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Layoff = Overtime = Almost Zero Exercise

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

I am unhappy with myself! Despite better intentions, I did not get any meaningful exercise in today. I did walk the stairs every chance I had, but not much more than that. My lunchtime walk was replaced with lunch out with a coworker.

She noticed I had a very balanced low calorie meal and commented about it. I had downloaded the nutritional PDF from the website and had picked out a few alternatives. I was going to order a la carte, but found, when we got there that the options were not available. I still felt pretty happy with my choice. The one drawback was that it was high in sodium AND I had a diet Pepsi with it. I made sure to drink extra water, but I don't know if that will compensate for the high sodium.

A coworker was laid off last week and I have been given the opportunity to put in some OT (rare opportunity where I work!) over the next few weeks taking care of the boxes of paper, stacks of files and stuff in his office. By the time I got home, I had zero interest in exercise and was not even that hungry.

This is 3 consecutive days of not moving! It almost feels like "diet" thinking - sort of like I screwed up so I might as well continue doing so. I have the same guilt for not doing what I "should" do. I have seen some great ideas this week - one guy walked every day for a year and lost 40 pounds just doing that. Another SP person decided to post 3 goals for the month of April.

So here goes:
I am going to walk every day
I am going to strength train 3 times a week and try one new exercise every week
I am going to live my mantra: No shortcuts!

Please, SP friends, hold me accountable!

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ISHIIGIRL 4/7/2010 5:12PM

    Just make sure you are taking care of yourself, watch your nutrition, get plenty of sleep to help deal with the stress, and then when things slow down hit it hard. Are you a figiter? I have read several articles on figiting. If you figit you can burn extra cals without trying. Wiggle your feet while you are at your desk or wave your arms in the air. If you are standing while going through the paperwork this will help you burn cals. You can count lifting boxes, etc. there is always a way to get in a little extra exercise. Good luck, stay the course. Do not be afraid of going slowly, only be afraid of standing still! And you only lose if you quite. So no quitting!

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ROX2013 4/6/2010 11:17AM

    You go girl!! Life does throw curveballs now and then and we are not "failing a diet" when we have to make adjustments for it. Be proud that you are watching what you eat and are trying to get in what exercise you can during the day. You are right there are not shortcuts but sometimes a detour comes along you can avoid. You have a great mindset and you will success. emoticon

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JAVALOVERTOO 4/6/2010 10:34AM

    emoticon The first step is setting up a plan and then next is asking for support. You are well on your way! emoticon

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    You can do this! We can do this together and keep eachother accountable. Love your mantra of "No Shortcuts"!!

Have a great day!

Kristen emoticon

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VICD25 4/6/2010 7:37AM

    Great mantra! There are no shortcuts. You can do it.
A few lunges and squats while moving boxes.
Standing crunches while in line or waiting for the bus.
Crunches before bed. .

It all counts.


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MUSIC66 4/6/2010 1:12AM

    just take one step at a time.

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DEE107 4/6/2010 1:04AM

    You CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL because you want it ,,rest and then take baby steps and jump right back in

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SUGARPUNK52 4/6/2010 1:00AM

  i AM UNABLE TO DO MOST EX ERCISES SOME DAYS,BUT i do WALK EVERY DAY.I'm sure you'll get back on track soon.Just don't give up! Even if you have bad days ( and we all do) keep on going.You'll make it! YES WE CAN!

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Rainy Easter Sunday and In a Rut

Sunday, April 04, 2010

The storm front I felt days ago has arrived, but it is underwhelming. It is windy and very cold, but the rain changes by the minute - dripping, pouring, sprinkling. "I don't want to slip." "I don't want to risk getting sick." How easily those excuses came back. No walk today, at least not much of one.

Not sleeping again and just feel like a slug!

Had a fabulous salad for lunch! As I told someone in my comments on their blog, it seems as if the tastebuds need variety just as our bodies need a variety in exercise. I recently discovered sunflower seeds. I sprinkled a few on my salad and thoroughly enjoyed it!

