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The Climb

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Thank you Miley Cyrus.

I strained my left knee on December 6 and since then my workouts have been halfhearted and inconsistent. There was a part of me that was angry for getting hurt. I rushed my work out that day. I had been sitting in a certification class for four hours and I had to pick Joan up at work and go to an early Christmas reception her employer was hosting. I was in a hurry. I didn’t warm up properly, didn’t stretch correctly. It was one of those let’s get this over with sort of runs. I created a perfect storm for the injury which occurred about a mile into my run. The doctor said I stepped wrong. Rest, heat, cold and more rest. It kept running through my head that I would have been better off not working out that day. It would have saved me a lot of misery. While I was healing I used the elliptical, walked, road a spinning cycle and a recumbent cycle. Nothing felt right. I’d finish a workout and I’d feel “off.” I tried running a few times but the pain would stop me after a half mile or so. The doctor said I was fine, no swelling, no inflammation; everything appeared to be in order. “Run like the wind,” he said with a grin. Only I couldn’t. I felt like I weighed a thousand pounds


No matter how I prepared, physically or emotionally my runs were not going well at all. I didn’t feel motivated, I felt like I was existing in another universe and nothing seemed right. Everything hurt, my thighs, my ankles, my shoulders my back. I was running but I didn’t know where I was running to, for, or with. I’d run for a mile and quit and then feel terrible emotionally. It was like a dog chasing its tail.


Yesterday Joan asked me to walk with her. We went up to the gym and walked for two miles. Everything felt fine. After we go home Joan started taking down the Christmas decorations and I spent time with a client. Truth be told I was a bit bored. I decided to go back to the gym. I took my running shoes. I was in no hurry. I warmed up and made sure my muscles were not going to cramp and I started to run. My knee had a slight twinge but no pain. I was impatient. I wanted to get it over with. I was flipping through songs on my IPod.

“Every step I’m taking, every move I make feels lost without direction, my faith is shaking.
But I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high.
There’s always gonna be another mountain, I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about whats waiting on the other side
It’s the climb”

The clouds parted and I saw a small ray of sunshine. My focus had been distorted. I had been training for perfection and no matter what I did I fell short. As she sung, “It aint about how fast I get there, it aint about what’s waiting on the other side. It’s the climb.”

Lately the climb has had a lot of rocks in the way. I went from my personal best of five miles to not being able to go a mile. I lost my focus and mostly I lost faith in me. I heard the voices, the ones that tell me “I cant do this.” And I was afraid they were right.

It’s not about medals and ribbons and personal bests. It’s about the goals and the hard work needed to get there. I ran a pain free mile and I’ll run another one today. Next week I’ll start training again for a 5K I want to run in February. I need to have a goal.

“There’s always gonna be another mountain, I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb”

Thank you Miley Cyrus



  
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SILLYHP1953 1/2/2011 3:30PM

    Good song...did she write it? If so, she definately inherited her father's song writing ability. You should forward your blog to her, she'd probably really appreciate knowing how the song helped you.

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/1/2011 5:00PM

    When you get injured you have to get back into running slooooooowly. Of course you felt like you weighed a million pounds!! It's only natural!

YOU GO JOHN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's hard to come back from injury and you treating yourself with loving kindness is a beautiful, wonderful thing. :)

Dimitra

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SPARKENISTA 12/31/2010 4:50PM

    John--As usual, this is so inspirational. I know you will build up to your personal best and surpass that to a new personal best.

I am taking this opportunity to wish you and yours a happy, healthy and prosperous 2011 and beyond!

Merry

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WALKNLOVE 12/31/2010 1:01PM

    Thanks John! I will be doing my best to read your blogs daily now...because you see, I have fallen to the bottom of my mountain & must re-begin my climb. May I run with perseverance and give myself grace when I need it, but most of all God, please help me succeed. You always provide such insight & Godly wisdom. Thanks again! See ya soon!

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TRENTDREAMER 12/31/2010 9:38AM

    "The clouds parted and I saw a small ray of sunshine. My focus had been distorted. I had been training for perfection and no matter what I did I fell short. As she sung, “It aint about how fast I get there, it aint about what’s waiting on the other side. It’s the climb.”

* Yeah, the training for perfection kind of shot my tires out as well this year.

Glad to hear that the knee is doing better.

Have a happy New Year!

