side of Spark. I wonder if there's a way to report people who abuse. There should be. And, finally, I am so moved by your motivation and gesture to help out the school in your neighborhood. That is just wonderful! You are just wonderful!
Hope you have a great night, take care of those sore dogs of yours, and get 'em ready to do some hoofin' tomorrow. Have a fantastic Wednesday.
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ROX2013 5/25/2010 11:38PM

    I spent 3 hours helping my niece pack and move boxes to be loaded on the truck tomorrow to go to her new place. I have found muscles I forgot I had today! Hopefully, we will finish tomorrow!

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JHADZHIA 5/25/2010 11:17PM

    Good for you getting so much walking done!! That is awesome!! I am glad you are feeling stronger, that is such good news!!
What an excellent idea helping that school out, glad they will do it! That is pretty awful destroying children's work, how low can they sink to??
You have had a pretty upsetting week. I love this community and hate to hear about someone being forced to leave :( because people are being mean. That is not what Sparks is here for and the people doing it should be given the boot.
I am here for support, not judgement. We all are.
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Take Every Chance to Share Love and Kindness (RIP Charlotte)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Thank you, everyone, for your wonderful support on yesterday's blog. I still ache for the young woman who left SP under such lonely circumstances. I know I was right to say something, and I would feel that way even without the support that I received.

I stepped on the scale yesterday after not having done so the previous week and was glad to see I'd lost 2.7 lbs. I am nervous about this week. For 3 consecutive days, I have been well under the nutritional range. Just not hungry. Quite a different feeling for me!

Today was going to be a day of getting completely back on track. By accident, I did get in over 10K steps, even without my lunchtime walk. I went to luch with a friend and, despite an unexpected menu change, managed to eat a good meal. My local KFC no longer makes their great grilled chicken salad. I had a piece of chicken, a small green salad with about a 3rd of a packet of dressing and a biscuit.

Just before lunch, the company received an email with sad news, so I was quite distracted at lunch, but did not realize until later in the day how distracted I was.

I put in more than 2 hours overtime tonight and, as I got ready to leave, I realized I did not have my car keys! A momentary panic set in. Then I remembered I have my spare key at work. I drove to the KFC, praying all the way, and, sure enough, they had my keys in the safe! Prayers of thanksgiving, I assure you!

The reason I left them there was being distracted by the email. We learned that one of my coworkers died suddenly late last week. I saw her Wednesday or Thursday and had a fleeting thought that she did not look well. The email did not say what happened, but I learned she leaves a husband and four children, the youngest still being nursed.

This is the second time I've had that sense. Several years ago, I saw my friend Pam at work. I had been working at another office for two years, been transferred back to the HQ and she was showing me her new car. As we parted, I thought she did not look well. That was Thanksgiving week and she died of a heart attack during the weekend. Seeing the email about Charlotte brought back Pam's loss front and center. I knew Pam and her father and worked with her, so the loss was greater.

I did not know Charlotte well, but we said hello in the halls and I thought she had a lovely smile. The privacy room where she would express her milk was near my office, so I saw her several times a day. We worked in completely different groups, so there was no professional interaction. But I've now missed the chance to get to know the woman behind the smile and I am diminished by that loss. My heart aches for her family, for her husband, for those children and everyone else for whom her passing is a tragedy.

One of my SP teams has a goal of practicing random acts of kindness. I think, instead of doing that now, I am going to make a point to say something nice to someone different every day. Not to assuage any guilt, but to bring some sunshine in someone else's day.

I wish I did not have such a sad reminder that we really need to share the good thoughts we have while we have the chance.

Rest in peace, Charlotte!

  
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TUDI4480 5/28/2010 12:26AM

    I'm sending lots of positive healing light to Charlotte's family. And to you. emoticon emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/25/2010 10:37AM

  I am really sorry of your co-workers passing. My prayers go out to Charlotte's family.

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JAVALOVERTOO 5/25/2010 10:21AM

    Prayers for Charlotte's family.

