Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Losing weight has been the greatest thing that I have ever accomplished. In my 20's and 250 pounds I was a lost helpless soul and everything and gave me anxiety. Social situations were a struggle to get through. I loved going to the movies because it was the only place I felt comfortable being as I was. I avoided friends, family gatherings, and sadly even taking family pictures. I was on the sidelines watching my son and husband be an active family without me. One day I became tired of feeling depressed, withdrawn, and caught up in the negative thoughts that paralyzed me. In 2002 I moved to Arizona away from family and friends. I felt anonymous and free to live my life without the fear of judgements. A few months after adjusting to my new life I decided I'd join a gym and put my 2 year old in their childcare. It became our everyday routine to drop off my oldest at school and head to the gym. The weight started to come off with my regular workouts and my low carb diet. Today, 8 years later I'm still working on keeping it off and reaching my new set goals. I dumped the low carb lifestyle and struggled for a while until I found my Spark. Everyday that goes by I learn something new about what I am capable of doing and it's been and amazing journey towards loving who I am as a mother, wife, and now athlete. Lately i've been on a plateau and I've become too comfortable with it, but it is time to break through and go full speed ahead. I am refocused and ready to finish what I started.