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End of one chapter and starting a new one

Friday, June 08, 2007

Well, it's been a few days since I've blogged but here goes. I went back to Illinois for a vacation and saw my son and rest of my family. It felt so good to see them as I hadn't seen my brothers in 3 years and my son in 18 mos which was wayyyy to long for that.

Everyone had seen positive changes in me as far as my weight and mental attitude. I came home and discovered I had lost 3.5 pounds. That's the first time in my life I have ever lost weight over a vacation. I had also lost 2 pounds over Christmas, another first for me. That was a very good feeling to have.

My sister and I have lived out here in Calif for 4 years and when we got home from our trip, I found out that she is moving back to Illinois. She left this morning and it's very scarey for me. I haven't been on my own for several years due to my weight. I have lived with someone for 7 years, first my brother and his wife and then my sister for the last 6 years. I feel like a favorite sitcom that has finally come to an end. My sister and I got so much closer, being the only two out here so it's a loss for me to not be able to see her daily.

Since being out here, I've become so much more independent. I started driving again, after being out here for 6 months, I can go to the store when I need to alone, I go to the pool and gym on my own. I'm not afraid to do things on my own so I'm telling myself I can do this. I know I can but there are still lots of doubts in my mind. I have the options of moving back if I want to, but I love it here. I also know that if I moved back there, I really feel like I would go back to the way I was before and I don't ever want to go there again. I really think I would lose my independence again but because I would give up and let everyone take care of me again. I DON'T WANT THAT!! It helps me so much to have my son who is great and encourages me all of the time. I love him so much and miss him, but he tells me I need to do what it takes to make me be happy and healthy. He is such a smart kid (man) at 25.

So, this is going to be starting a new chapter for me. Im looking forward to it but in the same sense, I'm scared out of my mind! The main thing I have to do is to stay focused on my journey as far as my diet and exercise goes, especially the exercise right now. That will keep me sane and not mopey.

We shall see how it goes for me in the days ahead.

  
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WILDFIREKRISTIN 7/27/2011 10:17AM

    I am so proud of you and your son. What a sweet man he is for taking care of his mother and loving her so dearly. I am sorry about your sister and you having to split apart after so long, hopefully, the two of you will stay close and in touch often so you don't feel alone.

I think you staying there shows that you have a great strength in you and that you really do want what is best for you! I think it is wonderful and I wish you great luck and success!

Hugs,

Kristi
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NORAKENO 6/9/2007 4:06PM

    I feel for you, but you are doing what is best for you. Your son is a very wise young man and you are so lucky to have his love and support. I know that I had given up a lot of my own independence when I weighed 530 pounds. I was starting to give it up again, and gained weight. Uh uh ... I've worked too hard and come too far. I'll be checking in on you to see how the newest chapter goes, Juanita. You CAN do this! ~Karon

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RUNNINGSLOW 6/8/2007 4:42PM

    Best wishes to you on the new chapter in your life. May all the wonderful things you deserve happen!

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Another weigh in

Friday, April 27, 2007

Had Tops last night and I turtled again. I really felt I had a loss but it's been very warm here this week and I could feel my feet and hands swelling. I did do a great work out at the pool tho, and that felt good. It amazes me how much better I feel after swimming, mentally and physically.

I'm not too upset about staying the same, atleast I didn't gain, but I'm going to really work hard on getting all of my water in and watching my salt intake this week.

2 more weigh ins before I go home to see my kid and I want to have a couple more losses.

  
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NORAKENO 6/5/2007 9:37AM

    Hi Juanita, I have to agree with Aunt Bee that staying the same can be a good thing. As long as it isn't a prolonged plateau (those can be frustrating). You have plans to get the scale going again and you will succeed. Take care, Karon

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AUNTBEE1945BK 5/6/2007 4:31AM

    I am not a member of Tops any more but have been through out my life time.

Turtles are wonderful, your body is resting. Remember as we gain muscle weight or don't eat enough fruit and vegetables our bodies may have a gain. Plus us big gals have a good chance of retaining water weight. Remember to use your measuring tape.

And celebrate the small, successes also.

Bee

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YEA I MADE IT!!!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Well, I just got home and we went to McDonalds and then down to the beach for supper. I made it!! I didn't go off of my plan. I had a chicken mcgrill, small fries, ONLY 1 chocolate chip cookie and a small dipped cone. I could have left that off, but it was good and I still have around 200-300 calories if I want anything else tonight....

It feels sooooo good when I stay on plan. I just wish I could keep this feeling all of the time.

  
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DAVIDCITYGRANNY 4/22/2007 10:26AM

    Really screwed up that comment - did your making sensibly choices have any effect on your TOPS friend? Tell her a TOPS friend in Nebraska is rooting for her to get back on track. Thanks for the pep-talk too Juanita

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DAVIDCITYGRANNY 4/22/2007 9:44AM

    I'm curious -- did your ordering and eating sensibly have an what your TOPS' friend? Congratulations!!!!

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A challenge

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Well, I'm going out to dinner with the Tops friend who likes to eat. I feel bad turning her down when she wants to do something but I'm challenging myself to eating healthy tonight. I'm not sure where we are going, but I can and will order something I know I can handle and be done with it. I'm going to enjoy the chat and not focus on the food.

I wish she would get back on track but no one can make her. It's up to her. She has lost 90 # but has gained 40 back the last 6 months. I'll post later and hopefully I will have accomplished this!!! I WILL DO IT!!

  


Friday morning...new day

Friday, April 20, 2007

Well, I had my meeting last night and some how managed to stay the same so I'm very happy with that!! I had some hard spots this past week so I was afraid I had gained. I am making myself a promise to have a very good healthy week. I want a weight loss next week. I have a month before I go back home to see my kid, and I want to have some losses.. I know I can do this. I'm going to do this, one minute at a time..

  
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KITT52 4/21/2007 5:32PM

    juanita you go girl, your doing so well. Don't look back, look to the week a head. It is one day at a time. Do your best.

have a happy and healthy day.

Kitt

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KITT52 4/21/2007 5:31PM

    juanita you go girl, your doing so well. Don't look back, look to the week a head. It is one day at a time. Do your best.

have a happy and healthy day.

Kitt

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KITT52 4/21/2007 5:30PM

    juanita you go girl, your doing so well. Don't look back, look to the week a head. It is one day at a time. Do your best.

have a happy and healthy day.

Kitt

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