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Couch Potato Day is Not Always a Bad Thing

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Surprisingly, I did not sleep well last night. I should have after that glorious hike! When I did get up, I was STIFF! My right arch hurt for most of the day and it was just hard to move at all. My plan to do a bunch of errands was torpedoed, partly by that and partly by a marathon on tv.

On the good side, I have not been eating everything in sight all day!

When I first got up, I stepped on the scale and it had a great number! But, I was not sure I had set up the scale level, so, when I stepped on it again later, it was not so exciting. But, if I take the long view, the 1.7 pound loss is quite acceptable. The inches on my tape measure results were quite mixed. Lost a bit on the waist, gained in the hips and arm...I don't get it.

I am very relaxed today, a rare feeling!

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LITTLELADIE27 3/29/2010 2:08PM

    Some days are like these, cheer up tomorrow is another day to happiness!

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DISAPPOINTME 3/29/2010 12:54AM

    Gosh, I'm sorry you didn't sleep well and I'm sorry you're stiff after your hike. At least you got to enjoy your day and have a relaxing time. Congratulations on not eating everything in sight!

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KEENTINA 3/28/2010 10:29PM

    I was cleaning and packing for 8 hours yesterday and am very sore today - at least you were having fun! Are you building muscle? Sometimes that's a reason for the gain in the arms. Hip muscles could be a little swollen with the hike but it's hard to tell. I have noticed my weight shifted when I tried on a so-called body slimmer. I could no longer fasten the waistband I had before I put the garment on but I looked flatter. Go figure - the pants weren't tight before. I also put on inches with high sodium - sometimes in the hips and not the waist.

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MISSPIGGYGIRL 3/28/2010 9:46PM

    I know how u feel..sometimes when we diet..& not use our muscles too much they ache..but after awhile..they usually get better..Very goody..control that appetite..Do u have a rolly polly scale not a digital..u might want to invest in a digital one..Then ur number will be set..I enjoy mine..my sister has the other..she looses her motivation cause when she moves to the wrong side or move too much the number moves..those scales ain't reliable..Everybodys body is different on loosing size..Goody be relax..after along hike..u did goody..Keep it up!.. emoticon

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Today was...

Sunday, March 28, 2010

I hardly know where to begin. Do I post at all? Do I share only about my activities today? Or do I dedicate today in memoriam? Or shall I attempt to cover everything that today was?

Today was the planned delayed birthday day with my partner and my very good friend and coworker. Today also happens to mark the one year anniversary of the death of a young Navy man in Afghanistan, Frankie Toner IV. I am not related to Frankie, nor did we ever meet. My brother was his roommate in Afghanistan and had also trained him for his last job. While my family is grateful to have my brother back safely, our hearts are broken for the loss of this young man and the empty place in the Toner family. Some day, I will go to Arlington and pay my respects.

My birthday celebration with Bill and Yvonne was a trip to Pinnacles National Monument, south of Gilroy, east of Monterey. Yvonne had never been there and she is a photographer in her other life outside of work, so I always try to pick something that she will enjoy. Bill and I had not been to Pinnacles in a few years. I had forgotten how rugged the "easy" trail was. The Bear Gulch trail is about 1.4 miles roundtrip, but the mileage is deceiving. It was a total body workout for me for the two hours! Balancing on narrow trails with people in all directions, scaling rocks and steps cut into rocks, ducking down through the caves and sliding on loose soil. I did not make it to the reservoir, but we were only yards away when we turned back. The last stretch involved squeezing through a crevice in the dark and I didn't think I could do it, especially knowing I was still going to have to walk back! I did slip and slide a little; there were a few spots where I sat down and worked my way down a rock or a deep step that way, but I did not fall and have only two minor scrapes to show for the day! At the end of the hike, I felt as if I had crossed a finish line! (I wanted to reach the resevoir so I could think for a few moments and honor the sacrifice that Frankie made and to pray for his family and friends, including my brother, who are still hurting today.) From all accounts, he was the kind of guy who would give you his last shirt. In fact,in the days before he was shot, he had been gathering clothes and shoes for the Afghanis who lived near their base. I hope my thoughts of him interspersed through the day serve as the fragrant prayer and honor him as I wanted to do, though he deserves much more.

