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Finding a healthy medium at parties... feels good!

Friday, June 08, 2012

Today was my daughter's preschool bbq... basically the last gathering of the year. Livy was thrilled to give her presents to her teachers, play with her friends, and especially to eat lunch with them.

I had a root canal yesterday, so I am a little sore today. It makes eating a little more difficult since the veggie tray wasn't quite gonna work for me today (too hard and crunch = painful today). I decided moderation was the way to go today. I knew I couldn't get my jaw open enough for a hot dog and bun, so I chose just the hot dog. Lots of fresh melon found its way onto my plate, and a small handful of cherry tomatoes. I estimated about 275 calories for my plate, and happily sat with my family and friends, eating the small bites.

Then there was the dessert table. Yep... and ENTIRE TABLE of sweet delights. Brownies, sugar cookies with icing, cupcakes of every color, cake, etc. Seriously a dieters nightmare. Especially if you have a sweet tooth like I do.

I let my 3 yr old pick one sweet for her plate, then went to sit down. And I REALLY wanted a sweet. REALLY wanted one. I ate my food. I drank more water. I talked with friends. And I still REALLY wanted one. I was starting to feel really deprived. My friends were eating their cookies, brownies, and cupcakes, and I was drinking more water. And feeling sad and disappointed about it. And that's just silly! I didn't get to my highest weight by eating 1 sweet. I got there by having zero self control and eating ridiculous amounts of sweets and other high calorie foods. And if I'm going to maintain this lifestyle, I better figure out a way to deal with these situations without feeling an emotional let down and feeling punished all the time.

So I cut my daughter's cupcake in half. I allowed myself that half. And guess what? Once I took a few bites, I didn't need the rest of it. I ate about 1/4 of the cupcake, threw the rest away, and felt completely satisfied with it. I felt like it was some sort of victory! I managed to walk away WITHOUT feeling deprived. I met my craving, but also kept my calorie count reasonable. I can live with that.

After my 75 calories or so of cupcake, I took off after my daughter and her buddies to chase them in the playground. I love that I'm finding a way to live with these life choices. I can NOT think of this as a diet. This HAS to be simply the way that I eat now. These have to be choices that I can make consistently and live with long term. And today I felt like I was able to do that.


Olivia and I today at the BBQ

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CCASKEY37 6/9/2012 7:16AM

    Doesn't it feel better than if you had lost control? Even better that you got to play with your daughter.

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LITTLEROX20 6/9/2012 12:14AM

    Way to be strong! It is so hard to resist cupcakes sometimes :)

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Mind over matter kind of day

Monday, June 04, 2012

I did NOT want to work out today. I've been sore, with a 3-day long headache and achy hip. It was raining and cold all day. And I just had a good case of the "don't wannas".

But I went. Set the elliptical to a harder mode, and went to it. My trainer spotted me and come in to ask me to meet with another of her clients and see about "lighting a fire" with her. That made me feel AWESOME! I love that she looks past the extra pounds on my body to see the journey I'm on, and what I can offer to fellow travelers. We chatted a bit, and after she left I kept workin' it.

I completed 30 HARD minutes, then hit the weights. So a day that started with DREADING the gym ended up being a day with a great workout!

And while watching my form during ST, I noticed that one side of my neck/shoulder was higher than the other. Got into the chiropractor today, and my headache is receding. We'll see if my adjustment holds thru tomorrow's workout with my trainer. She tends to Kick. My. Butt. We shall see!

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RITEEBEE 6/5/2012 10:05AM

    That's awesome you pushed through the "don't wanna's" and had a great workout!! emoticon

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    YAY, that is awesome. I love how I feel after beating down the dontwannas. I always say I am going to do something. This morning I said at least thirty minutes of my dvd and did all 45 anyhow. It is an accomplished feeling!

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CCASKEY37 6/5/2012 6:28AM

    When I have the idon'twannas I feel silly if I can beat it and get that workout in. Only once it's done though. Also, isn't your trainer so right about lighting the fire. It's hard to get anything done if those idon'twannas get the better of you all the time.

