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Weigh in Wednesday

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Today was my weigh in day. Today the scale registered exactly the same weight as last week and the week before. Today I am thinner than last week. It's frustrating as I have been down 1-3 pounds all week. This morning, right back where I was last week. I felt really down at first. Then I started doing my weigh in Wednesday check list. Did I stay within my calories? Check. Did I exercise? Check - 6 days/ week. Did I do a good job this week? Check.

So, my next question for myself is, what am I willing to change? I can plan to eat at the lower end of the calorie range for a while. Which, may help to break the plateau, but is not something I want to do everyday. I can add 10 minutes to each exercise session (an extra hour of exercise!). When it warms up and the trails clear of snow, I can get back to walk/ jogging outside again. This is my favorite because it really lifts my mood.

What else? I've been hungrier this week. Maybe, it's because my carbs are creeping over my limit. So, less carbs, I'm kind of like a junky with sugar. Also, I should increase my fat intake, as that has been too low as well. Also, I need to continue to watch my fiber intake. Hopefully, that will help with the hunger and allow me to eat at the lower end of my range. I can drop the menus from my first week into next week with Mastercook.

What do I feel good about? I am thinner, I measured and I have lost inches since last month. So, I am making progress. I had to buy heavier hand weights for strength exercises at home. My son has been joining in with the weights too. emoticonAlso, tonight I will do one of my exercises on the machine at the gym.

  
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CODYG123 2/25/2012 8:28PM

    This week I'm feeling it with you...all that hard work and the scale isn't budging. So I stopped weighing myself too frequently. It takes time to take it off and it isn't a straight line downward. Just don't give up. Good one on getting everyone in the house involved in getting healthy.

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SHIRDEE1 2/23/2012 10:58AM

    I also stayed the same this week. One of the reasons was my niece made me chocolate cupcakes with chocolate icing for my birthday which was January 15 but she did not get here till now. Second I probably should increase my exercise level because I am not really pushing myself the way I could. Instead of sitting and watching TV maybe I should be marching in place or something and doing some other exercises whatever they may be. So Juliette here is to the both of us losing something this week. I know that we are both determined and can do it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LGAR519 2/23/2012 10:32AM

    As long as you feel thinner and your measurements show it. I wouldn't worry about the scale. Your weight will show up soon.

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7356WILMA 2/22/2012 9:10PM

  Way to go with with change in measurements!! I hate when someone tells me that, or your gaining muscle, but you really are!! So sounds like your doing everything right it will come!! You can do it!!

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GUMMYSNAKE 2/22/2012 8:41PM

    Don't be worried about the scales. The scales are only one part of it. If you have been working out hard and staying within your limits its ok. You should increase how much fat your eating because good fats burn bad fats.
Also you maybe building muscle so that maybe why your weight might not be changing. Keep working hard. Weight loss doesn't happen over night. You need at work at it really really hard for months before seeing significant results.
Keep up the good work. Good to hear that you have got your son motivated too. emoticon

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Monday

Monday, February 20, 2012

Typically, Mondays are my most dreaded day of the week. Today looking back wasn't bad. I slept last night with no early morning waking. I think this is the first week in several. I think writing about my Mom helped.

I am feeling stronger and even a bit thinner. Although, the scale does not always agree with me, I am sure it will catch up to my brain sooner or later. I am having one of those weeks where the scale wobbles up and down. It's a bit like russian roulette and I am definitely no gambler. So, I am looking forward to Wednesday Weigh In. Can't wait to see what the scale decides.

I went for my walk/ jog today and even managed to do average a 13 min/ mile. I saw two hawks circling near each other. It seems so unusual to see two together. Maybe there will be more little hawks. I had an asthma attack about an hour after exercising. This one wasn't the most fun, I really wanted more than two puffs on my inhaler. I find it frustrating to make progress and then have that happen.

So, I will need to rethink running outdoors. Maybe, I need to slow my pace, at least during work hours. Also, I need to carry the darn inhaler with me when I go out and during all workouts. I hate how I feel when I use the thing, kind of like a cat on a hot tin roof or someone dragging their fingernails across a chalkboard.

I guess what I am debating between is this. One of my goals is to reduce or eliminate the need for BP meds. My other is to run for 30 minutes on a treadmill next to my husband. If I use my rescue inhaler, it will increase my BP. Maybe, very slowly and very gradually increasing my speed would work best. I am hoping that my lungs will get stronger along with my heart.

