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My cup overflows

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Today we took our daughter to the Central WA fair. In spite of a couple rough moments, we had a blast. I am continually amazed at my increased participation in life with my more mobile body.

This is what some people in my life don't understand... I am not losing weight to be a super model. I have abused my body my entire life. You don't lose 170# and expect your skin to bounce back, or not have sag and wag. I am losing weight to be active, have choices, and live the life I WANT rather than settling for watching it from the side lines. When I was 420#, there is no way that I would have been able to walk the fairgrounds for 6 hours, let alone go on a kiddie-rollercoaster! But today I did. My 4 yr old desperately wanted to ride the rollercoaster but was afraid to go alone. I worried I wouldn't fit, but I did. And the lap bar lowered and locked with no problem. The train stayed on the track, and I was able to provide my daughter with a wonderful time.

All day, she talked about the Ferris Wheel. Now... I'm really uncomfortable with heights. Like REALLY don't enjoy them. At all. But I love my baby girl (yes, I know she's spoiled, but she's a great kid in spite of it). I read the height restrictions signs, and looked for a weight limit, and didn't find one. So, I stood in line with her, handed the man our tickets, and waited for a dirty look or for him to tell me that I was too large for the ride. I held my breath.

"Please don't embarrass me in front of my daughter and all these people", I thought.

The man simply smiled and handed me the seat belt to latch. It was loose. He helped me tighten it, and locked in the safety rail. Up we went. I felt "normal". My daughter was on cloud nine.

My cup overflows tonight... my heart is bursting with happiness after a full, exhausting, fun day with my family. We are so blessed to have this miracle child. And I am so thankful that I committed to this journey 9 months ago, and recommit daily, to live a happier, healthier life. I hope she looks back on her childhood with love and laughter, rather than with thoughts of "I wish my mom had been able to do that with me".

And just because I adore her.......

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DIANER2014 9/30/2012 7:38AM

    emoticon Glad you had so much fun with your family. Your daughter is a beauty. emoticon

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LESLIELENORE 9/30/2012 6:26AM

    You are both beautiful! It looks like she had a blast.

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2BFREE2LIVE 9/30/2012 1:16AM

    So proud of you and she is so beautiful just like Mom. Enjoy each and every day of your new life. emoticon emoticon

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A picture made me cry

Thursday, September 27, 2012

So today, I ran across this picture of my daughter and I last Halloween. It made me cry:

What makes this so sad to me, is I remember my husband posting that pic on FB and thinking "At least I don't look too fat!" Talk about denial!

Here's a shot from a few weeks ago in Seattle:

I know I still have a long way to go. But the 62# that are gone have already made a huge difference in how I feel about myself, my energy level, and what activities I'm able to do!

I hope I can look back in another year and look at the Seattle Picture and think "Wow... I've come a long way since last year".

But today I'm going to give myself a pat on the back for those 62#, and stop attacking myself for the 60+ lbs I have left to lose.

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RACHEALLH 1/9/2013 8:52AM

  Thank you for bringing us along on your journey and letting us have a little inside look. You are a great inspiration. YOU LOOK GREAT!!!

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ANNABELL598 9/28/2012 10:17PM

    You are looking awesome!!! Keep it up, girl!! emoticon emoticon

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DIANER2014 9/28/2012 10:05PM

    You've done an awesome job! You look great! emoticon emoticon

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LESLIELENORE 9/28/2012 12:43PM

    emoticon You look great! What a difference a year can make.

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SEATOWN_GAL 9/27/2012 11:05PM

    You have accomplished so much! Way to go.

And did you enjoy the butterfly exhibit? My kids and I still enjoy it and we hae been there so many times!


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    It's so great to have the pictures to compare and confirm how far you've come and how great you're doing! Good job and you look fabulous!

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LAUGHIN_ME_THIN 9/27/2012 10:55PM

    Way to go!!! YOu did a great job!

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JUDYAMK 9/27/2012 10:52PM

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Wow what a difference in a year you look absolutely awesome!!!!

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    I am glad that your patting yourself on the back for all you have accomplished. You are doing great and will continue to do so. And I still love love love that top!!!!

