Thursday, February 03, 2011
I celebrated my one year anniversary here at Spark by resetting my weight ticker and establishing a new goal for 2011. Since then, as of this morning, I have lost a total of one half pound. I have lost so little the Spark ticker refuses to acknowledge it. I have lost an inch in my thighs but gained a quarter inch in my upper arms. As the saying goes, ďEverything has remained the same.Ē Yes there is the bright side it could be a gain, massive or otherwise, and yes, a loss is a loss is a loss.
Iím not upset I am just moving. I am moving every chance I get. Every opportunity I have to walk or move I am taking advantage of it. We needed milk this morning so I walked to Kroger. Total distance about a mile back and forth. Yes, it was cold but thatís why God made gloves and scarves. Later today I am going to scrub the kitchen and bathroom floors. There will most likely be some vacuuming involved too. Iím saving the gym for this evening because Joan has a swim class at seven tonight. I am learning to take advantage of my schedule. I do not work traditionally and usually my appointment calendar is set two weeks out. I leave some wiggle room, for sure, but mostly I can plan around my schedule. My office is in my home so anything that needs to be done here I can do. Yes, I know, I am very fortunate and I acknowledge that fact.
I am realizing my body has adjusted to the changes I made last year. Those first sixty eight pounds sort of ran off of me easily. Now I have to work a bit smarter to get the roughly seventy pounds I left to lose. So I am moving. I have an old fashioned egg timer in my office. I set it for an hour and after each hour has elapsed I get up and do something that requires me to move around for at least ten minutes. Sometimes itís annoying and sometimes I donít always honor it to the letter of the law. But I am creating a new habit.
I have learned that life is not a series of absolutes itís a series of relationships you develop mostly with yourself. Like any good relationship it evolves over time and blossoms. I have learned to be loving and gentle with me and that while I can jump up and down when you have a success I should never, ever compare myself to you and your journey because our Creator made each of us unique, special and equipped with a different set of tools and variables to move forward in our lifeís journey. I should never become disheartened because you lost a jillion pounds and I lost one half.
Iíve realized I will be here art Spark for the rest of my life. Itís not a ďget into a swim suit by spring breakĒ commitment. It is learning about me and developing relationships with wonderful people all over the world and if nothing else simply appreciating their friendship. I am not overweight, obese or fat. I am a person who made some less than healthy life choices and they manifested themselves in a Santa like belly. I wonít define me by a number whether itís on a scale or a time in a race.
I will move and keep moving until I canít move any longer. Just think of all the cool things I will see.
BTW: Some of you asked me about a status update I posted a few days ago about a Spark Rally. It is in Cincinnati on May 21