Thursday, March 22, 2012
I have been trying to hit 2.5 miles on the elliptical (set to interval) in 30 minutes. I have been gaining and increasing my distance, but just barely missed it by .01 miles on Tuesday.
So I decided on a new strategy yesterday. Rather than watching my mileage as I worked, I set it to watch my strides per minute (basically speed). I was really able to push myself harder! When my heart rate went too high, I simply slowed down slightly until it was in a better ranger, then sped back up.
I didn't check my distance until I was done.
And I blew my record out of the water! I went from 2.49 miles on Tuesday to 2.56 miles yesterday!
Lesson for self: Focus on the moment, not the destination.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Today my cell phone rang, and it was a girlfriend I don't see too often, but keep in contact with on FB. She said she wanted to call and say "Thank you" for inspiring her to get back to the gym and join her gym's 12 week challenge. This girl is NOT overweight! But in talking with her, I saw that she had been very unhappy with where she was and was struggling in her own way. She told me that my posts about the gym, trainer, and changes to my diet had motivated and inspired her to a return to fitness and nutrition. Her words.... "I figured that if you could do it and weren't making any excuses, then my excuses weren't any good.". WOW.
Yesterday an old friend from HS messaged me and told me a similar thing. Her weight is higher than she'd like, and she was inspired to join a gym and hit the elliptical... because of me sharing my journey. That is AMAZING!!!
A few weeks ago another HS friend emailed to tell me that what I'm sharing has motivated her to recommit to nutritious food and start running again.
This BLOWS ME AWAY! Here I am the LEAST likely example of health, being so overweight. I share my journey and make it public because it keeps me accountable, the encouragement I receive is needed, and it's just a part of my day to day life. To think that it is helping others thrills me! It makes me feel like maybe, JUST MAYBE, this part of my journey is happening for a reason. Maybe I'm part of God's plan to propel others towards their own health goals.
This completely made my day!
Saturday, March 17, 2012
It's been about 11 years since I changed my life. At 27 years old, and 420#, I was sick. Malignant hypertension, pre-diabetic, and living with constant and severe joint pain. My nearly 5'5" frame was so tired. I was eating myself to death.
I walked into a hospital in May, 2001, with a 30% chance of dieing on the table, and underwent a huge surgical procedure. My gallbladder had stopped working and needed to come out quickly. Due to my size, laproscopic surgery was out of the question. My surgeon and I talked about it, and decided to have a modified gastric bypass surgery done at the same time. They also repaired a severe hiatal hernia during the surgery. I coded on the table that day. By the grace of God, I woke in the ICU alive and feeling like I'd been hit by a train. But I felt like if God had seen fit to bring me thru the surgery, I would fight for my life. And I did.
My drivers license picture at about 410#
I lost 130# that first year. Another 55# came off over the following year. Then I hit a wall, and maintained at about 235# for about 6 years.
Then I got pregnant. Bedrest, heart complications, infection, etc took their toll on me. I never lost the babyweight, and gained about 45#. In the past 3 years since my daughter was born, I've gained another 25#. I think I, like a lot of people, thought that weight loss surgery would make weight gain impossible... the magical solution. Guess what? It's not! You can eat around it. Your stomach can stretch back. My choices were poor, and it showed on my body.
In January, the full impact of what I've allowed to happen has hit me. If I didn't make changes to my behavior, I would regain every single pound that I worked so hard to get off my body. I felt like I was letting God down... He'd spared my life in that operating room, and here I was working my way back into the same position.
On January 3rd, I joined a gym and pre-paid for 12 trainer appointments. Since then, I've burned an average of 3,000 calories per week, and maintained a healthy, well balanced, nutrition-focused diet. I have lost over 25#. (And my hubby has lost about 15#!) That first day in the gym, I nearly fell off the elliptical after 10 minutes. Today I kicked out 2.44 miles in 30 minutes. I feel strong. I feel like I am honoring the second change God gave me.
I HATE that I'm re-losing weight that I'd already worked hard to lose. But that is the consequence of my own behavior. What matters is now. What matters is the lesson that I have learned: apathy leads down the road I have once traveled.... illness, pain, and the threat of an early death. That is not the example I want to set for my child. I want her to grow up loving her body and taking care of it. I want her to feel beautiful because she's STRONG, not because she is skinny. I want to be a mommy she can be proud of. And when she lifts her little arms as I lift weights, I see that she is. In her eyes, I am the woman I want to become.
Last Saturday before going out for dinner with my girlfriends
So here is my new motto:
I've been starting over since childhood. I am done starting over. Therefore.... I can not give up. I will stumble, and I will fall. I will make poor decisions here and there. Celebrations and holidays will come and go. But I can not give up. When I fall, I will get back up. And go to the gym.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
In 10 weeks, 2 days, I have lost 25.4 pounds. I am extraordinarily proud of this. Not only did I lose that amount of weight, but I did it the RIGHT way. I KNOW that it was fat I lost, not muscle. How do I know? Because I have more muscle on me right now than at ANY time in my life. I did it eating plenty of healthy, nutritious food. I did by stepping outside my comfort zone 5-6 days a week and working out at a *gasp* gym... in front of other people! I put my journey on facebook... I'm done hiding. I'm doing this strong and PROUD.
I had a little break thru, as well. I am a total perfectionist. The classic Type A personality. To the point that I have struggled with OCD for about 20 years. (Yes... all the labels in my pantry face forward.) And I think I can finally admit a shameful truth to myself.... I think I would rather have failed at losing weight because I didn't try, than try and not be perfect at it.
But we're human! We aren't perfect! And losing weight doesn't require perfection. It requires consistency. I can't always do perfect. But I can do consistent. I can do this. I AM DOING THIS!
Also had a dr's appointment today... B12 and blood iron levels are bottomed out, as well as bone marrow stores of iron. Starting Rx iron and B12 injections and should have my levels up soon. Dr is otherwise completely supportive and on-board with my weight loss goals and plans.
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