Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I stood in line at Walgreen's this evening for about twenty minutes waiting to pick up my blood pressure medication. That's not what made me mad.
Directly in front of me, in the long line was a young lady, who was ill. You could tell by the way she was standing and holding herself. I've felt that bad a time or two in my life and so have you, probably. You just want to take some medicine, curl up in bed and hope you get some relief. She handed the clerk her prescription and asked her to check the price. After a few seconds the clerk gave her an answer, which I couldnt maker out. The young lady answered. "I cant afford that I dont have insurance." She pulled her coat tight and walked away. The clerk rolled her eyes and said 'Whatever." Even that didnt make me mad. I thought it was a bit rude.
If I didnt have insurance my prescription would cost me two hundred dollars a month. I only pay thirty. If i didnt have health insurance I dont know what I'd due, maybe have a stroke and end up dead. It's not my decision. A pharmaceutical company decides who gets better and who doesnt. If you have a good job and lots of money or health insurance you stand a chance to beat your illness. If you dont, well I guess its back to the process of natural selection.
Please dont tell me about people taking responsibility for them selves. If you are a single mom, working two or three part time jobs with no insurance and you get sick but cant afford to pay for your prescription, you cant get better, which means you cant go to work, which means you may lose your job and then where are you?
This isnt a Democratic or Republican issue. It's not a religious issue it is a basic human dignity issue. When you stand shivering with fever in a Walgreen's and cant afford a prescription, there is a lot wrong with the society you live in.
Yes, there are people who cheat and take advantage of things. They all arent poor, homeless or unemployed. Many of them have six or seven figure incomes and display the same lack on integrity they accuse "those people" of having. This is about US, the human race.
When I got home I told Joan I probably should have paid for the girls prescription. She thought a minute and asked me if I planned to stay at Walgreen's all day and night helping people out. She's right. It would have only made me feel better about me. Right now, that would seem awfully selfish.
Okay John, you feel better now that you vented?
I hope you dont either
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Every morning, when I look in the mirror itís always the same me. I may change the way I style my hair or its coloring. I may shave my beard and only grow back a mustache, trade my glasses for contact lenses but when I look really hard itís still John.
I would rob a bank for sweets. Serve me anything with bread in it or around it and Iíll knock you away from the table. Put me in a cheese shop and Iím in heaven and you can make the experience even more of a pleasure if I have a good cold stein of beer in my hand. I donít mean lite beer either!!! I have a foolish belief that if I sweat enough I can counteract my food addictions and that if I donít get on the scale I wonít gain any weight. I could go on and on but you get my point.
Iím no scientist but it many ways you and I were hard wired at birth. The tendencies I have physical and emotional are what make me the adorable person I have become. (Sorta) In short,Ē I is what I is.Ē It doesnít mean I allow those things to run amok in my life, it means I acknowledge they are present and deal with them, honestly and openly. It means I acknowledge, often very painfully that I am always going to have to run like He^^ when I see or smell a donut shop. It means that I may have to talk myself to the gym every lousy day of the week because I know I make excuses not to go work out. I canít surgically alter my psyche. Itís how I was born.
However, when I look in the mirror I see so much more. I see a guy who has some very special people in his life, both real and virtual who are here to help him when he begins to give in to those cravings and desires. They are the folks he hangs with. They accept him good or bad for who he is.
I know I am worth the agony and yeah friend you know as well as I do itís agony, of walking through a dietary mind field every day and asking yourself ďIf Iím not on a diet, why the He^^ does it feel like I am on one.Ē Itís looking in the mirror and counting the things Iíve accomplished in my life and know the depth and emotion they bring me far outweigh my addictions.
I know that just like anyone ever created in the totality of history that I deserve happiness and health and prosperity no matter what my parents, ex-girlfriends, co-workers or anyone else who spews negativity ever told me. No matter how heinous I believe my past actions may have been, right now, in the here and now, I deserve all the good things everyone else does.
