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Back on track after the munchies ATTACK last nigh.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

This morning I woke up full. (LOL) I should of been. I got up about 2:00 AM, 3:00 AM, and then too sleepy to tell you what time, but another time and eat food all three times. The food was good healthy food, but it was out of control eating. It really had been a while since I had done this. So, I was so disappointed in my self. When I was eating I didn't know why I wanted to eat. It had been an average food plan day and I didn't need the food physically. I just could not make myself think of all the tools that I had used before and stopped the surge to eat off my food plan.

I got up at 6:00 AM with NO sleep and started getting ready for exercising classes for the day. If I was doing it at home, there would of been no way that I would of exercised. While getting ready I didn't want to start my day off with my breakfast meal (wasn't hunger). So I made myself drink a protein drink so my body would start up and I would burn calories while I was at the classes that I did not feel like going to. (too sleepy) I had no intentions of blowing my day by still over eating. I have worked so hard the past five months that I was going to do everything that I should do for the day.
I wanted to do it ,but everything I did was a little harder to do because of the eating all through the night The slip was not worth it!!! I felt like a person who went out to party , spent all their money and had nothing left to show for it. My energy level was so low compared to what I had been having.

I was thinking what on earth caused you to do this. I thought back on my day and then remembered talking to my daughter about her health and her extremely overweight problem. She is in denial BIG TIME !! She can see her self ,but there is always a reason why she is overweight besides the reason that she is eating unhealthy. There is always a reason why she can can't move her body to lose weight. Then, I see her do these and almost kill herself because she wants to do them so bad. This does not happen often,but I see she can move if she wanted to badly enough. Oh, well enough of her. When I thought about now upset I was that she was not accepting that she could do something to help her self that's when I knew WHY I got out of control on my eating. Crazy!!!! I was over eating because she wouldn't try to improve her eating and get active enough to help herself. So, OK we both would be in the same boat if i continue to let this effect me.

It is SO. crazy how we go about trying to, "fix"something and all we are doing is hurting our self. I have got to let this go and let God. I refuse to keep hurting my self over her not take care of herself. The way things are going I might need to be in good health to take care of HER. I won't give details but she is really in bad health and getting bigger everyday. I hope she never reads this, but if she does it is the truth.

Well, I am glad to say, I let God have it and I went about my day as I should of. I have been successful so far and it is 10: 50 PM. I need to end my day soon and get much needed rest.

I feel good about my day that I had. ai completed the exercise classes. I "Sparked", on and off all day. I know what it was that caused the out of controlled eating. I let go and let God. I can now go to bed with that question answered. So, I should be able to have my normal night's sleep. Thanks everyone for the supportive comments. emoticon emoticon

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YESCURLYCAN 10/28/2012 2:13AM

  I am glad that you were able to get back on track, and be sparked. Also that you had a bit of introspection to discover why you were doing it in the first place. In regards to your daughter, I think we all know that change doesn't begin unless we want it. No one can want/wish it for us unfortunately. God willing she will want that change before its too late.
Keep up the great work emoticon

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SUSANS706 10/19/2012 11:14AM

    The only thing that matters is, we keep trying. I too have two daughters who have weight issues. I realized the more I say something, the worse it gets. I am trying to set a good example, and let it go. They are both adults now, and need to be accountable. I cannot fix them, heck, I am having a hard enough time fixing me!! I have had a rough couple of days with overeating, nothing to do with being hungry, everything to do with being worried and stressed. But I get up everyday and start anew, hoping this will be a "good" day. Getting strength from my spark friends. Striving for more good days than bad!! Good luck on your progress, and letting go, I know how hard that is!! It is hard to see someone you love hurt themselves.

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/19/2012 4:06AM

    Sorry you had the night of eating. Maybe your daughter will do something about her weight as she sees you getting healthier! Just keep at it and it will work for you.

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SH9719 10/19/2012 12:58AM

    It is unfortunate that you have to consider that you might need to take care of your daughter. But, we all know what we will do for our children if we have to. You could look at it another way. By losing weight and getting in shape you will be setting an example for her to follow when she finally realizes that fat is not an ok option. I know it is tough, but you cannot let her problems derail you. You will just end up with 2 people off the track. Good luck.

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LOVEMYBODY2012 10/19/2012 12:03AM

    I recognize the eating to numb pain event you are describing here. Good for you for getting up and eating well and going to exercise class. I hope your daughter finds her way to better health soon. You are doing a very positive thing by modeling taking care of yourself!

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DIET_FRIEND 10/18/2012 11:16PM

    I never get up in the night so late-night binging isn't my problem. What's done is done. It's great that you went to your workout. I hope your daughter one day sees the light. I know it's hard to see loved ones do self-destructive things. Keep on sparking!

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KES74754 10/18/2012 11:04PM

  Good for you for getting back on track! I like that you did a self analysis to see what caused you to eat.

I have a similar situation, my daughter too is overweight. I want to help her but she is an adult and old enough to make her own choices. I have found out through experience that if I bring it up to her then it only makes it worse. So I wait until she brings up the subject and I just try to be supportive in a very non-committal way. I just pray that she makes the decision to live a healthier life one day.

