Sunday, June 19, 2011
I went on vacation & gained over 3 pounds of lard. I knew exactly what I was doing,but shoveled it in like a furnace needing fuel to keep going. I am not happy one bit about my indulgence. I know tomorrow is another day pick yourself back up I am told & start over. I hear that,but I am failing my self. My husband lost 21 pounds since Feb. first time in his life am so happy for him. He use to indulge in huge portions of chocolate , ice cream ,& chips. now he rarely touches it. I go for all the good food, plus a night crawler into the cupboards & fridge. The thing that kills me when I do this I am not even hungry. I can do things to divert myself from this ,but go back to raiding the food shelves. I say tomorrow I will be good,but the tomorrows are not working because I do not know where to begin to try & help myself.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
I gained 3 pounds YIKES!!!! Why? The one night I was exhausted so I should have pushed myself to the gym instead I curled up on the couch , I used that tired excuse for almost two weeks yes I was tired ,but that is when I should have pushed myself, then instead of setting a certain time to come home from work to eat lunch I stayed longer until I was so hungry when I went home to eat I ate too much. I also stopped tracking what I ate. I felt the old me creeping back letting it quietly slip in & coil around me . Today I reached up inside me & took a hold of the coil & began to unwrap it. I am happy though ,why ? because I knew & listened to the inner me & stopped it before more weight piles on.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I went off track last Monday. My friend passed away & I indulged in high calorie high fat food. only went to Zumba twice & kick boxing twice I did none of my every other day eleven machines & did not power walk. So after over indulging today & feeling awful about my relapse, I said to my husband come on we are walking so went for a 2 mile power walk. I must add I read some encouraging blogs from our spark family.It is so easy when we are going through a crisis to let our selves slip. I had to start reading the blogs that is what encourages me also. I hate this feeling like an overstuffed Turkey after I am done eating wrong, I even hate while I am doing it, then why do we not stop right then, why do we continue to pig out when we are at that moment yelling at our selves to stop,because after the aftermath we feel so bad about it. I know what it is like to be on track & have that great high feeling, why can't we stop right then before it goes any further? GRR GRR !!!!!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
My friend Cindy had cancer for three years. She went to be with our Lord at 5:30 am. today. Right up to the day before she was still talking to others about Christ. She was always in better spirits than the rest of us. Her husband is having a very difficult time.
Saturday, April 09, 2011
After work I spent time with my nephew. He arrived home after being away since last fall. He is doing much better,he is back in school . A lot of prayers went out to him so thank you all that were praying for him. Prayer still does not stop though even now, I pray for wisdom for him,peace , & to go in the direction of Christ ways , not the ways of the world for it shall deceive him. When I thought I could not bear the pain of what happened to him , I knew one thing for sure amid the pain Christ was walking with me through it. Our trials we go through in live is also a test of our faith.
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