Friday, March 18, 2011
I am learning to trust myself, my feelings and my intuition. I am learning to be confident in the fact that more often than not I know whatís best for me. Call it intuition, or a gut level feeling, it is the knowledge that I have inside of me, everything I need to be a successful and well balanced person. Thatís the easy part. The hard part is putting it into action. Being overweight creates a confidence crisis all its own and the longer I am overweight the deeper that crisis becomes until I begin to doubt my ability to do anything well. I have found myself on more than one wild goose chase. I have fallen prey to those ďget thin quick schemes.Ē They are the ones that promise health happiness and a brand new car in about thirty days if you promise to do one simple thing --- never eat again. They also issue you a thirty percent discount coupon on a funeral. I have been mesmerized by the photos of men in Brooks Brothers suits gazing smugly at me as if to say ďUhm, John, this isnít for you.Ē The list goes on.
Who do I listen to? Who has the wisdom and knowledge to know whatís best for me?
I do. I do if I take the time to listen to that voice inside of me that slowly and gently guides me towards health.
I do, when I put my life in focus and in balance and do the hard work up front it takes to get a good picture of myself, what motivates me and what brings me success. It happens when I believe I am worth all the effort, whether its successful at first or not, I am painting a very clear picture of who I am and where I am going.
I do, when I put on blinders and just for a little bit block out even the most well intentioned friends. I look deep into my soul and I see a clear vision or picture of myself and where I want to be and then I act on those positive urges that move me towards health. It means I may never run a marathon, participate in a triathlon or swim the English Channel. It means I probably wonít be invited to sit with the cool kids at their lunch table. So maybe I start my own lunch table and re-define cool.
I do, when I finally look in the mirror and acknowledge that I deserve everything I have ever dreamed of and that I have the intelligence and the ability to go out and get it. Not tomorrow, not next week but RIGHT NOW. It happens when I have enough faith in myself to claim my spot.
I am not advocating that you live on a mountain and refrain from taking any advice what so ever. I am suggesting that you and I decide when that advice is right for us. So many times we defer to people, not because we believe they are right but because we donít have the faith and confidence in ourselves to say otherwise. Itís as if we look in an emotional mirror and see all the spots and warts we have and decide maybe someone else knows better.
As I learn and grow I am finding I know best. It doesnít really matter what you think of me whether you love me or not. It matters what I think of me. You may argue with me that I am learning to lean to heavy on emotion and feeling and not enough upon intellect. I am happy you have come to that realization in your life and that you believe that is what works best for you.
In my top ten favorite things about Spark, right up there, close to the top, is the exhortation for me to be myself, travel my own path and find others who feel like me.
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