  
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LGAR519 2/21/2012 11:37AM

    Asthma is a tough disease to control. You sound very deternined so I think eventually you will have everything under control! I don't begin to know enough about asthma to offer advice.

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JULIETTECAKE 2/21/2012 7:40AM

    Thank you Bear! I needed the encouragement. I think you are pretty amazing with all the determination it must take to have eliminated the insulin.

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/20/2012 11:31PM

    maybe you will be like me and my diabetic meds...slow and easy. I take it slow and slowly adjust food and exercise, so that eventually I drop another little bit of my meds, that way my body adjusts as well to make the change go smoothly.

I will admit that it was easier getting myself off the insulins than it is proving to be, to get off the oral meds.
But I will succeed! Just have to be more diligent with the food and exercise.

So Perhaps your idea of gradually increasing speed over a longer period of time, would be the answer. Your lungs can gradually get use to working harder and perhaps that would strengthen them in a better way than just bang! go faster.

It has taken me three months to go faster on my treadmill, though I am nowhere near a run, and still havent been able to increas e the time I am on it, but I am working at it and maybe that s what you need to do too. emoticon

Good luck with however you decide to go with this issue.
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Body Gallery

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I have been trying to visualize what I would look like thinner, but am having a difficult time. I found a website called, mybodygallery.com. You are able to search for photos of real women, based on height, weight and body type. It's interesting. It's the first place I've found that has photos of real women. I played around a bit. As much as I hated what I looked like at my starting weight. I think all of the photos of women at my height and starting weight are beautiful.

  
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7356WILMA 2/20/2012 9:02PM

  Sounds interesting!!

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/20/2012 12:05PM

    Thats great that you found this site. While we are all unique, no matter what size and shape we are, it is interesting to get a general idea of what we may be like at our goals. emoticon

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LGAR519 2/20/2012 9:47AM

    I'll have to check it out!

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PCOLAGATOR 2/19/2012 9:52PM

    It's really a cool site to see how different people can look even at the same height and weight

I actually have a picture or two on there.

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HOTPINKCAMARO49 2/19/2012 9:42PM

  emoticon Thank you for sharing! Have a great week!

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My Mom's hemorrhagic stroke

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Three days after Easter 2011, I received a phone call from my Dad at work. The conversation went something like this, "Julie, your Mom is insisting today is Saturday and we both know it's Wednesday, right?" Me, "Yes, Dad you're right today is Wednesday, call 911 and have Mom taken to the hospital, I think she's had a stroke." My mom absolutely refused to go to the hospital, after all she wasn't the one with the memory problem, my Dad was. And on any other day of her life, my Mom would have been correct, because my Mom is a very sharp lady. So, for this very with it lady to get the date wrong, something was terribly wrong .

When, the ambulance arrived, my Mom passed all the stroke tests. She could raise both her arms and legs, she even seemed coherent. But still, they brought her to the hospital. After various tests, we learned that the bleed was in the left front of her brain. It turned out that we were very lucky, because the rate of death for someone with the type of stroke my Mom had is higher than the usual stroke. When the nurse asked my Mom why she was in the hospital she said, "Because I was argumentative." Everyone in the room laughed and the nurse's response was, "Well, if that were true there would be more of us in the hospital.

So, why am I writing about it? It doesn't really seem to be something weight related, right? This is some of the emotional baggage (and weight) that I've been carrying around for almost a year now. I haven't until now, been able to figure out why her stroke bothers me so much. But here it is, I'm not sure if I can express this right.

But, when Mom had her stroke, we were truly lucky and blessed that she didn't die. But on the other hand, in many ways, the woman who raised me was gone over night. I guess I felt, like she died that day. That sounds so wrong when I write it that way. But it's truly how I feel, because she doesn't remember large chunks of my childhood, and quite simply she isn't the same person she was before that day.

With this realization, I feel peaceful. It feels like a burden has lifted. I think this is what acceptance feels like. I love my Mom with all my heart. She is truly a very special person. She has so much moxy and determination, that when she puts her mind to something, just try and stop her. My money will be on her every time. She's changed, but it's OK, because I love the new person she's become. I hope someday that she will learn to accept the new person she has become as well.

