Sunday, May 15, 2011
Did you ever get one of those phone calls that made you smile the moment you recognize the caller ID? An old friend/client called me Thursday afternoon and after the traditional exchange of pleasantries he said ďI called to thank you for helping me learn about how to set good goals.Ē He went on to say how he had completed college, after being away from school for over twenty years. I knew he was in school but we hadnít talked in a while and I wondered how all that was going for him. Now I had an answer, LOL. After we finished talking my mind did an inventory on my own goals and how my perception of them has changed since joining Spark.
A year and a half ago I wanted to lose weight, a hundred pounds to be exact. Between me and you I didnít think I could do it. Iíd lost weight before and put it back on. I wonít bore you. You know the story. Most of us live it on a daily basis. Just substitute my name with yours. We all have ďbeen there and done that.Ē Well Iíve lost sixty eight of the hundred pounds and Iíve done that before also. Hereís whatís changed: Iím not fixated on the number, I fixated on being healthy and on changing how I live. Most recently Iíve learned the lesson that this planet is not mine. Iím a guest here. There are all sorts of things been here longer than me and will be here long after I leave and that I really need to respect the planet. I know by becoming healthy in body mind and spirit that Iíll reach my goal weight. Oh it may take a while but honestly, where am I going? There is a much larger picture here than ďjust John,Ē and as I embrace that I get closer to being whole.
I started my exercise program by believing a lot of sweat and accumulating cardio minutes would make me leaner and meaner. Today, after some injuries and some really good advice from a lot of people I am participating in an exercise process that is consistent and healthy. I had to stop running for a while because Iíd done some damage to my legs and feet. Yesterday I ran two miles for the first time in over two months. My dreams of 10Kís and half marathons are pretty much evaporated. Right now Iím going to be satisfied with 5Kís. I may never run more than a 5K and thatís OK. I have discovered spinning and I love it and now that I can move around better my trainer and I are going to start working on my core.
Iíve lost a lot of good friends here. Iíve lost people who got stuck, just like me, and gave up. I miss them. They became ashamed and embarrassed and they quietly went away. They remain a source of motivation for me because I will not give up. I may get stuck and this may take a while to complete and I will have set backs but Iím not quitting!
My goals have changed and in many, many ways thatís how it should be. Currently I am in the middle of Day 5 of no diet soda. Iíve learned that this is very similar to quitting smoking. There are two times a day I crave a diet soda --- early morning and between four and five in the afternoon. I have learned too, that there is a really beautiful peace developing inside of me. Itís a calm quiet feeling.
Iím not going to be one of those people who smiles for the camera and says ďthis is a breeze.Ē It isnít, LOL. I am breaking out all over my body with small pimples. They are not painful or anything but they are part of the aspartame withdrawal. (Itís nice when you and your doctor go to the same church and you walk out of Mass this morning and you start asking her questions!) I live with panic anxiety disorder and I have had a few monumental anxiety attacks in the past few days including one around 1:00 AM. All part of the process.
Iím doing well drinking water flavored with lemon or lime and un sweet tea. Mostly Iím proud of me that Iím doing this. Whatever goals you are working on, you should be proud of too. You are a god example to me.
Thank you for your love and support
Friday, May 13, 2011
Iíll have to admit I was a bit over whelmed by all the advice I received on becoming sugar free. My first inclination was to try to rationalize my way out of making the commitment by telling myself ďthis is way too much to do.Ē Since I know how I think I realized that this fit of drama would be followed by a moment of lucidity. I was right.
Iíve decided to break this down into increments I can deal with. There is no way I can do all of it cold turkey, so I devised a plan. I had my last diet soda Tuesday evening. Thatís where I am going to begin. Itís been two days, seven hours, twenty minutes and a handful of seconds but whoís counting, right? I quit smoking six years ago and I did it cold turkey. I took a calendar and for every day I didnít smoke I put a huge X through the date. When I was really tempted I asked myself, ďDo you really want to have to start over?Ē After a month it got easier. I decided to employ the same strategy with diet soda. I have proudly place two bi ďXísĒ on a calendar. Itís my motivation.