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LIBBYFITZ 5/25/2010 2:40AM

    Very sad, thinking of all the people who pass away. I met a cousin in Holland 10 years ago and always intended to go back and visit, he has passed away. I am grateful for the fact that my daughter and I had the opportunity to meet him, a very lovely man. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 5/25/2010 2:14AM

    Praying for Charlotte's family. May God protect and comfort them in their grief.

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JHADZHIA 5/25/2010 1:55AM

    That is tragic to say the least :( Here is to sharing good thoughts while we have the chance!

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NURSEJEANNIE 5/25/2010 1:03AM

  I love the way you said that, "we really need to share the good thoughts we have while we have the chance. "

My grandma used to say, "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all... but if you CAN think of something nice, then for Pete's sake, SAY IT!"

Thank you for the reiminder, to say & do all the good we can, while we can.

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NONIE_C 5/25/2010 12:58AM

    My thoughts and prayers go out to Charlotte's family. I hope her passing was peaceful. And I know what you mean about sharing good thoughts while we have the chance. It makes me think about something I've been coming back around to in my world - the idea of being present, doing things now and not putting them off.



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Stop! Think! (I'm Just Saying...!)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I just have to say this to get it off my still-ample chest.
I saw a note this morning that a SparkFriend is leaving the site in response to some really hateful comments and personal attacks for something personal that she shared in her blog. I an grieved for her pain, not just for the circumstances that gave her reason to share the blog, but I am ashamed, embarrassed that Sparkers would attack her.

First off, I am sure it took some courage for her to even share about the issue. Secondly, when she did, I can guess that she was hoping to find online the support she is not receiving in the people around her. Collectively, we let her down! Instead of offering support, she was verbally assaulted by Sparkers who chose to use the site as a platform to hammer her with their own religious views. There is a time and a place for such discourse, but I think the attacks were ill-advised.

It sounds as if the attackers were focused on the issue in an abstract sense and forgot to consider the person who was reaching out for help. As I told her, I experienced very similar responses in my earlier life and it is for those reasons I don't share my own opinions about religion, politics and.......other things. So now, what these Sparkers have done is inflicted more hurt than she was already feeling. They have driven her from the site and, in so doing, made her feel all the more isolated than she was.

The purpose of this site, as I understand it, is to give all comers a place where they can find SUPPORT on their lifestyle change journey, LEARN how to make better choices about nutrition and other aspects of life, FREEDOM of speech, within reason, to share what they are going through. It goes back to what Mother always said, if you can't say something nice, don't say something at all.

We all know that working on our food issues can have a positive impact on other areas of our life. We need to RESPECT each other enough to think before we speak. Don't focus on the issue so much that you forget there's a person behind the words to which you are so vehemently reacting. Another rule of thumb is to put down what you have to say, but sit on it for time before you send it. If you still feel that way after time has allowed cooler heads to prevail, then by all means have the courage of your convictions. But, CONSIDER the possible consequences of sending that note!

I am mindful that this blog may garner negative response. I will see who my true Spark friends are, I suppose. I came to this site with a lot of trepidation, hope and some measure of despair. I have learned and grown on this site. I have a lot more self-knowledge about my food issues and other issues, but I still have a tender heart. Say what you want to say and I will exercise my freedom to read (or not) and respond (or not). One of my values is to offer support and encouragement and to speak out when I think something has gone wrong. I am mindful that I don't know the whole story, but I also saw that the damage has been done.

My heart breaks for that young woman and I just had to respond.

  
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MIMAWELIZABETH 5/27/2010 2:41AM

    KUDOS to all you said! I literally JUST sent a message to a Sparkfriend saying how lucky we've been to not have faced negativity and back-biting on our teams. I read about others' experiences, and my heart breaks for them.

I sure hope there's a way to stay in touch with her?! In time, perhaps she'll see that the majority of Sparkers do NOT act in harsh, hateful and judging ways.