  
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KSANDIEGO 2/17/2012 10:59AM

    I'm happy you had the insight to take your Mom to the ER - that's a gift you can cherish a long time. As a brain injury survivor myself, perhaps I see things more from your Mom's perspective than the others. While it may seem like you've lost the mother you knew, hasn't she lost the daughter she knew as well? I can almost guarantee you that all yor caregiving - while good intentioned and well deserved - has probably struck a nerve in your fiesty mother a bit to the extent that she feels both lucky to have you and ashamed to need you. I know I felt that way for years with my family - and as a patient advocate have learned thousands of stroke pts feel that as well. They rarely share it with family though. I think its great to get your feelings off your chest in here - but remember that the past is the past and today is the only day we can control. You are so lucky to have a loving relationship with your Mother - cherish it, share time with her, and just love her for the day. Don't worry or even think so much about the past - its done, gone. You have a new future together that may/could be even better - so make today the best it can be.
Best wishes to you and your Mom.

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LGAR519 2/17/2012 10:11AM

    My Mom had a stroke about 15 years ago. Her mind wasn't effected but her speech and grip in her right hand was. She is 94 now and has a small level of dementia. On her confused days, it breaks my heart. On good days, she is very alert. She can't walk very well because of gout in her knees. If, not for those few things, she would be the same Mom I've always known. So glad to read your comments. My love to you and your Mom!

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JAMER123 2/17/2012 12:05AM

    emoticonYou have written a wonderful blog about family love. What insight you had with getting mom to the hospital!! Many would have just let it slip by and the results could have been so different. It is inspiring that you wrote about this and it has been uplifting for you.

You have a mom and a "new" one at that. She is someone you just have to get to know all over again which can be fun although the memory loss can be sad. Love her while you have her. Sending my thoughts to you for strength and love in your heart as your continue to enjoy mom!!

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DESERTDREAMERS 2/16/2012 11:52PM

    OMG, so sorry. Hope your mother recovers well. BTW, you don't have to blog only about weight, food, the journey, etc - your blog is your blog. Many things affect us - there are lots of Sparkers (me included) thatlike to go for the light side of life. Some have daily jokes, poems, etc. I like to do old songs with funny pictures.

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/16/2012 11:08PM

    We never know what is going to be the event that makes us seek foods as comfort, or make us start living a life a little irratically compared to our usual. Things change so then we have to change.
I do understand what you mean when you state " it was like she died " I had an uncle and an aunt, at different times in my life fall to alzeimers disease.
Not the same as your situation, no, but, for me, the person I knew was gone. Their minds were living in years long before I was even thought of, an era I had no identification with and they mentioned people I had never met because they died in the war or something. I no longer existed in their minds or heart.
It is hard to accept these changes, but we know we must.

That you recognize that this event has had an impact on you and possibly on your weight issues is a great insight for you. Perhaps working through your thoughts on this, you will learn some things about yourself too.

You are very fortunate to still have your mom and to have learned to love this "new" mom too. To have the love of your parents is a special feeling, even when they change.

Thank you for sharing this emotional event with us. For me, its wonderful to see acceptance and love in families. Your love shines through your words and I am sure your acceptance of this new person will help your mom to accept her too.

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7356WILMA 2/16/2012 10:32PM

  What a great perspective!! Taking such a change in one's parent and accepting it!! Thank you I needed that today!!

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Sunday

Sunday, February 12, 2012

It was a nice, quiet day today. I started out feeling sick from the food yesterday. I stayed in my calorie range and somehow within my carb allowance. But, I did learn that I would rather skip the food and not feel sick. I drank lots of water and had a high fiber day in attempt to flush the nasty stuff from my system. I am also learning that exercise is a good pick-me up and pain reliever. I certainly need all the healthy pick-me ups I can find.

We went to the store and I bought a belt to keep my pants from falling off. emoticon Then, we visited the bookstore and had coffee. I checked out the exercise videos, but felt overwhelmed at the variety. I will need to do a little research to find out what I might like.

What are your favorite exercise DVD's? I have the 28-day SP video, so I was thinking something dance oriented. I need easy since I am not real coordinated.

  
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JULIETTECAKE 2/13/2012 10:30PM

    I like the you tube idea. I had tried a few on Netflix, but discovered even with the same company, I liked some a lot and other not at all.

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LGAR519 2/13/2012 9:15AM

    The only exercise DVD's that I can manage are the numerous ones by Leslie Sansone. I have a balance problem but can do these. She has branched out into pilates and stretchy bands now but the oider ones suit me fine.

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/13/2012 1:18AM

    so far, I have just been trying out you tube work out videos to see which I like. It was the only way I could think of to try various styles. Some are totally disasterous for me but others are ok. At least it gives me an idea what to possibly look for. Maybe that will help you too?

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