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30 days and I'm thin in the face..

Thursday, October 30, 2014

I made it.. well I'm calling it by about 8 hours too early, but I doubt I will slip up.
This whole thing has been amazing..
Its been really hard, but really amazing.
I feel more proud in what I have accomplished in these past 30 days than I did when I finally hit 100lbs down back in February after a 3 year struggle.

I've always struggled with binging.
For the first time in my life I didn't cave.
This is the longest I've gone without cheating myself.
No fast food
No soda
NO CHEEEEEESE (Come on this, Wisconsin girl is dying..)
No wine
No grains
No beans
No dairy
No sugar of any kind other than fruit

Wow.. I really didn't think I had it in me.. and judging by a lot of the praise I'm getting from the people in my life I don't think they thought I had it in me either.

For some reason we all get this idea in our heads that eating a certain way will be impossible.
Nothing is impossible.

I pulled some pictures from my facebook posts so I can show you what my food basically looked like for the past 30 days.

My first meal.. I didn't think I'd ever like black coffee.. better than nothing!

Steak and spaghetti squash.

Avocado, shrimp, chicken sausage and sliced tomatoes.

Ordered out at work for Friday lunch!! Not too scary being compliant while dining out.

Shredded sweet potatoes with prosciutto egg cups.. My all time fave!

I made compliant mayo!! 2nd try!!

All my snacks so I could still enjoy a bridal shower without the italian food!

The only thing I could enjoy at the shower..

My steak for the Walking Dead premiere.. Rick looks pretty pleased.

Almond meal breaded chicken breast with prosciutto wrapped asparagus.

Eggs and green juice.. juice is not complaint as they say smoothies are bad for psychological reasons, but its spinach, pineapple, banana, water and flax seed. My juicing is the only rule I broke on the plan.

Another Friday lunch! Steak and eggs were our dining out go to for the hubs and I.

Sweet potato "bun", burger patty, sweet potato fries, avocado and pineapple.. another fave!

Big flipping steak with roasted cauliflower.. I can eat my weight in roasted cauliflower.

Working lunch.. This one was a fail actually.. my first entree had black beans, corn and tortilla strips hiding on the bottom because they didn't listen to my request and used the wrong kind of salsa instead of pico de gallo. This is the one that had to box up for me and take back with me Shrimp salad with pico, avocado, black olives, and cactus! It was good, but I thought they messed with it since I complained about the first one.. so I threw it away well before I was full. Holy novel about a salad.

Almond meal breaded chicken tenders with sweet potato fries! Major hit in our house!

What I got when I almost caved. I was out and about with no supervision and I wanted a starbucks mocha so bad.. I went shopping and it was so hard to stay true to myself and what I really wanted.
I won.

Sick, but complaint.

Chicken soup for my sickness and part of my kid's costume.

And the biggest brag of all time..
This is WHERE I WORK!!
We are famous for our buns and I need to smell, see, touch this stuff all the time!

I cannot wait to log my weigh in tomorrow. It really is prefect that I get to see my whole30 end weight on the same day that I would always log on Sparkpeople.. I've been sneaking peeks and its pretty awesome!!

I wanted to write more, but I'm still at work and those pictures took a long time.
Maybe more tomorrow?!?

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EVRLNGFOO 11/3/2014 2:48PM

    great job! you can do anything! you just proved that to yourself. never doubt yourself again.

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BEACHCALSIX 11/3/2014 12:30PM

    wow all that food looks sooo good! Great job!!

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MRTHING2000 10/31/2014 7:40AM

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BUTTONPOPPER1 10/31/2014 1:31AM

    What a great job! You have worked so hard. I know you'll be rewarded at your weigh-in! Keep us posted!

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RYDERB 10/30/2014 10:54PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon A W30 is an amazing adventure for anyone that undertakes it, BUT seeing that last picture and realizing you did it while smelling and seeing fresh baked bread every day, left me in awe of your willpower. emoticon emoticon

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KABMPH 10/30/2014 7:40PM

    Oh and did you take before and after shots?

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KABMPH 10/30/2014 7:37PM

    You are so amazing!! Congrats!

And "Rick looked pretty pleased" made me LOL. emoticon

The book FINALLY came in at the library. I'll pick it up on Saturday!

Now I want to know (so yes, please; more): What from this diet is worth keeping? What was cruel and unusual? How did you and your husband find the time to make all that stuff when you work, go to school, and have a job? What was it like to do it with him? Do you feel closer?


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GEORGE815 10/30/2014 5:14PM

    Keep up the good work!

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Whole30 week two, reading The Spark and a size 16 dress!!!