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First race.... finished strong (with pics!)

Saturday, June 02, 2012

I ran my first race this morning. A 1 mile fun run. My trainer ran with me (does it GET any more supportive than that???). My husband and daughter were at the finish line to cheer me on.

Less than a month ago, I started Couch 2 5k. I could only jog 30 seconds at a time... and that was a stretch! Today I was doing up to 2:10 intervals!

I did my 1 mile in 18.36. Slow, but strong for me. In fact, that's 3 minutes off my normal time. My heart rate was up, but I felt like I got a work out. But this was HUGE for me mentally. I felt like a fraud waiting for the race. Those people were going to see me and realize I'm just a fat girl with no business being there! What a poser!

But no one was awful. No one was rude. And I had the support of 3 awesome people there for me. There were only medals for the first 3 finishers on the 1 mile, but my sweet husband and daughter made me one and presented to me! My husband helped her tie the knot, and buy a charm with feet on it. The fact that he supports me means the world!

Today's race wasn't far. It wasn't fast. It wasn't pretty. But it WAS completed, and completed strong. And it was the first of many. emoticon

Way there in the back.... that's us approaching the finish

Finishing strong while my 3 yr old screamed encouragement

Post race love

So sweet.

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OBIESMOM2 6/6/2012 3:50PM

A W E S O M E!!!

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FITANDFIFTY2 6/3/2012 1:08AM

    Congratulations!!! That is so wonderful!!! I am so very Excited for you!! You Did IT!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CCASKEY37 6/2/2012 9:15PM

    Good for you. Maybe some day, I might run. I'm starting to run out of excuses. (The last one is sore knees). It must feel awesome to have your family waiting for you at the end.

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2BFREE2LIVE 6/2/2012 3:21PM

    emoticonSo proud of you, what a trophy and a very supportive family. I wish I could have been there for you.
I am stuck on the West side of the state and seldom get to visit the Tri Cities any more.
Have a wonderful day with Hubby and that sweet little girl of yours. Sandy emoticon

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RITEEBEE 6/2/2012 3:10PM

    Awwww that's amazing!! So sweet of your husband and daughter!! Great job!!! Keep up the great work!!

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LDRICHEL 6/2/2012 3:06PM

    Sooooo proud of you!!!! Great job, mama!

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MENNOLY 6/2/2012 3:00PM

    emoticonThis was the first of many! emoticon

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ALLIEALLIE2 6/2/2012 2:35PM

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1EMMA2011 6/2/2012 2:12PM

    I feel so proud of you. This is one of the most inspirational blogs I've ever read on SP!! Congratulations!! Let's do this thing!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Thursday, May 31, 2012

Today I was driving to work, and noticed a house that was looking pretty sad. You know the type... the one house on the block with overgrown grass, weeds, peeling paint, and clutter around the house. Just looking neglected.

Now, let me preface this by saying... I have OCD and am a bit of a perfectionist. Even my 3 year old knows that if you see a weed outside, you pull it. That you pick up your toys before you go to bed. That dishes have to be done after the meal. I like a clean house. I want my home to be aesthetically pleasing.

And here's a little secret.... I tend to be judgmental about people living in those sad, neglected little houses. Are they lazy? Do they simply not care?

Today, as the thoughts ran rampant in my mind, I realized something. "My body is a house, and I have neglected it for years. My body has been that sad, neglected house and I sat back and did nothing to change it".

HOLY COW! Epiphany! Just as my OCD self can make a task list for anyone to clean up their home, I am working on a task list for my body! And it's JUST AS DOABLE!!!!! It's work to mow a lawn. But doable. It's work to paint a house. But it's doable.

Nearly 5 months ago, I put my health and body on "project status". I've been working hard, and seeing the results. I am no longer happy to sit back and neglect my body, as some sit back and neglect a house.