Dinner was at Black Bear Diner and, as nearly as I can calculate, was a huge portion of today's calories, even though I ate mostly carefully throughout the day. (I did have one piece of macadamia nut/chocolate/coconut candy and that probably tipped me over in the fat category!)

Today was tinged with sadness, the saddest day of a very sad week.
Today was a personal victory in that I had a very successful hike.
Today was a surprise in that I stayed mostly within the nutritional goals despite not planning the day or tracking throughout the day.
Today was relaxing. I have not felt this relaxed in months, literally!
Today was a reminder, at the end of the day, when I finally logged in to SP, of the power of the people who are on this site. I received some wonderful comments, great support and encouragement, dare I say love, from SparkPeople this week and today. Thank you.

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Tears, A Hug, Food and I'm Numb

Friday, March 26, 2010

This morning, I sent an email to my friend asking if our rescheduled-from-last-week ;unch date was on. She responded affirmatively and then called me to tell me that a former coworker died yesterday after a very, very, very long battle with breast cancer. Why she chose to tell me over the phone in the middle of the morning instead of waiting until we were together at lunch? Knowing her, the answer is multifaceted. She wanted to give me time to absorb the news in a way in which she would not have to deal with whatever my response would be. She is also someone who always, always wants to be the first to share news, good or bad. And, my dear friend is one of those people for whom the other shoe is always fallen, has just fallen or is about to fall. I cannot fault her. Nonetheless, the news was quite a distraction.

The lunch destination was a surprise to me, so I did not have the chance to look at a menu online and prepare myself. I ended up having a very tasty grilled chicken sandwich and, when I got back to work, guesstimated on the measures.

No real exercise today, but we're going hiking tomorrow at Pinnacles National Monument.

When Val and I had lunch, she told me her brother has cancer. I used to have strong feelings for him, so that was another blow during a week of blows. We hugged as we parted and it was truly wonderful to be back in touch with her, even if it is always a one-sided conversation!

Today, for the first time in several, I ended the day in balance in all the nutrition measures. That felt good!

Tomorrow, even though the hike and dinner out are a delayed birthday celebration, my heart will be heavy. One year ago tomorrow is when my brother saw his roommate killed in Afghanistan. Our familiy is shredded in sympathy for his. At Pinnacles, once you go through the small cave, there is a spectacular view and I hope to do, say or think something appropriate to honor a young man who's buried at Arlington.

I am so thankful for my sparkpeople community. Their kind support has carried me through this week. Words fail to adequately express how much that means to me.

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KEENTINA 3/28/2010 10:17PM

    I was told years ago that we can look to the mountains and think that God made them. It should fit for the view you were experiencing so maybe, in memory of your brother's friend, you could look at that view and hope that, if our anticipations of heaven are correct, he will be seeing something this good or better for eternity. Then, you won't have to honor him just on the anniversary of his death.

I'll say a prayer for your friend's brother - that they may find some relief in the treatments and ease any suffering as much as possible.


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CARRAND 3/27/2010 9:07PM

    I'm so sorry you are suffering such losses. Hang in there. You're doing fine. It's OK to grieve.

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LUNADRAGON 3/27/2010 7:58PM

    Hugs! It is so hard when we face such emotional hurdles. I pray you find comfort right now (but not in food).

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MEGANC1988 3/27/2010 12:01PM

    emoticon meeting your nutrition goals!

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NANNER2121 3/27/2010 11:13AM

    Such a tough week for you. I'm so sorry for all the bad news you received. Sending positive energy your way.

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PINK-SOLDIER 3/27/2010 10:17AM

    emoticonand emoticonon your loss.

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PONDERTHIS 3/27/2010 1:07AM

    Thank you for your post ~ it is very touching to read about changes that are so hard. My thoughts are with you. I hope you find some peace and comfort in your day tomorrow.
Love and hugs to you


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ROX2013 3/27/2010 12:28AM

    Take the time on your hike to relax and find peace inside yourself. It hard to deal with these types of blows and sometimes just stopping for a minute and finding a quiet place inside yourself will give the courage to go on. My thoughts are with you. emoticon

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I hope this is the worst performance day of my SP life.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Thanks to you SparkFriends who commented on yesterday's blog. Your support is deeply appreciated! I fell into an old habit last night: I stayed up too late because I was not tired. Perhaps I was not tired because I did not want to go to sleep. I wanted to avoid the inevitable restless night and flood of memories.

