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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Hey! Just wanted to let everyone know that I have started my own blog page...well, it's for the Lord, but He's got me doin' all the leg work emoticon!

I'm hoping to inspire anyone who may read it, to find joy no matter the situation AND be good to others. And ya know what, if no one ever reads it or gets anything from it, that's ok because I sure am learning a lot about myself and keeping my own attitude in check during the process!

I hope you'll check it out when you have a minute!


Still the BIG girl.......

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 that's my big, flat butt in the blue shirt above......59 pounds down, but still the "Big Girl". I feel so my house! Then I step into the outside world and my big ol bubble of shiny new self esteem POPS as soon as I see....well, anyone!

I'm 5'7 and what some would call 'big boned'. I have broad shoulders, big hands and wide feet (for a women). I have wide hips and apparently a rather large noggin according to hubby {LOL, ya had to be there}! So now that we've established that I'm not exactly the daintiest of chicks, let's move on.

I'm actually wearing a solid size 8 pants/jeans and medium shirts fit comfy and sometimes big (depends on the brand, you know how that is). In skirts and dresses, I am wearing a SIZE 6.....did you hear that? A SIZE 6!!!!! Sorry, I get a little excited sometimes ~ I have never in my life been able to wear a size 6! ANYWAY! I weigh less than I did in high school and I feel fabulous. But over the last few weeks during some get-togethers and outings with friends I realized that I am still an Amazon women next to the average person....even men these days! They're all short and scrawny offense to those of you who may be male......short.....and/or scrawny..... emoticon. My husband is 6'1, 210 lbs so I can definitely have a "feelin' small moment" whenever he's around! I've always know that I would never be petite no matter how much weight I lost, but I didn't expect to still feel like a behemoth when I'm hangin' out with the playgroup moms!

I guess I just needed to whine about it for a minute, cuz as I'm typing, I'm realizing how silly I must sound! I really am grateful for how far the Lord has brought me on this journey. And I know God carefully thought out every detail of me inside and out. He made me just who I am for a purpose, and I would NEVER question His reasoning. GOD DON'T MAKE MISTAKES!!! I just hope that my son grows up to be 6'2 and 250 lbs so that, even if nowhere else in the world, I can continue to feel 'small' at home! emoticon

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HARMONYDUBOIS 8/9/2009 10:36AM

    Ok,I am so upset with you right now. You're in a size 8 pants, size 6 skirt and a medium top. Forgive me for not seeing the problem. I am in a size 16, that's slowly falling off of me, extra large top, and 16 skirt....oh and I'm 5'3
I'm trying o get where you are...ok not quite,, I'll be happy at a size 10, and med top.
By the husband says I have a big head
Listen, you're fine, you've worked hard, and you have seen the results of your hard labor. Be thankful, because you look good, and you'e an inspiration

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CT1954 6/18/2009 5:34PM

    Ok, I don't see the problem. That picture of you in your wedding dress is so fabulous. And please, Joija, a size 6? What are you talking about. I'm glad you came to your senses cause girl I was starting to be afraid for you and how you was talking. I am 5'4'' and have been since I was in the 6th grade, am the oldest daughter in a family of 7 kids and the shortest of the whole lot of us and was and still am the biggest of the lot. So I kinda understand but on the other end of the spectrum. But, let me tell you, at a size 6, you are not the big girl in or our of your home. You are an inspiration & motivation to me.


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WILLIEMANDOWA 6/16/2009 7:46AM

    im looking at your before and after pictures I do not understand how you can be frustrated with yourself you look great it seems like you have come a long way from where you started, just give it some time your already on your way to a great body I dont know what type of workout your doing but you might want to incorporate some more weight training into your workouts

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MAV1729 6/16/2009 6:08AM

    Joshyln your a hoot!!!.....ok I am 5' 9.5......I am shrinking with age....I used to be 5'11 in high school and Im sure that makes me in the short and scrawny catagory......BUT!!!!!...Im glad you todl us about God doesent make mistakes!!! because you were giving me a complex!!!! oh btw!!! if I was at the same park as in ht e would hear......."HEY YOU IN THE BLUE SHIRT!!!!! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!"(insert wolf whistle here)......You know if we ever get a chance to meet Im gonna bop your bobble head self!!!......Have a great trip my friend!!!

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Control Freak!

Friday, June 05, 2009

I was reading Zechariah today and I came across this verse in chapter 4......
v6"..........'NOT BY MIGHT NOR BY POWER, BUT BY MY SPIRIT,' says the Lord Almighty."