Physically I feel pretty good but I am having some emotional withdrawal symptoms similar to tobacco withdrawal. I know in a week or so they will dissipate. Pray for Joan. She told me this morning she is ďREALLY looking forward to spending part of next week with her three sisters.Ē I have noticed that I am bit more regular when I use the restroom which is always a plus.
I have replaced the cookies, cakes and pies with fresh fruit for right now. Once I get the diet soda habit controlled I will tackle the next step. I am eating fresh red grapes, fresh pineapple, and fresh apples. I am drinking water and unsweetened ice tea. I tried herbal tea, which tastes great ---- However I am spending enough time in the bathroom as it is.
Thatís where Iím at right now. Itís interesting to correlate the diet soda and cigarettes because I find myself wanting a diet soda at certain times just like I wanted a cigarette. In a way, Iím glad that I had that experience because I know if I focus and balance for a few minutes the urge goes away. Homeostasis is never easy, but well worth the price.
Iíll keep you posted.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
I want to thank those of you who took the time to share their thoughts, ideas and most importantly their experiences on removing sugar from their diet. I really appreciate all the insights, and the resources. I have already started reading and crafting a plan.
To be honest with you the hardest part is going to be the Coke Zero. I started counting in my head how many I have per day and when I drink them and I was amazed in a scary sort of way. I didnt know I drank THAT MUCH diet soda. Whats worse is that I always buy one right when I finish a work out. I havent always drank diet soda. I used to drink plain old unsweet tea and I got lazy because the diet soda was readily availible and I didnt have to do anything more that twist a cap.
I can do this but I'm no different than anyone else. Change sucks and its scary. I know, though, that I have many people who care and who will support me.
Thank you guys for the love and all the input
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I would like to remove processed sugar from my diet and I'm not quite sure how to go about doing it. I have read some things that speak in a scientific sort of language I have a hard time grasping. Does anyone have a resource or experience that has a simple approach to removing sugar from my diet? I'm not sure if I should go cold turkey, cut back, reduce it or how to approach it. Is if simply a matter of only eating fruit and removing cookies cakes and pies?
This is a problem in my life and a barrier to continuing my health journey.
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Monday, May 09, 2011
The last couple of weeks have not been my best. With my basement flooding three times and finding out that flood insurance is only good if you have to commute to and from your house by boat, my moods took a marked turn south. Things just seemed to get worse and worse. When I am stressed it has a tendency to settle in my lower back which makes me walk as if I was thirty years older than I really am. Itís not only painful but itís downright nerve wracking. It hasnít done much for my disposition either.
On my walk this morning I told myself feeling like this, all stressed and uptight, was getting really old. Thatís when it dawned on me that it all begins and ends in my mind. As long as I look at the world through soot colored glasses than I am going to attract all sorts of negative people and experiences to me. Itís like expanding the adage of ďYou are who you hang around with,Ē to ďYou are what you think you are.Ē It begins and ends in my mind. I asked myself to take a good look at me and see what I saw. (Say that ten times really fast!) What do I want to see? I ticked off a litany of things that most of the time I file under the category of ďhopes and dreams.Ē I saw things that would be nice.
ďIf ya canít see it John, how can ya feel it?Ē I said to myself. Really good point. I saw where I was at in many aspects of my life and I realized it I was exactly how I saw myself. Itís sort of like, ďWell what did you expect?Ē As I walked I started taking pieces of who I am and projecting what I wanted them to look like. Pretty soon I began to feel lighter, more peaceful and while that nagging pain in back didnít go away but it subsided. I saw a ray of hope.
As I bounced along, it struck me there was more. Once I had the image in my mind and felt how powerful it was I had to become it. Not when I reach my goal weight, run a 10K or cycle a century. I had to become that vision right now, oversized belly, sore back and all. I had to realize as the adage says, ďThe reason for all challenges is so that you can finally learn that none are larger than you.Ē I have to learn that when I believe I am healthy and whole I will be. When I believe my life is full of joy and blessings and amazingly wonderful people, it will be.
A long time ago an English teacher of mine often said ďIf itís going to be, itís up to me.Ē
When I see it I can believe it and when I believe it I can become it. Everything I do has to be in the present tense. Just ask any very happy person. I am not suggesting we hire the cast of a Broadway musical and go dancing down the streets of life under some false illusion. Life throws us curve balls. How we deal with them is determined by what we think, feel and believe.
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