This morning, of course, I did not want to get up. I woke up with a very sore left heel. Great! Just what I have been so afraid of, why I had not started running until a few days ago. (The pain passed soon after I started the day). I did not walk at lunch time because I thought I'd rest my legs in the hopes that my next run will be more productive.

I was within range on food but just barely. I wanted to eat a whole lot more than I did and this was one of the first days when I've felt that way since being on SP,
at least that I can remember...

Near the end of the work day, I ran out of energy, mentally and physically. I sat there looking at my work and just could not muster the energy to function. I really hate that!

When I got home, I kicked off my shoes and picked up my free weights. I still have so far to go in this area! Twenty five reps of 3 different arm exercises and I was done. Nothing to get excited about.

Yes, a blah day. But it was not a wasted day. I ate right, I did a smidge of exercise. I did not even walk around the building much and I used the elevator when I needed to. While I was in the elevator, I did hip flexors and other stretches. Our elevators have a bar on the back wall and I grip that to do a modified squat. Those are hard! But every time I do these elevator exercises, I can tell I am getting stronger.

I hope this is the worst performance day of my SP life.

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CARRAND 3/27/2010 9:09PM

    Sounds like a pretty good day to me. Be proud of your successes.

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MEGANC1988 3/26/2010 2:36PM

    I love stretching in elevators! I don't know why, but it's so fun! Be proud of yourself, even though it may feel blah, it sounds like you had a great day nutritionally and you got some strength training in (that's always my difficult-to-do work out)

Good job!

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IXCHEL23 3/26/2010 8:49AM

    Worst day? That was great I feel! You ate right and you did a form of exercise, it's better than none! You need right now to catch up on your sleep, rest your heel and you'll feel so much BETTER!


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AHAPPYLIFE 3/26/2010 1:48AM

    Wow, I'd say you did really well. A lot of Sparkers have a hard time with strength training - myself included! Cole771 is right. I thought I had a bone spurr or something but the doc said it was plantar fasciitis. She got me in an arch support and told me to wear shoes all day long. After about a week, the pain finally went away. I never go without arch supports now but I do admit to going barefoot a lot.

Be healthy!

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JAVALOVERTOO 3/25/2010 11:45PM

    It's good to look back and see what you did, figure out why, and then move on! You did good eating and getting some exercise. Tomorrow is another day and you will do better! emoticon

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COLE771 3/25/2010 11:28PM

    If that's your worst day, you're doing pretty good! :)
Watch out for the sore heel - I have struggled with plantar fasciitis for over a year and it's back again after I ran W4D1 on Tuesday. Be sure you stretch alot!
Have a good day tomorrow!

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GOCELTICSGO 3/25/2010 11:16PM

    Be strong!

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Kirsti, Delilah, Frankie, Food and Exercise

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Today was my cousin Kirsti's birthday, her second in heaven. She would have been 45 today. She died in a solo car wreck on her way to work December 30, 2008. The youngest of my generation, she should not have been the 2nd to go. She left 3 children, two of whom are teens and her baby was not quite 3 and, as I later found out, a wonderful young man who loved her very much.

What I did not know until the end of the day was that my sister had to put one of her dogs down. Delilah, a black Lab, had been part of the family for almost 14 years.

In a couple of days, it will mark a year since my brother's roommate in Afghanistan (they were both on loan from the Navy to the Army) was killed on the base in front of my brother and other members of the team. Someday, I will have to bring flowers to Arlington to honor this young man. Frank L. Toner IV.
His family hurts so badly and, as I told them, their hurt is also our family's. It was just so incredibly close! Thankful I have my younger brother, but the loss of Frankie is as if he were also my brother.

The cumulative grief is hard to deal with, but one does what has to be done. It feels rather automatic.

It was almost funny this morning, though. I had posted on my social page that I was going to honor Kirsti today by wearing a hot air balloon pin and eat cheese. I remembered how we ate cheese, but I had no intention of having any today. It was not on my radar or in my menu. I walked in to put my lunch in the fridge and get my Kashi cereal ready and found someone had brought in a tray of cold cuts, cheese, black olives, lettuce and bread with a note for us to enjoy because it was leftover from a party. WITHOUT THINKING (and that's the scary part), I snagged one olive, a slice of roast beef and a slice of cheese that turned out to be two after I'd removed it. I rolled up the roast beef and cheese and STUFFED it in my mouth! As I realized what I was doing, I saw that I had fallen into an old habit. Shoveling food in my mouth so no one would see. I thought I was past that...

