Thursday, March 15, 2012
In 10 weeks, 2 days, I have lost 25.4 pounds. I am extraordinarily proud of this. Not only did I lose that amount of weight, but I did it the RIGHT way. I KNOW that it was fat I lost, not muscle. How do I know? Because I have more muscle on me right now than at ANY time in my life. I did it eating plenty of healthy, nutritious food. I did by stepping outside my comfort zone 5-6 days a week and working out at a *gasp* gym... in front of other people! I put my journey on facebook... I'm done hiding. I'm doing this strong and PROUD.
I had a little break thru, as well. I am a total perfectionist. The classic Type A personality. To the point that I have struggled with OCD for about 20 years. (Yes... all the labels in my pantry face forward.) And I think I can finally admit a shameful truth to myself.... I think I would rather have failed at losing weight because I didn't try, than try and not be perfect at it.
But we're human! We aren't perfect! And losing weight doesn't require perfection. It requires consistency. I can't always do perfect. But I can do consistent. I can do this. I AM DOING THIS!
Also had a dr's appointment today... B12 and blood iron levels are bottomed out, as well as bone marrow stores of iron. Starting Rx iron and B12 injections and should have my levels up soon. Dr is otherwise completely supportive and on-board with my weight loss goals and plans.
So, I finally get to use another one of these:
Saturday, March 10, 2012
I got my lab work results in the mail today. I'm not surprised to see that both my B12 levels and my iron levels are low.... I've been treated for pernicious anemia off and on for years. It also explains my dizzy spells. Hopefully resuming medication therapy will help. I'm actually relieved to see that's what it is, and not related to my activity level or diet.
I also chuckled to see that my cholesterol is 108, Triglycerides were 58, and LDL 53. I may be obese, but cholesterol numbers simply don't get much better than that!
This morning we went to a community event with a bbq and bouncy house. My daughter was having a BLAST on the bouncy house. I told her she could go down the bouncy slide one last time before we left. After 2 hours of incident free playing, her last slide ended with an awkward bounce that tossed her right off. She landed on her head on the asphalt. Screams, tears, and blood everywhere. Thankfully the cut wasn't bad enough to require stitches once we got the bleeding the stop. But it scared years off my life! However, my little princess was screaming and crying MUCH more in anger over mommy not letting her back into the bouncy house than over the cut. She was, however, pleased that her pathetic little pout earned her candy from two random strangers who saw the accident happen. To a 3 year old, a lollipop solves nearly all problems... even a bump and cut to the head.
Food wise, I did great at the event. Took one tiny bit of my daughter's cotton candy and found it overly sweet and not at all appealing. Passed on the buttery popcorn. I did have a cup of diet coke and one bbq'd hot dog. It was absolutely delicious and I enjoyed every single calorie. Then came home and logged it. Tonight is Mom's Night Out with friends. My plan is to order a large salad and bring my own dressing.
Thursday, March 08, 2012
What. A. Week. SO THANKFUL today is my Friday.
There are some financial stressors / job issues coming up for us. And my job this week encompassed the fall out of a murder on Tuesday (I'm a mental health case manager). I have been overwhelmed and over-stressed.
On the positive side, I've kept at or slightly under my calorie range all week. I've burned about 5,000 calories this week between work outs and 5 hours of painting my house.
I'd like to say that is a guaranteed loss coming up, but I know that stress has a powerful impact on weight loss. I DO know that I gave this week 110%. I am drained emotionally and physically. Tomorrow my daughter has off from preschool, and it's my day off from work. So I'm taking a rest day from the gym to do something FUN with my girl. Maybe go to the park and play or feed the ducks. I desperately need that.
I worked out with my trainer tonight and she kicked. my. BUTT! Had me boxing, lifting, and doing wall squats until my arms and legs were shaking. She was laughing at me tho when I was boxing and my pants kept slipping down. She is so quick to remind me to ignore the scale and focus on the changes to my body... they are numerous right now. I also spoke with her about the real possibility of no longer being able to afford seeing her. I have 6 more sessions pre-paid, and then we will take it from there.
"For I know the plans I have for you", says the Lord........ that keeps running thru my head. I believe it. I just need to learn to rest in it.
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
That was my work out yesterday. I. AM. SORE!!!!
I wasn't PLANNING to paint my dining/living rooms, but the stars aligned so I was dog & child free for the afternoon, with no clients booked, so I dove right in. But I am so sore today!!! Up and Down the step ladder a thousand times, rolling the paint roller... yep, it was a work out.
Wish I could log fitness minutes for that! Too bad "painting" wasn't in the fitness minute database, lol
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