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A (Red, White and) Blue Day

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Today was Veterans Day - a day I usually take off in remembrance and contemplation. But I will be on "vacation" Thursday and Friday traveling to my beloved Mom Angell's celebration of life service. Tomorrow will be spent at an all day seminar on legal presentations. I don't need the hours credit for my Continuing Legal Education requirements, but it's a chance to learn new things and meet new people. It's put on by the local chapter of Association of Corporate Counsel and, as a paralegal, I get in for $25 since I am attending with attorneys who are members of the chapter. My boss and I are carpooling and have a plan to leave mid afternoon. He has to get home to his twin boys and I need to get off the clock and start getting ready for my early morning trip to the airport on Thursday.

I learned yesterday that a father of some of my students died on Sunday. Today, I learned his wife died a few years ago. We used to go to the same church and I house sat for them when they went on vacation years ago. The boys are all grown, but they are still children in my memory.

I wrote the speech I am going to deliver at Mom's service. This has been a very blue day.

I have several relatives in military service today. My brother is in Afghanistan and I don't know where the other relatives are, but I am grateful for them and pray they make it home ok.

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ANGELN325 11/28/2014 9:18AM

    I'm so sorry you lost your Mom. I'm sure your speech was very well received and I hope doing it helps you in your grieving process. I know it will take time. I lost 2 uncles and an aunt this year. 1 uncle I was very close to and I've had to write letters to him which I put with my small share of his ashes to help with the grieving process. I can't imagine what it's like for a parent, but I will keep you in my prayers and that your family in the service come back to you safely.

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_LINDA 11/12/2014 11:44PM

    Learning new things and networking is always a bonus -hope that goes well.
Will be thinking of you at the memorial I am sure your speech will be wonderful and heartfelt.
Cannot imagine worrying of relative's safety in the military -no background with it- pray they stay safe..
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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 11/12/2014 10:28AM

    ((Hugs))

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BOOERDEM 11/12/2014 9:07AM

    Thinking of you this week - challenging, bittersweet - hope all goes well. emoticon

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Mom Angell

Sunday, October 19, 2014


Just sharing a picture of her from shortly after my college days.

  
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SUSAN-FIT-N-FAB 10/22/2014 4:37PM

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_LINDA 10/20/2014 8:40AM

    Its wonderful you met this women you were so strongly affected by to consider her like a mother, its so rare to get any connection with a professor in the big classes these days. Cherish the memories and know she enjoyed a good long life and is in a better place..
Sending healing, soothing and comforting hugs.

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 10/20/2014 8:28AM

    I read your blog from the other day. I can tell you really cared for this lady. I'm so sorry you are hurting. Sending you a hug and my wishes for peace and comfort for you and her family.

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SCOTMAMA 10/20/2014 7:39AM

    I can feel the sadness! It is a very hard thing to go through, and if you are like me, the sadness at losing your Mom will always be with you -- but so will the good memories. I lost my sister also, long ago, and it still saddens me that I can't go see her or pick up the phone to call her. She was the one person I could call, even in the middle of the night.

Prayers go out to you, my friend! Your Mom was a beautiful woman!

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BOOERDEM 10/19/2014 8:59PM

    Thinking of you - glad you have good memories to hold onto. emoticon

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POCKETFULOFSUN 10/19/2014 6:27PM

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In Tears - Prayers Requested

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Home sick today, but that pales in comparison to the email I just received. Mom Angell is failing, is not expected to live more than a few days. I ask for prayers for her, her caregivers and all of the family.

I am supposed to be at a seminar next week and the delayed anniversary celebration play days with my honey. It's all paid for except for meals and fun. I can't decide what to do. Do I cancel this and go to Missouri for maybe a funeral or wait until they do the memorial in Arkansas (where I met Mom and where she will be buried)? That service is likely to occur in the spring or summer.

I adore Mom! My gut tells me I would be in the way in MO, that she is not likely to know I am there, but how much of that is my reluctance to face facts and take the trip? How much of that is fear? I was with my dad when he died and it was the hardest day of my life. I will be forever grateful that I was there for him (he knew I was there and we talked a little.) But I don't know if I could stand to see Mom, that tall, graceful warm and loving woman now at 90+, frail and bedridden.

