Thursday, March 22, 2012
Today was the big day to weigh in, I approached the scale hesitating to stand on the scale sucking in my stomach like a fool thinking okay this will help ( is that a stupid thought or what okay okay I thought it would work for me ) I saw the numbers got back off & on 3 times I gained 3.7 pounds in 7 days. This time when I looked up in the mirror I was not grinning like a jack ass eating thistles!!!!! I thought gee how did that happen with that much gain. Dumb scale battery must be getting low . Okay I had to blame something surly not ME being the cause of the weight gain!!! Oh it could not have been the triple size linguine I ate, the 4 servings of Chinese take out, the almond joy ice cream cone, the snitches of chocolate I hid away & buried the wrappers in the garbage,the extra slices of cheese on a sandwich,the extra helpings of mashed potatoes I better quit listing I am making myself feel disgusted ( maybe that is a good thing ) Then I take my weights to work out with on my two 15 minuet breaks ( I took them for the first time yesterday, ) what was I thinking a few sets was going to get me in shape for tomorrows weigh in . ( oh yes what a dreamer ) How could I possibly think for one moment in time with all the fuel I packed in for a week & no workout to burn what I put in my body was going to make a difference on the scale. No, no one took my place after all but me, I did this to myself. In my head title I put ( is it possible with a question mark ??? ) Of course it is. You get what you put into your body,& what thoughts you TRY to convince yourself to believe as to why you over indulge , knowing full well as you are shoveling it in what the outcome is going to be in a weeks time. I am not ashamed of saying okay here I go again starting over, I am not going to let this past week be a continuance. Once more I march forward trying again with knew thoughts, of a knew day to start over. Failure is giving up completely not me I am going forward!!!!!!!!!