Watching the new Discovery series "Life" gets my mind off the desire to munch mindlessly. Something about watching African vultures eating bone takes the edge off. Seriously, the photography is gorgeous! Vicarious traveling is all I can afford now, but that will not always be the case.

I visualize myself slender, strong, healthy and being active. I MUST get out of this anti-exercise rut. But I'll procrastinate one more day and get some sleep.

It's supposed to be rainy tomorrow, but not as much. I welcome the absence of joint pain and welcome the ability to move again!

Happy Easter, SparkFriends!

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    Hope the weather clears up for you and you can get back out there AND find some relief for your joints! Keep visualizing the "you" you want to be and you will get there!!! You can do this!!

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JANLEEW 4/5/2010 12:41PM

    Rain gear is a plus here in the northwest. Check out the Quickfire team for during the day bursts of things to do that help bump up your metabolism throughout the day!

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ROX2013 4/5/2010 12:28AM

    Sorry you got the rain and cold today! It was sunny here. I ended up cooking for the family today anyway and had a great visit with my 2 yr greatnephew. I did avoid the candy today but skipped my strength training. Took along nap too before the kids got here. Sometimes I think we all just need a day off. Gotta get back on track tomorrow!! emoticon

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VICD25 4/4/2010 11:20PM

    Ah, sleeplessness.It was also my cause of missing exercise this week a couple of times.

I hope you get some good rest tonight and can get back into a good exercise rut!

Here's hoping there will be sunshine tomorrow!

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CARRAND 4/4/2010 9:30PM

    Your salad sounds great. I'm sorry the rain spoiled your walk. Maybe tomorrow it will be nicer and you can get out. I'm starting to look forward to my treadmill walks, believe it or not, and I didn't exercise for years. Enjoy.

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Eating Out Wisely, Skipping Exercise and Staying Relaxed

Saturday, April 03, 2010

We ate out this morning at IHOP. BF wanted to go out for fast food and I wanted to make a more intelligent choice. I had read on SP a few weeks ago that IHOP had revamped their menus to include fit and friendly choices. I was thrilled with the changes! I had a whole wheat french toast combo for 470 calories and loved it! The scramble was with egg substitute, which I have used for years and now prefer to real eggs, they gave me two slices of turkey bacon. I liked it (it's fun finding new things), but, if I were as into bacon as I was when I was younger, it would not have been an acceptable substitute. The french toast was done so well that I think it's the best I've ever had. Sometimes, french toast is either soggy or eggy. This was neither! It was garnished with banana slices, something I never would have done. It was so good, I didn't even chase the waiter for the sugar free syrup.

To my surprise, BF chose the fit and friendly version of the incomparable harvest grain pancakes. Served with the same scramble, blueberries in the pancakes (2 instead of the 3 on the fully loaded platter) and banana slices. He covered it in syrup, not as much as he usually uses. I think his breakfast was considerably lower in calories than his usual choice. Had he not used the syrup, it would have been 570 calories. I was so proud of him for making a better food choice! I told him so, too.

I stayed within range in food and water, but zero exercise. I felt sore, stiff, tired, a bit rundown. All day long, I kept telling myself I needed to get moving, but I just didn't or couldn't.

I'll probably regret this when I step on the scale tomorrow morning, but even that prospect is not enough to get me moving...

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FOCUSEDDIANE 4/4/2010 7:54PM

    Way to choose! Don't sweat (no pun intended) not exercising today. Enjoy and relax for today. You can jump back into your full program tomorrow.

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/4/2010 7:33PM

    Awesome call on the IHOP choice - I would have never thought they would offer healthy choices.

Now I can go back! :)


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ROX2013 4/4/2010 12:26AM

    We all take a day off now and then! We are going to try IHOP for breakfast next weekend while we are out of town. I know what you mean about turkey bacon, if I am going to have bacon then I figure in the extra fat and calories. Its really in the fat that you get the extra calories. Thanks for the tip on the french toast, that is what I usually have and wasn't sure about how the whole wheat one would be. Have a happy easter..relax and enjoy the day!! emoticon

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Body Pretzel, Goals, Good Friday and Hungry!

