Sunday, May 22, 2011
Observation: My thirty three year old son and I had a late supper Thursday night. He usually works second shift so the opportunity to sit and talk is far and few between. Half way through dinner he looked across the table and commented: ďYou know dad, the problem with you baby boomers is that you wonít embrace your mortality!! You people think you are going to live forever. Get over it, youíre gonna die someday. ďWell hopefully not anytime soon.
Update: As I write I have been soda free for twelve days. Tuesday will make two full weeks. I am proud. In a way, I am glad I had the tobacco withdrawal to go through six years ago. This is very similar in how it presents itself. I am not a coffee drinker, so diet soda was my caffeine boost in the morning. I crave one every morning, no matter what I am doing. It lasts about fifteen minutes and then it gets bored and goes away. It returns between four and five in the evening. Very odd, lol. Like tobacco I can be blind-sided without warning. This morning after church I went to the grocery to get eggs. As I passed the soda display I was over whelmed with this craving that can only be described as passionate. The freaky thing was that immediately thereafter, I wanted a cigarette.
Observation: Do you know that no one knows what is in MSG? I have always had sensitivity to that additive. It will manifest itself with a head ache or a very dry mouth. I had lunch with one of my daughters Thursday and had what appeared to be a harmless turkey sandwich, with tomatoes and lettuce. About two hours later not only was my head pounding and my mouth feeling like a candle wick but I would have robbed Kroger for a diet soda. I had this image of me backing out the door with a twelve pack of Coke Zero and a loaded gun pointed at the clerk muttering, ďEveryone relax and no one gets hurt.Ē So I went home and Google searched MSG and aspartame. There is a connection but no one can definitively say why because no one knows what is in MSG. Itís a secret.
Update: Our basement is dry. Well ninety percent dry. I am waiting another week to make sure the walls are totally dried out before we paint, carpet, vinyl and get a new toilet. It appears that my insurance will pay nothing. The clearest explanation I received goes something like this: FEMA covers front water. The Ohio River would have to over flow and end up in my basement for FEMA to cover my damage. Given my distance from the river in order for that to happen the whole town would be under water. Home owners insurance covers back water, or water that backs up from the storm sewer. Ground water is covered by me!! Guess what invaded my house? Yup, ground water.
Observation: You are all wonderful people.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Somewhere in my reading yesterday I found a passage that suggested if you were looking for true wisdom, find a five year old to talk to. I was fortunate in this respect because my granddaughter had her end of the year kindergarten super-duper musical special last night. She and approximately forty other five year olds took us on a journey through letter, color and number land. They provided a few shakes a few shimmies and a lot of pointing, waving and covering their mouths with laughter. For about thirty minutes last night insurance adjusters, missed Spark rallies and any other earthly woe took a distant back seat. If youíre having issues in life just bend over really far, then straighten up, then lift your hands towards the sky and sing. You may bounce if you so choose.
There is no pretension in being five. They walked up on the stage like a herd of cattle. Despite the teacherís pleas to get ready, they got ready when they finished saying hello to each other, waving to mom, dad and grandparents. Then, with all the important things out of the way they began to sing. When they were tired of singing they might stop and make an observation. One even asked rather loudly ďWhen is this going to be over?Ē They know whatís important. When they were finished singing they moved quickly and with cat like precision towards the cookies and juice. They have learned, in their brief life that family, friends and a good deal of bending and stretching will carry you far. They have learned that laughter and just being goofy sometimes can cure a multitude of woes.
As I was driving home I thought of something I read many years ago. Iíd like to share it with you. Its Robert Fulghumís ďEverything I Needed To Know I Learned In Kindergarten.Ē
" Most of what I really need
To know about how to live
And what to do and how to be
I learned in kindergarten.
Wisdom was not at the top
Of the graduate school mountain,
But there in the sandpile at Sunday school.
These are the things I learned:
Don't hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess
Don't take things that aren't yours.
Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
Wash your hands before you eat.
Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
Live a balanced life -
Learn some and think some
And draw and paint and sing and dance
And play and work every day some.
Take a nap every afternoon.
When you go out into the world,
Watch out for traffic,
Hold hands and stick together.
Be aware of wonder."
Be blessed today.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
I am not going to be able to attend the Spark Rally this weekend. With the recent damage to our home because of some flooding, this just happens to be the weekend the insurance adjsuter and a few contractors will be coming by. As good as I am I cant be in two places at once.
I was really looking forward to meeting some of you. Maybe some other time.
I hope those of you attending have a really good weekend
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Did you ever get one of those phone calls that made you smile the moment you recognize the caller ID? An old friend/client called me Thursday afternoon and after the traditional exchange of pleasantries he said ďI called to thank you for helping me learn about how to set good goals.Ē He went on to say how he had completed college, after being away from school for over twenty years. I knew he was in school but we hadnít talked in a while and I wondered how all that was going for him. Now I had an answer, LOL. After we finished talking my mind did an inventory on my own goals and how my perception of them has changed since joining Spark.
A year and a half ago I wanted to lose weight, a hundred pounds to be exact. Between me and you I didnít think I could do it. Iíd lost weight before and put it back on. I wonít bore you. You know the story. Most of us live it on a daily basis. Just substitute my name with yours. We all have ďbeen there and done that.Ē Well Iíve lost sixty eight of the hundred pounds and Iíve done that before also. Hereís whatís changed: Iím not fixated on the number, I fixated on being healthy and on changing how I live. Most recently Iíve learned the lesson that this planet is not mine. Iím a guest here. There are all sorts of things been here longer than me and will be here long after I leave and that I really need to respect the planet. I know by becoming healthy in body mind and spirit that Iíll reach my goal weight. Oh it may take a while but honestly, where am I going? There is a much larger picture here than ďjust John,Ē and as I embrace that I get closer to being whole.
I started my exercise program by believing a lot of sweat and accumulating cardio minutes would make me leaner and meaner. Today, after some injuries and some really good advice from a lot of people I am participating in an exercise process that is consistent and healthy. I had to stop running for a while because Iíd done some damage to my legs and feet. Yesterday I ran two miles for the first time in over two months. My dreams of 10Kís and half marathons are pretty much evaporated. Right now Iím going to be satisfied with 5Kís. I may never run more than a 5K and thatís OK. I have discovered spinning and I love it and now that I can move around better my trainer and I are going to start working on my core.
Iíve lost a lot of good friends here. Iíve lost people who got stuck, just like me, and gave up. I miss them. They became ashamed and embarrassed and they quietly went away. They remain a source of motivation for me because I will not give up. I may get stuck and this may take a while to complete and I will have set backs but Iím not quitting!
My goals have changed and in many, many ways thatís how it should be. Currently I am in the middle of Day 5 of no diet soda. Iíve learned that this is very similar to quitting smoking. There are two times a day I crave a diet soda --- early morning and between four and five in the afternoon. I have learned too, that there is a really beautiful peace developing inside of me. Itís a calm quiet feeling.
Iím not going to be one of those people who smiles for the camera and says ďthis is a breeze.Ē It isnít, LOL. I am breaking out all over my body with small pimples. They are not painful or anything but they are part of the aspartame withdrawal. (Itís nice when you and your doctor go to the same church and you walk out of Mass this morning and you start asking her questions!) I live with panic anxiety disorder and I have had a few monumental anxiety attacks in the past few days including one around 1:00 AM. All part of the process.
Iím doing well drinking water flavored with lemon or lime and un sweet tea. Mostly Iím proud of me that Iím doing this. Whatever goals you are working on, you should be proud of too. You are a god example to me.
Thank you for your love and support
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