Thursday, May 06, 2010
A month or so ago, on the one day challenge team, the suggestion was to create a visual representation of either pounds lost or of pound to be lost. I decided to do both. I gathered up a bunch of those paperclips that are covered in colorful plastic. I took two big ones and hooked strings of 10 to one. At that point, I had lost 10 pounds, so I put one string on the other. The week after that, I lost a pound, so I moved one clip over. And there it sat for a few weeks. Long story short, I now have 16 clips on the lost side. A little down about that, I thought it was far too slow. I have been so focused on wanting to lose 10% (old WW goal) that I lost sight of where I am. The 16 pounds lost, gone forever, means I have lost 20% of what I need to lose! Perhaps I should let go of the old goal and reward myself now for this new milestone. Hmmm.
This week has been going very well, sort of. I decided to back off on the 10K steps per day and aim for 12K on alternate days and, on the days I do what passes for strength training 5K. That has worked very well so far! Over 13K on Monday and over 12K today. I was careful not to use the stairs yesterday and moved gently. My weaker leg and knee appreciated that. My knee was still sore today so I skipped the stairs, but managed to walk anyway. I like backing off of the all or nothing thoughts I had. Telling myself to be gentle with reminders to take care is a novelty.
I know I need to do a lot more in terms of exercise and strength training. Little by little, I learn a new exercise or find I am walking faster, with less pain or have more endurance.
The scale and the tape measure are not agreeing with my self-assessment. My clothes feel looser, my body moves more easily, I almost feel as if I stand taller. Of course I want the tonnage to be gone now, of course, I want to be strong and beautiful now.
Sidebar: yesterday, I saw a blog here where the lady is a fit model. I really wanted to add her picture to my page to serve as an inspiration. Not that I want to work quite that hard, but I would like to look somewhat that fit. Perhaps inspiration is not the word because I didn't feel as if I would light the world on fire and do what she has done. Admiration is probably more accurate. I will be who I am, I will be stronger, I will be more healthy. Along with that comes the mental strength and emotional balance to see myself clearly and to value myself appropriately. No vanity, but appreciation of the total person. I'm not saying this eloquently, but I can already tell that this journey is creating a whole person inside and out.
I've been getting that crazy message about me working out more than my calories again. Last time I monkeyed with that, I started a plateau. I'm going to leave it be for a bit and see how I feel. I've been hovering at the high end of calories the last couple of days. I will probably end the day slightly over. I still feel a bit hungry, but not enough to chow down.
I don't think I aced the midterm, but I came close (I hope). There were two definitions that I did not answer precisely and that may cost me. I hope I get a chance to do some extra credit! I planned to spend my lunch hour studying and was not going to take a walk thereby risking my step goal. But I went walking first and studied while I ate lunch. It was much cooler than Sunday and that made for perfect walking. Absolutely gorgeous! I loved my walk! I walked faster and with more ease up and down the hills. I took the elevator back up and used the ride to stretch. I am starting to experience some benefits from exercise. I enjoyed the walk, I enjoyed the chance to clear my head and I loved the post-exercise feeling - sitting tall at my desk and mentally sharp.
I am sure I could blather on for a long time, but I have not been exceptionally consistent about getting 8 hours of sleep, so........Good night, Spark Friends!
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Came home to find BF not home. That means dinner was not ready. I wasn't hungry, so that was ok for a while. Hours later, I made something quickly. Not the most healthy thing, but not the worst (no junk in my house). Feeling guilty for being lazy.
BF is supposed to do all the house stuff because he does not work. I work and go to school. Wind out of my sail - did not feel like studying for my midterm......I hope I don't pay for it tomorrow. That's the thing about choices, even when made knowingly.
I did some strength training, but I always know it's not enough....
Going to bed early. Getting 8 hours sleep would be the smartest thing I've done in hours.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
I received several SP trophies today. The 15 pounder and the 3 month Sparkversary are ones I added. I had not really thought about logging on every day, accumulating pints and was stunned to see I'd racked up 1000 minutes! ME! I had so many slug days that I was stunned.
The funny thing is, every month I am surprised by these milestones because I first know about them through my friend feed! Thank you, ALL, for your great support and wonderful comments! You have no idea how that helps me keep going!
Your comments on my blogs, on my SparkPage, with Goodies (I feel wealthy!) all keep me focused and moving forward. Some days, I feel like giving up and I don't because how could I tell that to you? Each of you has your own isses and reasons and how selfish it would be for me to throw in the towel when what I have to deal with is not that big a deal in the grand scheme of things.
I read a really great blog on SP today about a bunch of Spark People getting together to run a race. I was really inspired, less by the running, more by the fellowship. I have told a number of you that, if we ever meet, handshakes will not do. Hugs all around!
