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What an Odd Day!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Obviously, 10K steps every day is too much for me. Scaling back. I will aim for 7K and be happy with 5K on my less active days. I expect there will be several days a week when I hit 10K or come very close. But I will work towards 10K a day. I am very sore, but less so than I expected.

I ended the day within range nutritionally speaking except for low calcium and, not within range, but at the top of the calorie mark to the very calorie! I have not done that before!

I had decided yesterday that I was going to do things differently so that I could get the scale to move down. I ate a Kashi bar for breakfast. I like them, but a meal they do not make. I got hungry earlier than I wanted and, following that, was the crushing fatigue. It was not a great day at work from that standpoint.

Does this mean I have to choose between losing tonnage and having enough energy to function? No, it means I need to make some adjustments. Among other things, this is an educational journey.

I was relieved and horrified at the same time to see that several of my sparkfriends shared my exposure to a pseudosparkfriend's spam. I was spammed on Saturday and, today, the comment is gone. I was not going to mention this so as not to give credence to this person, but, the tone of the messages was so different, so upsetting that I felt the need to comment in case any other SparkFriend has been as hurt as I was and thinks it was their fault.

I could not find the offending page, so I put a message on the site help message board.

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/27/2010 10:11PM

    I love that you are changing things up to suit your needs and your body. Just listen to your body and you will be fine.



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ROX2013 4/27/2010 8:19PM

    It is great that you can adjust when your body tells you something and it does not throw you off your plan. I use Kashi cereal or some other high fiber cereal and then have my coffee and a thin sliced bagel (natures own) for a snack half way thru the morning. You will figure out what you need for breakfast to keep your energy up. Have a great Wednesday! emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/27/2010 12:40PM

  I agree with the others on this one... listen to your body.. and, if you can't do what you would *like* to do... just take baby steps towards it.. you will be able to do it someday. (hmm... maybe I should listen to my own advice sometimes .. LOL!) Kashi bars are yummy... but, not enough to eat as a meal. I like the Dark Chocolate/Cherry Kashi Bar. :) All this talk about Kashi bars - makes me want to go out and get one. ;)

You are doing amazing. Keep it up!! :)


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/26/2010 11:36PM

    You are doing great by listening to your body when it tells you to slow down a bit! Every day is indeed a learning experience and there is no failure...only new lessons learned! You will find the right breakfast combination to keep you full AND see results on the scale. You are doing great..just keep going!!
Yep..I got spammed too...I had just deleted the comments without making anything of it since I figured as long as I am part of a public site that anyone can join and make comments so I just got rid of them. Still...it's annoying to say the least, especially when there are so many amazing people here for the purpose of leading a healthy lifestyle and uplifting and motivating others in the process!!

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ISHIIGIRL 4/26/2010 11:31PM

    Try making sure you get plenty of protein. This will ensure you aren't as hungry, but balance it. Have you tried Greek yogurt? It is high in protein but you can get no or low fat. It is fantastic. Also, eat it with some fruit and it is pretty balanced with carbs and proteins that way. You can also try egg white omelet with veggies and a piece of toast. You are doing a great job, sorry to hear you got spammed, that's not fun! Keep up the great work!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 4/26/2010 11:21PM

    Don't overdo - stay within a comfort zone so your pain stays under control.
I try to do between 5000 and 6000 steps each day - my "exercise steps" - when I'm walking just for the exercise. I've found my knee can handle that combined with other exercise I do,
You'll find what works best for you - it takes time

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IXCHEL23 4/26/2010 10:10PM

    Don't push yourself too much with the walking, that's great that you are setting a range and goals for your non-active days. Make sure you're within your calorie ranges so you are not hungry and then fatigued. You need to have energy! Try to also eat balanced meals and snacks like protein with a carb, so that your blood sugar levels stay steady and you'll feel fuller longer and not get a sharp drop in energy later.

YES it definitely is a learning process everyday I have found. In fact I did a few blogs about my 'learning something everyday' I did for a full week. You can find them and check them out.

I have never heard of a "pseudosparkfriend's spam." Gosh that sounds scary.

Hang in there, you are so motivated!

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A First! (I may pay for this tomorrow!)

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Thanks to all who commented on yesterday's blog!
I am not sure if I lost even an ounce or stayed the same as last week. Either way, the fact that I did not gain is a real win!

Today was a much different day! This morning, I saw a blog from Anne1123 who said she was going to work on getting 10K steps this week. I commented that I would join her in the challenge because I needed something to get me going again.