Friday, April 02, 2010

Next to no exercise today. I knew the barometric pressure was changing before the clouds rolled in and the local weather reported the arrival of the storm. Almost every joint, almost every muscle is stiff, sore and unwilling to move! Most weather storms don't have this strong an effect on me.

Last night, I forgot to mention that I lowered my goal weight. I had originally picked a number that was familiar. That had been my goal weight every other time I attempted to drop tonnage. My new goal weight (110) is more in range with the charts I've seen recently. It's just a number and I don't expect to reach it until next year. And I am ok with that, sort of!

I started the day on the wrong foot. I didn't think I had enough milk+soy blend at work for my usual Kashi cereal, so I had oatmeal with the splash of blend. Still hungry, I headed to the cafe and bought an egg and a whole wheat English muffin. By the time I added the almond butter on the muffin, I had a hefty breakfast and I was still hungry!

I got to leave work early, so it almost feels as if I had a day off! I am SO glad the weekend has arrived!

Now, it is after dinner and I ended up within range in everything except calcium (low) and cholesterol (high). And I am still hungry!

My sister called early this morning and we chatted for just a moment (I was already at work). She was heading to ABQ with her 3 to meet up with a cousin's boy and assorted other relatives. Her stepfather's birthday is tomorrow and one of her son's birthdays is Tuesday. Tomorrow is the party and it includes a trip to Rio Grande Zoo with all the little people. Just imagine how many calories I would burn playing with my nephews and niece!

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ROX2013 4/2/2010 11:18PM

    Sounds like you stayed mostly on track today. I am always pushing up into highest cholesterol level when I have a scrambled egg (1 large). I can't have two or I will definitely go over. I have started adding a egg white (no cholesterol) to beef my breakfast up. I tried some whole wheat muffins and they tasted like straw so I am checking around to find one that has good numbers and some taste to it. I usually have cheerios or shedded wheat and a glass of orange juice then a snack of my Thin cut bagel (half the calories etc) and coffee. Thanks for the e-mail and have a fun Easter weekend!!

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MOM2PACO 4/2/2010 10:48PM

    Munch on some healthy veggies and some fresh fruit through out the day to keep you from feeling hungry. A leafy green salad even. I hope you have a great Easter weekend and I hope you burn a ton playing with the kids. Get right on the floor and play at their level :-) I hope you have a blast!! New day tomorrow ~ you can do it! emoticon

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I Am Not the Token Cripple and Other Thoughts

Thursday, April 01, 2010

One of the things I did not mention in my blog last night was my primary reason for feeling blue. A coworker, someone I trust, told me her boss said that management went through every employee's name last year when they laid off a large number of people and, when they came to my name, the word was "move on." The reason, however, is not a positive one. The reason is because they chose to lay off people who are not deemed to react by filing suit. Apparently, I am viewed as a threat and the company is afraid I would sue if I were laid off. A year or two after I started working at this company, I had a horrible fall down two flights of outdoor concrete stairs. Rainy, slick rail. I was pretty sore for weeks and had physical therapy for the neck. Last year, my shoe stuck to the carpet and I banged my head on the floor or the wall. Great concussion. I love to read and I could not read for about 2 weeks because I could not understand or retain any information. It took at least a month before I felt normal! A few weeks after that, the same thing - shoe stuck to the carpet and I narrowly missed a glass door with my head.

I would rather be retained because I have value.

She said not to take it the wrong way. I am not sure how that could be avoided!
I have spent my whole life trying to function in spite of my very minor handicap.

Perhaps this is why I felt as if I were dragging tons of iron! I had a pretty productive day at work, broken up by a lunch out with a group of people I used to work with directly. The restaurant did not have a nutritional post on their website, so I had to guess on the nutritional values of what I ate. I feel proud about that.

