Saturday, September 04, 2010
I first did my measurements on August 6th. Tonight I did it again. Probably wasn't the smartest thing to do while I'm PMS'ing (and up 2# since yesterday, but hey! Gotta do it sometimes!) AAaaaannnnnnnndddddddddddd...........
I've lost 2 inches from my waist, an inch from my hips, 1/2 inch from my thigh, and 3/4 inch from my upper arm! And 15#!!!! That's in an month! Yay!!!!
I'm really excited about this. Maybe even more than the 15# on the scale. The 2" in the waist explains why my favorite capris wouldn't stay up last weekend, lol.
I had a good day. Going to yard sales with the family this morning. I love that time with my hubby talking while we drive around. Olivia watching cartoons in the backseat. I packed breakfast and snacks for everyone so we'd have no reason to run thru a drive thru. And that even works better with a 2 year old. :)
We made a spontanious stop at Costco and bought a membership. We found some great deals on healthy foods. Between working full time and parenting, I'm all about shortcuts when cooking. They had so many! from chicken breasts pre-seperated into 2 breast packets to 3 packs of sandwich thins, to veggie crisp chips they were sampling and I bought. (Very yummy with tuna, btw).
I even had a Snickers bar today. I logged it, and am still well under my calories so I can have a snack in a bit. And it was so nice to NOT feel guilty for splurging. I walked a lot today and worked that indulgence into my plan. I didn't eat a whole bag of them. I ate 1. I enjoyed it. And moved on. No obsessing. No spending the day feeling bad and guilty and sick. Just an enjoyable splurge. It felt...... normal. Nice.
Thanks for reading, and for comments on my past blogs. Hope each and every one of you had a good day, and have a peacefull night.
Friday, September 03, 2010
I've always blamed PMS for binges. But in all honesty... as often as I did that, I'd be PMS'ing 3 weeks out of the month, and then blaming my period the other week. HA! I call BS on myself. But now that I'm getting honest with myself, I decided to take an more "scientific" approach.
I've been documenting when my period starts, and documenting those days that I'm just STARVING all day! yesterday was one of those days. I only had 76 calories left at the end of the day. I usually end with 500 left! (I have a high, broad range because of where I'm starting). But yesterday I was simply hungry all day. I did ensure that each snack I had was low calorie, and had some nutritional benifit. BUT I ate.
Sure enough... my period is due this weekend or Monday.
This isn't to say I'm trying to give myself permission to eat. But I think it's helpful to get to know my body. I so often eat out of emotion, and I'm trying to be so MINDFUL of why I'm eating. Yesterday I just felt hungry. All day. I have those days. I'm sure I'm not the only one.
I think I'm going to use the notes section of my nutritional tracking even more. Note things like "bad day", "Emotional because....", "Great day!" and see if there are any more patterns I can learn.
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
I'm having a good "diet" day! Weighed in to a 3# loss this week. 2 more pounds and I'm out of the 290's! Yay! I'm at 15# lost right now. In just less than a month. I'm good with that.
My daughter isn't feeling 100% today. Likely just allergies from the goofy weather, but I stayed home with her anyway. She is whiney, clingy, and overall just not a happy camper. After a couple hours of watching cartoons, she just seemed restless. Instead of taking her to the backyard to play while I sat under the gazebo, or turning on another cartoon, I decided to go for a walk.
Yesterday we walked to one park neary my house and I got in just under 3000 steps. Today I put Livy in her stroller and headed in the opposite direction with no particular destination in mind. I pointed out flowers, kitties, doggies, and we ran from a ferocious 2 pound chijuaja (sp?) that chased us. We were having FUN. We were near another neighborhood park, so we stopped. Livy enjoyed the swings for a minute, but her malady kept her from having any interest. So back in the stroller and resuming our walk. We meandered down some cul-de-sacs and she chatted most the way.