I took a walk today. Instead of turning right and walking to the small shopping center, I turned left out of the park and walked to the post office. 1373 steps. Sip of water. Inventory: nope, no pain, no fatigue. I can go on. Up to the main street that provides access to the freeway. Getting warm. The breeze and the occasional shade is very appreciated. Something over 3700 steps. I have not gone halfway yet. I planned to cross and keep going in the same direction, but there is not much shade. Turning right would have me walk over the freeway and into another city. I turned left, heading in a direction I have seldom driven and never walked.

I had thought about taking a nature trail, but I was alone and I know that nature trail is not well used. I stuck to the sidewalk next to a heavily traveled road. Cellphone, ID, water bottle and pedometer - I was prepared.

I was pleasantly surprised to find a path for most of the distance. When it gave out, I had walked past the driving range and was near the small planes airport. There was no way to safely cross the busy street. About 4300 steps, not halfway.
I made a loop out of the airport parking lot and headed back the way I'd come. The path was made uneven because of tree roots - lots of opportunities to fall. I did stumble a few times, but no fall. Yay! Getting stronger!

Shortly after I was headed back, I heard a lot of sirens and soon saw two fire engines turning down the street off of which I live. I called BF and there was no answer. Yes, I was concerned, but there was nothing I could do until I got there. I live in a mobile home park with a lot of senior citizens, so the emergency crews often come.

As I turned the corner, I saw that the freeway and my street were both very backed up. "God be with the rescuers." I thought. Obviously a car accident, but I could not tell if it was on the freeway, on the access ramp or on my street.

I walked through some more corporate parking lots to add some steps. Two firms have water fountains and shaded walkways, nice oases for their employees. It would be wonderful to work within walking distance of home (and make more money!).

Closer to home, I could see that the accident had occurred just as the access ramp met the freeway. My street was blocked by emergency vehicles so they could cut through the fence to get to the victims. It was weird walking faster than the cars on the street! I saw some victims on the sidewalk ahead. They looked fine, if shaken up. One was talking with someone on the cellphone telling them she was waiting for a tow truck for her car. So glad they were ok!

I was drenched in sweat by the time I got home.

My wonderful pedometer said I logged 10,516! This does not include steps around the house...!

Even with SPF 70 sunscreen, my face was pretty pink! I took a cooling shower and ate some carbs and protein. My feet are a bit sore. I don't know if I'll be able to do 10K tomorrow, but I sure feel great today! It felt really good to break from the slug mode I've been in for a few days!

Thanks, Anne1123 for sharing your challenge! I got off the dime! See, Sparkfriends, good or bad, what you share can help someone else! Woo Hoo!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/27/2010 12:42PM

  Wow... 10,516 is fantastic. Congrats!! :)

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SHEERJOY 4/26/2010 10:59PM

    Wow, what an adventure you took just walking. Imagine if you had not went walking. It is amazing what we see when we walk. I know you enjoyed the beautiful weather, even though there was an accident. Thank God the people are okay.
Enjoy your next walk!!

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Great job!!

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MISSY455 4/25/2010 9:52PM

    emoticon Sounds like you did a tad of exploring as well as a good long walk!

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JHADZHIA 4/25/2010 8:25PM

    Well done! If all you got out of it was sore feet, that is wonderful! And completely natural! Good luck with the challenge! I agree you ought to be using a walking stick, or even those walking poles. My Mom loves hers and it helps on uneven ground and going up and down steps! They also give your arms a bit of a workout too!

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GREENSCRAPCAT 4/25/2010 8:11PM

    WAY to go, keep up the great work! We have had horrible weather here, but hoping it clears up this week for outside activity!


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MOMFAN 4/25/2010 8:09PM

    Way to go! I started using a walking stick to help with the balance issue, hubby bought them for me for my birthday. Isn't it great we have Spark Friends to challenge us.

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REIGNWATER 4/25/2010 7:50PM

  wow. Simply wow

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READNKNIT 4/25/2010 7:23PM

    Good for you! It's wonderful to shake things up and do something new! I've been doing that, too! Today was my second day of the 30-day shred video. While it contains nothing I haven't done with SparkPeople videos, it puts everything together in a 20-minute package that I would never have thought of myself, and it is CHALLENGING! My husband did it with me today, and even he said it was a good video! His next thing is to start P90X.


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CICI510 4/25/2010 6:57PM

    That is wonderful!! emoticon You're really making me want to get outside and walk! :)

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TOM Costs a Day

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Absolutely no energy today despite intentions and lovely weather. Mr. Scale is not likely to be charitable tomorrow morning and neither will his partner, Ms. Tape-Measure. Just her name alone gives her airs beyond her station.

Whatever they say will not deter me. This is just an interlude and it will end soon.

The best thing is I am not using this day as an excuse not to stick with the water and food and logging.

I am grateful for SparkPeople, SP Friends and the fact that one day does not determine the verdict on my journey.

