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Vent: Fat & Hopeless

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

So this blog is going to be a complete vent…fair warning.

This weekend I did horrible, eating wise. I really need to start tracking on the weekends. I say that all the time and it never happens but this is different. I can feel my weight slowly creeping up to me. I weighed myself on Monday at school (clothes and all) and I am embarrassed to say, I was 166. Ouch! That is a far cry from the 151 I was before Christmas. It is sooo easy to gain this weight back and I am not going to let myself do it. Therefore, something needs to be done. I usually allow myself a little cheat room on the weekends, since I have my niece (she is 3) and we go out to breakfast or lunch, sometimes we bake, etc. This past weekend we made cupcakes and she loves cinnamon buns so I made them too. I can’t keep buying them. She takes a bite, and I eat the rest?! What the heck is wrong with me?!! I seriously probably ate 4 on Saturday and 4 on Sunday. Not cool. My work pants were MUCH tighter when I put them on yesterday and I was not pleased. I usually allow myself ‘off’ from the gym on the weekends but maybe that shouldn’t be the case. I wish it would freakin’ warm up soon so I could go hiking, running and do more outside. This weather is cold and depressing. It’s April so I am going to keep the faith and hopefully get off these 16 pounds by June. I will more than happy at 150. ;) Anybody have any strategies/tips they use on their non-scheduled time? Monday-Friday I am sooo good, eating, exercising and tracking. But once Saturday rolls around, I think it is a free for all! Blah!

Well sorry to be such a Negative Nancy….hope everyone has a good week and mine gets better! xoxox

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*ERICA* 4/4/2012 1:58PM

    If you like baking, maybe you can bake with her, then take it to a nursing home or someone that is sick and share them. it gets you and the baked goods out of your house. and active. i find when i'm busy, i'm not snacking or thinking about food. hoepfully that helps. you will be back at 150 before you know it ;) and i'm in the same boat...10 pounds since thanksgiving...and its killign me!!! but slow and steady.

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RAINBOWCHOC 4/4/2012 4:05AM

    by blogging and asking for help you have started to make the necessary changes. I think people have put some great suggestions out there for you. My own view is fairly simple, while I do take detours from the healthy path I don't have the "I've blown it" mentality which keeps me eating badly. If I have a curry/chinese or something similar I have a meat free day to follow which tends to be in my lower range but I'm not starving myself.
Don't forget to drink the water!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/3/2012 1:49PM

    oh Veronica! Love the idea! Shes got a great idea here!! i am the same with you gal! lets do this! emoticon

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IGNAZIA 4/3/2012 1:25PM

    EGALITAIRE has great advice.

Here's my take (after years of what you just described) I have a duty/obligation to teach the littles in my life how to be healthy. If I don't who will? So yes I make cookies with my littles, but I teach my littles about fruits/veggies they may not be familiar with, blueberries, strawberries, sweet potatoes, pineapple (plant the top see if it grows), avocado, plant the seed, etc. Kids are conditioned to "hate" vegetables, but sometimes just trying a bite of something exotic, like a kiwi or a cherry, or a green bean cooked a special way, makes them realize that there is a world of good things out there.

I am teaching my littles how to garden (at 2 and 4) (my grandpa and my dad taught me) and I always have fun healthy treats, rasiens, small squeezy applesauces, that sort of thing.

As a society we have been conditioned to think food= love. Why does a nice healthy breakfast at home and a walk not equal love? Or get a fun kid dance/yoga/movement video and do that with your niece? We went to the school playground one day and played on the swings, monkey bars, etc, and that was a fun day, we have made bubbles, painted, and done artsy things. All burn calories but are just fun.

We wash the dogs, and play in a kiddie pool, go for walks and look for flowers and bugs. I have the fondest memories of my grandparents, and some involve food, but most involve the time they spent with me, walking in the woods, walking on the farm, playing board games.

With my kids, and now my kids kids, I believe that good nutrition=love, to have them be healthy and strong is a good thing.