I think this should be kept at the forefront of our minds EVERYDAY! It's in our sinful nature that we go about our day trying to do it all.....ALONE. Have you ever got into bed at night with a deep sigh of relief because now you can finally rest then suddenly realize that you barely spoke to the Lord all day, and you certainly didn't consult Him on any of the decisions you made? No? Just me? This happens to me waaaay more than I'm comfortable admitting! I'm constantly trying to do everything by myself - never giving thought as to what the Lord would have me do - as if I'm in control and like I know what's best!

Well, I am challenging myself to wake up every morning and just hand EVERY detail of my day over to God, come what may. From what to say to my husband when I trip over his shoes in the middle of the kitchen floor to how to share His love with the woman who just backed into my car in the parking lot. If I'm going to proclaim that Christ is the ruler of my life, I have to let Him shine through every nook and cranny.....ALL THE TIME! I can't pick and chose when I want Him present. I can't only call on Him when I have a problem. I need to be able to see His Spirit in ALL things, events.........and people. I want to thank God that I got stuck at a train crossing for 15 minutes this evening - who knows what He stopped me from encountering by allowing that Sunday drivin' old guy in the Buick LaSabre to cut me off at that last intersection? emoticon God uses EVERYTHING for His good - I want to embrace that AND live that!

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NYCOLA44 6/12/2009 2:52PM

    Awesome blog, I find myself often either being to busy to recognize these things or scheduleing it in to my planner... thanks for reminding us to let God lead us but most importantly making time and in all things consulting him. I needed to hear this.

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CT1954 6/6/2009 12:46PM

    I'm with you wholeheartedly Joshulyn. God deserves our praise and thanks throughout the day. His mercies are renewed every morning so our praise and thanks should be too. When I rise in the morning I have no doubt whe kept me while I slept and slumbered so I give time to the Lord. When I lay down at night I know who kept me form all harm and danger so I give time to the Lord. You go girl!
Embrace it and Live it!

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MAV1729 6/5/2009 4:03PM

    Great blog Joshyln.....God is always taking care of us ....guiding us.......steering us in the right direction....but I must say that your not the only one at the end of the day that there was no conversation between me and God.........but guess what????.....he is still there!!! always ready to listen.....and tell us things .....we may not like what he has to say sometimes!!....but we still need to listen and obey......miss you girl.....just havent been on this thing that much....but I am very proud of you for reading your go girl!!

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Alone in a room......with cookie dough!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Last night I indulged in one of my usual late night snacks. I had a scoop of fat free chocolate ice cream garnished with blueberries. While I realize "fat free" doesn't mean healthy, consider this to be a far better choice than those of my past! I leave room everyday for some kind of tasty treat in the evening. I NEED to really enjoy those few moments at the end of the day when the kid is in bed, my husband is not yet home from work and everything on the 'to-do' list has been completed. The key, for me, has been to change my idea of snack. Before SP, I would have eaten anything in any amount as long as it tasted good! Now, I look forward to a bowl of mixed berries with fat free Cool Whip and some green tea for dessert. I have to say (knowing the junk food junkie I once was) I am very proud of myself for making this particular change to my lifestyle.

After my snack and some "me time", my husband called to let me know he was on his way home from work and thinking nothing of it, he asked me if I could bake him some cookies to go with the Ben & Jerry's he just picked up........WHAT???!...WHY?!....HOW?! "Sure", I replied in my happy housewife voice. So I head to the kitchen and begin to cut the cookie dough. And then it happened.....a chocolate chip fell off the spoon and I ate it! Then some of the dough kinda crumbled onto the counter........I ate that too. IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!! I quickly put the 4 requested cookies on the cookie sheet and shut the oven. I wrapped up the dough....then I unwrapped it and ate 4 spoonfuls as if it were cereal....just like that. I felt so terrible! Did that really just happen? How could I loose control that easily? I wasn't hungry. I wasn't craving anything. I just ate it because it was there and it tasted good. I'm almost 8 months in on this Spark thing and I thought I had it all together. But if I can spiral out of control that easily, have I really changed? Can I really keep this weight off?

All I can say for sure is that big ol' log of cookie dough is still calling my name from the refrigerator and I don't know if I'm Sparked enough to resist!

