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Saturday, Feb. 11th - Uncle Vernon's birthday and Dad

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Today was a beautiful sunny day. It was a perfect day for a long drive, which is great since we spent 4 hours in a car. We took a different route today than usual, and it was much prettier. Normally, in Minnesota we have a foot of snow on the ground, but this year there is barely any. So, today instead of grey skies and snow there were golden grasses, red twig dogwood, and an eagle. Also, not all the lakes and streams are frozen. It was beautiful with the sunshine.

At my Uncle's birthday, I had the opportunity to speak with my cousin Kim, who is living in Kentucky. My Uncle's 93-yr old mother-in-law. Boy, is she an inspiration. She still lives in her own home by herself and walks about a mile up to the store once a week. She has recently had a boyfriend but had to break up when she needed more space. If that's what old age looks like, that would be wonderful.

I packed the sandwiches and fruit. I had a piece of my Uncle's birthday cake, and managed to stay within my calorie range. Planning out apx what I was going to eat gave me a good idea of what I could spend the remaining calories on. However, even though I bought healthy, relatively high fiber pre-packaged foods, I am still hungry. The food just isn't as filling as what I would usually pack. Also, although I stayed within my carb budget, the foods seem to make me hungrier.

After, my Uncle's birthday we picked my Dad up at the hospital and brought him to the nursing home. The official diagnosis is overall poor general health and early pneumonia. They don't sound real sure about the pneumonia and will be doing more x-rays to make sure the antibiotics do the job, and the spots on his lung clear. With lung cancer I find spots on his lung scary. Dad did not want to be in the nursing home, although he did have a say on where he went and even enjoyed his stay last time. I am hoping that after a few days there he will begin to adjust. I would like him to have the chance to be healthier and happier than today.

Although, I am feeling down and would really like a pint of chocolate ice cream with something marshmallow like. I don't need it, I am just sad and tired. I am stronger, smarter and just plain better than that. Also, if I had more energy I could think of something far more interesting. So, I will continue writing for the moment.

Reflecting on my day, I guess I have a choice. I can focus on the sadness I feel about my Dad or I can focus on the happiness I feel at speaking to people I haven't seen in quite a while. Also, the 93-yr old spunky woman. She is my happy thought today. She had so much more energy and was so much more with it than many people years younger than her. What an amazing possibility. Maybe, if I am lucky, have my share of good genetics, and take excellent care of my body, I too have a chance at growing old like her. Add sassy to my list of things I want in my life.

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7356WILMA 2/12/2012 6:54PM

  My prayers and thought are with you. Glad you were able to have a nice visit with family!!

Hope you get to feeling better!

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7356WILMA 2/12/2012 6:42PM

  My prayers and thought are with you. Glad you were able to have a nice visit with family!!

Hope you get to feeling better!

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/12/2012 6:31PM

    I am sorry you don't feel well.

Before I was officially diabetic, I used to tell people I was allergic to cakes, to get out of eating them.

Because I was the daughter of a diabetic father, I was brought up without sugar on or in stuff so I never really aquired a taste for sweet stuff like icings and cake.
My father dying when I was 8, made me really watch the sugars, because I was terrified I was going to die too. Funny things a young mind can do...

I like the conversation more than the food offerings at parties so I may take a few veggies to nibble but I generally steer clear of foods I am not in the habit of eating at birthday parties and chat up a storm with people instead. emoticon Nobody really notices if you are eating or not when you move around.

Hope you feel better quickly emoticon

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JULIETTECAKE 2/12/2012 10:43AM

    Blech.. I feel sick and kind of hung over from yesterday. I stayed within my calorie range, but this does not feel good. I think the sugar, the white flour and corn syrup are what's doing it. I saved room for my Uncle's bday cake. Next time I think I'll pass and just enjoy the conversation. So, today all I want to do is sleep. Instead, I think I'll drink a lot of water and do an exercise video this morning. If I sleep, I think it will just prolong this feeling. I want to flush this nasty stuff out of my system.

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LGAR519 2/12/2012 9:15AM

    I'm so glad that there are people that age group who are active. My Mom is 94, uses a walker and can barely walk. She has a form of gout in her knees. I'll add your Dad to my prayer list!

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/11/2012 11:10PM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful visit with people and enjoyed your day for the most part emoticon

I, personally, find that when I have too much carbs, all I want is more, more, more! So I limit my carbs especially at parties. I read somewhere that most of the time, white flour is what triggers the want for more...I'm not sure how correct that is but it sure is true of me.