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TRACEY5280 12/31/2010 9:32AM

    Music has a way of coming along at just the right time to help with that battle in the head. At a time in life I was waging a war in my head with that perfect thing I was brought to earth by a wonderful counselor - the only being that is perfect is God. BAM! That phrase has helped me many a time. Good luck in your journey this coming new year.

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KLEONIKI 12/31/2010 7:45AM

    I had never heard this song!
Thank you for the "soundtrack' offered for my "trip"
Luv you
Happier and merrier Year for you and your family
Kleoniki

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GO-LOEW 12/31/2010 12:12AM

    Said another way, The journey is the destination!

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JUNEAU2010 12/30/2010 10:03PM

    I am a couch potato today and am inspired by your blog! Thanks for sharing1

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KATJAMN 12/30/2010 1:05PM

    Great blog.
Your knee was just a speed bump, you are back on the right track mentally and physically.

yay a pain free mile.. that is a great big step in the right direction. Go YOU!!

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/30/2010 12:55PM

    Perfection--it's a false goal that we can never achieve, but somehow we keep trying. I know those voices all too well; they sometimes scream at me to stop in the first 10-15 minutes of a run. YAY for a pain-free mile and the ray of sunshine! It is about the goals and the hard work to get there; we need goals to keep us going. Funny how music can help bring things into focus again, isn't it?

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CARTOONB 12/30/2010 10:20AM

    As soon as I saw the title of your blog, I started singing that song in my head. I get it. I don't like to lose. It's hard. Good for you for getting out there and enjoying (or at least noticing) the climb. Good luck!

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REJ7777 12/30/2010 10:14AM

    So much of the battle is won or lost in our own head! emoticon

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NJMATTICE 12/30/2010 9:54AM

    Getting things in focus for the New Year with the help of Miss Cyrus. Who'duh thunk it? Gleaning that inspiration from wherever. I'm inspired! It's going to be a great 2011 with lots of climbing and lots of wonderful sights on the hill. I look forward to reading your inspirations along the way. Thanks for sharing them.
Love,
Nancy

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HDHAWK 12/30/2010 9:36AM

    I have the same "trying to be perfect" issue which had thrown my whole plan out the window on more than one occasion. It's an area I intend to improve on this year. Great song too!

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HLPRATT 12/30/2010 9:25AM

    I gotta check out that song!

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CAHUNO2 12/30/2010 9:03AM

    Both you and Miley nailed it!! I've been dealing with chronic pain since Oct. - I need to find a climb!! emoticon emoticon

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TIME4AFITME 12/30/2010 8:54AM

    Love that song!

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MINENA1 12/30/2010 8:52AM

    Oh I love that song. I have it saved to my favorites on my ipod. I listen to it everytime I need a pick-me-up. emoticon

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BAM0827 12/30/2010 8:44AM

    I use that as a cool down song a lot. It's a good song. Who would have thought Miley could be inspiring :)





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ARTHURTOM 12/30/2010 8:39AM

    I know about that climb.

I injured my hip in late October 2009 and haven't looked at my health the same since the injury. Only thing is I didn't injure myself during my workout...I did it at work. Jumping around like I was a Ninja instead of a 48 year old man.

I lost focus and spun out of control. Put back on 60+ pounds during my injury from not following my formula for success and taking steroids.

Funny thing, I'm not angry about it. All during the time it was happening I felt like a failure, but now, in retrospect, I see it was a challenge. I didn't fail. I learned.

Why?

Because it isn't about how fast I get there or what's waiting on the other side...it's the climb.

Tim

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STARLIGHT615 12/30/2010 8:35AM

    That is a great song!! Thank you for sharing and reminding me "It’s not about medals and ribbons and personal bests. It’s about the goals and the hard work needed to get there."!!!

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GESHANNON 12/30/2010 8:29AM

    That is a great song by Mylee Cyrus...so glad that you are doing better with your running....I had a pain in my upper thigh for a couple months, but I don't feel it any more when I run! It's the climb!

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Oh Very Young

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Long before they put him on the federal no fly list, back in the days when I had hair and Joan and I used to sit on the bed and pool our change to order KFC, Cat Stevens wrote a song called “Oh Very Young.” It crossed my mind this past week, it being Christmas and all. All of our babies are grown, the youngest being twenty four and the oldest going on thirty six. Christmas has become a sedate affair, with wives, fiancés and the like sitting in the living room and having a civilized exchange of gift cards while everyone sips a latte and smiles at each other. I miss the bedlam, the wrapping paper flying all over the living room, people hollering they needed AAA or AA or 9 Volt batteries, brothers fighting with each other because one of them thought the present the other one got should have been theirs. Dearest daughters looking at their mother and holding up a shirt or a skirt and saying “Really, mom. Do you know big I’d look wearing this?” I miss Joan staying up super late on Christmas Eve making sure they’d all gone to bed so she could put little surprises in their stockings. I miss filling a whole row at church on Christmas morning and murmuring a prayer that said “Okay Lord I got them here the rest is up to you!!”