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JANLEEW 4/26/2010 2:48AM

    And there is another positive aspect of menopause!

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ROX2013 4/25/2010 1:32PM

    I haven't had TOM since my chemo in 2001 but I can remember clearly how tired I always felt. I agree that Ms Tape-measure has ambitions above her station, but the trusty old scale is keeping her in her place. Right now I am not losing or gaining lbs and am still losing inches so I just keep telling myself that this to shall pass! Have a great Monday!! emoticon

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ARCHIMEDESII 4/25/2010 1:29PM

    This is why I never weigh myself OR measure during TOM anymore. Don't worry, this is NOT a set back of any kind ! What you're experiencing is a perfectly NORMAL water weight fluctuation. the scale does go up for many women during TOM. they may also notice an increase in their inches as a result of BLOATING. this is perfectly normal !!

In the next few days, you'll notice that both will go down. Of course, they will go up come next month.

Don't tie your emotions to the scale. There is more to good health than a number that stares at us from between our toes in the morning.

How's your energy ? Do you have more energy ? Are you sleeping better ? How's your cholesterol ? How's your blood sugar ? How's your blood pressure ? How many push ups can you do ? How fast can you run a mile ???

If you can answer in a positive to any of those questions, then YES, you're making a huge difference in your health !!! So, don't worry, just keep doing what you're doing. If you continue to eat right, watch your portions and get some regular exercise that includes some strength training, you will see change with time.

But, you have to be patient with yourself and your body !!

Don't worry ! you're doing just fine !

-- karen

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UNIBOK 4/25/2010 6:59AM

    TOM always adds a bit of weight to Mr. Scale in my house, and probably yours as well. I'm so proud of your major victories over TOM the other day -- over time, those victories WILL show up on Mr. Scale, and you WILL reach that 10%!

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GOING2LOSENOW 4/25/2010 4:06AM

    You can get through this! It sucks, but we do survive. Some months are easier than others. I find I have an easier time, when I am working out more.

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SANDYD64 4/25/2010 12:41AM

    We all hit those 'walls'. congrats for not getting discouragaed about it...so easy to do! Just keep at it-Mr. Scale and Ms. Tape-Measure will fall into line eventually! They just dont like to lose....sore losers! LOL

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RENA1965 4/25/2010 12:04AM

    If you have no energy, the body is asking for two very important things in advance.
1. complex carbs- solid forms for carbs to give energy do this up to 2 weeks before and efter- giving into a sugar binge is the easy way out.. However, exercise can do 1. relief pain, 2. suppress hunger and 3. burn off stress hormones..
2. Sources of iron, liver, vegetables high in iron and if your really flat like a battery a chat with your gp doctor on a suppliment to take up to and efter TOM.. Prevention is better then cure..

Women have been getting their periods for centuries- don't let this wreck even one day.. You can do this!
I am 45 years old, have a fiberiod from hell and will not allow it to set me back one more day.. I fight it with modern thinking and any option at our hands.. I also think this process keeps us safe from cell changes.. I think of the positives inside instead of pulling the blankets over my head..

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It's All Words (Continued...) {Yes, 2 blogs in 1 day for my SparkFriends}

Friday, April 23, 2010

I won! I won! I won! No, not the lottery, not a tangible prize. What I won was the day. I felt like a slug all day. Turns out TOM is here (whew, the suspense is over) and it's as if I've timewarped back to early teen years when TOM first visited. Suffice to say I have been uncomfortable and out of sorts all day. Meaningful exercise was not possible.

During clean up, inexplicably, I opened a box of Nabisco chocolate Teddy Grahams. I've never had those before. Wow, are they small! I had six (serving size is 24). I fantasized about eating the whole box this evening.

Thank goodness I brought broccoli today and have salad dressing in the fridge at work! The lunch was free, but it was not filling and somewhat neutral nutritionally speaking. I had half of a turkey sandwich, a pile of mixed greens that passed for salad, bypassed the dressings and got my Salad Spritzer (Caesar).
Then I had a big bowl of broccoli. I was not tempted by the cookies or the other less healthy sandwiches.

Later in the afternoon, I went to another department and saw that they had doughnuts. For a few seconds, I was tempted. But, my self talk spoke loudly and clearly in my head: I have worked too hard to get where I am and I really want to reach my goal.

I ended the day feeling hungry, but having eaten within range.

More importantly, my attitude did not deteriorate. I would not say that I have completely hit the reset button from this morning, but I am not losing ground nor staying there. Yes, I am frustrated that I am not losing weight and inches as I want to. I AM eating in balance, I am drinking puh-lenty of water. Exercise is still the weakest area of achievement, but I am doing more than I have in my pre-Spark life. I am making progress, slowly, so slowly, ever so slowly.