I am sorry you are feeling a bit down right now, I really hope that your mood will pick up for you quickly.

I have a landlord much like the lady you describe. He is 98 years old, will be 99 this summer. He still climbs ladders up on to the rooves of all his rental houses ( he has 11) to check for storm damages and what not. He's so thin, he looks like a puff of air would topple him over!
But he still lives alone in his house. He had to quit driving last year, darn near broke his heart,that did. Now he hires a driver to take him around to his properties when he wants to check on things. He;s a real inspiration. If I could still climb a ladder at that age, I would definitely be a happy camper!

Hugs my friend, tomorrow will be a happier day

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Tomorrow - Saturday, February 11th

Friday, February 10, 2012

My Dad went into the hospital on Wednesday with fluid in one of his lungs. He is very weak right now after receiving his first round of radiation. Because, he is so weak he has been falling down. After speaking to the social worker, my Mom and Dad have decided that he will be going to a nursing home for a while. I feel a little sad, but mostly relieved that he will be safe for a while. He will also receive PT to become stronger. I don't know if he will become strong enough to come home. I honestly wish he would stay in the nursing home. I think with someone to manage his meds, a well balanced diet, exercise he would be happier.

My father is such a strong, proud, independent man. It is so heart-breaking to see him forget to wear shoes when he drives, to see him not have the strength to button his shirts. To see a man who was so extremely neat, be afraid to take a shower. My Dad loves to drive his car just to see the scenery. He loves traveling. He is a high-energy, type AA personality. Although, his body can not do what he wants, he is still the same person inside. It breaks my heart to see him trapped this way. My Dad isn't that old, he's just 77. It's not fair, that after working so hard all these years that he has COPD, a heart that is 33% atrophied, congestive heart failure, and lung cancer.

So, tomorrow we will begin our day by picking my Mom up for her brother's 80th birthday. I am looking forward to seeing my uncle and the rest of my family. It's been a while since I have seen them. I wish Dad could be with, he would really enjoy the 2 hour ride out and back. Most people do not enjoy the unending flatness of a Minnesota plain in the winter. But my Dad does.

I've planned ham & cheese sandwiches on low-cal whole wheat buns. Fruit will be packed. For snacks, I bought a box of Cocoa Loco Chewy Bars from the organic food section. They are 120 calories, so they will fit in my planner. I wish I had more energy to plan something a little for fun. But the above will make a nice lunch and snacks.

When we drive home we will pick up my Dad from the hospital and take him to the nursing home. I love him, but his tired daughter is relieved he will be safe and hopefully happy for a while.

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ROSIESNOW 2/11/2012 4:37PM

    Praying for strength for you in this difficult time.

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LGAR519 2/11/2012 10:52AM

    So sorry your Dad is failing. I know how that is. My 94 y/o Mother refuses to even consider a Nursing Home. The only break I get is when my Brother comes home at Christmas. My Dad died with Prostate CA a long time ago. Such a horrible disease. He lost all his dignity. Enjoy the day with your family!!

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7356WILMA 2/10/2012 11:04PM

  Sending thoughts and prayers to you! My dad is still home, he also loves his cars. He has a72 olds that is the love of his life. He no longer can drive. I've started taking him lunch as he was forgetting to eat and drink during the day. It's hard watching them struggle! Hugs lol.

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    Sending prayers for your father and hope that he is well taken care of. He sounds like a great man.

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Happy Groundhog Day!

Thursday, February 02, 2012

Groundhog Day is one of my favorite holidays of the year. Yep, better than Christmas. Our official Groundhog Day Celebration will be this Saturday. For this one day, we crank up the furnace high enough so that we need only wear shorts and t-shirts. For this one day, we pretend it is summer time at our house. Tropical food is served. When the kids were asked what they wanted, they said Tropical Fruit. So, tropical fruit it will be.

Also, for breakfast we are having Egg McMuffins. OK, so it will be served with egg whites, whole wheat english muffins, maybe turkey sausage/ ham and lowfat cheese. Not tropical, but I have so been wanting some fast food. You should have seen how big my kids eyes became. So worth it. We will also be spending the day lounging and playing games as a family.

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ROSIESNOW 2/3/2012 5:59PM

    What a great idea! sounds like you had a great time.

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GETSTRONGRRR 2/2/2012 10:52PM

    Very nice.....get some umbrellas for those tropical drinks!!

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7356WILMA 2/2/2012 10:36PM

  That does sound like a great family day!! And so much fun!

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ELSCO55 2/2/2012 10:21PM

    Sounds like a fun family day.