I faithfully logged it in. In a past life, I would not have. Later, all that was left was one slice of cheese and all of the lovely lettuce. I left the slice and took the lettuce!

Last Sunday was my first run, such as it was, and all week, I'd been looking forward to tonight's run. I planned to leave work at a certain time and a senior VP needed something at the last minute. No problem. The stress was hard, but I was happy to assist her. Stress - can I get this done as soon as she needs it and can I do it right? On her heals came two other requests. By then, I felt snarly! I realized I had not gotten to eat all of my lunch and inhaled some while I finished working and rushed out the door.

My run was shorter than Sunday's, which was not my goal! 3/10ths of a mile of run/walk today. I was less winded when it was over. My BF ran with me and kept reminding me to breathe properly. My pedometer had cleared out all the steps just before the run, so I can only guess how many steps I'd had...I was disappointed to miss the data.

Yesterday I got an email from SparkPeople saying it was time for me to transit to the 3rd stage. I am not sure I am ready and commented about it on one of the message boards. A Sparker said I should stay where I'm comfortable and SP Coach Denise said I can switch when I am ready. It's not about comfort. If it were comfort, I would not have started this journey! I am still working to find balance nutritionally and consistency in exercise. So I will stay in stage 2 until I feel this is more integrated into the new me.

I posted a comment on another message board today about exercise. The question was something about what is my attitude about exercise. I said:
This is something I have to do. I don't like thinking about exercise, thinking about making time for exercise. Sometimes I don't like the exercise while I am doing it, sometimes it hurts or is uncomfortable. A few exercises I like, enjoy, look forward to and miss when I can't get it in (walking now, running maybe soon) but I always love how I feel when I've done something! That is progress! This from someone who has spent decades being convinced that exercise is a four letter word that got stretched.

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KEENTINA 3/26/2010 7:18PM

    I stayed in the stages much longer than I had to also. I was already a team lead and reluctant to move myself to the 4th and final stage which includes guiding others! Someone finally called my attention to the fact that I'd already been doing those things from Stage 4 for months. I do like to really get things down well before I move on as well.

Good luck with your plan. You had the cheese for your cousin after all! It is so easy to take that "free" food without thinking, isn't it? You didn't gorge on it, though.

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NANNER2121 3/26/2010 11:38AM

    Oh my, such a vast amount of sorrow in a few days span. I will keep you in my thoughts and send positive energy your way.

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MEGANC1988 3/25/2010 12:29PM

    emoticon Grief and sadness can easily make us forget about what goes through our head so often now. Good job logging it! I know that feeling of "oh no why'd I do that...do I need to log it? Does it really matter?" And it does, so awesome job!

Running can be so unpredictable, some days you can go forever, other days you can barely make it out the door. On days that you run for longer than you'd expect, take note as to what your nutrition was that day, maybe even make a note in your nutrition or fitness tracker, and do the same on days where you don't run nearly as far, you may see that the good days there's something in your diet that really works.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/25/2010 12:59AM

    Hang in there. You had a tough day, but it really sounds like all your good habits are paying off. Today was stressful, but you were mindful of what you ate, logged it in, and then had the lettuce. You might not have gotten in the run you had planned, but you didn't give up..you went and did your exercise. Be proud of your accomplishments! It is hard to stay on track when we have emotions weighing on us, but you are doing it!

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VICD25 3/24/2010 11:18PM

    Juneau, what an emotional day for you. Hugs go out to you.

FYI, I to have received the e-mail moving me to stage three, but have elected to remain in stage 2 for a little while longer. I feel the need to cement those 6 strategies a little firmer.

Thanks for reminding me to go back and review those strategies. (I just looked at my nutrition tracker and noticed I popped a couple of breakfast sausages in my mouth without thinking. Hmm. . .like you, at least I logged it in.)

Congrats on the run. Every step you take is one step closer to a healthy life. I'm impressed that you are running. I HATE running!

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