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TOM Costs a Day

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Absolutely no energy today despite intentions and lovely weather. Mr. Scale is not likely to be charitable tomorrow morning and neither will his partner, Ms. Tape-Measure. Just her name alone gives her airs beyond her station.

Whatever they say will not deter me. This is just an interlude and it will end soon.

The best thing is I am not using this day as an excuse not to stick with the water and food and logging.

I am grateful for SparkPeople, SP Friends and the fact that one day does not determine the verdict on my journey.

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JANLEEW 4/26/2010 2:48AM

    And there is another positive aspect of menopause!

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ROX2013 4/25/2010 1:32PM

    I haven't had TOM since my chemo in 2001 but I can remember clearly how tired I always felt. I agree that Ms Tape-measure has ambitions above her station, but the trusty old scale is keeping her in her place. Right now I am not losing or gaining lbs and am still losing inches so I just keep telling myself that this to shall pass! Have a great Monday!! emoticon

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ARCHIMEDESII 4/25/2010 1:29PM

    This is why I never weigh myself OR measure during TOM anymore. Don't worry, this is NOT a set back of any kind ! What you're experiencing is a perfectly NORMAL water weight fluctuation. the scale does go up for many women during TOM. they may also notice an increase in their inches as a result of BLOATING. this is perfectly normal !!

In the next few days, you'll notice that both will go down. Of course, they will go up come next month.

Don't tie your emotions to the scale. There is more to good health than a number that stares at us from between our toes in the morning.

How's your energy ? Do you have more energy ? Are you sleeping better ? How's your cholesterol ? How's your blood sugar ? How's your blood pressure ? How many push ups can you do ? How fast can you run a mile ???

If you can answer in a positive to any of those questions, then YES, you're making a huge difference in your health !!! So, don't worry, just keep doing what you're doing. If you continue to eat right, watch your portions and get some regular exercise that includes some strength training, you will see change with time.

But, you have to be patient with yourself and your body !!

Don't worry ! you're doing just fine !

-- karen

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UNIBOK 4/25/2010 6:59AM

    TOM always adds a bit of weight to Mr. Scale in my house, and probably yours as well. I'm so proud of your major victories over TOM the other day -- over time, those victories WILL show up on Mr. Scale, and you WILL reach that 10%!

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GOING2LOSENOW 4/25/2010 4:06AM

    You can get through this! It sucks, but we do survive. Some months are easier than others. I find I have an easier time, when I am working out more.

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SANDYD64 4/25/2010 12:41AM

    We all hit those 'walls'. congrats for not getting discouragaed about it...so easy to do! Just keep at it-Mr. Scale and Ms. Tape-Measure will fall into line eventually! They just dont like to lose....sore losers! LOL

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RENA1965 4/25/2010 12:04AM

    If you have no energy, the body is asking for two very important things in advance.
1. complex carbs- solid forms for carbs to give energy do this up to 2 weeks before and efter- giving into a sugar binge is the easy way out.. However, exercise can do 1. relief pain, 2. suppress hunger and 3. burn off stress hormones..
2. Sources of iron, liver, vegetables high in iron and if your really flat like a battery a chat with your gp doctor on a suppliment to take up to and efter TOM.. Prevention is better then cure..

Women have been getting their periods for centuries- don't let this wreck even one day.. You can do this!
I am 45 years old, have a fiberiod from hell and will not allow it to set me back one more day.. I fight it with modern thinking and any option at our hands.. I also think this process keeps us safe from cell changes.. I think of the positives inside instead of pulling the blankets over my head..

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It's All Words (Continued...) {Yes, 2 blogs in 1 day for my SparkFriends}

Friday, April 23, 2010

I won! I won! I won! No, not the lottery, not a tangible prize. What I won was the day. I felt like a slug all day. Turns out TOM is here (whew, the suspense is over) and it's as if I've timewarped back to early teen years when TOM first visited. Suffice to say I have been uncomfortable and out of sorts all day. Meaningful exercise was not possible.

During clean up, inexplicably, I opened a box of Nabisco chocolate Teddy Grahams. I've never had those before. Wow, are they small! I had six (serving size is 24). I fantasized about eating the whole box this evening.