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Wednesday, February 01, 2012

The last several days of taken more effort to do everything. I haven't slept well in 3 days. Same old pattern, go to sleep right away and wake up and hour or two before I'm supposed to. It' frustrating as I'm taking meds for it. I do not want to increase dosage because then I can't quit anytime I want.

However, the "funny" headaches have not let up. I haven't hit the point where I get sick again. But, definitely not fun. My dh is recommending slowing down tonight. I want to say, "Nooooooo!!!! Tonight is working out at the club". I really like seeing all the people and I am going farther and working harder.

Unfortunately, he is correct. Tonight I will be doing Yoga to relax and having an early night. Hopefully, if I do this tonight, I can go to the club tomorrow.

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RICOCHETBEAR 2/1/2012 11:52PM

    sorry that it is your turn to deal with insomnia. I pray for a good rest for you soon, like tonight! take care

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7356WILMA 2/1/2012 10:34PM

  Sometimes our body just tells us we need to rest. The yoga sounds great, enjoy relax. Maybe a hot bath and the tea.

Hope you get a good night of sleep soon. I know how miserable not sleeping can be. Didn't sleep well just last night, but I'm blaming my DH as he couldn't sleep and was up and down all night.

Take care and sleep soon I hope!!

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JULIETTECAKE 2/1/2012 10:20PM

    I tried yoga tonight. It is an older tape that I haven't used in a while. My back feels a little better. For me it is stress causing the insomnia. I work in Accounting and it is end of month, so we are very busy. The kicker today, was a "secret" management meeting. The fear going around work is that there will be layoffs.

Still, there will always be one type of crisis or another and I need to learn to deal with it. By the way, my dh had us do guided meditation from a website. This one was not my favorite, but would try something different again.

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    Insomnia is no fun, I feel your pain. I've had my share of sleeping problems. Any idea what is the cause? I know that you think, "if I knew the cause, it wouldn't be a problem" but sometimes we need to really seek and listen to our "inner voices".
I am Peri-Menopausal so a good portion of the time I believe that is the problem. I have started having night sweats and that is tough. It is tough to deal with but I try and take it one night at a time and not get caught up in the numbers. (That is "OMG, I only got 5 hours of sleep") I do occasionally find that I need to deal with something and get it off my mind and then I can sleep better.
Have you tried Sleepy Time Tea? Yoga? Relaxing Exercises? I hope that it ends for you soon. Too many nights like that can make a girl cookoo!

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Month 1 Weight Loss Photos

Sunday, January 29, 2012

I have seen other Spark Members do this on their blogs and think it is a wonderful idea. We use scales every week to measure weight loss. But when ever I'm having a skinny day, my scale says I've lost nothing or worse am up. The reverse is true too. When I am having a day where I feel so bloated and uncomfortable even my lips and eyeballs feel fat. I know, how on earth can your eyeballs feel fat. LOL. Yup, no logic here, but indeed they do.

According to the scale the photos show an 8 pound weight loss and 1 inch gone from my waist. I wish I had done this at the beginning, but I really despise having my picture taken. In fact, it is how photography became a hobby of mine. Usually, if you offer to take the picture, most people will forget to include you.

The photos are mainly another tool for me to measure my progress. I hate having my picture taken and rarely look at myself in a mirror. The person in the mirror and in pictures simply doesn't reflect who I feel I am inside. So, hopefully I can work on my own self-image. I would like my outside to reflect the person who I am on the inside.

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ROSIESNOW 1/30/2012 7:44PM

    Hi, stick with us and you'll be wanting to look in the mirror all the time to see your new, skinny self!

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RICOCHETBEAR 1/29/2012 11:48PM

    yeah, I too, understand about the person in the mirror not matching the person we think we are. I avoid mirrors so much that I sort of get a shock when I do see myself!

This is a good idea, picture record of losing.

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MNNICE 1/29/2012 10:37PM

    Too late I realized I should've taken photos along the way, so you'll be glad you did! Celebrate every victory along the way! Sometimes that scale really doesn't know what it's talkin' about!

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LINDABENEDICT 1/29/2012 9:40PM

    great !

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7356WILMA 1/29/2012 9:29PM

  Great Idea!! And I understand the being behind the camera!

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WOLFEMAN5150 1/29/2012 9:28PM

    Good luck on your journey! It will not be easy, but you can do it!! emoticon

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BROOKLYNROSE 1/29/2012 9:28PM

    I feel the same way! I think it's safe to say that A LOT of people here can agree with you. I look forward to seeing your progress:) emoticon

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