Friday, October 17, 2014

So its day 17..
And I was able to order out at work again today like we typically do every Friday.
When I decided to make this commitment to follow whole30 I thought Friday lunches were going to be my biggest obstacle.. not at all. I love the fact that I'm eating steak and salad while my colleagues eat chicken tenders and fries and then complain that their stomachs hurt and then start talking about ice cream.

I am the biggest girl at work, but at least 70lbs.
I am the only one with a cracked plastic mat beneath my chair and it really messes with my head, but I feel so good right now.

This whole experience has been amazing. I have never felt more proud or determined.
It is very hard and mentally exhausting being "compliant", but its also a major accomplishment.

Last Friday we were by our best friends' house for a fire.. which usually means s'mores and being drunk.. we had tea.. my amazing bff made us tea. She didn't drink her husband didn't drink (so my husband didn't drink). I never thought I'd be sitting by the fire at their place drinking tea.

Then Saturday morning we made it to the farmer's market which is basically an excuse to get egg rolls at 8 am since there are far more food trucks than farmer stands. I had black coffee. Then we headed to the library and my good friend Kelly (from SP!!) reminded me that people actually check books out from the Library. I'm such a dunce. Its been years since I've checked out a book. So I found The Spark!! I haven't gotten too far into it as I don't read often (its a hobby I'm trying to acquire..), but I'm really looking forward to checking it off of my list to read!

Also, I finally made a good batch of compliant mayo!! Beat it by hand.. and I'm pretty sure I didn't use it in time so it's probably headed for the garbage.

Sunday was a huge test. I was headed to Chicago for my brother's and his fiance's shower. It was at an Italian restaurant and there were family style apps, pasta and dessert platters.. which means I had to hold the serving dishes to pass to others at the table while my plate was filled with almonds, grapes and figs. I brought contingency food because I new this would happen. The good news is I was able to enjoy black coffee and lemon water compliments of the restaurant. I came home to a huge New York Strip and the Walking Dead premiere.
It was amazing and very well deserved.

The rest of the week was trying to get through a crazy work schedule with school. My husband has been making some really amazing dinners (Almond crusted chicken breast, coconut shrimp.. we eat good). Oh and I went to a 31 Party on Tuesday too and we played a game where we had to grab skittles and the colors dictated the types of "getting to know you" questions you had to answer.. So hard not to eat them after I was done. I love to drink with that group of girls too so it was really hard for me to turn the wine down and drink water instead. And yes, I am still telling myself that I'm sure the chili cheese dip tasted rank..
doubt it.

The one thing that I've noticed the most about this way of eating is that my midsection has never felt smaller and I am actually satisfied with regular people sized meals. Its basically like I had weight loss surgery without the surgery. My whole insides shrank I'm sure of it. I used to eat until I could explode. I would be in pain. I did not succeed in eating until I felt this way. More often than not I seem to be giving my husband some of this and some of that from my plate now which is so funny because I used to feel possessive over my food like, no its mine, don't touch. I'm like 15lbs away from being smaller than him too.
Never ever ever thought I'd weigh less than him.

Now for the best piece of news!! I ordered a dress earlier this month for my brother's wedding. I'm currently feeling most comfortable in 18's, but am also actively losing weight so I chanced it an bought a 16..


Looking forward to this weekend!! We have my niece's first birthday party on Sunday and I'm hoping to finally get those dang dressers painted that I garbaged picked in June!

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RYDERB 10/30/2014 11:02PM

    Wow! You've got great friends & husband to be so supportive of you. Congratulations on completing your W30! You look amazing in that dress!

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THELILEA 10/20/2014 3:49PM

    You seem awesome, I love your blog style, and I'd love to root each other on! Friended ya! :) I'd love to see pictures of the food strategies you are incorporating. Also, FANTASTIC DRESS! I think it was made for you.

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DANIELLESAUTUMN 10/20/2014 12:57PM

    Dude- you look inSANE good! That dress is perfect for your body- and you wear it well! It sounds like the whole30 has been tough, but worth it. AND your willpower is like, CRAZY high. Awesome job at the restaurant- that had to be brutal. BUT only if you made it that way. It sounds like you didnt even consider eating the food there, so no biggie if you dont. Thats the perfect mindset. Being emotionally detached from food. So proud of you, great job!

MMMM steak....

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BUTTONPOPPER1 10/19/2014 5:57AM

    WOW!! You look great! After a week of being very disciplined, you deserve how good you look in that dress! All those social activities, all the upcoming events, all the temptations surrounding you--you did amazing this past week! You're doing great! Good luck from here on out, too!