And I did 3445 steps!!!! YAY!!!!! My fitness minute goals that SP set for me is 90 minutes per week. Other than playing some Wii, I never do it. I'm already at 75 minutes this week! And it was enjoyable! I attempted to walk a 5 mile March for Dimes walk in April. I made it 2 miles and was in so much pain. Serious pain. I did about 1 1/2 miles this morning and am fine (sweaty but great!). I love progress. :)
And yes.... now that we are home, cartoons are back on. Little sickie is sitting in her toy box watching them. ;)
In the hopes of capitalizing on my good vibes today, I trying spaghetti squash for the first time tonight. *fingers crossed* I have a fantastic turkey spaghetti sauce I make, but I don't usually get to eat too much of it because I use all my calories on pasta! Hope it's yummy!
My baby girl at the fair on saturday
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I'm playing hookey from work today after such an awful day yesterday. Well kind of.... I still have my work phone on me and taking calls from clients. I just moved my out calls to tomorrow. I needed a mental health day.
I was sitting here reading spark message boards about fitness and how people are working out and thinking about what a loser I am. I LOATHE exercise. Seriously.... I am not an athletic type of girl. (Hence the reason my all time high weight was 411 and I'm currently 294!). But reading the message boards left me feeling extremely guilty. So I went and dug out the cardiac monitoring watch / pedometer my husband gave me for Christmas last year. Um yeah.... It was still in the box. But I got it out, and programed it. And looked at it. "What the heck am I gonna do with this stupid thing? Not like I'm gonna join a gym".
But the day is unseasonable cool and breezy... just a touch of Fall in the air. I love this weather. And since I stayed home with Olivia today, I figured we could at least enjoy the weather. So we headed to the park. Just so I could tell my husband I used the watch, I strapped it on and turned on the pedometer. I brought the stroller, but Livy wanted to walk. So we walked (at the pace of a 2 yr old) for a while. She picked dandilions and pointed out rocks and flowers to me. And we walked. And walked a little more. She ran, giggling, a few times and I had to walk my fastest to keep up with her. And we ended up at the park about a 1/2 mile from our house. We played on the slides and I pushed her in the swing. And as I looked at my gorgeous baby with her eyes closed, smiling wide, with the wind blowing her hair, I realized something! I don't HAVE to be a fitness guru to obtain MY goals. Those may be the goals for some people, but they aren't mine. I don't want to be an athlete. I want to be a healthy mom! THAT'S my goal. And my daughter deserves this. To walk to the park, actively play in the park, be chased by mommy, etc.
After we played (and Livy completely melted down because..... well, because she's 2!) I put her in the stroller and walked uphill the half mile home. When we arrived, I checked the pedometer and was surprised to see I'd gotten in nearly 3,000 steps! I'm proud of this! I know it's not the "goal" for most people. But it's a good start for me.
My daughter and I had a wonderful time, and I'm so glad that I'm able to now see my own goals more clearly. I don't have a desire to run a 5k. I just want to be able to run after my child. I don't need to be a competitive swimmer. I just want to feel comfortable in a bathing suit and play in the water with my family. THAT is the life I want. And what I saw today is that I'm LIVING my goal while ACHEIVING my goal. I don't have to "arrive" there. My goal can be met today. And for that I smile.
Thanks for all the comments on yesterday's blog. It was a huge support. :)
Monday, August 30, 2010
Seriously... today was awful. I'm a case manager for adults with chronic mental illness. One client may need to be re-hospitalized, one got evicted (and is 30 weeks pregnant!) and another lit a cigarrette without removing his oxygen. Yep! Kabam! Burned half his face. Oy Vey! And while I was rushing around like a chicken with my head cut off to meet everyone's needs, I hurriedly got into my van and heard a loud "rip"! Looked down and my pants had ripped. From my waist to nearly my ankle. Fun times. Had to drive 8 miles out of my way to change at home (and walk from the street to my front door holding my pants closed!). Sigh! At least the work day is over Dinner was nice, and hubby is blowing bubbles for the little one. I hear her laughing and it helps.
In the midst of all the running around, my day got long and I didn't have enough food with me. Starving, I drove thru McDonalds. Got a grilled chicken sandwich with no mayo, no bacon, no cheese, and no lettuce (don't like lettuce on hot sandwiches). Added bbq sauce. OMG! SOOOOO HOT! They have some seriously spicy chipotle bbq sauce! Pretty good stats tho. Very large and filling sandwich for 400 calories. Not bad. I still have 400 calories left for a bit of dessert tonight.
If you read these ramblings... God bless ya! :)
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