They are ghosts now, those days. With each passing year the laughter gets a bit dimmer and the noise muffled. With six of them in one house I never quite knew how we afforded to not disappoint anyone. Their mother always knew where to go, what to get and how to stretch twenty five dollars into a hundred. There were two Christmases I was out of work and I was amazed how Joan took what we had and made them believe they had gotten the Hope Diamond for Christmas. The house is quiet now. They are off beginning their own traditions and that is as it should be. Part of me sits back very proudly and watches them grown and become aware and mature and all those wonderful things about being an adult. We don’t teach them any of that. We talk about the hard work, the sacrifice, the pain…….. We never share the joy of adult hood. I count myself as one very happy adult and I am glad my kids are starting to feel that in their lives. Part of me still wishes there was a mess that took forever to clean up, and yelling and shouting and wanting to go down the block still in their night clothes to show friends what they got.

Savor those moments if they are available to you right now. Savor them like you would something valuable and precious. They are a very priceless commodity. My kids are aghast when I let the DGD run all over the place, leaving a mess hither and yon. They complain I never let them do it. They are right. There are some things we just learn with age and sometimes wisdom can be learned from someone who doesn’t even reach your knee. Next Christmas, birthday or great family celebration, grab your beverage of choice find a comfortable chair that allows you a good view and inhale the insanity. If you have to let loose, let loose. If you have to fight the urge to pick up each piece of wrapping paper as it touches the ground, then handcuff yourself to the chair. Drink in every second of it and burn it in your memory. Soon enough, as I am finding out, it will all be quiet, and you will only have that blessed memory to make you smile.
Today I am grateful for those pleasant memories.

I hope there is hot water at the gym.

  
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TRACEY5280 12/31/2010 9:36AM

    Love this as we begin our journey in to this next stage. Totally love the last sentence!

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GO-LOEW 12/31/2010 12:20AM

    Wonderful blog, making me wish that my 35 year old daughter lived a bit closer than on the absolute other side of this country.

Have a very happy new year filled with many wonderful moments.

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CHERIRIDDELL 12/29/2010 11:33PM

    And the circle of life goes round ....

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TRIPLE_EMME 12/29/2010 3:48PM

    Truly Beautiful!

Celebrating this holiday with Little Miss Toddler, I will say that this was my best Christmas... EVER!

The wonder, awe and excitement in her eyes was absolutely priceless.

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DEBRITA01 12/29/2010 2:36PM

    I could totally relate to your blog. God, in His goodness, gives us a second chance...they are called 'grandchildren". Like you, I enjoy my little guy to the fullest and don't sweat the small stuff...

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MYOWNHERO 12/29/2010 2:07PM

    Beautiful! I feel much the same way about my family. "Well done, good and faithful servant!"

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JUNEAU2010 12/29/2010 1:27PM

    Well written! Your thoughts echo my thoughts about my childhood memories!

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RWETHAIRYET 12/29/2010 1:21PM

    You're so right about those "ghosts". This year my 2 grandchildren are both 1 1/2, and for the first time in years christmas was a wild, fun, exciting time. It was great and so uplifting to have that chaos with the young ones underfoot. I'm going to treasure each and every one of these that I have.

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ISHIIGIRL 12/29/2010 12:39PM

    Thanks for the reminder. I do cherish my Christmases with my kids as they get older.

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REJ7777 12/29/2010 12:10PM

    "They are off beginning their own traditions and that is as it should be. " Sigh. Yes, that is as it should be. But it's important for us "oldies" to help those youngsters realize just how precious and temporary the bedlam really is. emoticon

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CARTOONB 12/29/2010 10:15AM

    Your civilized Christmas sipping lattes sounds horrible! LOL! My kids are still young enough that we had a mess and I loved it! Not many more years of that for me.