Most important, there are so many helpful tools and resources on Spark, I wish I could suggest that she drop out (for as long as she wishes) as far as blogs and message boards, but stay with Spark for all the other positives.
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WILLMAKEITCOUNT 5/25/2010 12:09PM

    Honestly, I too have had issues with people making ugly remarks. As you said you told her, you don't share your own opinions about religion, politics and.......I don't either due to the issues. But I had ugly remarks on other things the site is for: weight-food-etc. I have just deleted the comments! But it does hurt-I too thought we were here to support each other. When it happened to me I had posted status of my hurt, "if you have negative opinions, don't read my blog or just leave blog-no comments needed!"

I agree with someone who suggested you're friend come back under a different name and just have a few GOOD friends who will support her! She can add me, I will give support! Maybe she will consider this choice!


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LIBBYFITZ 5/25/2010 3:41AM

    I was saddened to read this blog about the friend who felt a need to leave the site. I naively thought this site was and is all about support, this is so not on! I agree with someone who suggested you're friend come back under a different name and just have a few friends she can trust. emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 5/25/2010 2:11AM

    I am so sorry for what you friend went through...I do not know who you are talking about, but I am praying for her.

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JHADZHIA 5/25/2010 1:54AM

    That is sad that this would happen on Sparks :( I have found it to be such a wonderful, supportive community. Its a real shame people must impose their religious views on someone else. Unfortunately, that is why, so often wars occur. One country/ faith thinks their God is the true one and must wipe out all the unbelievers, etc. Spark should be a totally open place where any one can have a say, within reason, about what ever moves them and not be open to personal attack. If you don't like what they are saying, fine, you don't have to read it, let alone comment. This isn't about religion, its about a healthy lifestyle change, what all our goal should be. How we get there, what we believe in, should be up to us without judgement by others! I too, had a Spark buddy, who withdrew because of a negative comment. She gradually came back, but only to a select few and now keeps her page private. That is not Spark's intention. Its sad it has to happen!

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ROX2013 5/25/2010 1:18AM

    I have been off line lately with my sat dish problem. So when I read this blog today it broke my heart. If it was someone who knew and because of being offline missed being there to be supportive. I am a christian, but I was raised to live by the golden rule and also that we will all face God on judgement day and will answer to him for judgement. As it says "let he who has no sin cast the first stone". I may not agree with someone's actions, politics etc but if I disagree than I don't respond one way or the other. But I never use that disagreement as a right to put someone else down, to judge them or to pass on my beliefs as the only right one and treat someone else without respect and courtesy. I am saddened that there are those on Spark as well in the world who can judge others harshly but not look inward at what they do in the same way. I hope your this lady comes back.

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NONIE_C 5/25/2010 1:03AM

    HERE, HERE to everything you posted, and to all the wonderfully supportive replies. This site is/should be all about support. And that's that!!!
I'm sorry this woman was abused into leaving the site; it really breaks my heart.

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DETERMINDCHICKY 5/24/2010 3:54PM

    I actually posted a message board thread on this very topic. There is a group of sparkers that hunts together. They look for weak woman who are in victim mode and they attack. Of course, they don't see it as an attack but the poor woman with the bleeding heart does. It's horrid to see people so incapable of tact and compassion. I hope your blog opens some eyes.

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SHANTRA 5/24/2010 3:40PM

    Great blog and well said. I have no idea what this is about but I have been through something similar and all I wanted to do was run and hide too. Hopefully she will come back.. block the people who hurt her and hold her head up that she is NOT like them.

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PONDERTHIS 5/24/2010 2:33PM

    A great blog - it is the sort of thing we hoped to all have learned in kindergarten: do unto others as we would have others do unto us. Mean people are everywhere, and it is so awful when they cloak their meanness as their "belief system". What I love about my computer is: it has a very functional delete button. I have deleted any messages to me that I felt were not supportive. If I don't show up on SP, it's because of my own delinquency, not that of someone else. Mean people, begone!
That being said, I am so sorry for your friend's experience. Maybe she can come back with a different identity and use the trackers, etc. There are great tools here, as well as great people, like you.
Thanks for your blog.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/24/2010 1:27PM

  well, that's horrible! :( i hope you keep in touch with her even though she left the site.