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KRISZTA11 10/18/2014 3:31PM

    emoticon to your success!
The Spark is a wonderful book, I hope you will enjoy and find it helpful
It changed my life 3 years ago.


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KABMPH 10/18/2014 9:34AM

    Hey that's me you were talking about! emoticon I love the library. I like to read (though lately I've been in a slump) and I never buy books. I'm still on the waitlist for the Whole30 book.

You have so much resolve, Julie! Skittles, a shower, parties... and staying compliant?? That's amazing. emoticon I was traveling for work this week and I was at the Atlanta airport thinking what I would do if I was on the Whole30 diet...

You ROCK, chica!

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Whole30 week one, done.

Thursday, October 09, 2014

So yeah.. I have fallen off of the face of sparkpeopleville.. Im sorry. I know I miss it, I know I need it. I just can't find the time. The good news is the majority of you here that I keep up with are now also fb friends of mine. So that makes my SP avoidance all the more possible.
I blame you..
Just kidding.

So now that that's out of the way..

I've been dying to try whole30 all summer and back then I said that October would be the perfect time as I didn't have much to work around as far as celebrations and social things. Well I wasn't really sure about what I was going to do when I went to bed on September 30th, but when I woke up the next day I realized I was out of coffee creamer and decided why not?

So day one consisted of:
Breakfast of black coffee, almonds and a banana
Lunch of mixed veggies and shrimp
Snack of nutribullet juice (I know its not allowed on the program for psychological reasons, but its good for me, I'm not going to stop getting extra fruits and veggies via my juice)
Dinner.. no dinner

By the time my colleague and I were headed back from UWO after our 4PM-6PM accounting class I was puking on the side of the highway wondering what on earth did I do to myself?..

Im still confused. I know it was way too early for sugar withdrawals on day 1, but the same thing kind of happened to me on day 3. I started thinking maybe I had blood sugar issues that I always maintained through my poor diet.. IDK I'm still confused. And I haven't felt bad at all since then

So Im sure that my family and friends on facebook are sick and tired of seeing pictures of what I ate and other various whole30 brags, but I don't care. This is really hard (but totally simple) and I am so proud of myself for doing this.

I do need to mention though that my amazing husband has also agreed to do this too.
Without him on board Im sure I would have failed already.

If you haven't heard of whole30 yet you should really check it out .
The basics are this..
No grains, no legumes, no dairy, no processed foods, no sugar of any kind other than fruit..
No alcohol

So I know it sounds impossible, but it really isn't. You do need to make a plan as you do when you start most things. Starting on a whim like my husband and i did led to a very cranky grocery shopping session 3 days in, but now that we have a stock of whole30 compliant foods its been pretty much smooth sailing. We've made ribs, pot roast, steaks, shrimp, ground turkey.. tried to make mayo, but it didn't work. I'll try again soon, Im sure.

I really think everyone should try this just so you can see what its like to eat like this and so you can see just how much self control you really do have.

I am a binger..
I car binge.
If I have $5 in my pocket I've been known to get $5 worth of dollar menu food and eat it all before I get to my destination which is probably only about 10 minutes away.
I inhale food.
I don't savor.
I have been a glutton for what feels like an eternity.
Even when I was rocking it on here and lost the first 100 pounds I still felt like I had a warped thought process about what I put into my body for fuel. If I had a loss on my Friday weigh-in I would usually reward my self with food. So starving myself all week would turn into gluttony all weekend long.
To be honest I have no idea how I went from 314 to 214..
Lots of shrimp and broccoli I suppose.

So lets reel this back into where I was going with it and finish with this.
Week one is done.
Its really been amazing cooking every meal with my husband by my side..
Cleaning up not so much as we are dishwasherless
Someone brought in a box full of donuts to work, but I'm still trucking.
21 days to go!!

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BOBCATGIRL76 10/14/2014 9:59AM

    So Proud of You! :)

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KABMPH 10/10/2014 9:33PM

    SORRY you felt so sick at the beginning! I puked last night and it is NO FUN. And you were in a car with a co-worker? It's bad enough when you're alone in a hotel bathroom (where I was, ugh)! One of my SparkFriends stopped the diet because she was getting headaches.

I get the idea of no dairy, no sugar, and no processed foods, but I struggle with the WHY of no grains or legumes. Well, since I'm already gluten-free my idea of "grains" perhaps is different than other people's. When I hear "no grains" I think: No brown rice? No quinoa? (I know quinoa isn't technically a grain, but it acts like one.) Those are pretty much the only grains I eat, and they are in their whole form. (What's wrong with that?)

