Thursday, February 09, 2012
1) I have returned and tuned in
2) Doing better at taking my vitamins...still am
2) Back to the gym >2x per week....yes 1 to 2
3) Found that yoga pigeon type poses and pyramid really helped my knees and hips and practicing at home a few times.
4) Learned I still get overconfident: when I begin to lose wt., I relax my resolve and give in. Or it could be that I really am ok where I am at....perhaps do not have a real resolve, but only a "keep it in check, but not really to lose...to go the DISTANCE with ENDURANCE an PERSEVERANCE.
CAN I RESOLVE THIS IN MY MIND THAT I AM WILLING (LOOKING FORWARD TO THE CHALLENGE, PREPARED, ARMOURED, AND WITH FULL CONSENT TO SAY, BRING IT ON!!!! TO DO IT WHEN IT HURTS, IS UNCOMFORTABLE, INCONVENIENT AND FEEL I DESERVE IT?? TO MAKE MY MIND MIND. WHEN THE THOUGHTS COME, TO SAY NO. AND MOVE ON TO THE NEXT MOST HEALTHY THING (REST, DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE WITH MY HANDS, LEAVE THE TRIGGER AREA, WHATEVER!)
FACE IT, EMOTIONS, HORMONES, TIREDNESS, NEED FOR REWARD/ DESERVE IT THINKING, AND OLD HABITS HAVE TO BE CHALLENGED, DEALT WITH, WITH A FIRM RESOLVE!~OVERCOME.
KNOW, MY FRIEND, THAT THE ISSUE WILL NOT RESOLVE ITSELF. IT WILL NOT JUST GO POOF AND DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR. (I AM 55 AND IT HAS BEEN WITH ME ALL MY LIFE). IT IS ACTIVE, FORWARD PREPAREDNESS, DISCIPLINE AND WISDOM TO CONQUER~~OVERCOME. YOU CANNOT OVERCOME IF YOU DO NOT HAVE SOMETHING TO OVERCOME. YOU CANNOT BE LAZY ABOUT IT, YOU CANNOT LAY IT DOWN OR FORGET IT. IT HAS TO BE MOMENT TO MOMENT, DAY BY DAY, WEEK BY WEEK AND MONTH BY MONTH~~~LOSE IT AND LIFETIME IT. DEAL WITH THE WEIGHT THAT MAKES YOU HURT AND FEEL BAD~~~FEEL GOOD AND MAINTAIN IT BY NEVER~NO NEVER~ALLOWING IT TO OVERCOME YOU AGAIN. NO DEALS, NO COMPROMISES. JUST HEALTH AND YOUR BODY THAT SUPPORTS YOU AND YOUR WONDERFUL MIND AND ALL THE THINGS YOU DO FOR OTHERS EVERYDAY. I NEED YOU, BODY TO BE HEALTHY AND TO DO AND BE ALL THAT I WAS CREATED TO DO, USING MY INDIVIDUAL GIFTS AND PURPOSE TO MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE AROUND ME AND MY CIRCLE OF INFLUENCE. BY GODS GRACE, AND THE SUPPORT OF YOU ALL, AND A FIRM RESOLVE TO CHALLENGE THIS OBSTACLE, I MAKE THE DECISION TO OVERCOME IT AND KEEP MYSELF FROM IT FOR EVER AFTER.
PS. I WILL NOT USE THE WRONG THINKING OF, WHEN THIS HAPPENS I WILL DO THIS OR THAT (LIVE). I CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH JOY AND DISCIPLINE, HAND IN HAND. THIS WEIGHT IS CHALLENGED, I WILL PREPARE, AND I WILL NOT THINK THAT I WILL LIVE MY LIFE ONLY AFTER IT IS ACCOMPLISHED.
LIVE NOW....CONQUER NOW...BUT DO NOT BE DECEIVED....VOW AND DECIDE TO DO IT AND STICK TO IT, MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE~!
5) Sweets beget sweets~ really. I eat em, and then I crave em. Once I give myself permission to splurge (just 1x) it "opens the door" and I find myself on wet ice trying to maintain my resolve.
~~eat healthy snacks and have them available (be areful, event these can be opportunities to binge
~~prepare for the week and weekends. PREPARE!!!! You do not do batte without a plan of actions an ammo!!
WRITE EVERY NITE
STICK TO 1500
Sunday, January 15, 2012
I will rate my weekend from 1-5....3
NOTE FOR NEXT WEEK: PLAN!!!!!!