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FURANGEL 5/23/2010 5:46PM

    I don't know of the person or details of what you are referring too. But I do agree that Spark should be a forum for support and understanding.... negative a hurtful comments should not be a part of this social network...period. We are here to get and give support. 'nough said.

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JAVALOVERTOO 5/23/2010 2:17PM

    I don't know who you are referring too, if it's someone I do know I am even more saddened that I was not there for her. This is ridiculous and beyond sad and not right. I am so sorry for this woman who reached out and got smacked in the face. I pray for her...

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KAELIE 5/23/2010 2:02PM

  I'm glad you posted this. I am so saddened by her decision, but I do completely understand it. I had sent an email to her, because I have lived through a very similar experience, and I related to her what helped me through the crisis, and some compassion and virtual hugs. I hate to think that it was completely overshadowed by all of those other people who were not supportive or compassionate and actually hateful to her :(

That is one of the things I despise about social networking. People easily forget there is a living, breathing person on the other side of that blog/page/etc. I try not to personalize when someone offers advice or an opinion (everyone loves to offer up their two cents, and I'm very guilty of it myself) - but I always try to be positive, compassionate and encouraging, because I don't believe there is nearly enough of that in people's lives. I am going to be thinking of and praying for her.



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MICHELLENRGZED 5/23/2010 1:56PM

    Sorry! Long comment, but what you wrote makes me mad because I hate to see anyone upset or hurt or damaged in any way by the actions & comments of others. I can understand getting upset, but show someone some support instead of condemnation!

I have an idea of whom you speak, although I don't know of any of the things said to her. This breaks my heart, though, that someone would be attacked here on SP! I have no idea what the issues are that she wrote about, but, whatever they are, people should've offered her support. If they disagree with her, fine. However, as you said, they should've thought very carefully before commenting on anything & sought to be there for her. If a person disagrees with another or has something to say that doesn't go with what another agrees, fine. I've come across many instances like this in my life because of some of my own views that go against the majority. However, because I've also been around people who, for the most part, have agreed to disagree with me & accepted me nonetheless, I've rarely come across antagonism. Perhaps it's because I've mainly stated them in smaller circles.

That doesn't matter! Aren't we all adults here? Shouldn't we all have learnt by now that everyone matters & that everyone counts & that everyone needs support?

The part that bothers me the most in what you wrote is that it was mostly people whose religious views seemed to be offended who were the most vehement attackers. At least that's what I got. I'm a Christian who believes that everyone deserves love & support, not condemnation. It's up to God to judge if He will. I certainly don't see why people who are so-called religious think it's their place to put someone down for any reason. Disagree with what another says or with how they live - yes, that's fine, but don't put the person down. Each person needs love & support & respect, & it really angers me when people go & put someone down just because of what they say.

Let's show each other support & love here on SP - that's what the site's for, not putting others down. Many people already come here feeling low to begin with. Why not try to boost someone & to give a helping hand up instead of putting someone further down?

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TURQUOISELOTUS 5/23/2010 1:22PM

    Excellent blog! We all seem to be here for support, and I agree with you about offering POSITIVE support. So sad to hear that someone who already feels isolated now gets to feel even more isolated. My experience has been better in that I've just focused on teams that focus on my (very) particular life experiences and interests, and keep a circle supportive freinds -- and keep my energy concentrated there.

Thanks for telling it like it is!

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MISSY455 5/23/2010 12:59PM

    I am not aware of the instance you are describing, but in MHO, I agree that if you can't say something nice,or at least supportive, don't say anything at all. There are plenty of blogs that I read every day, and don't respond too. Either because I can't think of something positive to say, or I can't relate to what has been written about. We are all on our own journey here and don't need additional judgements made about us. In most cases, we get plenty of that in our day to day lives.

Thanks for speaking up Juneau!

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Burnt Out

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I am not proud today. It was an unintentionally blown day. I had a list of things to do, including exercise, and none of those things happened. I am tired, mentally, physically, emotionally. The reserves are gone and I am not sure the Spark is even flickering.