Thank goodness I brought broccoli today and have salad dressing in the fridge at work! The lunch was free, but it was not filling and somewhat neutral nutritionally speaking. I had half of a turkey sandwich, a pile of mixed greens that passed for salad, bypassed the dressings and got my Salad Spritzer (Caesar).
Then I had a big bowl of broccoli. I was not tempted by the cookies or the other less healthy sandwiches.

Later in the afternoon, I went to another department and saw that they had doughnuts. For a few seconds, I was tempted. But, my self talk spoke loudly and clearly in my head: I have worked too hard to get where I am and I really want to reach my goal.

I ended the day feeling hungry, but having eaten within range.

More importantly, my attitude did not deteriorate. I would not say that I have completely hit the reset button from this morning, but I am not losing ground nor staying there. Yes, I am frustrated that I am not losing weight and inches as I want to. I AM eating in balance, I am drinking puh-lenty of water. Exercise is still the weakest area of achievement, but I am doing more than I have in my pre-Spark life. I am making progress, slowly, so slowly, ever so slowly.

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JHADZHIA 4/24/2010 9:37AM

    Way to go! You are conquering it! You may want to look at your protein if you are still feeling hungry. You need to have some at every meal you eat. At least 15g worth. Slowly, one step at a time is the only way to develop good habits that you will stick with.

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/24/2010 8:41AM

    Well done, gorgeous. TOM is visiting me as well. Apparently, he's just the visiting type because I swear he was just here, for crissakes. It explains all of my mysterious water weight. I was going to write a poem about water the other day - which proves TOM makes me a complete nut burger :) Anyway, this makes me happy: "More importantly, my attitude did not deteriorate." Good. I think it's okay if attitude wavers (being human, after all) but acting on it is a whole different story.

You won, indeed. That's my beautiful warrior. XOXO

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RD03875 4/24/2010 5:06AM

    You definately WON big!

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MISSY455 4/24/2010 2:10AM

    emoticon Attitude is half the battle!!!

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CINDITOPPER 4/24/2010 12:57AM

    emoticon Yay! emoticon Congrats! emoticon

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It's All Words (Blogging This Early is Not a Good Sign!)

Friday, April 23, 2010

Out of curiosity, I stepped on the scale this morning. Big mistake! I am up either a pound or up 7/10ths from last Sunday. I do not feel heavier, in fact, I feel lighter. I can also see more definition in my arms and legs, feel slightly less sag in the gut.

My first reaction is to think harsh thoughts about doing a weekend cleanse, dropping down to 1200 calories a day for a week and in every way possible punish myself for being stuck with the same few ounces/pound for more than a month.

It's probably a plateau and, intellectually, I understand that I just need to stay consistent and focus long term, but the positive self talk is not penetrating the inner rage and sense of betrayal. I really thought I had moved past this!

A few moments later, I saw a hint that TOM, who's been threatening to arrive "any day now" for more than a week, may mean it. That modified my rage, but not much.

Today is a massive cleanup day at work, perfect for my anger. I should have lots of opportunity to move and focus my anger away from the language of abuse that I usually turn on my inner self.

I also feel sad because the new inner me that is on this journey does not deserve this remnant behavior from my past, but I am not sure she is strong enough yet to prevail.

I will have to do some reading about plateaus. As I tell others, knowledge is power, and from power comes ability to do something. However, I will not be on my computer much during the day, which means at least 10 hours from now before I can really make any kind of progress.

It's not that I have decided that I want to be at 110 by a certain date, but I had hoped to be at my 10% loss mark by now or certainly by the end of the month! The long term goal is untainted and I feel free to push the date out even farther than I already have, but, for the short term, I really need some success! I have been promising myself a Spark Store shopping spree (modest) when I lose that 10%, and it delays gratification to have the needle moving the wrong way!


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SHOSHANADP 4/23/2010 6:40PM

    The scale is not the end all, be all. View it as a guide on your journey to where you want to be. It is there to make sure that you haven't turned around. A little "bumping along the sides" is just fine as long as you are moving forward.

