Friday, November 06, 2009
One of the reasons I love sparkpeople so much is that it forces me to be accountable to myself and all of you. So today I'm gonna "keep it real". The last few days have been a disaster. I have eaten what I shouldn't have,and not went to the gym when I should have, (only went Mon, Tues, Wed) . Yesterday instead of dropping the kids at school and hitting the gym like I should have, I came home instead and crawled back in bed with hubby. (that was kinda nice actually- I mean bad Julie , bad). Every month the week before my period is like an alien abduction. My will power is gone, my normal optimistic outlook is gone and I swear, my brain is in slow motion. The depressed grumpy *itch that takes my place reeks havoc with my weight loss goals and doesn't clean the house. Every month I fight to keep her at bay, but eventually she always shows up, and then I spend the next week putting everything back to normal- so it's like two weeks of the month are a waste and I have only two weeks of progress. This week so far I have gained about 3 lbs. I HATE THAT. I know it's just something we have to deal with as women, but when my husband can eat like a pig and then complain (outloud) that he dropped two lbs. I just want to scream- I mean come on, you know how hard I work to lose 2 lbs.
I should have about two more days of this insanity, until the normal me comes back , right now it's about trying to contain the amount of damage I do. Sorry about the vent, but confession is good for the soul.