Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Today, just wanted to sit for 10 minutes and think. And this is what I thought:
Something is not working with what I'm doing (or not doing), and I need to go back to the basics and start small. Maybe take on the healthy habits one or two at a time until they stick, then add a new one. No big announcements, no huge plans. Small, manageable baby steps toward health and weight loss.
It seems like when I have these wonderful (and totally doable) plans for weight loss, I make my statements and then break the promise to myself within the hour.
Goals For January:
1. Walk (the dog) every day for 45 minutes (has to be done anyway, so maybe this shouldn't count)
2. Drink 90 oz of water per day (11 glasses - 1 - 8 oz glass per hour?)
3. Wii Zumba twice per week (Can I tell you though, the Zumba guy - he creeps me out completely!)
That's it. Once I get these habits down, it will be onto the next habit(s)...
Monday, October 03, 2011
Sabotage, by definition is a deliberate action aimed at weakening another entity through subversion, obstruction, disruption, or destruction. Self sabotage then is just doing that to yourself.
I have been guilty of self-sabotage. I have been subverting my exercise, obstructing my journey, disrupting my schedule and destroying my diet. Not horribly, mind you, but I have been.
I have all these plans. I love the way thin feels and all that. But I have no follow thru. I really need to get fit, get ridding of my tummy. Lose 30-40 pounds.
I take my dog for a walk every day. But I havenít really been running, I have been walking. I make excuses: not wearing the right sports bra, didnít take my asthma medication, toe hurts blah blah blahÖ I bought a hula hoop, but didnít put it together until today. I have all sorts of exercise videos, Wii workout stuffÖ but not doing a single one. And I can tell Ė my body and my joints ache. Change in weather? Possible. Laziness? Definitely.
I talked about focusing on my diet. Yes, I eat mainly healthy. I love fruits and veggies. I eat mainly whole foods. But there are momentsÖ I want ice cream. I want dates (the fruit, but a date with my husband isnít so bad either). I want chocolate. Guess what? Last week, I had my period. So, I was grumpy and wanting the non-veggie, non-fruit type food even more.
I love water. I love drinking water. I love taking showers. Have I been drinking my water? Nope. Have I been showering every day? Nope.
There was a lot of other stuff happening last week also, not just the spark stuff. We had wonderful visitors from back home for a couple days and the visit was great. They left on Thursday. My husband left for a work trip on Thursday. Our new friends on our new street moved to Chicago on Thursday. Thursday was a difficult one.
SoÖ I was/am going through a little depression. Sabotage.
We just moved to Northern Virginia due to my husbandís job relocation. We left my family, our friends, the kidsí friends. We moved at the end of June. It is now the beginning of October. I still have rooms to organize. A few boxes left to unpack and put away. My plan was to work an hour in each room. One room per day, until it got done. Have I been doing it? Nope. Sitting on my derriere catching up on movies and tv shows that I really donít care about. Me. Really. Sabotage.
Have I been cooking healthy food for the kids? Yes. Have I been eating? No. Not hungry, unless it is really full of good and nummy Swiss chocolate. Luckily I donít have any in the house. But guess what? The scale was not my friend. Yes, it was THAT time of the month, but dangÖ I want to see some progress, even if I donít put all the effort that my body seems to require.
I have errands to do today. But I am waiting for a DHL delivery. Canít go into the shower, because I donít know when they are arriving. Canít go for a walk with the dog, because I donít know when they are arriving. Excuses. So, Iím blogging while catching up on TV shoes on Hulu. Fun, eh? Yes, laundry is going, beds are made, dishes are done, and the hula hoop is put together. But I am sitting on my derriere.
For now, I guess thatís enough. More to come. Hopefully I can kick my patootie and get back into my groove.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Finally getting settled into our new home. Rooms are painted (only a couple left), furniture has been purchased and delivered, found the Costco, kids are registered for school... deep breathing has begun. Not everything is in Ordnung yet, but getting there.
We survived a tornado, record heat, earthquake and Hurricane Irene. Welcome to the neighborhood, I guess.
I sprained/broke my toe a few weeks back just going out to get the mail while barefoot, so I've been trying to get that to feel better. It was hard to walk around for awhile. Needless to say, I gained about 5 pounds (so bummed). Nothing like that to kick you in the patootie.
Haven't been running until today.
Haven't been counting calories until today.
Haven't been logging my fitness until today.
Haven't been logging my food intake until today.
Haven't been drinking all my water until today.
Today feels good.
I updated my main page a bit, changed my ticker and decided it is about time to be honest with myself and everybody here who wants to hear/see it.
School starts on Tuesday for our kidlettes here, and I cannot wait! I am so happy to have the ability to be selfish again. Selfish because I can really spend some focused time on me rather than kids and the house.
My goals for the next few (10) months are as follows:
- lose 5 pounds per month
- weigh myself only once per week
- drink 9+ glasses of water daily
- exercise minimum 30 minutes per day, preferably an hour
- complete my walk/run program (Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays)
- add strength training and yoga into my routine (Tuesdays and Thursdays)
- maintain my momentum and increase my desire to have fun and be healthy
- blog at least once per week updating my accomplishments
- keep FLYing
- increase positive self talk, decrease negative self talk (it's one of my talents)
- be accountable
Thank you for reading. Please feel free to check up on me - I would appreciate it greatly.
