Monday, November 19, 2012
Four years ago tomorrow, I lost my wonderful Russian Blue boy cat named Bug. That morning, I spoke to him as I headed out to work. I could not reach him - he was curled up on a shelf right next to the door above my head and out of reach. Little did I know that was the last time I would see him. It took over two years for my BF to 'fess up that Bug died that day and he is buried somewhere in the back yard (don't get me started!). We have two other cats, but I still miss my boy!
I feel huge! I saw my picture on the video webcast during our team meeting and was horrified. I am so fat! I cannot move without pain, I feel stiff all the time and.......
Working two jobs and seven days a week is a real challenge. I got my first check on Saturday and it was nice to pay more than minimum on two bills and to get some groceries! I have a long way to go, but this sure felt good!
Monday, October 15, 2012
I felt like crap all weekend. Saturday, I stayed pretty much on track with food, but I was also a total couch potato. Yesterday, did what I had to do and was on track until the nausea hit me hard. I sought comfort in crackers. Lots of crackers.
Then, shortly before I went to bed, I learned that a friend died suddenly on Saturday of a massive heart attack. He was only a few years older than I am = far too young to die! But, despite whatever the coroner's report might say, I know, in my heart, he died of a broken heart. His wife, Ruby, was my very good friend/coworker/former boss who died suddenly just over 2 years ago.
They are reunited in heaven, I am sure.
There are two cats who now need a home. BF will not let me take one (we would then have 3). Part of it is because he is home with them all day (he does not work) and he does not want another cat to take care of. The other thing is that his cat is 16 and she will not want another cat around. But Juneau is only 6 and she would love a buddy! These two cats will be put down if they don't find homes! I would love to have the one I used to hear Ruby talk about when he was a runt of a kitten!
I did not stuff my face today, but it was really hard to concentrate and stay focused at work.
Tomorrow is the Toastmaster Open House and I am the emcee for the meeting. A bit nervous about it because I have not done it in a while, but it will be fine.
I may not be - ever again!
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
I am so glad I participated in the Toastmaster show last night. It was a lot of fun! As sore as I was, I still got in some steps before the taping. Still, I was glad that we got through it quickly and I got home earlier than I expected.
This morning, my knees were really sore, my shoulders and neck felt as if I'd been in a car accident, so I was not very active today. I did walk a little ever couple of hours to keep the stiffness from setting in.
Still working on finding balance in food. On target in most categories, low in others. Not worried. I am feeling better every day, less food obsessed. Calmer, more centered inside.
The SF Giants won! The Oakland As won! My dream of them playing in the World Series, while still a long shot, is still alive.
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