When I left work, I felt very, very, very tired. I had an errand to run, so I came home. On the way home, I realized I was thinking "I need to walk today." I was amazed to realize I was thinking that! I didn't want to walk, but I knew I needed to move!

But, I still felt as if I could hardly move. My lower back started hurting on the walk and that has not happened for about a week. This was not the longest walk I've done recently, so I don't know what the deal was. I finished the walk, but it felt as if I had gone back in time, before I started SP, when every step of "exercise" was excruciating. Then, even if I could do something, I did not want to and would use any excuse not to start or to quit if I did. As I was walking home, I couldn't decide if my sluggishness was a retro "I don't want to do this/"or if it was something genuine.

I am still not exercising as much as my SP friends share that they are doing. I want to lose weight a little faster than I have been, so I know I need to do more, but, every few days, I seem to hit some sort of wall...

It feels as if this is Friday evening, but it's not. Yawn!

Thanks to all my SparkFriends for their kind words over the past two weeks. This has been unreal!

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CARRAND 4/2/2010 7:28PM

    Work is just a b*tch sometimes and that's all there is to it! Hang in there. Try to keep positive thoughts. You wanted to walk and you did, and that's a good thing. I don't overdo the exercise myself, I try to walk or garden or do heavy cleaning 4 times a week, but not every day. I've improved my health and fitness a lot with just that amount of exercise. You can do it, too.

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MEGANC1988 4/2/2010 3:05PM

    It is possible that she's just making a generalization so that you feel you have job security, because I know that even if some one says I'm great and I'm necessary and I'm valued, it's harder to believe than "we have to keep you". Don't let it wear you down. emoticon

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NANNER2121 4/2/2010 11:38AM

    I read the first paragraph with interest and I would like to just say that sometimes those whom you think you can trust, you can't. Is there another way that you could verify that info if it is weighing on your thoughts? You are not responsible for the accidents, not are you responsible for what others think or do. Don't take that on as your problem because it's not.
I was terminated from my job a year ago after being professionally sabotaged by the newly minted but completely unprofessional and inept manager who looked me in the eye, hugged me and pledged her support and friendship. While I saw it coming, I did not quit, abuse nonwithstanding, as employment in this small town is hard to find. And that's why sometimes people get away with treating you poorly, because they know you're "captive." I kept records and when I was terminated simply walked away.
I did get legal advise during and after and now that a year has passed filed suit against my former employer yesterday. While I know it is not going to be a pleasant experience I must follow through. They thought I'd simply walk away and I did: just until I was mentally prepared to continue onto the next step.
So now please give yourself a break - don't let others take away what you have built up: your health, your sanity, your fitness.
And by the way I am proud of you for the exercise you are doing in these tough times. That shows a lot of moxie my friend.
Slow and sure wins the race, right?

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ROX2013 4/2/2010 12:29AM

    When things are in an uproar at work it can be so draining. From you post last nite it sounds like they had not hesitated to lay you off before. That could be the issue more than the falls. If they laid you off and kept someone else maybe with less seniority they are afraid you would sue. Remember if one door closes another will open! I don't know how good a friend you co-worker is but she also maybe feeling very insecure also. I would be superised if her boss would have said that to her about her and open himself to a reprimand or the company to a suit off personnel information being discussed with another employee who is not part of HR or part of the decision making process for layoffs without the consent of the employee they were discussing. Don't like yourself get to flustered at work just do the great job you have always done and help out as you can with the slack the layoffs may cause. I know when my depression kicks up its ugly head it is really hard for me to keep putting on foot in front of the other and every spot I have had surgery or broken something over the years hurts. Especially my legs where I broke them. I finally decided to give myself premission to shorten my exercise if need be but not stop altogether. The exercise helps me to overcome the depression and I know that I accomplished something useful and can then see the end of the tunnel. Hang in there. emoticon

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