Friday, June 03, 2011
Hmmmm... haven't blogged in a while. almost 6 months. Lots of changes!
Yes, we sold our house - took about 10 days. . The couple that purchased our home came over a few times to show family members etc... weird, but alright. We closed on the sale toward the end of February. Moved into my parent's home (while they were in Mexico) and settled right in. Kids got to sleep on a sleep number bed, while I was stuck in an unfinished basement on an air mattress and then a futon (friends took pity on me).
We didn't end up purchasing the "white" house... I was getting nervous about not hearing from their bank for months on end, so we just let the contract expire. We did find a nice house, traditional sale, in a great neighborhood in Virginia. Kids will be attending a brand new school in fall (so ALL of the kids will be new, not just mine!!).
My husband left for Virginia mid-March for work. It's been ok without him here, but I truly miss him. Kids and I flew out there over spring break to visit and explore DC, and then he flew home for a week for our sons birthday and Mother's day. But that's been it. Talking on the phone is difficult. DC is one hour ahead of us and he works all day... by the time he can call home, I'm getting the kids ready for bed. Not a lot of personal conversing going on. Miss it.
All this is coming to an end. School is out June 9th, Hubby comes back on the 17th, soccer is done June 18th, Father's day is June 19th and then BOOM!! Moving across country. I'm looking forward to being together as a family again and making our new house a home.
With regards to SparkPeople... yeah... I've been a bum. I drink my water, but don't track food or workouts most days. I haven't weighed myself in over 6 MONTHS. Clothing still fits, so I guess that is good. They are not too big, so I guess I haven't lost much weight. . I am driving 25 minutes out to take our dog for a walk every day, and then driving another 20 minutes back to clean the kitty litter at another home. I do also go to a gym, but only once in awhile. My days are busy, so I don't make the time every day. I get the walk in with the dog, which is my activity. Plus, running around with the kids after school...
So that's where I am at. Waiting for our big move across the country. I do need to focus on my life/weight. I do eat mainly healthy, and I'm active... I just need to focus more on it than I have been. So that is my goal this summer.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Well, hello there - it's been almost 2 months since I've blogged (not that I was a diligent blogger...).
Many changes are in the works!
My husband and I worked all through December and into January getting our projects around our home done so that we can get it on the market. I felt really bad for the kiddos, as we were so busy with projects, Christmas... and mommy and daddy were a wee bit stressed out, so we were not in the most festive of moods. However, the major projects are all completed, Christmas was celebrated and onward ho. We are still working on little bits of things around the house, but no more major stuff.
Our home went on the market January 11th, and honestly, there seems to be a bit of interest. We are priced to sell, and won't be getting much of the money we put into the house out of the house, but that is where the market is at right now. We did receive one offer to date, but it wasn't an acceptable one. They offered $10k less than asking, plus they wanted the following:
1. 3% seller paid closing costs (OK, tis the market right now)
2. washer/dryer (only a couple years old) and our new freezer (understandable)
3. outdoor playset (ok, we were not taking it with us anyway)
4. John Deere lawn tractor (interesting)
5. oriental rug in the living room
6. oriental rug in the dining room
7. our dining room table and chairs (yes, gorgeous set - quite expensive, even when we bought them for half price)
8. our mini-blinds (we were planning on leaving them)
Hmmm... really? So, in all, they were asking for about $40k worth of stuff for nothing. I don't know if they thought we were desperate or what... Ummm, NO! I was very insulted, although our realtor said I should take it as a compliment. The house had been on the market less than a week, plus we have a guarantee sale of home through my husbands relo package. It was really bizarre. Our realtor showed them the house twice, because their realtor was on vacation and didn't set anyone up as their backup. Once their realtor came into the picture, things got really testy. She really seemed to be a B-word. We countered their offer and then they decided not to proceed. Whew.
We did go to Virginia on a househunting trip, and wow... big time stress. My husband and I both thought we would kind of have a 2nd honeymoon as this would be the first "vacation" without kids since we got married almost 10 years ago. No... it was just too busy for that. We looked at about 12--20 homes per day, and most were shortsales. Made offers on 2 homes while we were there, and were not the lucky ones on either. We did make another offer on a 3rd home after we came back home, and that is the one we were accepted for. It is also a short-sale, so anything can happen, however bank has already approved the short sale, so we shall see how it all progresses. I am excited - good schools for the kids, and this house is a blank slate (i.e. still builder white after 6 years). We can add some personality, and the house will be terrific. The owners would like to rent back from us until the end of the school year, so we will do that. Husband will head out there in March while the kids and I move in with my mom until mid-June or so.
Husband and I both are not sleeping well at night... waking up after only sleeping 2 or 3 hours, then tossing and turning... I've actually started taking unisom in an attempt to get close to 5 hours of uninteruppted sleep.
With regards to Spark, I haven't been journaling, tracking or anything. I currently do not even know what I weigh right now. But, truthfully, I don't really care. Once things get settled, I'll start tracking again. Too much stress in my life to be stressed out about weight.
Hope everyone had a fabulous Christmas and a happy New Year! Here is to major successes for Sparkness in 2011.
P.S. If you could, please say a prayer or two that someone will be interested enough again to make us a nice offer on our home here. It would be nice to have that done and over with.
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