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Back to the basics

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

For the past month or two (since my miscarriage) I have been eating the same foods as always, but I have not been tracking. I have been exercising, but not as frequently. I have been losing weight, but not much. Yes, I see a correlation.

So, today I will make an effort to track what I'm eating. I met with my trainer yesterday, and am heading back to the gym today. I feel like the past several months have been an avalanche of physical challenges (dental issues, miscarriage, and now a torn muscle in my arm), am honestly I want to give up and pig out on the Halloween candy that is in the stores. But I know that will NOT help me feel better. What WILL help me feel better is to lose the next 11# and hit the goal I set for myself for 2012. What WILL help me feel better is to fit in those size 18 pants that are just a tad tight, but would be adorable for Fall.

So.... today I will make good choices and record them. Hopefully tomorrow I will build on those choices. I want to be back where I was mentally.

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2BFREE2LIVE 9/25/2012 6:40PM

    Yes you have had some bumps in this journey however your still going forward and that is very important as you know.
Stay on track and you will be in those pants before you think. Keep looking forward and set new goals for yourself and you will succeed.
Have a wonderful week, enjoy the gym time and track those healthy foods.
You can do this. Sandy

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LESLIELENORE 9/25/2012 2:02PM

    emoticon Just go forward from here and you will get where you want to go.

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A small victory

Friday, September 14, 2012

I am now closer to 200# than to 300#. I don't know why beating the 250# means something to me, but it does. It's been several years since I've actually been UNDER the weigh limit on many household items I use (chairs, step stools, etc). but now I am.

59# gone. 11# to go to hit my goal for this year!

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MISJOSIE 9/15/2012 7:44PM

    Good for you! That is such an amazing moment, and a great affirmation of how you have changed your life for the better. Congratulations, and WAY TO GO!!!

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AEROGIRL1594 9/15/2012 7:09PM

    Congratulations! :) Keep up the good work!!

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DAYSPRING-STAR 9/14/2012 8:58PM

    Yes, celebrate! You beat the 250 and of course it means something! Congrats! Keep Sparking. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LESLIELENORE 9/14/2012 4:12PM

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3G1RLS4ME 9/14/2012 11:58AM

    cool keep it up :)

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TARANITUP 9/14/2012 11:54AM

    that's a GREAT victory!

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What a difference!

Monday, September 10, 2012

This weekend, my hubby and I drove to Seattle for a romantic weekend getaway. We parked the van at the hotel, and walked, walked, walked! Everywhere we wanted to go, we walked. And I managed just fine!

A couple things I noticed:
1) walking a couple miles in one day, and standing for a few hours looking at museum exhibits is MUCH easier nearly 60# lighter.

2) Usually in situations like this, I feel like people are staring at me because of my size. I didn't feel like that!

3) I didn't follow my "diet" while away, but I still ate MUCH better than my old self. Even with 'permission' to splurge, my portions were small, I drank plenty of water, and sweets were in moderation.

4) I enjoy the pictures we took SO MUCH MORE!!! Seriously... usually we would get back and I would immediately delete any picture that made me look too fat. This time I simply enjoyed the shots!

And PS... the King Tut exhibit was PHENOMENAL!!!! Loved it!

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2BFREE2LIVE 9/11/2012 1:38AM

    So very proud of you and you look fantastic.
I can really tell the difference in the photos taken a couple of months ago at the Birthday party and these. Your looking great and so happy.
Enjoy life it is much to short to not get out there and live every minute of each day.
I am glad you enjoyed your Romantic Get Away, next time you make it over to this side of the mountain come by for a visit. Sandy emoticon

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LESLIELENORE 9/10/2012 10:04PM

    You look Amazing! And so happy!

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OBIESMOM2 9/10/2012 8:21PM

    you look happy...and absolutely beautiful. Glad you had a nice time.

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    Sounds like a nice weekend and you look amazing. I love your top!!!

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MOUSEKETEER_NAN 9/10/2012 6:41PM

    Way to go! You look great... and even better - you are feeling great! emoticon

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