And it wasn't until I decided that weekends count, did I really see a forward momentum in my weight loss. It's a treat to wear shorts and look great, and someday when your niece takes a walk with her niece, she will think of you and the time you spent with her.

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CECE0330 4/3/2012 1:10PM

    I am COMPLETELY in the same boat, and sadly have been for years. I do great Mon-Fri but when the weekends come? Oy. I don't set out to eat bad, but I get this mentality of: Well, I worked out 10 hours this week, I can eat what I want today. And the next. I weighed myself this morning, and have gone up over my "panic" weight of 145 (I used to be 215, so this is not a silly number I pulled at random....I told myself as long as I can stay under 145 I won't freak out about being over my goal weight, or up from the 138-139 I reached last year). Anywho, I was 147.4 this morning. Catastrophic in and of itself? No. Again, I've been 215 (Well, more really, since I hit about 260 when I was pregnant. Ouch). But I'm scared because like you said: THE WEIGHT CAN PILE ON SO EASY!!! I swear before when I went from 174-204, it felt like it happened in a month. I don't want to slack off and Whoops, see that i'm up even MORE in a month.


Anywho. I don't have any great advice, other than I plan to really focus on logging and eating SMART (no more eating out for a while) and not using my intense workouts as excuse to slip. You're not alone! We can stop this and get back to that happy place! emoticon

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    Weekends are rough, and I have had a rough time staying on track on the weekends. The weekends are fun and our day off so I would see it as cheat days. But really when we have cheat days all we do is cheat ourselves :( Use the weekends to do some form of exercises, try new healthy recipes, keep yourself busy, that might help.
Allf of us have tough times, but I know that you can overcome this :)

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BANDMOM2012 4/3/2012 12:29PM

    I really like what VERONICAVW_140 shared. Having a cheat day can do a significant amount of damage to your day, a cheat meal, however, enforces your control over your eating.

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STSCOTT11 4/3/2012 12:10PM

    We all go through this...I went through it and still go through it periodically.
THINKING I can cheat on the weekends...or that cheating is a good thing.

What I did is stop looking at it as "cheating".
I stopped working hard all week only to undo all my hard work in only 2.5 days. It was too hard on me...and emotionally it was exhausting.

What I did was use every single day of the week as a day to eat right.
I find planning meals in advance as a key to success.
Tracking every single day...and when I can BEFORE I eat something.
Eating it first, tracking it later wasn't working good. I often would over eat in one area...and had to work to balance it out either by exercising EXTRA or not eating something else to lower the total calories for the day...AKA...NO FUN.

I allow myself A TREAT.
THAT INCLUDES a cup cake.
THAT INCLUDES a small McDonalds fry.
THAT INCLUDES something fried.
NOT every single day...but often enough I don't feel deprived or AS IF I am on "a diet".
I allow it...but just not a half dozen cup cakes, or a super size MEAL from McDonalds or a 44oz or 6 pack of sodas or all 3 meals fried. That is what I use to do.
Cutting back and NOT cutting out REALLY HELPED ME.
I do believe there is a process of sometimes having to remove some foods UNTIL control is learned...and in the rare case there are some foods that simply set me off and I can't even have a serving of it because it is too much of a struggle... okay BATTLE... to stop myself from inhaling the rest of it.
Not saying your like that...but that's me.
Hope my post is helpful.
Keep sparking!

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EGALITAIRE 4/3/2012 12:01PM

    When I first started down this path of more healthful eating, I heard something that seems so simple on the surface, yet it has guided me and saved me from untold cheats.

It is simply this - if you want to eliminate something from your diet that you eat regularly, you have to make a conscious decision to replace it with something else, otherwise you will continue to crave the food you eliminated.

In the beginning of going Primal, I craved desserts. So I found Primal-style desserts to replace my previous indulgences. Over time, those cravings have all but disappeared.

Making cupcakes with your niece might be a cool way to try out some new recipes that fit into your nutritional plan.