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JHADZHIA 4/24/2010 9:37AM

    Way to go! You are conquering it! You may want to look at your protein if you are still feeling hungry. You need to have some at every meal you eat. At least 15g worth. Slowly, one step at a time is the only way to develop good habits that you will stick with.

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/24/2010 8:41AM

    Well done, gorgeous. TOM is visiting me as well. Apparently, he's just the visiting type because I swear he was just here, for crissakes. It explains all of my mysterious water weight. I was going to write a poem about water the other day - which proves TOM makes me a complete nut burger :) Anyway, this makes me happy: "More importantly, my attitude did not deteriorate." Good. I think it's okay if attitude wavers (being human, after all) but acting on it is a whole different story.

You won, indeed. That's my beautiful warrior. XOXO

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RD03875 4/24/2010 5:06AM

    You definately WON big!

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MISSY455 4/24/2010 2:10AM

    emoticon Attitude is half the battle!!!

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CINDITOPPER 4/24/2010 12:57AM

    emoticon Yay! emoticon Congrats! emoticon

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It's All Words (Blogging This Early is Not a Good Sign!)

Friday, April 23, 2010

Out of curiosity, I stepped on the scale this morning. Big mistake! I am up either a pound or up 7/10ths from last Sunday. I do not feel heavier, in fact, I feel lighter. I can also see more definition in my arms and legs, feel slightly less sag in the gut.

My first reaction is to think harsh thoughts about doing a weekend cleanse, dropping down to 1200 calories a day for a week and in every way possible punish myself for being stuck with the same few ounces/pound for more than a month.

It's probably a plateau and, intellectually, I understand that I just need to stay consistent and focus long term, but the positive self talk is not penetrating the inner rage and sense of betrayal. I really thought I had moved past this!

A few moments later, I saw a hint that TOM, who's been threatening to arrive "any day now" for more than a week, may mean it. That modified my rage, but not much.

Today is a massive cleanup day at work, perfect for my anger. I should have lots of opportunity to move and focus my anger away from the language of abuse that I usually turn on my inner self.

I also feel sad because the new inner me that is on this journey does not deserve this remnant behavior from my past, but I am not sure she is strong enough yet to prevail.

I will have to do some reading about plateaus. As I tell others, knowledge is power, and from power comes ability to do something. However, I will not be on my computer much during the day, which means at least 10 hours from now before I can really make any kind of progress.

It's not that I have decided that I want to be at 110 by a certain date, but I had hoped to be at my 10% loss mark by now or certainly by the end of the month! The long term goal is untainted and I feel free to push the date out even farther than I already have, but, for the short term, I really need some success! I have been promising myself a Spark Store shopping spree (modest) when I lose that 10%, and it delays gratification to have the needle moving the wrong way!


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SHOSHANADP 4/23/2010 6:40PM

    The scale is not the end all, be all. View it as a guide on your journey to where you want to be. It is there to make sure that you haven't turned around. A little "bumping along the sides" is just fine as long as you are moving forward.

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MISSY455 4/23/2010 1:39PM

    Don't get discouraged. The scale is just one tool in your arsenal. Have you been tracking any other measurements? If not, now may be the time to start. emoticon

You are on the right track and you will be successful!

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CARRAND 4/23/2010 1:27PM

    Don't be discouraged. If you feel thinner, you probably are, regardless of what the scale says. Hang in there!

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MEGANC1988 4/23/2010 12:02PM

    I think doing some research is a great idea, and good job trying to use positive self talk, it can take a lot of practice before it really sticks and means something in your brain. Hope you get to get out some of that anger at work!

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JAVALOVERTOO 4/23/2010 11:39AM

    It's good that you put your frustration down in this blog. I find it helps work through some of the emotional upheavals.

Stay strong! emoticonLook at all the good you have done and that you feel stronger!!! Remember above all the scale is only one way of measuring our success. List off your other successes, how's your eating? Exercise? Are you drinking your water? What are other goals you have for yourself that you are successfully working towards? Look at the positives and keep the negatives in perspective. emoticon

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PARKERB2 4/23/2010 10:56AM

    Don't get discouraged. Your just stuck for a little bit. Try not to beat yourself up for not succeeding just one time when you've been doing good so far. We all mess up from time to time. Just keep Sparking and we're here for you. emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 4/23/2010 10:52AM

  oohh.. what are you gonna buy from the spark store when you lose that 10%? why don't u break your scale and move the needle then? *haha* .. (kidding!!) it WILL move.. u know it will.. just try to have some patience. ;) plateaus are nasty things that i'm sure we ALL have to deal with sometime.... you are doing amazing... keep on doing what you're doing and the needle WILL move the *right* way soon.


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