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/29/2010 9:55AM

    You are so right, John. I remind my daughter regularly to treasure every moment with her son because it goes by so quickly. Fortunately we get a bit of a flashback to when she was small because our grandson is just like her: quick to tear into the packages and leaving a trail of wrapping paper in his wake. He's 18 months old now and has this opening presents thing down; got a present? He'll help open it! It's not what's inside that matters, it's getting it open that's the fun. Enjoy your workout, hopefully with hot water at the gym for afterwards!

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SILLYHP1953 12/29/2010 9:51AM

    You brought tears to my eyes. It struck me last Christmas that there is going to be a year when I have no "kids" sleeping over on Christmas Eve. My youngest is 25 and my 27 year old daughter still lives with us. They were both sleeping here Christmas Eve but we didn't sit down and unwrap anything until 11 am. Everyone took showers and got dressed, no pajamas, no up at 5 am. Thankfully around noon I had three grandchildren arrive but they'd already had their early morning presents so they had more patience than usual. My tears are from not appreciating what I had when I had it, not appreciating every single moment of their young lives.

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_AIYANNA_ 12/29/2010 9:42AM

    Thanks for putting things into perspective for me once more, John :) My daughter Nikoletta is now 6 and my son Pantelis is almost 3. Their noise and pandemonium is sometimes too much to handle but I agree with you that those moments are the ones you look back on with a smile.

It sounds as if you have a lovely family. You must be very proud as I am sure they are of you too.

Hugs,
Elen xxx

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HLPRATT 12/29/2010 9:33AM

    When the kids were little, so many older strangers at the grocery store would tell me to enjoy every minute of their childhood, that it would go by quick. All I can say is how right they were. It just flew by. How did my kids get to be 24 and 20? And I do miss the wonder and chaos of those Christmas's when Santa existed. I look forward to spoiling grandkids.

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GESHANNON 12/29/2010 9:27AM

    Thank God for the memories...I have a 19 year old and a 14 year old. I really enjoyed Christmas morning with them. I see them growing and I know that some day I will be in your shoe, and I am thankful for Now! My mind kept going back to the times with my parents and siblings. Our family house sold this past summer and I was flooded with memories of Christmas past. My Mom is now in assisted living and my Dad has been gone for 18 years now. Like I said, thank God for the memories!

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HDHAWK 12/29/2010 9:26AM

    What a wonderful reminder John. My youngest is 16 and the other 2 are grown. No grandchildren yet, so yes, it's pretty quiet around here. It's so enjoyable when we can all spend time together. It gets more difficult every year to find a time that works for everyone.

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JESPAH 12/29/2010 8:28AM

    First off, Joan sounds like a pearl beyond price.

And, I agree -- we can often get so very wrapped up in the quest for perfection that we forget that it's often the imperfect times that are the best.

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HONORINGGOD 12/29/2010 8:06AM

    cat stevens what the heck happened there?, Yusuf Islam (born Steven Demetre Georgiou;way to many drugs I guess. lol christmas will never be as it once was but think of the grandkids rippen it up . thanks for the flash back ,john emoticon

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I'm Going Back To Bed......... Hopefully It Wont Break

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Mallory is our special needs dog. She is four and we rescued her about three years ago. She had been emotionally abused and can be very needy, especially at 3:50 AM. I know this because that’s when she woke me up this morning and yesterday morning. While she may have issues she is intuitive enough to have them at the same time every day. She sits by my side of the bed and whines. She doesn’t want to eat, play, or go outside. She wants someone to be with her.

By 6:00 AM I had a headache. It was one of those “I aint had enough sleep headaches.” It’s the kind that starts between your eyes and radiates outward. As positive a person as I am even that kind of headache clouds my usually sunny disposition. Joan got up at 6:30 and I proceeded to pick a fight with her over absolutely nothing. Well actually it was how I wanted to find someone to take the d*&nm dog and shoot her.

Joan was supposed to be off of work today, but the co-worker who normally calls in sick at least once weekly but runs with the boss so nothing is ever said to her, called in sick and so our mini vacation day was put on hold. I decided I might as well go the gym. I really needed to run. One mile into my run my left foot and ankle start feeling funny and I sit down for a bit and observe that my ankle is swollen. It sort of hurts but not really, it’s just swollen. I walk for a bit, decide not to tempt fate. Now I am hurt on top of being tired.

I head for the showers. I thought maybe standing under the warm stream of hot water someone else is paying for might turn my mood around. Half way through my shower the hot water vanishes and is replaced by really cold water. At age 57 I am not in need of a cold shower. I rinse, dry and get dressed in a big hurry.

