I am losing & I do not mean the weight

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I went on vacation & gained over 3 pounds of lard. I knew exactly what I was doing,but shoveled it in like a furnace needing fuel to keep going. I am not happy one bit about my indulgence. I know tomorrow is another day pick yourself back up I am told & start over. I hear that,but I am failing my self. My husband lost 21 pounds since Feb. first time in his life am so happy for him. He use to indulge in huge portions of chocolate , ice cream ,& chips. now he rarely touches it. I go for all the good food, plus a night crawler into the cupboards & fridge. The thing that kills me when I do this I am not even hungry. I can do things to divert myself from this ,but go back to raiding the food shelves. I say tomorrow I will be good,but the tomorrows are not working because I do not know where to begin to try & help myself.

  

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STLSUE01 6/20/2011 7:01AM

Please stop comparing your achievements to your husband's -- I didn't that for years and self-undermined every small goal I won. Be happy that he did it, but recognized that his physiology is different from yours. What's triggering your night-time eating? Are you bored because he's not home? How do you take care of you when he's not there? You are not a failure, nor are you failing yourself. It's a daily struggle for all of us -- eat this, not that, stay busy, don't obsess, yada yada. I take it one day at a time, if necessary, one hour at a time. You *can* do this. huggz Report Inappropriate Comment

TODAYIAM 6/20/2011 12:37AM

My suggestion would be to not keep tempting food in the cupboards or the fridge... I do not keep chocolate or many sweets in the house, that way if I have a craving I have to go to the store.. and with five sleeping kids and a husband that works nights I can't do that so I go with a yogurt or fruit. Now sometimes I do make that trip but I don't go crazy.. you just need to find the inspiration to stop. Report Inappropriate Comment

IMREITE 6/20/2011 12:11AM

i hqave been working hard on my mindful eating. last week i was terriable, but i will not give up and try to be more careful this weekend when i am traveling. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAYE454 6/19/2011 11:42PM

Just cut back and take one day at a time Sparpeople can help you Report Inappropriate Comment

Unwrapping the coil !!!!

Sunday, May 01, 2011

I gained 3 pounds YIKES!!!! Why? The one night I was exhausted so I should have pushed myself to the gym instead I curled up on the couch , I used that tired excuse for almost two weeks yes I was tired ,but that is when I should have pushed myself, then instead of setting a certain time to come home from work to eat lunch I stayed longer until I was so hungry when I went home to eat I ate too much. I also stopped tracking what I ate. I felt the old me creeping back letting it quietly slip in & coil around me . Today I reached up inside me & took a hold of the coil & began to unwrap it. I am happy though ,why ? because I knew & listened to the inner me & stopped it before more weight piles on.

  

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MANTISGIRL 5/1/2011 12:22PM

First - Good on you for recognizing it's important to prepare a good meal to keep your energy up - take some carrot sticks and a banana to munch on next time! And second, don't forget.... you have someone cheering you on from Heaven's gate, and she wouldn't want you to give in or give up! Report Inappropriate Comment

CSIMMS5004 5/1/2011 9:55AM

Just remember, you are worth the time and effort it takes to be the best you that you can be!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LOOZINITNOW 5/1/2011 9:52AM

Great job recognizing it and stopping it in it's tracks! Push ahead! Report Inappropriate Comment

Picking myself back up

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I went off track last Monday. My friend passed away & I indulged in high calorie high fat food. only went to Zumba twice & kick boxing twice I did none of my every other day eleven machines & did not power walk. So after over indulging today & feeling awful about my relapse, I said to my husband come on we are walking so went for a 2 mile power walk. I must add I read some encouraging blogs from our spark family.It is so easy when we are going through a crisis to let our selves slip. I had to start reading the blogs that is what encourages me also. I hate this feeling like an overstuffed Turkey after I am done eating wrong, I even hate while I am doing it, then why do we not stop right then, why do we continue to pig out when we are at that moment yelling at our selves to stop,because after the aftermath we feel so bad about it. I know what it is like to be on track & have that great high feeling, why can't we stop right then before it goes any further? GRR GRR !!!!!

  

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PURPLELVR7 4/17/2011 7:47PM

We all slip once in awhile, but each day is a new day and you can do this Report Inappropriate Comment

SNFOSTER1 4/17/2011 5:54PM

Please don't continue to beat yourself up about it. What's done is done. It sounds like you are back on track. We all fall down but what's important is that we get back up. Report Inappropriate Comment

My friend went to be with the Lord this morning

Sunday, April 10, 2011

My friend Cindy had cancer for three years. She went to be with our Lord at 5:30 am. today. Right up to the day before she was still talking to others about Christ. She was always in better spirits than the rest of us. Her husband is having a very difficult time.

  

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CHRISTMASRAIN 5/6/2011 1:10PM

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MACMOM57 4/11/2011 4:11PM

Very sorry to hear. Prayer for Cindy, her family and your self. Report Inappropriate Comment

CLWALDRO 4/11/2011 4:08PM

I will pray for you and the family. I think Cindy would be want you to be happy she is no longer suffering and that now in the heaven with her Lord and savior Jesus Christ Report Inappropriate Comment

CINDYKC2000 4/11/2011 8:11AM

Condolences to you and Cindy's family. Report Inappropriate Comment

2BEHEALTHYAGAIN 4/11/2011 12:38AM

My sympathies to you and to Cindy's husband and family. She sounds like she was a wonderful woman. Keeping you all in my prayers. Report Inappropriate Comment

FAITH2BWELL 4/10/2011 9:58PM

I'm sending my condolence also, I shall keep the family in prayer, How are you holding up? I pray your strenght, Take care. Report Inappropriate Comment

ILUVTTV 4/10/2011 9:16PM

Sorry for your loss. Praying for you and Cindy's husband that the Lord will place His Loving Hands around you both and give you the comfort and acceptance you need. God bless. Anne Report Inappropriate Comment

FITWITHIN 4/10/2011 9:00PM

My condolence to you and Cindy's husband. Report Inappropriate Comment

A most lovely day with a special visit.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

After work I spent time with my nephew. He arrived home after being away since last fall. He is doing much better,he is back in school . A lot of prayers went out to him so thank you all that were praying for him. Prayer still does not stop though even now, I pray for wisdom for him,peace , & to go in the direction of Christ ways , not the ways of the world for it shall deceive him. When I thought I could not bear the pain of what happened to him , I knew one thing for sure amid the pain Christ was walking with me through it. Our trials we go through in live is also a test of our faith.