I guess it is flickering. I would not be posting were it not. Not sure how to get the flame and passion back!

Today, my little old cat Cilantro is 14. We almost lost her 3 years ago with that tainted food scare. I spent far more money on her medical bills than I ever thought I would. The vet wanted to put her down, but Bill was not ready. (She is his cat, a real daddy's girl!). As it turned out, she rallied and we have been BLESSED to have had this bonus time with her!

Please don't think this blog is merely for points or fishing for pats on the back. No, neither is true. I am sort of thinking out loud...

  
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FURANGEL 5/23/2010 5:55PM

    Don't beat yourself up. We all need a break from everything.
I give myself Saturday, I eat what I want, I exercise in the morning, only if I feel like it. I go shopping and try not to be too productive.....I need that. I recently started adding a 2 hour break on Sundays to hang out at the pool or book store, or whatever, to decompress. I'm Worth it, and so are you. You can't go at 100% all the time...believe me I've tried and I was stressed out all the time. Don't forget to Take Care of Yourself.

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TURQUOISELOTUS 5/23/2010 1:08PM

    It's totally ok to revamp your goals. Revisiting them once in a while is a good thing. Maybe that's all you have to do. When Life gets beyond overwhelming, I just commit myself to exercise, and don't obsess on the food. Sometimes you have to give yourself just little healthy goals.

As long as you avoid goals like, "Try very hard to an extra pound of chocolate today."

Happy Birthday to Cilantro! I hear you... cats are extra special, and more like friends and family than some people, LOL!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/23/2010 11:06AM

  emoticon That is so great that you didn't put your kitty down.. it's nice that she is still going strong today. :) Happy Birthday, Cilantro! :)

You know what? I have had *those* kind of days when I have missed exercising and wondered if the spark was still sparkling. Days that I have just wanted to give up. You just have to believe that your spark is still alive and you will succeed in whatever you need/or want to do.

Hope you have better days....

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IXCHEL23 5/23/2010 9:42AM

    You're not alone, I often times feel that way every day even but I can't be perfect and I'll get more stressed and depressed if I start to obsess on those things. If you're tired physically try to get to sleep earlier, do something relaxing even if it's for 15 minutes. Tomorrow is always a new day to start over and get resparked.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Cilantro!! Love that name, maybe b/c I love to eat cilantro.

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IXCHEL23 5/23/2010 9:42AM

    You're not alone, I often times feel that way every day even but I can't be perfect and I'll get more stressed and depressed if I start to obsess on those things. If you're tired physically try to get to sleep earlier, do something relaxing even if it's for 15 minutes. Tomorrow is always a new day to start over and get resparked.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Cilantro!! Love that name, maybe b/c I love to eat cilantro.

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UNIBOK 5/23/2010 8:25AM

    I hear you, Juneau! Your honesty speaks to many of us.

Remember, it's okay to back off on some of the goals for a while when you need to. Let go of some of your high expectations, and embrace doing well enough to get you through the day. I was so saddened to read KLEE's and JPROARK's withdrawls from SP this week -- they both got overwhelmed with having to do all of this all of the time. It really doesn't have to be that way, and we don't need to burn ourselves out. We can all give each other permission to lighten up on ourselves, and just do the best that can be done in this moment.

So, that is my wish for you: take these moments, and let them be whatever they are, whatever they need to be.

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ANDASI 5/23/2010 7:06AM

    It is hard to have a spark when we are tired so give youre self some rest. Im happy youre cat is doing well. We need to speak what is on our mind it helps. I myself was severly sleep deprived yesterday it was tough but i knew why i felt the way i did. I do feel much better this morning.

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DSUBIOPROF 5/23/2010 6:30AM

    We all have those times! Here's hoping your tiny spark becomes a flame again really soon!

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ANNEMAC5 5/23/2010 3:23AM

    Good blog, thinking out loud and been honest is great.

Nice to know there are normal SP who have days like me when they make a plan and then nothing happens

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