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CT1954 5/11/2009 2:48PM

    I am LOL because this sounds so familiar. I got ambushed by some cookies this weekend too: banana nut chocolate chip pillow tops and german chocolate cake, MMM MMM were they good. We are going to have those week moments I guess. Now it will be easier to resist cause we will hopefully remember this time and remember the re work we had to do to undo what the cookies and the cake did. I'm back on track today though and I know you are too. Best wishes to you to stay focuse and on track.

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ASH41749 5/11/2009 9:12AM

    This blog really made me laugh! In all seriousness though, it happens. Just pick yourself up and look straight ahead.

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CATKEEPER 5/10/2009 3:19AM

    It happens sometimes - don't beat yourself up over it! Just move that dough log to the freezer or somewhere that it won't be so tempting... and make amends tomorrow. Happy Mother's Day to you, and best wishes!
BTW - the writer is coming out in you already...

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God is GREAT, God is GOOD!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Today was a GREAT day!! We've been living in Atlanta for about 7 months now. Before we left Philly, I was so intent on finding a new church home right away, but for some reason when we got down here, that fire died out quickly. Something in my soul just made me content with waiting.....for what?....I dunno. I did, however, have a very specific list of requirements in no particular order!

1 - Must be a reasonable distance so that as I became more involve, I wouldn't have to drive 45 minutes each way 4 times a week!

2 - Must have an awesome children's ministry. I want my son grounded in The Word before he came even speak in full sentences!

3 - No weekly fashion show! I'm tired of feeling like I don't fit in (in church no less) because I don't have on all the latest trends. I want to put some jeans and a nice shirt on go to church for the Lord!

4 - A multicultural church setting is very important to me.

5 - I wanted it to be big, but not so big, I would disappear and not so small that everyone is in everyone else's business!

6 - I preferred a non-denominational church.

7 - And well, I just wanted to feel God's presence.

I really was not keen on the idea of church hoppin' so I was ok watching church on tv! Then, out of the blue last week, I saw a commercial for a church in a nearby town that I had never even heard of. When I saw that commercial......I teared up....and not just because they have a Saturday evening service so I won't have to get up early on Sunday! I immediately went to the website and watched a few of the sermons online. I liked what I saw, and I really felt God nudging me in that direction. Now, if you know me at all, you know, I am not the one to run out and willingly try new things; I keep to myself (very much a homebody); and extremely anti-social in social settings. So the idea of walking into this church by myself was absolutely horrifying to me! But today....I woke up excited! We got ready and actually left the house ON TIME (this NEVER happens)! I prayed the whole way there that my son would 'let' me leave him in the kids room. Since I am blessed to be able to stay at home with Noah, he doesn't take to easily to new folks.

I'm originally a small town girl and the church we went to in Philly was pretty small and had a lot of older people so I'm not really sure what to expect. We get there (in 18 minutes btw!), and this church is beautiful.....but it has like 36 entrances and I have no idea where to go! But as soon as I stepped out of the car, this guy pulls up in a darn golf cart....."need a ride?"....."ppppssshhh, yeah!" I said! He takes me directly where I need to be...the 'Kids Warehouse' - this is the children's WING of the church which has a different (GIANT) room for each age range. First we have to have these identity match stickers placed on both Noah and me so that no one can walk off with your kid......WOW! Never seen anything like it! Then we're escorted to the proper room and as soon as I let go of his hand, Noah takes off leaving me in his dust! I quietly slipped away off to the sanctuary, but not before passing the 'Café' where coffee, smoothies and all kinds of goodies are made. The service....I'm sorry, the "worship experience" began with an AWESOME praise and worship team and continued on to the sermon.....which I could view directly on the....STAGE.....or from one of the 2 almost theater sized monitors on either side. The message was compelling.

I totally thought it was gonna be a mega church disaster....but I didn't get that at all. The people were kind, but not overbearing and most importantly, they were there to worship our God. The Lord heard EVERY SINGLE request - He gave me exactly what I was looking for.

I laughed. I cried. I worshipped. I learned. I was encouraged. I will be going back to The Church at Chapel Hill.

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CT1954 4/29/2009 8:03PM

    Just stopped by to see how you're doing and from the sound of this blog you are doing great! Yes GOD is GREAT and GOOD and AMAZING!! Sounds like the kind of a fine church to make your spiritual home in.


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MAV1729 4/18/2009 11:39PM

!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LIKE DOING CARTWHEELS OVER HERE FOR YOU JOSHYLN!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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KYMBERHUE 4/18/2009 11:32PM

    Congratulations on finding such a great place to worship. It sounds very similar to the new church home my family has found here in Washington! God IS truly great!!

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