PLANNING IS IMPORTANT DURING TIMES THAT ARE MOST DIFFICULT. WEEKENDS AND NITES.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Weekends are where we get the "end of the week" exam. Will you pass? I almost gave in to the temptation of buying Klondike bars during my Fri nite grocery run, and believing I was strong enough to eat just one. I have believed that before and consumed all of them by Monday. But I don't want to restrict myself totally, and then perhaps becoming deprived and succumbing in weakness one day with a binge. So, I got a box of Lugi lemon ice/strawberry ice (cups). They are not as tempting as the chocolate. I gave myself the exam of allowing myself a small indulgence with self control. If I can have these around and not over do it~~ If I pass this type of exam for a few weekends, then, and only then will I put myself thru the real hard test. I may never be able to have Klondike bars in my freezer over a weekend, but I will know for sure...and accept it if it is so. I know myself well enough and know I listened to that lie (then bought the bars, ate them all weekend, and felt terrible about myself!) I will do what i have to do to resist all temptations, small and large, and live the lifestyle of healthy, balanced eating.
It sounds silly to me, in a way to say these things. Many people would say, my gosh, it is only food!! What is the big deal? But it is a stonghold that has overpowered me time and time again all my life. When emotions stir and make me sad, food makes it all better for the moment. That is the sad truth, but as with any problem, or addiction, or stronghold, the number 1 step is acceptance and identification of the problem, and then strategically releasing it's grip on you and your grip on it. Sometimes we just do not want to let go. I read once about people who stay in bad relationships too long or similar ruts. One reason why, is because ruts are comfortable and natural feeling. Getting out of the rut feels abnormal, scary and uncomfortable, but it is necessary to overcome the problem.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
I was glad that I had reinforced a healthy attitude toward food, to my co-workers when I received a compliment about how good my salad looked. It was scrumptious! I got it at a loca grocery store that sold salad by the pound. When I used to buy this salad, I only extracted from it the lightest items...however, this time I got exactly what I wanted, even though it was $5.99 a pound. I got alot of good greens, favorite selections, then topped it off with some great chunks of turkey! YUM. And I was so satisfied~did not get hungry in between meals, either.
That was yesterday.
Today was a bit stressful at work, and I found my mind wander to the comfort of food. Funny, though, when I shewed the thought away, another craving came up! So like the "flesh"! The spoiled baby inside of me does not want to give up easy. That baby will jump to another bad habit...of some kind of self indulgence....if food is forbidden! (Not that shopping would be bad, but I identified the indulgent self satisfying craving to consume something for the appetite!)
That is my purpose of the blog. To tell myself the TRUTH, and to make choices that I truly want for myself~not those I will regret later~those kind that make me feel bad about me~and the choices I made.
On the contrary, I feel pretty good about the good choices, even though it has only been 3 days. I am fully aware of becoming over confident. Just today, I thought it would not hurt to have a "small" frosty from Wendy's, since I have been doing so good.
ARG~the mind is crafty!! But the truth is, cutting out those little things that "do not really matter" will not permit a drop in weight.
I like this blogging thing. Today, I thought what I would write to myself (and anyone else who reads) when I was tempted. That kept me on track...accountable to me....and attentive to my goal and focus. Have a good nite's rest.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
ATTENDING TODAY BROUGHT FORTH MY EFFORT. THERE WERE ABOUT 5 CHALLENGES THIS EVENING, WHEN THE CRAVING THOUGHT CAME TO MIND TO GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND SEE WHAT I COULD FIND.......BUT EACH TIME I DID NOT SUCCUMB. THAT WAS THE EFFORT. IT FELT COMPLETELY UNNATURAL TO TELL MYSELF NO. AN OLD PROVERB GOES LIKE THIS: A CROW MAY LAND ON YOUR HEAD, BUT YOU DO NOT HAVE TO ALLOW HIM TO BUILD A NEST THERE! SO, SHEW AWAY. HE WILL PROBABLY COME BACK AGAIN, USUALLY IN THE EVENINGS. I WILL HAVE TO SHEW HIM AWAY UNTIL IT BECOMES NATURAL NOT TO BE A STOOPING POST FOR BOTHERSOME CROWS! IT IS LIKE A CONTEST~COUNT THE NUMBER OF TIMES YOU HAVE TO SHEW IT AWAY.
I HAVE SOME ARUGULA (DARK GREENS) CONVENIENTLY BAGGED AND BOUGHT. TOMORROW THEY WILL BE THE MAIN PART OF ONE OF MY MEALS. NITE.
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