The really scary thing about all of this?

The day is not half over yet.

  
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JPRICE217 12/30/2010 7:39AM

    emoticonsorry yi=ou had such a bad morning. Hope the rest of the day goes better.

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LEANJEAN6 12/29/2010 7:49AM

    But--you got through all that--and you werte able to blog about it!--So--keep on keeping on----You are so lucky to have Spark---and that wonderful dog will help you walk---- I enjoyed reading your blog as I stepped in the cat food this morning---so--guess we all have bad mornings--Ha Ha--- emoticon

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DOLLBABE56 12/29/2010 7:36AM

    Well, you certainly did have a difficult morning didn't you? We had the same type of problem with Poppet until we let her sleep in the bed with us. Now she hogs the bed. lol Hopefully today will be a better one.

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REJ7777 12/28/2010 9:47PM

    emoticon Good night. emoticon

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GEEMAWEST 12/28/2010 8:58PM

    Yea, what Barb said. emoticon Because that is exactly what you would say to any one of us in the same situation.

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STEELKICKIN 12/28/2010 6:20PM

    Oh boy. I totally get what you're going through. I could even feel your headache! I spent the day shopping with my daughter who wanted to a completely new wardrobe to go back to college on and after six hours, I was ready to pull my hair out and scream. I am not a shopper....I like to get to the store, get what I need and GO. She is calm, patient, and contemplating and I held my cool until the line we were in decided to cut off right before us; the lady proceeded to tell us that we would have to use the next line which was a mile long. I stood there with my mouth open and looked at Bre and said, "That is just incredibly RUDE!" making sure the cashier heard me. Later, after reflection, I should have just smiled and bit my tongue, but like you, it was just one of those days. Now, I've got a headache and a daughter that thinks I was rude. Oh well.

Tomorrow will be better. Right?? Of course it will. And your puppy? Maybe he will sleep through the night and let you get the rest your body is craving. You're in my prayers, dear friend. Say one for me, too!

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/28/2010 5:36PM

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KLEONIKI 12/28/2010 5:33PM

    I know, one of those days...!
I read your blog with a slight smile on my face due to the irony in your tone ..but
i cannot claim to had the same smile all the previous days i had to suffer everything, absolutely everything going wrong..same story only that the part of the dog was played by my old and ill mother during my short trip to Athens...!
Maybe the stars are to blame and the med is to stay as cool as possible and even philosophize a bit.
Hugs
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ALEXSMOMMYRUNS 12/28/2010 3:41PM

    After all that, I'd get back in bed too. Good luck and feel better!!

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FYRSTORME1 12/28/2010 1:43PM

    Okay...here's the deal..everyone has had a bad day or several..i know i have had more than my share.....The good news is you have hit bottom-of-the-barrel so to speak and there is no where to go but up......Take your nap and maybe things will look better....after all.....it can't possibly get any worse....I have added you as a friend..if you need anything at all,even if it is only to vent..i am here for you

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CARTOONB 12/28/2010 1:00PM

    Or...you have a loving puppy who wants your attention. And your wife has a good job where she is respected and folks know she can do the job. And you are healthy enough to run and smart enough to stop before a major injury occurs. And cold water was a refreshing way to get you dressed in a hurry. And you still have over half the day for more blessings! emoticon emoticon

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CINDYC53 12/28/2010 12:53PM

    Thanks for sharing - hopefully it helped to vent a little! Tomorrow will be BETTER, I can feel it!
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_AIYANNA_ 12/28/2010 12:38PM

    Oh, John!!! I really feel for you. I hope by now you have got some rest and your day is starting to look up xxx

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JUNEAU2010 12/28/2010 12:23PM

    Special love to Mallory. I have had special needs pets and I find the more I focus on their needs, the better my own situation and attitude are. Give her some extra love from me!

I sprained my ankle and wrist, wrenched my knees and back when I fell yesterday. I feel your pain! Pain has a way of nibbling at the psyche. I hope things turn around! Snap out of the negative thinking or it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/28/2010 11:40AM

    Some days are just like that. Hope it gets better the rest of the day! If not, going back to bed sounds like a plan.

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TWOTIMESS 12/28/2010 11:33AM

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Bed is where you, your wife and dog will be safest! Sounds like a sinus headache. Take care and hope your day improves!

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HDHAWK 12/28/2010 11:32AM

    Go back to bed, get some much needed rest, and start over. I love my dogs too, but they can be a real pain sometimes!