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MISSY455 4/23/2010 1:39PM

    Don't get discouraged. The scale is just one tool in your arsenal. Have you been tracking any other measurements? If not, now may be the time to start. emoticon

You are on the right track and you will be successful!

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CARRAND 4/23/2010 1:27PM

    Don't be discouraged. If you feel thinner, you probably are, regardless of what the scale says. Hang in there!

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MEGANC1988 4/23/2010 12:02PM

    I think doing some research is a great idea, and good job trying to use positive self talk, it can take a lot of practice before it really sticks and means something in your brain. Hope you get to get out some of that anger at work!

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JAVALOVERTOO 4/23/2010 11:39AM

    It's good that you put your frustration down in this blog. I find it helps work through some of the emotional upheavals.

Stay strong! emoticonLook at all the good you have done and that you feel stronger!!! Remember above all the scale is only one way of measuring our success. List off your other successes, how's your eating? Exercise? Are you drinking your water? What are other goals you have for yourself that you are successfully working towards? Look at the positives and keep the negatives in perspective. emoticon

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PARKERB2 4/23/2010 10:56AM

    Don't get discouraged. Your just stuck for a little bit. Try not to beat yourself up for not succeeding just one time when you've been doing good so far. We all mess up from time to time. Just keep Sparking and we're here for you. emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/23/2010 10:52AM

  oohh.. what are you gonna buy from the spark store when you lose that 10%? why don't u break your scale and move the needle then? *haha* .. (kidding!!) it WILL move.. u know it will.. just try to have some patience. ;) plateaus are nasty things that i'm sure we ALL have to deal with sometime.... you are doing amazing... keep on doing what you're doing and the needle WILL move the *right* way soon.


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"The Nickel Dropped"

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thanks to my SparkFriends with their consistent advice, support and encouragement, I am starting to understand...I woke up stiff and a bit sore from yesterday's walking nearly 12K steps. Up until this week, I would have pushed myself to go up the stairs and do other things to try to burn the 375 calories the tracker says I should.

Today, I told myself I would be happy with 5K steps. I reminded myself as I skipped the stairs and took the elevator that I can do some exercise in the elevator. I am becoming a fan of wall ups! One Spark Friend left a comment on my blog yesterday about how she does Air Punches. I found that to be a great stress reliever. While the computer was compiling a page, whoop -10 overhead air punches! While in the bathroom, another 10 overhead air punches and 10 forward air punches. Side air punches were reserved for the elevator in between wall ups and hip flexors. I did not take the stairs today at all, but only once did I take the elevator and not exercise during the trip up...

Eleven cups of water, 7 different exercises, almost 7K steps. I ended the day within range in nutrition except for being low in carbs!

NOW I understand with more than head knowledge why you need a break between types of movement. I may not be able to walk 12K tomorrow, but, I will be able to move! I have to because tomorrow is office clean up day. I expect to be on my feet a lot, taking paper to the shred bin, the recycle bin or excess supplies to the redistribution corner....(I wonder if it means anything that my cube is boxed in by the shred, recycle and junk bins!)

Air punches rock!

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ELLENKA2 4/25/2010 7:25PM

  I was encouraged by the air punches. Will try some today. I also walk, but have not
reached as many as K steps, so here goes. I'll be able to share some movement of my own, I'm sure. Thank you for all the good suggestions.

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CARRAND 4/23/2010 1:35PM

    Get attitude! I love your air punches. I also love the idea of office clean up day. I'm thinking of starting one at my office.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/23/2010 10:56AM

  wow...11 cups of water .. shouldn't u be floating somewhere? ;) i drink 11 cups of water - i hear 'swish' all day. (LOL!) at least you keep on moving and that's the *main* thing! :) keep on goin'... :)

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JHADZHIA 4/23/2010 1:50AM

    Always moving and doing something active is the road to a winner! You are doing it! great job! Rock on!

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HEALTH4LYFE 4/22/2010 11:36PM

    When you keep moving, you are more likely to keep losing. Congrats for finding some alternative ways to spend "free" time to get you toward your goal. Keep up the great work!