Anyway, the idea of Whole30 is still very intriguing to me for reasons I would never mention on FB. :) First, my skin has been a mess lately and I keep thinking it must be because of my diet, either the copious amounts of dairy or sugar I eat. Second, I feel like I have no self-control anymore. I used to be super-strict with my life in many ways, and I've been so slack lately. Whole30 might give me back my discipline! Third, although I don't have weight I need to lose, I wondered to myself recently, "Is it possible for me to lose weight?" I bet Whole30 would help me know that.

I can't wait to read your wrap-up thoughts after this experiment is over. What you feel is worth it and not worth it.


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BUTTONPOPPER1 10/9/2014 11:40PM

    After reading about all the things you can't eat, I have to say WOW! You really accomplished something hard! I sure know what you mean about inhaling food and not savoring it. That is a huge problem for me, though I can't binge in the car. For one thing, I don't want to be SEEN by the other drivers. Maybe you live in a less crowded place, but whenever I drive, I'm surrounded by slow-moving or stopped cars with drivers that I'm sure would watch me out of boredom. I ALWAYS binge alone, and that's a bad thing because at the time I really feel no shame! Don't taste anything either, though. It's so strange. I wonder why I keep doing this!! Anyway, that's enough about me; let's get back to you--good luck in completing this program! I hope it kickstarts a surge in motivation that will get you all the way to goal!

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two a day.

Friday, August 08, 2014

So recently Iíve been hating on myself hardcore.

Itís really unfortunate because the damage that Iíve done to my progress hasnít only happened recently; itís taken me months to get this off track.

If weíre being honest I have been a one foot in kinda gal since I joined Sparkpeople in April 2011 with little spurts of success sprinkled in, but this is the worst itís been.

I donít really even know how I hit 100pounds down February of this year.
I went to the gym, but did the bare minimum on the elliptical and watched what I ate the most. Lots of chicken and grape lunches followed by shrimp and broccoli dinners..

I need to stop hating on myself about my gain, whatís done is done; now itís back to work we go.

The reason I am writing this and what has me feeling so chipper about my life right now is that even though I weigh the same as I did when I weighed in on Aug 9th, 2013 is that I just hung 4 dresses to dry from the wash, which means that I wore 4 dresses in the past week.

I am light-years away from my comfort level of last year and THAT is a beautiful thing.

I love wearing dresses, but always lacked the confidence to do so until now. Wow, 4 different dresses in the past 7 days, twice was while at work!! Iím smiling from ear to ear, so glad that I realized this amazing non-scale victory while I was doing something as mundane as laundry so I can get out of my fat funk.

I am back in the 230ís and I officially logged it today. I faced it. I made claim to it. I owned up to my mistakes. I did this.

I am ordering over the door straps to use at home since I loved using them for squats and lunges and reverse pushups during my free trainer session, but Iíve always been super intimidated by that part of the gym so Iím going to get my own for at home. . Also, we live on a corner lot and have this little back door area and Iíve always wanted to use in some way so hubby and I are turning it into a crossfit area for crazy cardio. Iím still striving to be a runner (getting my RUN OR DYE 5k on tomorrow!!), although I donít think I enjoy, BUT I know I enjoy intense cardio. Tae bo was my favorite thing to do back in the day and I want to get back into that type of intensity. My husband is obsessed with crossfit right now and I even watched some of the Crossfit Games with him. Iím hopeful that doing this together will be the push I need to lose other 50!..

I got this.

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SARAHNJOSH06 8/20/2014 6:47PM

    Love your honesty. Loss and gain is part of life, we can't hate ourselves for our set backs. Just keep looking forward.... Thank you for blogging!

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    You're making the right moves, recognizing the NSVs are such great ways to keep you on track. Dresses are the best! I have so many in my closet, they are my favorite!


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BUTTONPOPPER1 8/9/2014 3:26AM

    You have a very good attitude. I, too, have had a long (maybe one year?) relapse, and it is extremely hard to get back the motivation I had when I first lost 20 pounds on SparkPeople. I had been trying to lose 40 pounds, but instead of continuing to lose, I gained 16 of those pounds back this past year. Then I started thinking "What's the use?" or "It's too late" or "It's my destiny to be fat; I was a fat baby, after all," etc. But it's NOT too late and it's NOT my destiny to be fat, even if I'm 57 years old and have spent at least 90% of my time on earth as an overweight, and now obese, person. I like what you said--"what's done is done; now it's back to work we go." And you're taking constructive steps to go back to work by setting up your equipment and running in events and everything! That's great, and I wish you so much success. I'm looking forward to your next report!

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moved my goal line..

Friday, August 08, 2014

Get me off of this horrible roller coaster ride.. ooh, is that kringle?

Putting a bib back on for the first time this weekend since May..
I'm gonna kill it.


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