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SILLYHP1953 12/28/2010 11:28AM

    Going back to bed sounds like a good idea!!

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I'm Going Back To Bed..... Hopefully It Wont Break!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Mallory is our special needs dog. She is four and we rescued her about three years ago. She had been emotionally abused and can be very needy, especially at 3:50 AM. I know this because that’s when she woke me up this morning and yesterday morning. While she may have issues she is intuitive enough to have them at the same time every day. She sits by my side of the bed and whines. She doesn’t want to eat, play, or go outside. She wants someone to be with her.

By 6:00 AM I had a headache. It was one of those “I aint had enough sleep headaches.” It’s the kind that starts between your eyes and radiates outward. As positive a person as I am even that kind of headache clouds my usually sunny disposition. Joan got up at 6:30 and I proceeded to pick a fight with her over absolutely nothing. Well actually it was how I wanted to find someone to take the d*&nm dog and shoot her.

Joan was supposed to be off of work today, but the co-worker who normally calls in sick at least once weekly but runs with the boss so nothing is ever said to her, called in sick and so our mini vacation day was put on hold. I decided I might as well go the gym. I really needed to run. One mile into my run my left foot and ankle start feeling funny and I sit down for a bit and observe that my ankle is swollen. It sort of hurts but not really, it’s just swollen. I walk for a bit, decide not to tempt fate. Now I am hurt on top of being tired.

I head for the showers. I thought maybe standing under the warm stream of hot water someone else is paying for might turn my mood around. Half way through my shower the hot water vanishes and is replaced by really cold water. At age 57 I am not in need of a cold shower. I rinse, dry and get dressed in a big hurry.

The really scary thing about all of this?

The day is not half over yet.

  
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GIRANIMAL 12/28/2010 3:10PM

    Yikes. Sorry to hear of your rough start, John! I have these days like every day, that's why I'm such a crab! LOL Take care of that ankle. Mallory sounds like a sweetheart but definitely a lot of work. 3:50 a.m. wakeups are the reason I have no kids!!

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SPOOKYTHECAT 12/28/2010 1:49PM

    Oh, you poor thing! I hope your day gets better!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/28/2010 1:37PM

    I have one of those coworkers. Shocker she called in sick today! It has made me decide to look for a new job.

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NCHOPEFUL 12/28/2010 1:32PM

    awwww, sorry you're having a rough day!! hopefully your nap will help! emoticon emoticon

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Removing The Stain of Guilt

Monday, December 27, 2010


Availible on you tube at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1mMgB7s0
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JURI62 12/30/2010 11:44AM

    Are you sure guilt serves no purpose?! It's the cornerstone of my Catholic upbring!!!...lol...
Thanks for a great blogHugs, Judy

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JPRICE217 12/30/2010 7:48AM

    Thank you for this blog I needed to hear it I have fell off the wagon so much this month and the guilt was with me Today is a new day.

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/28/2010 5:44PM

    Loved the adam and eve line. NICE vlog thanks, good notes!!!

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GIRANIMAL 12/28/2010 3:20PM

    Thanks for another timely message! I ate rather poorly the past few days (there is never a vegetable in sight at my family's house, and I should have remembered this and brought a giant salad!) and yet my guilt is mostly unrelated to that. I am, however, feeling very stuck and bored and restless, and for me, stewing about those things can bring about the same useless rocking-chair feelings. (I envision mine as more of a hamster wheel.)

So anyway, I am glad you've got some healthy perspective this time of year! It's the easiest time to fall totally off track and back into feeling helpless. I'm glad to see you're still in control. See?! A cookie or even two really does not have any power over Almighty John!

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NEENSTER1 12/28/2010 1:52PM

    emoticon words to live by. Thank God for your Grand mom. emoticon for sharing what was on your heart. Be Encouraged. Today is another day closer to our goal. Oh emoticon emoticon

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CINDYC53 12/28/2010 1:01PM

    Great blog - we're all in the same boat, I think! I'm not being too extreme with my goals this week, just working on getting back on track. Every move in that direction feels GOOD! Have a great week, John :-)

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ATHENAFOREVER81 12/28/2010 12:19PM

    I really needed to hear this blog! Thanks for sharing!

