Monday, February 14, 2011
First of all... WOW I don't blog a lot and I need these blogs to pick me up when I'm down! So far, the few I have written has help me get through.
UPDATE related to my back issues:
It's been a month that I'm dealing with back pain. It started off in my lower back and gradually made is way higher. I am still getting to work and continuing my daily activity EXCEPT for my work outs routine. I am now seeing a physiotherapist and she determine that some of my discs in my back are not moving properly but with the help of rehabilitation and acupuncture I should be up and normal again in a few weeks...
My THOUGHTS - My FIGHTS:
In January, I weigh in at 221 lbs. The xmas holiday set me back a little bit, not by much, but it's the time that my back started to hurt. Since January 7, I have not been exercising, no workout not even a walk. At the end of January, I weigh in at 219 lbs. I was disappointed in myself for not being able to lower down my calories. I was always hungry and even starving since I was used to eating about 1,900 calories a day and working out 6 hours and more a week.
I feel I was using my back problems to eat whatever I wanted, as if it's an excuse!!! I started the month with a more positive attitude! I went looking for motivation and found my own blog and friends older blog and it help me trough. We are all fighters here, we want to be healthy and no excuse is good enough for me. My back hurts, I barely get any sleep, walking hurts just as much as sitting down or standing up for too long. BUT back aching doesn't mean I have to stop caring for myself. It's ACTUALLY the opposite be careful and prove myself that I CAN and WILL succeed.
I weigh myself this morning: 215.6lbs.
DETERMINATION & PERSEVERANCE can get you a long way!
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Yup... this was my first weight in of 2011.
Wasn't interested in seeing a big number due to xmas food and booze. When i went on this morning, I was trying to fight all the reason I had to Not get on the scale. I mean scale was my friend before, why wouldn't it be this morning? Well because I know at one point, a week ago, my jeans were way tighter than usual. I haven't been working out since last friday due to my back. I was at 224 last time i weigh before december 24 which was 2lbs more than what i was when i weigh on december 15.
Oh well, step on the scale, look down and saw.... 220.7lbs
Unbelievable! I passed the 30lbs marks and didn't even see the number. Yea, it's 30lbs since july and yes some people accomplished things faster. But i have to remind myself that I am not on a diet, I am not working out temporary. I am eating different and becoming an athlete
Tonight, i have a follow up with the healthy lifestyle program i did in summer 2010. I'm really excited to see the people again and hope it will give me the motivation to get my through 2011. My motivation has slowed down but it's still there. After 6 months, i still always consider what I'm about to eat and what I should do for work out. I make very little excuses for myself. If i slip up, i slip up.. life is life...
I am starting the year 2011 at 220.7 and I'm looking forward to see how far this journey will take me. I can't wait to say goodbye to the 200s and it will come soon enough!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Last weekend was hard for me emotionally and hard for my husband to try to support me.
Since the end of July, I have lost 25 lbs and over 5 inch around my waist. Before July, I weigh a lot more but never wanted to get on the scale. I am now extremely active, positive and generally happy. Last weekend, I was none of that. I've achieve plenty and enjoyed every moment of it. I try my best to help out anyone I know or anyone who ask for help. I keep my private thought too myself though, the way I see myself. Before I would buy clothes and I felt hot no matter what my size was has long has it fit properly or had a great color on me. Yea, I shop at a plus store but it never bothered me and I like the employees there they are very nice.
Last weekend, was my mother's birthday and we had plan an evening with her and my grandmother. We met at my place to have dinner and we would head out to the casino. Although I don't gamble, I love the casino; all the lights and all the people, the ambiance. I wanted to wear something nice, something I would feel sexy in. I tried on some of my favorite shirt that I wear on occasion like this. Too my surprise, it looked huge and I didn't look pretty at all in it. I took it off and throw it in the garbage. Putting on that shirt made me realized how far I had let myself go. How unhealthy I had become... from wearing M/L or 12/14 to trying to squeeze in a size 20/22 or 3X. The feeling I had was extremely overwhelming. I have only bought one pair of jeans and 1 t-shirt since my journey begun and right now I can guaranty you that nothing else in my closet fits me the way it should. Saturday I felt really sad, like it was too much and like I had so much more to go. It was the first time since I started this lifestyle change that I actually felt like I was gonna break. Thankfully, my husband went through my entire closet and pulled out clothes. Now I have a big pile of clothes on the floor in my closet that I will give away.
Today I still feel overwhelmed by this new way of seeing myself. I'm under construction now and will be for another year. I'm not sad anymore because I know I can do a lot better and I will keep going. I will have to wait for my next pay check to come in and do a little bit of shopping. I'm gonna enjoy every moment of it and look hot for this xmas
Monday, November 08, 2010
Over a month actually... I've been crazy busy, life has been throwing everything it got at me lately but once again I got through it. But this time, I was on top! Stayed on program, enter food and fitness daily and I have not skipped one day since I joined in July.
Yes there are times when I just don't want too, I would much prefer do something else than take 2 minutes of my day to enter the data. Usually, after telling myself exactly that last line I realized how stupid that sounded and I'm just typing away.
I stepped up my game to workout a minimum of 60 minutes for 6 days a week but I usually do a lot more. I enjoy walking for fun now but I don't consider it a workout anymore. I enjoy running now, in fact, I enjoy it so much that you see me running for my bus everyday! What I enjoy the most now is doing everything I can that will get my heart pumping!
I've been doing great, I drop two size pants! I'm back in 16 which was my size back in University so I'm pretty happy that it only took me a few months but a lot of sacrifices and self-realization. I make better choices in life but I do still enjoy all the bad things that I love in smaller portions and not has often has before. I know sometime, I can't help myself, it's just too good and I just can't let it go to waste. Instead of feeling bad and negative, I'll jump on a workout. It happens! I'm only human
So if anyone thought I wasn't blogging cause I gave up... I'm still here and going strong just didn't take the time to write! I'm not giving up on myself this time, I'm worth everything I'm doing and I'm finally realizing how good it feels to be able to do things again!
Excuses are no longer good enough for me. Negative thought are not in my mind anymore. I look for support from friend and family when I need. There is nothing wrong for asking for help and that has took me years to finally understand and accept this. But the best of all, I'm losing weight without dieting.... I'm changing my life a little more every day!
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