So how did I do today? I stayed up later than I wanted to last night and that made it really hard to get moving today. The day did not start with a stop at the elliptical. But I did wake up determined to get 12K steps in today. Throughout the day, I had reasons to go between two of the four buildings at work. Up and down the four flights of stairs. I walked to the cafe for my free fruit first thing in the morning and had a brisk walk at lunch. At one point, a coworker said I looked really good today! I was really stoked. My clothes feel looser despite the absence of change via the tape measure. Another coworker joined in the conversation and I ended up showing them my pedometer. When I got back to my desk, I emailed them the model information and the reasons why I like this particular one. I told them I was getting my steps in by choice - going to see someone instead of calling or emailing and looking for files myself instead of asking a student to bring them to me....I did not mention that I parked farther away and used the stairs whenever my knee allows. End of the day = 13,636!
Tomorrow will be strength training and, perhaps, 5K steps, giving my knee a rest. So far, my leg feels fine. We'll see how much a pretzel I feel like when the alarm sounds in the morning.
The evening ends with me feeling very relaxed. BF is eating some good food, but I cannot join in. I ended the day within range except low in fat and calcium, but almost at the top of carbs and calories. As I sit here, I realize my interest in food at the moment is academic, mental. I am content and I do not need to eat.
I was really excited about the 1000 minute trophy and can see why SparkPeople gives these rewards! Very cool! But even more wonderful is the warmth and celebration with and for me in my Spark community. Some of you are going through really rough times and you reach out beyond yourself to lift me up. I am humbled. I am deeply grateful. My success is a shared victory every day.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
I have been so tired today, just a slug. My plan of a long walk did not happen and neither did much else. My shoulder pain spread to most of my back and hurt all day. Now, nearly lights out, it feels a bit better. I'm frustrated that every time I start making physical progress, I lose two days! I am looking forward to hitting the elliptical tomorrow, though!
The heat has not helped, but tomorrow should be slightly cooler. Even though I grew up in New Mexico, heat has never been something I could handle. I am dreading summer! I'll have to be better at time management to get my exercise in!
But that is in the future. I've been seeing a lot of posts by Sparkfriends about their goals for May. I have not set up short term goals and, as I thought about that today, I realized there's a little bit of fear of failure. I pledged to lose 30 pounds for the Pound for Pound Challenge by the end of June and am not even halfway there! I've been promising myself something when I lose 10% and I thought I would have achieved that in March. That's still 3 pounds away. SparkPeople says I lost 2 pounds this week, but the truth is, it was 1.5. Rounding, I guess. I am thrilled, though, because I have not been losing even a pound a week for a while.
What did I do right this week to lose? Just little tweaks. I've been consistent with water for a long time, but I added more. I made sure I ate more often and I made sure I have protein at breakfast. I still am dealing with the fatigue during the day and it drives me nuts. That tiredness tempts me to eat sugar, but I have not given in yet. Some Sparkfriends suggested more sleep and I had a much better day on Friday because of it. I also did switch off between the cardio and strength training. I know that's what the plan says, but I have been so acutely aware that I do so much less than everyone else that it didn't seem to matter.
So, here goes...
Continue alternating days with strength and cardio
Continue listening to my body and taking a day off when I need to WITHOUT GUILT
Ace my midterm!
I ate lightly all day and discovered I had oodles of room for dinner. I had a great sandwich with almond butter and Activia light vanilla yogurt with frozen mixed berries. That was SO yummy, so refreshing!
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Today started with such great intentions. I was going to go to work so I could study for my midterm in peace, then go to the little gym at work and work with weights. Then I was going to come home, grab BF and run errands, thus clearing the decks for a long walk tomorrow morning before the heat arrives.
Studying: I transcribed my notes from this week's lecture. Then I took the highlights from all the lectures and created a study guide for this coming week's midterm. I read a case that will be on the test. I still need to brief it to make sure I nail the concepts.
I went to the little gym and saw that they have big heavy weights that are used on machines. Nothing small enough for me. So I went to another machine. I think it is an elliptical. Having never been on one, I didn't know what to expect. My treadmill adventure is still fresh in my mind, so I thought I was being very conservative when I set it up for 5 minutes. I almostfell off when it started just because I was so startled. After an eternity, 30 seconds passed and I thought this might be fun. Fleetingly, I thought it was easy. Then, at 45 seconds, I realized I could do no more. My legs were rubber! I was amazed! I was also humbled. I really have such a long way to go.
I strained my shoulder doing some exercise and have taken the rest of the day off to rest.
We went to the grocery store, an outlet store, where we do the bulk of our shopping. I was looking at some flavored water as was another lady. I said,
"Too much sugar" and put it back. The lady did the same thing, thanking me for reading the label! I was pretty stoked to see an example followed! It happened later with another lady when we were looking at frozen goods. BF is also getting very good at reading labels and, while he doesn't make the best choices, he thinks about it before he chooses. Progress.
Congrats to my spark friends who are making such wonderful progress in running marathons, accumulating fitness minutes - you're leaving me in your dust! I am humbled! I also am with you in spirit!
Verizon is experiencing a switch failure in northern CA, so I could lose my internet connection at any time....Dead tired and afraid to log off. Dreading the thought of not having Spark access if I log off!
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