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I had the MUNCHIES attack all night

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Munchies got the best of me last night. I munched on celery and No fat home made onion dip (3 Tsp.) , large apple, 1 oz of mozzarella cheese. you see started to get worst as it went. LOL But I my back to my senses. I think that a stressful time I have with my very over weight daughter is what triggered it. At the time I couldn't see it. Just wanted to eat and could seem to not eat. I went over about 100 of the lower end of my calorie count not too bad. I have done a lot worst. i will be back in touch later today. I am OK now is is a NEW DAY.

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/18/2012 8:28PM

    You did an awesome job at getting control of the situation before you went over your calorie range. This is a big step don't underestimate your success!

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MYSHERIANN 10/18/2012 11:13AM

    My goodness your "munching" put me to SHAME! lol I MUNCHED on a huge bag of M&M's......TERRIBLE! I have made changes to make sure NO JUNK is in the house and I'm held accountable. Night time is really rough for me but being this over-weight is MORE rough so time to make consistent choices and stick w/ them!!!

GOOD LUCK and not that I encourage munching but you really seem to use a lot of self control with your "munching" yesterday. emoticon

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SH9719 10/18/2012 8:32AM

    You munched healthily and you stayed within your range. Sounds like a success to me!

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I Have

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

My last blog I stated that I was not given enough information on how to handle losing weight with the RNY WLS to be able to continue to lose weight after the "Honey Moon" stage of the surgery. Now five years later I got the right info and I am doing so much better. Life changes a lot pertaining to the types of foods you can eat, but now I am learning about when and how to use water intake a certain way to help me manage hunger (that returns after six months to a year) and the amount to eat at one meal. This is making my life a lot more manageable when it comes to actual psychical hunger. I now have to stick to it this technique and handle the compulsive and emotional over eating. OH, I can't forget putting in exercising on a regular basics. I have more hope than I have had in 4 years that I will be able to get down to a healthy size and be able to move without so much pain in my joints. I am so thankful that I found found SP because that is what started all this, I have found so much useful info here and have had more support than anything I have tried. Thanks to all of you. emoticon

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/18/2012 4:00AM

    This is working and will continue to do so Judy!

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SH9719 10/18/2012 12:56AM

    That is great news. I am positive you will succeed. Best wishes.

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JACKIE542 10/18/2012 12:05AM

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LADYGSC 10/17/2012 11:30PM

    emoticon keep on sparking!!

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NANCYPAT1 10/17/2012 9:35PM

    I think it is almost criminal when the doctors don't give you the information you need to take proper care of yourself.

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I was not educated correctly after RNY surgery !!!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

emoticon I had gastric by pass surgery about 5 years ago. I paid CASH for the hospital and surgery which came up top about $28,000.00 not counting expenses for a week motel stay and medical asst. near the hospital, i was told all the things that I couldn't eat and to not drink water while I ate. That was IT !! I guess because they already had my cash money they did not care about anything else. the checked me out after surgery and released me me from doctor's care in the usual amount of time. There I was 100 miles away from the support group that they offered to me, but I could not go because of finical reasons. So I read what I could and did what I though that I was suppose to. I lost weight at first (happy) but not what others was losing that I had read about. It was about 80 lbs. then My hunger returned and it was very hard for me not to overeat. I would stay away form the wrong foods but hunger would take over and I began snacking.Then I was snacking all the time. I then began to sip water along with eating because when was I going to drink water without eat (LOL) I maintained the 80 lbs off for about 3 yrs. without much trouble. Then with the grazing all the time and emotional eating I started gaining. That when I really got serious and started cut out the snacking and eat healthy meals and healthy snacks at a planed time. OK , the normal person should of adjusted and not been too hunger with this. I was hunger all the time. when they told me not to drink water with food they only explained that if I drink water while eating I would not be able to would enough food to get enough vitamins. of the food, So, I didn't know the whole story of why NOT to drink water while eating. They didn't even tell me to stop drinking water a certain time before eating. I gained 40 lbs of that 80 lbs back with the last 2 two yrs. before Spark people. i got the grazing under control and the meal plan with healthy foods. the put in exercising and I lost 30 lbs. very slowly. I was happy,but I was HUNGRY all the time. I was eating 6 small meals a day, but still would get very hungry. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I was on the Bariatric Team and stated this. One the the team members inform me that was why it was important to NOT drink 1 hour BEFORE meals and 2 hours after meals. Well, that was new to me. so, five years ago They just did not have the info like they do now on the internet so I started researching about the water intake after RNY surgery. i found out that if I had stretched my pouch and drink water before & while I ate the my food was passing through me within 30 minutes. if I was drinking water just before I ate my food was soup and then drinking water while I ate flushed it right on out. It didn't stay long enough in the pouch to make me feel full. then when the food went to the large intestine i had 20 feet to fill up before it would not emptying out my pouch. emoticon OK, bare with me. I found out the everybody's pouch stretches within 2 years. Within a year the hunger will come back if you don't learn how to use the pouch as a tool. I was so glad that I found out if people follow some rules that no matter how big your pouch had got you could still lost weight . the research paper didn't come out until 2008 I had surgery in 2007. so maybe they did have this info at that time. So, that is where I am now. I am trying to follow these set of rules to fill myself up with healthy foods and try not to be hungry ALL the time. I still have to deal with the mental part of wanting emotional eat and get active to improve my health. The rules are total different than I have every had to deal with eating food and drinking liquids. I think that I can do it. i am so thankful for all of you out there. i have hope that I can deal with this. i know not everybody has not had WLS surgery but I know that you all have the same issues I have about saying on a food plan and exercising. Oh, now I can pig out now on pizza and very high calorie foods. Then gain weight very fast even though it doesn't stay in my pouch it stays in my intestines and the high calories get into my body because I am not letting that food go out by grazing ALL the time. I know I am a compulsive over eater, but I could understand why I really stayed psychical HUNGRY all the time. Well, thank God now I know. I was so mad at first that I was mot told about now I needed to follow these rules. The rules I had been given was diffidently NOT what I needed to do. Oh, for the first six months it was right, but after that NO. I found out it was a new set of rules that needed to be followed. I have to" let it go and let God have it" I can do this. I feel really hopeful about controlling my appetite now. It has been 3 years that I have been so hungry all the time and feel hopeless about it. Thanks again for All the support you all have given me. I am looking forward to reporting good news using these NEW "rules" now. Love to all of you. Judy