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VERONICAVW_140 4/3/2012 11:52AM

    I heard of this one really neat way of having a "Cheat Day". It is actually more of a cheat meal. Giving yourself the entire day to cheat can do a lot of damage. Well, if you eat like me then it can!ha
What you would do is throughout the week if you have any cravings for something yummy write it down on a small piece of paper and put it into a jar. At the end of the week (say Saturday or Sunday) you get to draw ONE slip of paper out of the jar and you get to have that treat. If it was cupcakes then maybe you could either make less of them or send your niece home with the rest of them. This way you still satisfy your need for a treat but you don't go overboard.
I understand how hard it is not to totally let loose on the weekends. A while back when I was pretty consistent with workouts and eating better I used to have my weigh-ins on Saturday mornings. That way if I saw a smaller number then I would want to keep that up and hold onto that 'slim' feeling for the weekend. If I saw a larger number than I had hoped for then I knew that I would need to be on point for the weekend inorder to set myself up correctly for the upcoming week.
Goodluck hun! I hope you reach your goals!

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Hell froze over; I ran my first road race :)

Monday, March 19, 2012

Well, I can now say I did it. A year ago I was afraid to even START C25K to train to do a 5k. Well, never did an official 5k but yesterday I completed my first race and it was 5 MILES! My school nurse (who told me about SP) is very athletic and always biking or she asked me if I wanted to do this race for Child Abuse. I signed up not even realizing it was 5 MILES.

Fast forward.

I only trained once this week, running 2.5 miles. The rest of the week I told myself it was too "cold" and windy (which it was, I am just a baby when it comes down to it.)

I was so nervous yesterday morning. We lined up closer to the back, since it was my first time and I had NO IDEA how this was going to play out. It was mostly flat and on the shore which was peaceful and very scenic. However, the day before I noticed this girl from high school was doing it. Turns out she was right in front of me the WHOLE TIME. My goal was to beat her. So I hauled @%# at the end and sure enough beat her by 5 people. For my first race EVER I did pretty well. My first mile there was a guy with a stop watch telling everyone their times. I ran the first mile in 10:30. Not bad. I knew I could do this. I didn't stop once. They had boy scouts handing out water but that was just going to cramp me up. I came in #436 out of 582 runners. (39 out of 60 in my age group) and averaged 10:01 min miles. I am sooo proud. By the way, does anyone know what "Gun Time" and "Net Time" are? They are only about a second off, but I didn't know which was my actual time.

Anyhow, the point of the story is, if you want it bad enough you will find a way to get it. I worked my butt off for a year straight and "trained" myself to run to get where I am now. Never in a million years would I think I'd be able to run 5 miles nonstop. Hell, I couldn't even run a mile in the high school physical fitness test.

Don't give up. You will get there one day. And you're going to feel like a million bucks :P

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LOWFATFOODIE 3/20/2012 1:46AM

    I hate running but I love to see someone else accomplish a race! someday I might not hate it so much...

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SEPPIESUSAN 3/19/2012 10:08PM

    Congratulations!! It seems that other people have already answered your question, so I won't - I think what FITFOODIE806 said is the right answer.

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FITFOODIE806 3/19/2012 1:24PM

    Congrats!!! That is super awesome, especially for a first race. I bet it felt awesome to pass the girl from high school :)

gun time is when the race starts. I usually hear "chip time" not "net time", but my guess is they are the same. And that's when you officially start. I raced this weekend and my 2 times were 34 seconds off. I definitely go by chip time! hope that helps.

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RAINBOWCHOC 3/19/2012 12:48PM

    I am so proud of you! 5 miles is a long way, further than a lot of Sparkers could walk so hold your head high and you have earned bragging rights!
What's next, a half marathon?

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 3/19/2012 11:19AM

    I think the "gun time" is the time from when the start gun goes off and you cross the finish line.

If you're pretty far back from the starting line your "race time" and "gun time" will be pretty different. The race I ran last Saturday my race and gun time were about a minute off

hope this helps emoticon

and congrats on your race!