When I look in the mirror, I believe what I see, the things Iím proud of and the things I need to work upon. After I post this Iíll make a smoothie with frozen fruit, frozen bananas, cinnamon and fresh spinach. I really want a plate of pancakes, greasy eggs and bacon. Iíll always want that. Iím not going to punish myself. Today Iíll make the choice to inhale the smoothie and head for my gym. I canít tell you what Iíll do tomorrow. I just may make up that plate of pancakes. I probably wonít, but if I do, when I look in my mirror later on that day, I know Iíll still be loved by you and by me. You donít love me because of what I eat or donít eat; you love me for my heart and soul, just like I love you for the very same reasons. There are times Iíll slip and fall and I trust you wonít lose the look of encouragement you always give me. I promise you from the bottom of my heart, I wonít ever stop encouraging, and supporting you.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I'm writing to you to let you know there is a Spark Rally being held in the Cincinatti, Ohio area on the day and time I've included below. All and any information you may require is listed there.
A really cool side benifit is that you'd get to spend a whole day with me. That in itself is worth the trip. We only have 29 placers left!!!
I really hope to see you.
Florence KY/ Cincinnati area Mini Convention May 21, 2011 (Saturday)
drinks and snacks provided
29 seats remain as of March 27. Final Rally Sale! Tickets $9.99 each.
EVENTS include a live web conference with Sparkguy himself and a party Coach Nicole is attending!
7:30AM-9 Set up
9-9:30 Arrivals/registration/gift bags/ registration for prizes
9:30-11:30 Speakers and Questions ~Indygirl, Hoosiergirlindy, Sheenadee, Ksigma1222, Swbdot2, Quadcmom, Kathyjo56, and 3rdstring
11:30AM-1:00PM Lunch Break
1:00 PM-2:00 PM EARPS Presentation: Veganism/ Vegetarianism/ Flexitarianism
2:00 PM-4:00 PM Video Conference with Sparkguy
Discussion of The Spark led by Ksigma1222,
Questions and book signing.
4-5 Carol Lee Scott- Green/ Yoga class
Coach Stepf has canceled due to being in Honduras
5PM Door Prizes and Fitness Swap
Rally Tear Down
Party Set Up
6:30 PM Post Rally Party with Coach Nicole
*all events still subject to being changed or moved.
There will be fantastic prize drawings at the rally!
Win one of 15 copies of THE SPARK or a DVD
Win one of 5 signed copies of THE SPARK signed by Sparkguy himself
Location and Lodging:
The Venue for the Rally will be:
Microtel Florence KY by the Cincy Airport
7490 Woodspoint Dr
Florence, KY 41042 US
TO GET TICKETS:
Tickets are $9.99.
Using DONATE on the EARPS.ORG (Our Sponsor) website to buy your tickets will give you an immediate receipt.
Go to EARPS.org
Use the DONATE button.
under special instructions, put the Spark names of those who the tickets are for.
If you prefer to send a check:
-Make checks payable to EARPS.
-Put for Spark Rally in memo section.
-Enclose note with usernames and names of people coming.
-Your canceled check will be your receipt and you will be sent one for tax purposes as well.
-You will be added to our RSVP list as soon as we receive your check and list of who is coming with usernames if they have them.
*Checks may not be cashed right away, as they collect donations and make single runs to the bank every so often. They will be cashed and receipts will be sent out, but possibly not in a timely fashion.
P.O. Box 736
Brownsburg, IN 46112
Money from tickets will be used for the expenses of the rally such as catering, snacks, ice, program and information printing, labels, and anything else you can imagine that goes with holding a rally for 100 people.
All left over money will be donated to the not for profit organization EARPS, Exotic Animal Rescue and Pet Sanctuary. EARPS rescues exotic animals, gives them needed medical treatment, fosters them and finds them forever homes. It is non profit 501c3 certified, so your ticket price and any donations will be tax deductible.
If you decide to donate more because you personally want to do so, still remember to put Spark Rally in your memo portion.
All Ticket Sales are final and non refundable, but you can sell/ give them to another member. Just notify me of any changes by Sparkmail. I can always get information for you if you need it.
As always, if you have any questions or need help, just Sparkmail me.
*Note: This is a SPARK member and EARPS sponsored event.
LODGING AT THE RALLY SITE:
Microtel Florence KY/ cincy airport
7490 Woodspoint Dr
49.99 reg room
49.99 suite inc wet bar micro fridge bigger
PLEASE CALL and Reserve your room under the name SPARKPEOPLE to make sure you get your room for the discounted rate of $49.99. To reserve at the Microtel:
Call 859-746-8100/ Tell them you are with the Spark People Group. If you reserve a room at the Microtel, please Sparkmail me privately. I just need the name the reservation is under to get our group credited for the room. ~Indygirl
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Iíve sat down to write this blog at least ten times in the past few days and I couldnít find adequate words to express my thoughts and feelings. Iím going to try one more time, LOL.
