Saturday, June 02, 2012
Beauty is something that I have been thinking about. I see on pages people saying, "I want to lose weight to feel beautiful or sexy." So, if you lose XX # of pounds, you automatically become beautiful &/ or sexy? Well, maybe.... or maybe not. I am 2/3 of the way through my journey and some days I feel beautiful and some days, so not.
That made me start thinking, what is beauty anyway? The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines it as: the quality or aggregate of qualities in a person or thing that gives pleasure to the senses or pleasurably exalts the mind or spirit. OK, no where in there does it say that you need to weigh a certain amount to be beautiful. So, beauty simply put is being appealing to all the senses. Lotion, perfume, here I come. But seriously, it's very personal, just like this journey we are on.
So,I staredt thinking about people who I think are beautiful. Like Katharine Hepburn. She is such a strong, independent woman with her own unique style. I definitely admire that about her. She wore pant suits when most other women didn't.
Or how about Audrey Hepburn? So, very graceful. I think she must be the woman who invented the LBD.
Somehow, I feel I must include Sophia Loren, too.
I look at these three very beautiful but very different women and I ask myself, what makes them beautiful? I think, that they are beautiful because the way the dress reflects who they are as a person.
So, I think the answer to the question, "When are you beautiful?" isn't so simple. I think being beautiful is truly a state of mind. I think, you are beautiful when you are comfortable with who you are. I think self-confidence is beautiful. I admire intelligent women. I think someone with a beautiful smile is wonderful. Someone who is graceful is lovely.
You will not be more beautiful than you are today. However, losing weight, the journey itself, will hopefully give us more self-confidence and a bigger smile. These things make us more beautiful. Buying a new perfume, lotion, a new top that compliments our eyes, a new haircut, that emphasizes the length of our face, instead of roundness, these things are necessary. Anything that brightens the mood, make us stand taller, and make us feel more confident, are good things.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
I cleaned out my closet today. It was something that I really have needed to do for some time. But, I just couldn't go any longer with multiple sizes in my closet. I could no longer tell what would fit and what wouldn't. LOL!!!
What really helped was evaluating the item based on how it made me feel. There were some items that fit, but I feel awkward or dowdy wearing them. Out they went!!! I also saved one pair of baggy sweats for those rare days of relaxing at home. All the items currently in my closet fit and make me feel good. That is such a wonderful feeling.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
I went to the doctor today because I have been dizzy. Essentially, he did agree that periodically my blood pressure was bottoming out. His answer, was to tell me to sit down when I become dizzy. Essentially, unless I actually pass out he won't change my meds. Hmmm, this doesn't work so well for me.
On the other hand, I get where he is coming from. He sees a middle-aged, over weight woman, with high-blood pressure. The current medication is effectively lowering her blood pressure, thus reducing her risk of stroke and heart attack. In fact, low blood pressure isn't harmful, just annoying.
OK, well. I can't change the fact that I am middle-aged, and have a family history of heart disease. I can change the over weight part. I will try patience to begin with and see if he is correct and that my body will adjust.
Part of me, wants to say, forget him, I can do this on my own. I can gradually reduce my meds and track my BP on my own. Afterwards, show him how wonderfully well I am doing without the meds. The problem with this line of thought, is that it presumes that my hypertension is being caused by being overweight and not by anything else. I have been seeing a very, slow general downward trend with meds.
The problem with this thought, is that if the hypertension is being caused by a genetic pre-disposition, it's entirely possible that I could reach my goal weight and still have hypertension. Ugh, I would certainly hope I could at least reduce my meds. But, how to do this without help, is a problem. For, now I will settle for waiting to see if my body adjusts, I will also monitor by BP more than once a week.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Today, we worked on the new garden all day. The kids helped us remove the remaining sod this morning. My husband spent the afternoon building two small retaining walls in the garden. I worked on amending the soil with peat moss. Tomorrow we will finish amending the soil, and will put the landscape fabric on, and finally put in the plants.
It was a physically exhausting day. It was a wonderful day!!! A year ago I didn't have enough energy to even feel happy looking at my garden. I don't recall a time in my life when I would have had the energy or strength to do what I did today. And tomorrow, I want to go back and finish up. I feel so happy, I wish I could share this feeling with all of you.
Well, Good Night everyone! I hope your day was filled with joy and your tomorrow is filled with sunshine.
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