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SHUFFMAN126 3/19/2012 11:08AM

    Ditto to all above, I never thought I could run, but I'm doing the rookie 5K training now for a charity race in May (Domestic Violence Awareness). That's fantastic!

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VERONICAVW_140 3/19/2012 10:49AM

    AWESOME!!!! I am so happy for you. What a great accomplishment!

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K-GETTING-FIT 3/19/2012 9:58AM

    Congratulations. What an accomplishment:)

Started the C25K program recently and am excited that I am doing 2 minutes at a time. I cannot imagine running for any longer that that. LOL I think I'll probably cry when I actually am able to finish a race.

You should be SO proud of yourself. You go girl! Inspires us newbies:)


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My sacrifice :)

Thursday, February 23, 2012

So, yesterday started Lent.. For those of you that aren't Catholic, it is a 40 day period from Ash Wednesday to Easter that most people traditionally give up something they can't live without. Not to say that I am a good Catholic, but I figured this year I would use it to my advantage.

So, yesterday I embarked on my 40 day journey to no longer bite my nails (huuuuge bad habit), no more drinking (not even happy hours or wine) and staying in my calorie range (as best that I could).

This past week I had a long weekend off from school and I totally slipped up, got extremly lazy and didn't track any of the crap I ate. Don't you hate when that happens? LOL. I do.
And I don't want it to happen anymore. So hopefully this "Lent Challenge" that I am doing will help. I need to decrease my sugar intake, I am finding myself eating sweet cereals and bars that really don't benefit my nutrional need. I need to cut that out of my diet so I can start seeing some results for the spring.
No more excuses! I am going to do this.

Have a great week, Sparkies! xoxo

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JOSIEISHEALTHY 2/29/2012 11:11AM

    I am catholic but have never gave up anything for lent, I prob should! You are awesome for dedicating yourself to this. We all have slip ups, it's tough to get everything 100% all of the time. The point is that you are not giving up :) that is awesome :)

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JOIE501 2/29/2012 9:19AM

    HAHA, thanks for the comments/laughs sparkies! Well, a week in and the calorie range is hard for me, I am sooo hungry after the gym and just have had alot of things going on that entice me to eat not so healthy foods! But I am doing well with not biting my nails, when I find my fingers near my mouth, I quickly stop. I want to have nice REAL nails again. Also, I am doing awesome with the no drinking. I avoided it at all costs last weekend, hopefully I can do the same this week! =)

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RAINBOWCHOC 2/24/2012 4:40AM

    good to see you blogging again!
Best of luck with your Lent "fast". Fingernails are not usually listed in calorie books (LOL).
I'm sure you will do well, keep blogging and we'll keep cheering

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VERONICAVW_140 2/23/2012 12:13PM

    I am not Catholic but I have always like the idea of giving up something you like in order to focus on the Lord. Mine would have to be tv. That would be like giving up breathing for me!haha But I think I am gonna give it a try. Maybe not completely. Maybe I will cut back dramatically like only an hr a week. There is one show I know I want to see that shows on Mondays.
I know I could could benefit from focusing my time on other things. Hopefully this will make me a more productive person. I used to be a nail bitter but I stopped a long time ago. I know you can too! Goodluck!

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CAITLIN_NOELLE 2/23/2012 11:13AM

    Sounds like a plan!

How are you going to break your nail biting habit? I have bitten my nails since I was a kid, and have been able to stop for brief periods of time in the past few years, but always end up going back to it! What's your plan for that? :)

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Today is my 1 year anniversary on SPARKPEOPLE :)

Thursday, January 26, 2012

I just want to thank each and every one of my Spark friends for all their help and encouragement to get me this far along in my journey. Especially Lauren (SPARKGIRL32) add her if you haven't already. She is a huuuuge inspiration! And has supported me so much. And Missy (MISSYSTAR1980) for kicking my a%$ at the gym, keeping me motivated, getting me involved in SP and telling me store bought cupcakes are not worth it. HAHA! (Now I feel like I'm writing a speech.)

