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My relationship to the scale ( thanks Michelene for making me think again:)

Sunday, January 08, 2012

My bestie sparkpal Michelene blogged the other day about how we love to hate the scale, this got me thinking. What is my earliest memory of the scale????? I was 8 or 9 and my mom took me for my annual exam at the pediatricians office he mentioned that I was about6 lbs ovewrweight, my mom put me on a diet that summer, I lost 5 pounds. I have included a picture from that summer. that is me on the far left. I hated that scale, because that scale was the enemy. Depending on what that scale said determined what I could eat and how proud my mom was of me.

My next scale memories are my least favorite. during my high school years my mom would put me on the scale and proceed to tell my father and sister if I gained weight, bear in mind I started high school at 97lbs. and ended at 118lbs. I also went from an A cup to a C cup. My mom told me constantly how "chuncky " I was. I hated that scale it became the measurement of my worth. Pic of Senior prom included sorry my eyes are closed


When I moved out of my parents place and into a dorm, I did not take a scale with me. That last thing I wanted to do was weigh in. Over time I did start to gain weight by the time I was pregnant with my son I weighed 151lb. my mom suggested I diet before my wedding. I looked at her like she was nuts, I was 2 mo. . pregnant , I couldn't diet now. she said " it won't hurt anything" . She did not go dress shopping with me, I took a friend who was the best and helped me find a dress that I liked.

Now over the years i have gained and lost alot of weight. And the scale can still make or break my whole day. Sometimes I avoid it for months, who needs the disappointment, some times I weigh my self 3 times a day, even at night so I can guess if I will weigh less tommorow morning. This relationship is not healthy. As I pull up my big girl panties and try to start being healthy again, I realized that I need a new way to measure my success. So I am limiting my self to weighing in just once a week, On Sunday. I am also going to measure myself and use this as a gauge. I will measure how I feel, and If I made good choices that day. That will be my scale. I am more than a number on a scale.

looking for a better standard, Julie.

  
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JESUS.SAVED.ME 1/9/2012 1:57PM

    Yikes, I'm really sorry you had to deal with all that. Just yesterday I forced my daughter to weigh in on Wii Fit. She was so mad at me. But we hadn't weighed her in a year and I think it's important to know what you weigh. She had gained, but she also grew. I don't think I'll make her weigh in anymore. I know it makes her feel bad even though we talked afterwards and I told her I'm not upset about her weight at all. She seemed to get over it, but I don't know how it will affect her long term. I'll just focus on our eating and activity level and how her clothes fit her. Maybe she'll notice her jeans are loose and want to see how much she lost, but I won't push the issue. I'm glad you shared this with us, it can help stop the cycle in other families, even if it couldn't in your own. emoticon

I love your background btw. I'm on the We Love Edward team and it's very inactive now. I'd love to get it going again.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 1/9/2012 11:04AM

    Sorry you had to grow up like that. Sometimes I think parents think they are doing the right things but it will only hurt us later in life.

I think you have a great plan to not let that scale rule you. Once a week is just enough. Good luck as you let go of that dreaded scale and look forward with new eyes on how you are really doing. Go by how you are feeling, how your clothes are fitting, etc... You can do this!!!!

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Back at square one.

Sunday, December 04, 2011

I am overweight. I am out of energy. Only I can change these sad facts. So I am back at square one. Today I will make better choices. Tomorrow I will wake up eat a healthy breakfast and go for a walk. I will drink more water, drive past the fast food restaurants and eat healthy snacks. This is what I will do now so that next week I will feel a bit better and next month my pants will be loser, and next year I will not be overweight and out of energy.

That is all. Jules

  
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WE_PA_FIT 12/5/2011 7:38AM

    a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. little changes make BIG differences. Have a plan, be patient, positive and persistent and you will persevere! emoticon

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MICHCLEARY 12/4/2011 7:40PM

    Love your background and your plan! Glad to see you sparking! I miss you when you're not here to spread the pretty! emoticon

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Week 2 in review.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Sunday was great, had dinner with in-laws at local Italian restaurant, I ordered a side portion of pasta, then only ate half, boxed up the rest right away. ( they have huge portions).

Monday was good but I was pmsing and really really tired. Boy did I nap.

Tuesday was good. I ate right, but did not go walking like I planned.

Wednesday- took my son to the ER, asthma was flaring up. He is fine. Ate well, and walked 2 miles.

Thursday, walked 1.75 miles before work, I was kinda bummed because it was raining and I had to walk on treadmill instead out outside, but brought my e-reader and read, so it went quickly.

Friday, Worked 1/2 day then walked 2 miles outside, ( no rain :) went to Chickfila, because It was lunch time and I was running errands. Got a Char-grilled chicken sand, small fry and unsweetened tea.


Today was long at work, glad to be home, now off to relax .


Week three starts tomorrow.

  
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JESUS.SAVED.ME 9/19/2011 2:47PM

    My daughter has asthma too though she hasn't had an attack in a few years. Hope he's ok.

I love where I live because of the rain. I can pretend I'm in Forks almost every day :) Some day our group needs to plan a trip there :)

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MICHCLEARY 9/19/2011 2:41PM

    Busy and productive. Great job getting the miles in. It's been so dry here that when it did rain, I walked in it for a few minutes. Made me feel like I lived in Forks! LOL

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JOAN_HEO 9/17/2011 6:49PM

    Have YOU ever had a busy week! I'm tired just reading it! =)

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My week in review.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Well as I sit here and slowly sip my nonfat, non whipped Tall Pumpkin spice Latte, I think about this week. It was my kids first week back to school, I made a decision to take advantage of this freedom by going back to the gym. Thanks to sparkpeople I signed up to walk my first 5k in October. Started training this week it helped to motivate me to go to the gym this week. This week I pmsd like mad and still managed to stick pretty much to my nutrition plan. Overall I think I did pretty well. I am looking forward to kicking more booty next week. Celebrating non scale victories (MICHELENE :) and maybe even running a little more this week. Eventually the scale will catch up with me.

  
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JESUS.SAVED.ME 9/12/2011 4:44PM

    Way to go! I'm PMS'ing too right now. The only good side is I know I'm retaining water and so I have a nice loss coming my way on the scale. I signed up for the Halloween 5K, is that the one you signed up for?

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MACKIEFISMOM 9/11/2011 7:22PM

    Sounds like a great plan!! Mich sure does keep us on our toes and thinking :) Mmm, definately have to get me some Pumpkin Spice goodness!!! Hope you have a fantastic week!!

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LOSE4LIFE47 9/10/2011 8:20PM

    Keep up the good work!

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Forgiving myself, and moving forward.

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

I let myself down, I went back to eating in an unhealthy way, I quit moving, gave up and hid. But now, It is time to forgive myself and move on. I have decided that in order to accomplish the healthy goals I have set for myself I have to start looking at the 70 lbs. I lost and then regained in the most positive way I can. Losing that weight taught me that I can lose weight and be a healthy person, and it helped me connect with some wonderful people who have remained a support system though everything, that in itself is priceless. So I am sorry for letting myself down, for being weak and giving up, but I forgive myself and walk toward better things.

  
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MICHCLEARY 9/7/2011 5:50PM

    Way to go..you're awesome and I know you can do it! We can never go back, so somehow we have to change, 1 lb at a time.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 9/7/2011 3:13PM

    You are a step in the right direction!

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