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CHILDOFGOD4LIFE 12/28/2010 7:40AM

    Your neighbor sure meant well, but obviously she does not understand how a sweet junkie operates. She should have brought oranges to you and apples or berries to your wife. I had relatives who meant well by sending me all kinds of sweets from Scotland - Shortbread (several kinds), Fudge, Fruitcake. Then there was a cookie, fruit and coffee table at the Y for our water class. Myself and one other person brought some fruit. I did eat the fruit, but gave in to several cookies. My daughter-in-law made pumpkin bread and had other sweets for Christmas. I indulged with all of it. Yes, I gained several pounds of my weight back, and yes, there was plenty of guilt. But as your smart granny said, and you replaced the word rocking with guilt......it will get you no where, except maybe make you eat to make the guilt temporally feel better. So today is another day and a day to move on. The sweets are out of the house and the other things that do not tempt me and call out my name can be eaten a little bit at a time. They will be counted in my food log....something I neglected over the holidays. I do not think the totals would have been able to fit into my log!!! By God forgives me and I must forgive myself and move on.

God Bless you!
Carol from NE Ohio
emoticon and so can I !!!

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GESHANNON 12/27/2010 9:54PM

    Thanks for this blog.....I've been feeling a lot of guilt lately...and I'm glad I came across your vlog....Just what I needed to hear.....
Goodbye GUILT....Tomorrow is a new day!

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SILLYHP1953 12/27/2010 9:42PM

    A message I needed to hear today...and every day.
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GEEMAWEST 12/27/2010 8:31PM

    Great message! Your grandmother was a very smart lady.


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CARTOONB 12/27/2010 2:47PM

    I agree that there is no room for guilt. You did it, deal with it, move on.

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SLIM.CHICK 12/27/2010 1:13PM

    Worry is a thief that robs you of your happiness.
Guilt is abusing oneself.
Use the energy productively and see how you can do better tomorrow. emoticon

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/27/2010 12:16PM

    Wise words, John. Guilt is unproductive; we need to be aware and make good choices along the way, but we are not and will not be perfect this side of heaven, so chances are we'll make less than ideal choices sometimes. We can learn from the mistakes if we are willing to do so. Keep pressing forward; we will make it if we do not give up!

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MISSROCKABILLY 12/27/2010 11:32AM

    Thank you so much for sharing these thoughts with us this morning. What a powerful message to come across first thing this morning, and just what I needed to hear!


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SUNRISE14 12/27/2010 11:09AM

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MKPRINCESS007 12/27/2010 11:05AM

    oh yeah, man..........isn't guilt something??While it is hugely unproductive, it does sometimes feel like it was built into my DNA! HA! So, I agree that we can beat ourselves over the head forever more. I have refused to look back at what I ate and the exercise I didn't do. I managed to pull a Christmas together when I didn't think I could this year. My dear friend prepared food for me and my family to have over the holidays. I feel truly blessed. So, I am going to focus on the positives and move forward. Hope you will join me!

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AZCUPCAKE 12/27/2010 10:51AM

    You obviously inherited your grandmother's wisdom and kindness. What a message. I was smiling AND weeping at the same time. I am going to treat your message today as a homework assignment, and I am going to put my guilt in the garbage can right now. You really know how to broach a sensitive subject and make it "okay" to talk about and LET GO OF. Thank you, John. Thank you over and over again. emoticon

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HLPRATT 12/27/2010 10:11AM

    Thanks I'm going to get rid of my guilt for all these sweets I've been eating and somehow get off of them for the new year. You are right it's hard to say no to all these sweets which are everywhere. Realism I like that.

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MOMGABE 12/27/2010 10:00AM

    Thanks for your insights, John. I will not feel guilty about all the "junk" I consumed. Today is an excellent day for me to get back on track. I recorded my breakfast on my food tracker and I exercised (maybe not perfectly but I did something.) I like your idea from last week about starting fresh. So on January 1st, I will weigh myself and reset my weight loss tracker to zero. 2011 is a brand new year and it's time to challenge myself again. emoticon

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REJ7777 12/27/2010 9:29AM

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FREDIA2 12/27/2010 9:12AM

    Thanks! Your grandmother was a wise woman and you my friend are a wise man

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GRANDMA1951 12/27/2010 8:24AM

    This was great. Yeah, I watched my food (mostly) but I didn't exercise like I should have. So I was feeling guilty too. You made me realize that it's another day and I can get back on track TODAY.

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KELLY40222 12/27/2010 7:46AM

    Grandma was indeed very wise. I too have hit the 'reset' button and I am moving forward! Thank you for this great vlog!

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