Two weeks ago I wrenched my back to the point that I required some moderate to heavy physical therapy. I strained the sheathing that encases my sciatic nerve so when it hurts the nerve hurts. (If I understand everything they told me) My exercise has been confined to walking and a bit of recumbent cycling. The physical therapist is also a massage therapist and she has been nothing short of amazing. I am mostly pain free and when I do get a spasm I know what to do. During a massage session late last week she began to press her thumbs on the arches of my feet. I yelped and jumped and turned my head to give her a really dirty look. We finished and she asked me to take this big envelope back to my doctor. My doctor made those doctor noises and got those doctor looks and simply said ďYour running days are over. This is not negotiable.Ē
Iíll spare you the details, half of which I donít understand. Quite by accident the therapist discovers I have plantar fasciitis and not just a mild case either. It appears that a lot of my aches, pains and physical woes are tied in to a disintegration of that tendon. To be sure, my doctor has ordered some tests, but before I left her office she told me sheís dealt with this PT for years and she has learned to trust her opinions. Thatís the background.
I didnít write this for sympathy or for kind words of assurance. They are welcome, donít get me wrong. In many ways not being able to run is devastating, because in the short year I have been working at it I have come to love it. More than once in the past few days, and even as I sit here and write this, I have struggled to hold back my tears of frustration and anger. ButÖÖÖ.. As I often tell anyone who will listen ďYou can visit pity city, you just canít build a house there!Ē My feet and legs hurt and I am not going to end up damaging my body just so I can say ďIím a runner.Ē The intellectual part is easy, itís the emotional part that is ripping me apart.
So somewhere in the middle of the night I decided that itís not really what happens to us itís what we do with it. I am allowed to walk and I have been averaging about three miles daily. As soon as I get the ok I am going to start some yoga classes and I am going to talk to the spinning instructor at my gym next week to see when I can start working with him and what I need to do to prepare. My personal trainer has logged a lot of time with me the past two days, mostly via text message, and all I can say is you donít pay for the kind of support she has given me. The best advice I received came from her. ďNo matter what, do not lose your focus.Ē Thank you Jen. In two weeks I am registered for a core strengthening class and my doctor has given me a tentative green light to participate.
I wonít give up. Itís not an option. This has devastated me emotionally but I wonít give in to it. There are other things I can do and they will provide me with just as much benefit.
I ran three 5Kís. I ran five miles once without stopping. I did that. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that would happen!!! I am so darned proud of me and what I did.
It is time to move on, to cycle or spin or walk and along with it not forgetting why I am here to begin withÖÖÖÖ to enjoy my life.
Friday, March 25, 2011
I was poised to have a really good week. I was headed to Nashville on Monday and Tuesday to teach a seminar on communication issues. I havenít seen some of these people since before Christmas. I was excited about catching up with them. I have a new coaching client. I had my first meeting with them yesterday and I always enjoy getting to know people. Itís a new person with a fresh set of goals. It always energizes me. Later this afternoon I have a massage scheduled and tomorrow we help our youngest celebrate his twenty fourth birthday.
Then I decided to get in my own way. I donít know if it ever happens to you but with me I get this feeling of somewhere between being a super hero and God. Conventional wisdom gets lost in the shuffle along with nutrition and exercise. Forget about The Spark, The Scale and The Gym. You are John, you are on a roll and you can cut the heads off those dragons in short order, canít you? Sure you can, sure you can.
You have been a Sparkler for going on two years and havenít you lost a total of seventy one pounds? That little self-deceiving voice says ďTYVM logic and reason, Iíll take it from here.Ē You forget about that harmonic balance of body, mind and soul.
My largest issue is getting in my own way and sabotaging myself. Itís heading out of town without a good nutrition plan. Itís not planning my day so there is time for exercise in a surprisingly well equipped hotel gym. Itís cocking my head towards the sky and saying ďIíll take it from here.Ē Itís buying into all the myths and fallacies all over again.
Without balance in my life, without harmony, without the admission that I canít do this alone I am doomed to repeat the same behavior over and over again. It is no wonder when I step on the scale, that it didnít move from the past two weeks.
The good news is Iím here, again, today ready to begin again, ready to create more balance in my life and hopefully I am a bit wiser for the experience.
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