Friday, May 13, 2011
Iíll have to admit I was a bit over whelmed by all the advice I received on becoming sugar free. My first inclination was to try to rationalize my way out of making the commitment by telling myself ďthis is way too much to do.Ē Since I know how I think I realized that this fit of drama would be followed by a moment of lucidity. I was right.
Iíve decided to break this down into increments I can deal with. There is no way I can do all of it cold turkey, so I devised a plan. I had my last diet soda Tuesday evening. Thatís where I am going to begin. Itís been two days, seven hours, twenty minutes and a handful of seconds but whoís counting, right? I quit smoking six years ago and I did it cold turkey. I took a calendar and for every day I didnít smoke I put a huge X through the date. When I was really tempted I asked myself, ďDo you really want to have to start over?Ē After a month it got easier. I decided to employ the same strategy with diet soda. I have proudly place two bi ďXísĒ on a calendar. Itís my motivation.
Physically I feel pretty good but I am having some emotional withdrawal symptoms similar to tobacco withdrawal. I know in a week or so they will dissipate. Pray for Joan. She told me this morning she is ďREALLY looking forward to spending part of next week with her three sisters.Ē I have noticed that I am bit more regular when I use the restroom which is always a plus.
I have replaced the cookies, cakes and pies with fresh fruit for right now. Once I get the diet soda habit controlled I will tackle the next step. I am eating fresh red grapes, fresh pineapple, and fresh apples. I am drinking water and unsweetened ice tea. I tried herbal tea, which tastes great ---- However I am spending enough time in the bathroom as it is.
Thatís where Iím at right now. Itís interesting to correlate the diet soda and cigarettes because I find myself wanting a diet soda at certain times just like I wanted a cigarette. In a way, Iím glad that I had that experience because I know if I focus and balance for a few minutes the urge goes away. Homeostasis is never easy, but well worth the price.
Iíll keep you posted.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
I want to thank those of you who took the time to share their thoughts, ideas and most importantly their experiences on removing sugar from their diet. I really appreciate all the insights, and the resources. I have already started reading and crafting a plan.
To be honest with you the hardest part is going to be the Coke Zero. I started counting in my head how many I have per day and when I drink them and I was amazed in a scary sort of way. I didnt know I drank THAT MUCH diet soda. Whats worse is that I always buy one right when I finish a work out. I havent always drank diet soda. I used to drink plain old unsweet tea and I got lazy because the diet soda was readily availible and I didnt have to do anything more that twist a cap.
I can do this but I'm no different than anyone else. Change sucks and its scary. I know, though, that I have many people who care and who will support me.
Thank you guys for the love and all the input
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I would like to remove processed sugar from my diet and I'm not quite sure how to go about doing it. I have read some things that speak in a scientific sort of language I have a hard time grasping. Does anyone have a resource or experience that has a simple approach to removing sugar from my diet? I'm not sure if I should go cold turkey, cut back, reduce it or how to approach it. Is if simply a matter of only eating fruit and removing cookies cakes and pies?
This is a problem in my life and a barrier to continuing my health journey.
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Monday, May 09, 2011
The last couple of weeks have not been my best. With my basement flooding three times and finding out that flood insurance is only good if you have to commute to and from your house by boat, my moods took a marked turn south. Things just seemed to get worse and worse. When I am stressed it has a tendency to settle in my lower back which makes me walk as if I was thirty years older than I really am. Itís not only painful but itís downright nerve wracking. It hasnít done much for my disposition either.
On my walk this morning I told myself feeling like this, all stressed and uptight, was getting really old. Thatís when it dawned on me that it all begins and ends in my mind. As long as I look at the world through soot colored glasses than I am going to attract all sorts of negative people and experiences to me. Itís like expanding the adage of ďYou are who you hang around with,Ē to ďYou are what you think you are.Ē It begins and ends in my mind. I asked myself to take a good look at me and see what I saw. (Say that ten times really fast!) What do I want to see? I ticked off a litany of things that most of the time I file under the category of ďhopes and dreams.Ē I saw things that would be nice.