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DAREDEVILME 6/1/2012 9:37AM

    That sounds like great motivation to me!! What a great way of looking at it.
You go, girl!!

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CCASKEY37 6/1/2012 8:58AM

    I'm happy to hear you put such a positive spin on this. Thanks.

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TARAFROMTX1 5/31/2012 11:59PM

    I love it! Thanks for sharing!! I so know how you feel! I feel the same way! emoticon

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LDRICHEL 5/31/2012 6:45PM

    This is really great! I love to read this and see you having wonderful epiphanies like this!!! Go girl! You CAN do it!

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JULIEANNCAN 5/31/2012 5:11PM

    Thanks for sharing this! That was great insight!

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What everyone ELSE is doing....

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

That seems to be on my mind a lot lately. My dearest friend in this world has gone Vegan. Even further than that, she is following the Hallelujah diet, and eating mostly raw whole foods and juicing. She feels this is "the" way and wants me to start doing so as well.

Another good friend is eating Paleo, and is convinced that this is the best way to eat IN THE WORLD. She's convinced that I would see faster weight loss if I did this.

Another friend started with a vegetable cleanse, followed by eating a restricted Paleo diet. She's convinced that I need to do this.

Why on EARTH does everyone want to change what I'm doing? Really? This annoys me beyond words. To me, this has the same affect as people sabotaging you by trying to get you to splurge on that piece of pizza or cake. They are taking my focus off my game. And I resent it.

I'm beginning to grasp that this is our diet culture. Compare yourself to everyone else and make sure you're doing it "right". But guess what? I did diets everyone else's way for years and got no where. I did what other people thought was best and never stuck to it. Now I know why.

It was what THEY thought was best. Not what I thought was best.

This insults my intelligence that people try to sway me. I've lost 41# since the first of the year, not to mention the many, many pounds of muscle I have gained. I am doing this MY way... and it's working! Why mess with it?

Why try to get into my head? Why try to side track me? Why make me question myself?

I've been resentful of these friends the past few days. Today I realized that's silly. Because I have the power to ignore them. I have the power to decide what to do with my life and with my body. Only I can navigate my journey. I guess I just need to let my friend know (as politely as possible) that backseat driving is no longer allowed. emoticon

On a TOTAL side note.... we went to a bday party this weekend and my husband was snapping pictures. For the first time in YEARS he snapped a full body shot of me that I didn't delete immediately!

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OOLALA53 5/30/2012 2:40AM

    I don't know what plan you're using, but it doesn't sound like you need to go vegan or Paleo. Not many people do and these strategies rarely work in the long run. Don't know why your friends are trying to influence you. You're doing fine and you don't need to go faster. The real results won't show up for another two years. I bet you'll be ahead of the game.

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2BFREE2LIVE 5/30/2012 2:32AM

    Proud of you for sticking to your plan and not going on some new finagled diet. Your doing so well why would anyone question what our doing unless maybe they are a little jealous of your progress.
Maybe Hubby took your picture because he is so proud of your progress, your doing a wonderful job and congrats on the 40 pounds lost.
Keep up the great job. Sandy

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TARAFROMTX1 5/30/2012 12:09AM

    Amen to that!! I can totally understand what your saying. Do what works for you!! Keep up the awesome work! emoticon emoticon

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ANA2442 5/29/2012 11:41PM

    I enjoyed your blog. Good for you to stick with what works. I completely understand what you are saying also. While I am trying to eat right someone has a better way to lose weight, but usually its me going off and trying what they are doing. I like that you are sticking to your guns, being strong.

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LESLIELENORE 5/29/2012 11:20PM

    Yay for self determination! I have more trouble with people trying to make me eat things I am not hungry for, but I can see where you are coming from with your friends. Personally, I choose to eat what appeals to me in moderate portions. That works for me. If a particular diet appeals to someone else, then by all means they should follow it. Just my opinion of course. lol

BTW... I like the photo!

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