Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I am unhappy with myself! Despite better intentions, I did not get any meaningful exercise in today. I did walk the stairs every chance I had, but not much more than that. My lunchtime walk was replaced with lunch out with a coworker.
She noticed I had a very balanced low calorie meal and commented about it. I had downloaded the nutritional PDF from the website and had picked out a few alternatives. I was going to order a la carte, but found, when we got there that the options were not available. I still felt pretty happy with my choice. The one drawback was that it was high in sodium AND I had a diet Pepsi with it. I made sure to drink extra water, but I don't know if that will compensate for the high sodium.
A coworker was laid off last week and I have been given the opportunity to put in some OT (rare opportunity where I work!) over the next few weeks taking care of the boxes of paper, stacks of files and stuff in his office. By the time I got home, I had zero interest in exercise and was not even that hungry.
This is 3 consecutive days of not moving! It almost feels like "diet" thinking - sort of like I screwed up so I might as well continue doing so. I have the same guilt for not doing what I "should" do. I have seen some great ideas this week - one guy walked every day for a year and lost 40 pounds just doing that. Another SP person decided to post 3 goals for the month of April.
So here goes:
I am going to walk every day
I am going to strength train 3 times a week and try one new exercise every week
I am going to live my mantra: No shortcuts!
Please, SP friends, hold me accountable!
Sunday, April 04, 2010
The storm front I felt days ago has arrived, but it is underwhelming. It is windy and very cold, but the rain changes by the minute - dripping, pouring, sprinkling. "I don't want to slip." "I don't want to risk getting sick." How easily those excuses came back. No walk today, at least not much of one.
Not sleeping again and just feel like a slug!
Had a fabulous salad for lunch! As I told someone in my comments on their blog, it seems as if the tastebuds need variety just as our bodies need a variety in exercise. I recently discovered sunflower seeds. I sprinkled a few on my salad and thoroughly enjoyed it!
Watching the new Discovery series "Life" gets my mind off the desire to munch mindlessly. Something about watching African vultures eating bone takes the edge off. Seriously, the photography is gorgeous! Vicarious traveling is all I can afford now, but that will not always be the case.
I visualize myself slender, strong, healthy and being active. I MUST get out of this anti-exercise rut. But I'll procrastinate one more day and get some sleep.
It's supposed to be rainy tomorrow, but not as much. I welcome the absence of joint pain and welcome the ability to move again!
Happy Easter, SparkFriends!
Saturday, April 03, 2010
We ate out this morning at IHOP. BF wanted to go out for fast food and I wanted to make a more intelligent choice. I had read on SP a few weeks ago that IHOP had revamped their menus to include fit and friendly choices. I was thrilled with the changes! I had a whole wheat french toast combo for 470 calories and loved it! The scramble was with egg substitute, which I have used for years and now prefer to real eggs, they gave me two slices of turkey bacon. I liked it (it's fun finding new things), but, if I were as into bacon as I was when I was younger, it would not have been an acceptable substitute. The french toast was done so well that I think it's the best I've ever had. Sometimes, french toast is either soggy or eggy. This was neither! It was garnished with banana slices, something I never would have done. It was so good, I didn't even chase the waiter for the sugar free syrup.
To my surprise, BF chose the fit and friendly version of the incomparable harvest grain pancakes. Served with the same scramble, blueberries in the pancakes (2 instead of the 3 on the fully loaded platter) and banana slices. He covered it in syrup, not as much as he usually uses. I think his breakfast was considerably lower in calories than his usual choice. Had he not used the syrup, it would have been 570 calories. I was so proud of him for making a better food choice! I told him so, too.
I stayed within range in food and water, but zero exercise. I felt sore, stiff, tired, a bit rundown. All day long, I kept telling myself I needed to get moving, but I just didn't or couldn't.
I'll probably regret this when I step on the scale tomorrow morning, but even that prospect is not enough to get me moving...
Friday, April 02, 2010
Next to no exercise today. I knew the barometric pressure was changing before the clouds rolled in and the local weather reported the arrival of the storm. Almost every joint, almost every muscle is stiff, sore and unwilling to move! Most weather storms don't have this strong an effect on me.
Last night, I forgot to mention that I lowered my goal weight. I had originally picked a number that was familiar. That had been my goal weight every other time I attempted to drop tonnage. My new goal weight (110) is more in range with the charts I've seen recently. It's just a number and I don't expect to reach it until next year. And I am ok with that, sort of!
I started the day on the wrong foot. I didn't think I had enough milk+soy blend at work for my usual Kashi cereal, so I had oatmeal with the splash of blend. Still hungry, I headed to the cafe and bought an egg and a whole wheat English muffin. By the time I added the almond butter on the muffin, I had a hefty breakfast and I was still hungry!
I got to leave work early, so it almost feels as if I had a day off! I am SO glad the weekend has arrived!
Now, it is after dinner and I ended up within range in everything except calcium (low) and cholesterol (high). And I am still hungry!
My sister called early this morning and we chatted for just a moment (I was already at work). She was heading to ABQ with her 3 to meet up with a cousin's boy and assorted other relatives. Her stepfather's birthday is tomorrow and one of her son's birthdays is Tuesday. Tomorrow is the party and it includes a trip to Rio Grande Zoo with all the little people. Just imagine how many calories I would burn playing with my nephews and niece!
Thursday, April 01, 2010
One of the things I did not mention in my blog last night was my primary reason for feeling blue. A coworker, someone I trust, told me her boss said that management went through every employee's name last year when they laid off a large number of people and, when they came to my name, the word was "move on." The reason, however, is not a positive one. The reason is because they chose to lay off people who are not deemed to react by filing suit. Apparently, I am viewed as a threat and the company is afraid I would sue if I were laid off. A year or two after I started working at this company, I had a horrible fall down two flights of outdoor concrete stairs. Rainy, slick rail. I was pretty sore for weeks and had physical therapy for the neck. Last year, my shoe stuck to the carpet and I banged my head on the floor or the wall. Great concussion. I love to read and I could not read for about 2 weeks because I could not understand or retain any information. It took at least a month before I felt normal! A few weeks after that, the same thing - shoe stuck to the carpet and I narrowly missed a glass door with my head.
I would rather be retained because I have value.
She said not to take it the wrong way. I am not sure how that could be avoided!
I have spent my whole life trying to function in spite of my very minor handicap.
Perhaps this is why I felt as if I were dragging tons of iron! I had a pretty productive day at work, broken up by a lunch out with a group of people I used to work with directly. The restaurant did not have a nutritional post on their website, so I had to guess on the nutritional values of what I ate. I feel proud about that.
When I left work, I felt very, very, very tired. I had an errand to run, so I came home. On the way home, I realized I was thinking "I need to walk today." I was amazed to realize I was thinking that! I didn't want to walk, but I knew I needed to move!
But, I still felt as if I could hardly move. My lower back started hurting on the walk and that has not happened for about a week. This was not the longest walk I've done recently, so I don't know what the deal was. I finished the walk, but it felt as if I had gone back in time, before I started SP, when every step of "exercise" was excruciating. Then, even if I could do something, I did not want to and would use any excuse not to start or to quit if I did. As I was walking home, I couldn't decide if my sluggishness was a retro "I don't want to do this/"or if it was something genuine.
I am still not exercising as much as my SP friends share that they are doing. I want to lose weight a little faster than I have been, so I know I need to do more, but, every few days, I seem to hit some sort of wall...
It feels as if this is Friday evening, but it's not. Yawn!
Thanks to all my SparkFriends for their kind words over the past two weeks. This has been unreal!
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