Thursday, October 04, 2012
I was traveling in my car headed down the highway of life, oh boy I could not wait I looked up into the sky & I swore I saw the design of what I was going to have in the shape of the clouds.
I lay on the table at the chiropractor's office with a Tens Unit pulsating all through my back, with two huge hot packs on top the unit. I lay there face down with my face sticking through an opening so I could breath. The relaxation was the feeling of a melting marshmallow ( even though I would not truly know how one feels }
As I lay there I told myself I would be heading to Taco Bell & order 4 different foods in large. I could even picture them in the formations of the various clouds, oh Yippy Skippy cannot wait.
Then my Sparks kicked in, wait a minute yes I am so full of stress from yesterdays ugly work condition, the phones did not work, out going calls could not be made until 5 pm nor any faxes could not be sent or received due to the phones. We could receive calls but not put any out. The prescriptions were piling up due to insurance issues, the delivery of the med's came 14 totes to be put away. I was to go at 5 pm. but stayed until 8:30 . So after 10 & one hours later when I came home I was wound up like a rubber band ready to spring forward I thought because of a most wretched day I needed a very special dinner. My Sparks knowledge that has been lurking in the corridor of my mind began to seep to the front of my brain. I thought wait a minute here I am laying on this table all smug & comfy & in an hour I am going to over stuff myself. I thought this very moment in time is the second I need to rearrange my thoughts into healthy one's We all know when we are about to make wrong choices whether it is in food or other choices, I thought how I would feel inside after all the Taco choices, stuffed, over bloated,disgust, repeating oh tomorrow I will do better, then do good for a few days then go nuts again over food.This is my choice do I really want to feel like a bloated whale, do I want to come down on my thinking so bad like an avalanche has covered me. Nooooooo!!!!
I went to market & bought some red lettuce, had orange & red peppers , tomato, cucumber, feta cheese, salmon, 1/4 cup of nuts, onion,red beets, a boiled egg & a bottle of ice cold water. Wow I felt so good because of what I could have had!!!!!
Think before we over indulge in something that we will bash our selves over & over only to scream inside our minds why why why did I make that choice!!!!. Not this time I beat it tonight so each time before I am all ready to turn a cloud into an unhealthy choice I will remember how I handled tonight's choice & now I feel so much stronger& sure of myself.
Let's all remember what we want in our mind to satisfy our stress is not what our bodies need. The stress I felt is gone because I took that stress & turned it into something healthy,so the chaos of yesterday is behind me,but without that stress I would not be where I am tonight in a different mind set.