1 year ago, today, I weighed 209 lbs (by far the heaviest I was in my entire life) and barely fit into my clothes. Yoga/sweat pants were my best friend. Sure I had dieted before, I even lost 30 lbs on Weight Watchers, but I would go back to my old eating habits and gain it all right back. I didn't ever think I would have the will power to succeed and keep this weight off. But I promised myself a year ago I would start this journey and never stop. I made this a lifestyle change. Here I am exactly one year later, minus 50 pounds and feeling so much better about myself. I fit into my clothes and wear sweats BY CHOICE, not because that is the only thing that fits. I have had ups and downs, cheat days and cheat weeks, but I always get back on track. Because more than anything this is what I want. I was overweight my whole life, until a year ago. So I am living proof that you can do anything you put your mind and body to.

It isn't always going to be easy, but I promise you it is worth it.


Thank you Sparkies, for supporting me through this. xoxo

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WENZTHAT 1/31/2012 3:36PM

    happy anniversary! your before and current pictures are amazing. keep up the great work!

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MISSYSTAR1980 1/31/2012 1:14PM

    Great speech! :) You have been amazing and inspirational! Keep it up doll!

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LUCKYPRESENCE 1/27/2012 4:51PM

    emoticon Great job!!

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JEM0622 1/26/2012 1:11PM

    Congrats on your 1 year SparkVersary and you success on the journey! emoticon emoticon

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RAINBOWCHOC 1/26/2012 12:58PM

    Happy Sparkversary from me too.
It's wonderful knowing we haven't been dieting to put it all back on again, we are living healthy lives!
Have a reward for the anniversary....maybe a new bag?
best wishes, Sandra

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MEGSMILEY 1/26/2012 12:36PM

    congratulations on your achievements this year! :)

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JOPAPGH 1/26/2012 11:55AM

    Congrats on a productive year and great job on the weight loss!

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KYKRISTIN81 1/26/2012 11:48AM

    That is awesome girl.....keep it up. That is my thing, I want to lose the weight and keep it off, not just gain it back. We can do it.

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CHANGINGSAM 1/26/2012 11:30AM

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SEPPIESUSAN 1/26/2012 11:22AM

    Happy emoticon! emoticon

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STSCOTT11 1/26/2012 11:15AM

    THAT has to feel SOOO GOOD!

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BRANDI.FEY 1/26/2012 10:43AM

    Happy Spark-versary! And congratulations on your success! emoticon

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SKINNYPOWELL1 1/26/2012 10:31AM

    emoticonresults, you've done a fabulous job. Happy SPARK-aversary. Be proud - hope you are wearing a smile emoticon

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VERONICAVW_140 1/26/2012 10:26AM

    Congrats!It has been so neat to see your transformation. I am so proud of you!

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JOSIEISHEALTHY 1/26/2012 10:21AM

    happy anniversary!! I am so happy for you, you have been kicking butt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are right it isn't easy but its so worth it, hugs to you!

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CHANGE_4_LIFE 1/26/2012 10:20AM

    GREAT RESULTS! Hard work pays huge dividends -- keep it going, J! Let's bang out another year!

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You are proof that the SparkPeople system works

Make it a great day!

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CEKNIGHT 1/26/2012 9:48AM

    Happy Anniversary and Congratulations!!! Way to Go!!!

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A little venting never hurt anyone.

