Sunday, April 15, 2012
So, since November 22nd, 2011 I have lost 25 pounds (so 35 pounds total from heaviest ever seen on the scale)
Here's some progress pictures
The eye-opener for me was in the first set of three pictures....I have a belly button!!
Sunday, March 04, 2012
However, I've gone scale obsessive making sure I stay under 250...so hubby has hidden it so I only weigh in once every week or so and stop driving myself insane! It's nice to just focus on my food, my fitness, and my physical body instead of alllllways thinking about the physical numbers.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
The first picture was taken May 29th, 2011, and the second picture was taken today, February 21st, 2012 (30 pounds difference)
Hoping it'll fit by fall 2013 (and that we'll have enough money for the wedding!!!)
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
It's been quite a while since I've been on the site on a regular basis. Thankfully I have the SparkPeople app on my cell phone, so for the most part, I have been tracking just about every day - though I really do miss spinning the wheel every day, and checking in on many people! It's just not the same without the regular contacts!
Things have been extremely busy on my end with work, school, and life.
My last blog was quite a downer with having found out that my grandmother had been diagnosed with her third cancer, while my grandfather was also struggling with cancer at the same time. Thankfully things seem to be progressing well with her new chemotherapy, and her spirits are up with plenty of optimism. I can't believe how much faith and positive outlook that she has on life. I want to make her proud by really taking hold of my health. I hope so badly for her to do a double take next time she sees me!! (she lives in New Brunswick, while I live in Quebec...so I probably won't see her till at the earliest in the summer!!)
Things at work are slowly settling down finally, however I had a pretty rough couple of weeks with having to let go of two of my girls whose availabilities were so limited. Now that I have hired a new girl with much better availabilities, and that we are a team of 4 girls, I think things will calm down and we'll get into a pretty good schedule. Can't wait till after May so that I can take some vacation!!! :S
In more exciting news - I am .6 of a pound away from being at 250 pounds!! That would mean a total of 30 pounds lost since the biggest number I have ever seen on the scale. I can't at all remember the last time that I was at 250 pounds! I am curious to try to look back in the past somehow and see if I can't see how much I weighed 4-5 years ago when I met my fiance.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I have turned to writing a blog tonight as I have just gone through a pretty bad bout of anxiety and don't think that I will be able to sleep anytime soon. My apologies as this most likely turns into a rant...
You know how you always think that the new year will bring all sorts of good things? It's the time to start over, to make all your bad habits turn into good ones, to commit to being healthy, to choose better careers paths, etc etc...
Well I thought that this year would be just that too...except that it seems as though I have been blown by one thing after the other since the year began.
I am proud to say that I have successfully began losing weight and getting healthy. I am especially proud that I didn't actually wait for the new year to begin this journey (I got on the wagon early November)
However, besides my weight loss, everything else around me seems to be crumbling to nothingless. For instance...
I have been studying in University for yeeeears. What should be a 4 year program (Bachelor of Education with a specialization in Teaching English as a Second Language) will have eventually taken me like 7 years because I have no choice but to work full time to support myself and my fiance. My fiance has been doing odd jobs for the past couple of years trying to find his path, but meanwhile it has meant that he works about 25 hours a week. While I am happy to support him emotionally (and financially for a bit part) at times I wish I could just scream "when is it my turn??" I so badly want to just finish school, but until he has a stable full time job, I cannot drop my hours at work.
I have a huge amount of pressure at work too. I am a manager at a retail shop. I have been working for the same company for about 3 years now, and this past Christmas was particularly brutal. Our numbers aren't coming even close to last year's numbers, and so there was a lot of stress and pressure being put on us to figure out how to get our performances up. After the holidays, our head office significantly cut our hours in order to regain some of their $ shortfall. Today, over a conference call, all of the managers in Quebec found out that 36 people from head office had been layed off. Above me are district managers, and above the district managers are regional managers...apparently every single regional manager has been layed off. This is so shocking and makes us feel as though we have absolutely no job security (especially those of us running the smaller stores, like myself since those stores would most likely be the first to go if it comes down to closing stores to save more money as well) This has make me feel so stressed with our already tight financial situation.
To round it all off, my grandmother, who finished her chemo treatments in November for her second round of cancer (first one was ovarian, second one was intestinal) went to her doctors visit, anticipating that all indications of cancer was gone. However, we found out Monday that it has returned, now in her peritoneum (at 3 different areas of her abdomen). She begins another series of treatments next coming Monday that will last 6-8 months.
I guess I'm just feeling kind of deflated tonight...don't really know what to do or where to turn. I'm trying so badly to try alternatives to going into a deep anxiety. At times when anxiety kicks in it gets so bad that I hyperventilate until I get physically sick, or at times even pass out.. suppose I'll soak in a hot bath and try to sleep as soon as I can.
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