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Wall Ups and Hip Flexors Everywhere!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Today started out in the same sluggish manner that the last few have. I did not feel like going to work or anything else. But...I did. Driving to work, I told myself that I would be able to get the 10K steps today because I would have class tonight. I visualized the me I want to be.

By lunchtime, without doing anything special, I had over 5K steps on the pedometer. I skipped the Toastmaster meeting, giving myself the option of walking or Sparking. The windy rain made the choice easy. While I nuked my healthy lunch (leftovers), I took a few steps back and pushed against the counter. When someone came in, I switched to the hip flexors.

School was cancelled and, much as I love class, I was relieved. Picked up BF and we went to Costco. As always, I parked a good distance away and we walked all over. I waited a very long time at the counter to have my eyeglasses tightened. While I waited, I did more wall ups, ok, counter ups against the very high counter. I am not much taller than it is high! I bet people thought I was a bit off in the head, but I did not care! I did forty while I waited, tore out my coupons from the booklet and carried on a conversation. Two people picking up contacts were waited on while I waited. My pedometer said something over 8K when we started out. The Neutrogena sun screen with a very high SPF was on sale. I bought two packages, the coupon limit. It's the only stuff I can put on my face that doesn't irritate my face. I bought two thinking that, since I am more active now (!), I'm going to use more of it! While BF ground the coffee, I did 40 calf raises.

When we got home, I saw I was still a bit shy of 10K, so we walked to Home Depot for something. I set a pretty brisk pace, but I had to sit on a bench when we got there. One leg is slightly shorter than the other, hips are dislocated (born that way), so sometimes when I walk, I get a dull ache in the lower back above the left leg. If I ignore it, everything locks up. What's discouraging is a few weeks ago, I was able to walk not only to Home Depot but all the way around the entire shopping center and home without feeling it.

Ended the day with 11867 steps. My pedometer shows more calories burned than my fitness tracker does. Some days, it's the other way around. I am going to do some more modified push ups and bridges.

Foodwise, I came scarily close to the top of my calorie range, was ok in every other metric except low in carbs, of all things. Getting this to balance is not easy! But, you know what? It's kind of fun! I don't beat myself up for not being able to do X number of Y exercise and, if I come in under on calcium, over on carbs and midrange on protein, I shrug and tell myself, I have gone as far as I can today. This is VERY different from my all or nothing, succeed or else diet attitudes! I am free (at least for today)!

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/22/2010 6:38PM

    I am so proud of you. You are doing a great job! Letting go of all or nothing is the key to freedom. You are simply one wise woman. Woot!!

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PS - I love Home Depot more than cheesecake. Cheers.

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MEGANC1988 4/22/2010 3:23PM

    WTG on your steps!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/22/2010 9:35AM

  You are doing so great. :) Keep up the great work.


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JHADZHIA 4/22/2010 1:13AM

    emoticon emoticon
Great ideas getting your exercises in! I am surprised you can do hip flexors with hips such as you describe! I love going to Costco. Its not quite the same here in Canada as it is in the US, I discovered. Ours do not sell liquor, only the government licensed outlets are allowed. We also don't have that grind your own coffee thing. Not that it bothers me as I don't drink coffee or liquor. I noticed the Costco in Hawaii didn't have the fries we do, or the ice cream at their food bar.
I know what you mean at struggling to get the numbers to be in the range on the Nutrition Tracker. I am always struggling to get enough fat.
Keep up the good work!!

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RE2BAH 4/21/2010 11:57PM

    emoticon emoticon, you are doing an awesome job of incorporating fitness into your daily jaunts! I never would have thought of doing the exercises at the store!

Keep up the good work!

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MOORISHY 4/21/2010 11:50PM

    I do something similar when I go to the toilet at work I do push ups against the wall. I will do 15. Anything longer and people will wonder if I fell in. I also like to do air punches, straight up above my head and then out to the front of me and then to the sides. I work at a help desk. Believe it or not it gets the heart racing. I started off doing 15 of each and now I am up to 50 before the arms get tired.

Thanks for your sharing. These tid bits anyone ca work into their life.


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