ďIf ya canít see it John, how can ya feel it?Ē I said to myself. Really good point. I saw where I was at in many aspects of my life and I realized it I was exactly how I saw myself. Itís sort of like, ďWell what did you expect?Ē As I walked I started taking pieces of who I am and projecting what I wanted them to look like. Pretty soon I began to feel lighter, more peaceful and while that nagging pain in back didnít go away but it subsided. I saw a ray of hope.
As I bounced along, it struck me there was more. Once I had the image in my mind and felt how powerful it was I had to become it. Not when I reach my goal weight, run a 10K or cycle a century. I had to become that vision right now, oversized belly, sore back and all. I had to realize as the adage says, ďThe reason for all challenges is so that you can finally learn that none are larger than you.Ē I have to learn that when I believe I am healthy and whole I will be. When I believe my life is full of joy and blessings and amazingly wonderful people, it will be.
A long time ago an English teacher of mine often said ďIf itís going to be, itís up to me.Ē
When I see it I can believe it and when I believe it I can become it. Everything I do has to be in the present tense. Just ask any very happy person. I am not suggesting we hire the cast of a Broadway musical and go dancing down the streets of life under some false illusion. Life throws us curve balls. How we deal with them is determined by what we think, feel and believe.
Friday, May 06, 2011
Happiness is not elusive. Itís pretty straight forward. I think Iím the one who has had issues with happiness, not the other way around. Iíve had a hard time defining it. Itís as if Iíd walked into a store and asked for a piece of clothing that I could not define and then expected the clerk to rush to a rack and return to me with it, smiling all the while. I know Iíve wanted to be happy because everyone does. You listen to interviews of famous people and they gush from the other side of the coffee table, ďIím finally happy.Ē Sometimes, I think there is an expectation that itís to be delivered wrapped in a bow.
Happiness is very hard work. Donít let anyone fool you. You have to define it and you have to decide what you are willing to do in order to attain it. You have to prepare to suffer a bit as your perception of your world and everyone in it changes, for the better I might add. Happiness isnít like a train schedule. It doesnít have planned stops along the way so you and I can wait for it, hand over our eyes peering off into the wilderness and then signaling the brass band to start playing. It surprises you, like the oft forgotten cousin who shows up at your door step for an extended visit. You love them half to death; you just werenít ready for them.
Real happiness comes on its own terms, not mine. I cannot create conditions for it, define its parameters or hand it a list of exclusions. Like the ground water in my basement this past week it finds its own level and then challenges us to live there. Itís a long journey. Itís why so few of us reach it.
Most of us give up. We tell ourselves the battles not really worth all the effort. We tell ourselves we should be satisfied with what we have and there are people much worse off than we areÖÖÖÖ.. Yada, yada, yada. We turn our failures into excuses to sit quietly in the corner rather than as energy and focus to move forward and try once again. Itís all really the antithesis of happiness, isnít it?
I write this rambling preamble this morning because as I lie in bed reviewing what needed to be done today and in what order it needed to be completed in happiness snuck up behind me and grinned. I go through a bit of a ritual where I am grateful and thankful that both feet hit the ground again this morning. It was at that point it dawned on me that I am the happiest person I know. It has nothing to do with status, wealth or where I live. It has to do with how I feel. I expect to be happier because Iím not yet the happiest person in the world. I donít think that person exists as happiness is very subjective.
I am happy because of four things. I hang around with excellent people and have made the tough choices to let people go in my life who werenít the best influences. I have come to believe I am really worth the effort I put into myself and I deserve this new found happiness. Finally, I am what I believe I am.
Honestly, as I reviewed my blog this morning Iím not sure why I wrote it. Oh, I am lol. Someone out there needed to read this. A long time ago, in the throes of my despair, unhappiness and living with the feeling that I was all alone, my Creator, reached down and light a lamp that showed me a path towards this happy life I now live. Writing this blog will never, ever repay that, but itís a start. As the kindness and love was extended to me, so now I extend it to you.
Happiness isnít about goal s and objectives, itís about the challenge of allowing your heart to grow.
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