The ticket price between SFO and MO vs SFO and Ft Smith is only a few hundred dollars, so it's about the same either place. I don't want to go, but that is totally selfish and out of step with reality. On the other hand, Mom's daughters need as much love and support as they can get. Not to mention the rest of the clan!

I love Mom forever!

  
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RIDMYCOCOON 10/17/2014 8:42PM

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TUDAFD 10/16/2014 10:31AM

    Keeping you in my prayers. I'm so sorry.


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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/16/2014 8:27AM

    I'm so sorry. You're in my prayers. emoticon

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MKBWNSUGAR 10/15/2014 9:27PM

    You are in my prayers, pray and follow your gut.
Martha

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_LINDA 10/15/2014 8:29PM

    So very sorry for your Mother, sad news :-(( 90 years is a long time to have lived, and God will have another precious angel. Its best to remember her as she was perhaps. Seeing her in a sickly state would be very depressing, especially if she could not even recognize you. Attending the memorial, you can share wonderful memories and show your support for the family.
I am assuming this seminar is important to your continuing education and giving you the skills to further your career, or at the very least, help make you too valuable to your employers to let go.
My thoughts, soothing and healing are with you.
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AEHARVEY36 10/15/2014 5:00PM

    Thoughts and prayers to you and your family. In trying to decide if you should go or not. Would you regret it if you didn't go?

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STUDLEEJOE 10/15/2014 2:51PM

    I am very sorry. I pray for you and your family.

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CATTUTT 10/15/2014 2:31PM

    I am so sorry to hear this. You, Mom Angell and the family are in my thoughts.



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An Odd NSV

Saturday, October 11, 2014

I've been making poor choices with food and with my time lately. But this week, I started to turn things around. Drinking more water, eating somewhat better and at least having a passing familiarity with portion control.

Today, my slacks felt a bit more loose. I fell during my lunchtime walk. I have not fallen for a while and I had not been doing much walking because I really hurt myself the last time I fell. Today, I did not land fully on my knees and, while I struggled, I was able to get back up.

Stiff this evening, but recovering from the fall relatively easily is definitely an NSV. I will take it!

  
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_LINDA 10/12/2014 8:43AM

    So sorry about the fall :-( I can see it would be discouraging to walk if you risk a fall :-((
Good for you focusing on what you can control -your food! That is a great NSV!!
Keep up the great work!!
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SUSAN-FIT-N-FAB 10/12/2014 8:27AM

    emoticon YAY for loose pants and glad you didn't hurt yourself as badly this time!

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/12/2014 6:58AM

    Congrats on the loose slacks! I'm glad you didn't hurt yourself badly when you fell.

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CATTUTT 10/11/2014 10:43PM

    Ouch, sorry to hear you fell! I hope you recover 100% very quickly!

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JAMBABY0 10/11/2014 10:18PM

    remember to listen to your body.

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I Need to Forgive

Monday, September 29, 2014

The title might lead you to think this is going to be a long and deeply introspective blog. I could write one of those if I chose. There's at least one in me. But I don't have the mental or emotional energy to approach that right now.

A manager who works a few doors down from my cube came in last week with a cold and I now have it. I lost pay yesterday since I did not go to either job and will lose overtime this week because of the cold. I do have sick time that I used for today, but that means, even if I work OT this week, the first hours of it would be paid at straight time, so that's a direct hit to my wallet.

She could have worked from home. Managers have that discretion and the tools to do so. She also has a door she could have kept shut.

Nothing I can do about it now but forgive her and pray my partner isn't sick with it for too long. He has a diminished immune system so a little bug like this really takes him down. For my own spiritual health, I need to practice mindful forgiveness prayerfully.

  
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SUSAN-FIT-N-FAB 9/30/2014 8:43AM

    Feel better soon!

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BETRHO48 9/29/2014 11:28PM

    So sorry about your illness. Get lots of rest, eat all the healthy stuff. Drink lots of fluids.
Oh yes, and don't forget to wash your hands! (lol - that's the healthcare worker in me typing that!)
~Beth

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CATTUTT 9/29/2014 9:14PM

    So sorry to hear you are sick, that's a major bummer. I hope you and your partner recover quickly!

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GEORGE815 9/29/2014 7:55PM

    Sorry to hear your boss gave you a cold and not just work to do!

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GRANDMABABA 9/29/2014 7:51PM

    Feel better soon! Take good care of you.

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