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NEWTEXDEBBIE 10/17/2012 10:22AM

    WOW Judy, I would have felt the same way! I'm glad you found the information and can now fight back...... I have been drifting for the last 2 weeks but I'm back standing strong! When and if I dissapear, yell in my direction...... :}
God said so..... emoticon

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LYNNA1968 10/15/2012 7:49PM

    I sympathize with you, my surgery was covered by insurance, my surgery was also in 2005. We weren't told about the chance of vitamin deficiencies. Its a real shame & I'm sorry.

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/13/2012 8:40PM

    What an awful experience for you!. My cousin had the gastric bypass a long time ago. I am thinking 10 plus years ago. She lost 100 lbs but since she has gained it all back. Her experience made me realize that this wasn't for me. It seems it takes the same kind of skills to lose it and keep if off with the surgery as it does without it.

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JACKIE542 10/13/2012 7:22PM

    Hi Judy, sure am happy you did your own research. The internet is so helpful, when you don't get the information that you should have gotten.
I am looking forward to seeing how your new plan works for you. It sounds like you know what is going on and what you should do.

Have a great evening! emoticon emoticon

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Shamed Myself Into Doing a VBlog

Thursday, October 04, 2012

I enjoy seeing other's face and the visual contact so much. Then I started feeling guilty for the reason that I have not done a Vblog and give back that feeling of the visual contact. So, I am going to give it a try.

I watched my Vblog and I seem so, so serious it it. I am sorry. I hope next time I can be more cheerful.

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HAPINANA 10/14/2012 12:19AM

    good job on the vlog Judy.... I can sure relate to the ups and downs of dieting, but SparkPeople has really done it for me!! I so love this place. It really keeps me focused on what I have to do everyday to accomplish the healthy life I'm looking for... we can do it my SparkFriend .. SPARK emoticon

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/9/2012 10:37PM

    Hi Judy, I don't know how I missed this vlog you did days ago, but here I am now. Great vlog. I agree the vlogs are so wonderful. They make me feel so much more connected with people. I love your accent. emoticon

I always wondered about the gastric bypass and how it differs from what we have to do anyway to lose weight. It just seems like it costs a lot of money, has unneccesary risks, and a person still needs to control portions, but now they have the after effects of the surgery as well.

I am so glad you didn't give up and that you found Sparkpeople where we can learn from those who have reached goal, those doing it, and even the newbie insights. It is awesome.

I will look forward to your next vlog. I don't think you seemed uncheerful. You gave us some great information here.

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KMCASSADA0515 10/9/2012 1:46PM

    I am really glad you did one of these! Keep up with them, it was great to see you... and I LOVE YOUR ACCENT! emoticon

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NEWTEXDEBBIE 10/8/2012 9:52AM

    Good Morning Judy,
I have been being pushed by the doctors for health reasons, to get a bypass or a banding done. I have held out for almost 2 years. I know ME.... I have to get moving BEFORE I decide on anything major or I won't benifit from any type of surgery. I want to do this MYSELF......
Lets get this done my friend! emoticon

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BLINDEDPANDA 10/5/2012 8:54PM

    Nice to see you Judy! :D

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GENEALOGYGAL 10/5/2012 10:58AM

    Nice to meet you Judy! Thank you for sharing your story. Glad you found SP and can now strive with the rest of us to forget our past and get healthier today. :o), Janice emoticon

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SWANATOPIA 10/5/2012 1:46AM

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, Judy! I am glad you found Spark People and hope to see more vlogs from you in the future! Have a great Friday!

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SH9719 10/5/2012 1:44AM

    Born to be a video star.

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1EMMA2011 10/5/2012 12:57AM

    Good for you for putting yourself out there! I feel proud of you. emoticon

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