Friday, January 20, 2012

It has been a weird week. I am just going to vent:

I went from counting out my baby carrots (last week) and hitting the gym HARD to zero this week. How does that happen?? I mean, I did have a stomach ache so I wasn¡¦t able to work out, and ate very bland aka carb city because I wasn¡¦t sure if it was a virus. Lately, I feel like I can¡¦t catch a break! Ahh! And now I woke up to my mom being sick with a stomach flu ¡V I want to scream! I hate winter and I hate getting sick. Blah. I hope I don¡¦t pick up whatever she has. But chances are, I will. ƒ¼ I hope this weird stomach ache (it may be nerves) goes away soon so I can go back to the gym. I haven¡¦t ran in¡K.I don¡¦t know how long. (No bueno, that is my momentum!) I did well last week eating/fitness wise that when I weighed in I lost 7 lbs to pick me back in the 150s. 157 to be exact. Although, I am not weighing in this week (cause I just don¡¦t feel like I have made any progress from this yucky feeling all week). I will weigh in on Monday, hoping to have lost something. Anything. I just want to stay in the 150s for now. Until spring hits, which I KNOW will motivate me to shred this fat off. And my ultimate goal for this year is to do a mud run, probably Warrior Dash. I am not sure I could handle Tough Mudder just yet. Thinking about it gets me excited¡KYAY! =)

Side note.

On Monday, I went to get my oil changed/tires rotated at the dealership. While I was waiting for it, one of the managers came over to me while keeping my niece amused playing in the display cars (He probably wasn¡¦t happy, oh well.). They are always extra-friendly, in hopes you will buy your next car from them and I jokingly said ¡§Oh I already bought a car from you¡K¡¨ and he was like ¡§that¡¦s right¡¨. He shook my hand, looking at me strange and was like, ¡§you look different. Is it your hair? Was it always blonde¡K?¡¨ And in the back of my mind I was like ¡§Ughhh no, I lost 50 pounds¡¨ but instead I was like ¡§nope, I¡¦m the same¡¨. Because part of me doesn¡¦t want to be remembered as that fat girl I once was. I bought my car in August 2010 so it has been quite a while since he has seen me. It was just a good feeling to know that even almost complete strangers notice. ƒº

Ok back to reality.

I think I cheered myself up just by writing this blog.

I AM going to start back at the gym on Monday, fierce as ever.

I AM going to go grocery shopping for fresh veggies, fruits, and strictly healthy food this weekend.

I AM going to start packing my daily healthy salads for lunch.

I AM going to drink at least 10 cups of water per day.

I AM going to weigh in next week.

I AM going to lose at least a pound next week.

Sometimes I just need to put my thoughts on paper. Or a computer screen, I guess.

Happy Friday Sparkies! ļ

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KYKRISTIN81 1/22/2012 11:09AM

    Girl, keep it up, I know the feeling! Glad the blog motivated you!! :)

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RAINBOWCHOC 1/21/2012 2:15PM

    you blog, we support....basic "rules" of Spark friends!
50lbs is a lot of weight to have lost so don't be shy about it. most people cannot really judge how much you weigh unless they are weighing people every day (like nurses).
Glad you have a plan for next week and we will cheer loudly for that pound that has left your body....not lost in case you go looking!
best wishes, Sandra

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MARABOU 1/20/2012 1:50PM

  Wow that's the spirit! Go you girl emoticon

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CHANGE_4_LIFE 1/20/2012 1:16PM

    Put it down in writing and for everyone to see ... best way to stay on track! Accountability is a powerful weapon! And I highly, highly, highly recommend a mud run ... I did the Warrior Dash in Aug (NC) and it was AWESOME. I'm planning on doing it again this year, but hoping to squeeze in the Spartan Sprint and (hopefully) the Tough Mudder ... but as you said, the TM is pretty darn hard. haha And let's not forget my goal to hit my first marathon this year (the furthest I've gone is 7.5 miles, so I have a ways to go).

Keep writing - and don't beat yourself up for small setbacks. Pick yourself up and get back at it. You can do it!

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JTAMSYN 1/20/2012 11:38AM

    You can do it!!!
Wishing the stomach flu away from you!

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FLEDWARDS28 1/20/2012 11:09AM

    Hope your tummy ache goes away soon!! It's hard to eat right not to mention exercise when your tummy feels yucky!!

Good luck finding your motivation again. Winter seems to just bring us all down and sometimes it's impossible to push through.


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