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Finding Self Love In All of This

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Somewhere, someplace and somehow we got a notion in our head that asking other people for help is a fatal character flaw. I’m speaking mostly to my fellow people pleasers. The rest of you can read along.

We look in the mirror in the morning and we don’t ever like what we see. I mean, if your mind set is to please others to gain approval, you have to be absolutely perfect in all you do just to be equal and on par with the rest of the world. I mean if you really were equal you wouldn’t be overweight right? That’s how we think a lot of times. Everyone else is stronger, more agile, smarter, and funnier. …… Everyone but me and you. We have to be perfect because for some odd reason when we were first created we had the misfortune of being placed on the reject pile and from then on someone or a group of someone’s reminded us we are different. We are ten points behind before the game even starts. So we trudge through our days and apply a heavy dose of emotional make up on our souls so that the world won’t see all our nasty little blemishes. We live in the age of self-reliance, beauty and the man or woman who braves the elements to find eternal victory against all odds and BTW if you don’t measure up to that standard please go to the back of the line. We smile, put on the proverbial happy face and please oh please do not mention failure. Just look at all the shiny happy skinny people and dream. If you follow our plan, our prescription and our program you to will be shiny, happy and skinny.

Huge problem here, really huge problem. How many of us come from a core belief of self-love and self-worth? How many of those shiny happy skinny people is shiny and happy one year, two years or even five years from now. Shhhhhhh John don’t bring THAT up!!! Diets fail and so do most alleged self-help programs because of the first word in it ---- self. We are taught to go it alone.

Yes, if you track your food and exercise regularly you will lose weight. You will reach a goal and you will celebrate. But if somewhere along the way you don’t unlock the door of your own value and worth, it will all come creeping back on. We call it different names; a plateau is the most common. It’s the period of time when the light bulb should go on and tell me that hard work isn’t enough. Running a 5K isn’t going to give me self-love and self-esteem, losing sixty four pounds only proves I can control my input and extend my output. What they should do is validate something I already know.

I know that I don’t eat the cookie because I am worth that effort. I’m a child of God. I walk away from situations that would otherwise trash my food plan because I am worth the bit of frustration and anger. I get over it. I am the reason I do this. Not my wife, my kids, my friends or even you. I love your love but I’m doing this for me.

I know that my rather large butt goes to the gym every day because I deserve to have that wonderful feeling inside of me I get from a workout. I deserve the best trainer, the best dietician and the best nutrition plan. I deserve it because I know my own value and worth. I love me.

I hang around with you. You motivate me, you inspire me and you cause me to look deep into myself and realize it is just not about what goes into my mouth but what goes into my head and heart also. I know that I cant do this alone no matter how wonderful I am.

Three things that when we master will assure you and I that any “plan” we embrace will work. I have come to realize this plateau I am on is a period of time for to ask myself just how much I value me?

Hopefully a lot!!!

  
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ANEPANALIPTI 12/15/2010 12:05PM

    Oh John, you're so awesome... Copying this one into my journal... How ironic that I went MIA at this moment when this was the exact moment I needed THIS most? Ah, proves your point ever so beautifully about how it CANT be ALL self. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Vanessa

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RACINGSLUG 12/11/2010 6:43PM

    Learning to have compassion for myself is the hardest lesson I ever had to learn, but once I figured it out, it changed everything. i have to remind myself every day. When I meditate I just let my pain rest, let it just be, and acknowledge that it's a universal pain, the fear of not being good enough, the fear of not being loved. It's deep in everyone, deep in the shiny skinny people too. In that moment I can extend that compassion to myself, and beyond myself, to others. Through my own pain, I gain insight into the rest of the world's pain, and for some reason just knowing I am not alone gives me extraordinary comfort. I just let it all rest.

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MARCYNA 12/10/2010 2:06PM

    After the first three lines I saw myself there....Great idea for plateauing,...finding my worth and value emoticon emoticon

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WVTXPEN 12/10/2010 8:59AM

    Way to go John...We need to be used, we need to be involved, we need others...so important to have those cheer us on or console us when we need it...I could not do what I do without my partner and those who care...best of Luck

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EMTFF376 12/10/2010 8:46AM

    Are you inside my head? :) It is so hard for me to ask for help... and yes, I do feel like its a character flaw... but only in me! I spend my part time career helping others! People ask me for help all the time and I don't think less of them. Why can't I say the same for myself??

Oy, oy, oy. You hit the nail on the head.

In other news, I see your background picture has changed. Did you run? How do you feel? I'm proud of you!

Have a great weekend!

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CARTOONB 12/9/2010 9:23PM

    Sounds like you are getting to that place you need to be. Congratulations!!!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/9/2010 4:27PM

    I'm in a funky mood today. I'm still loving myself but I'm hating everyone else. LOL. emoticon

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TRIPLE_EMME 12/9/2010 2:34PM

    Thanks for another good read!

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MKPRINCESS007 12/9/2010 12:50PM

    You know we share this common challenge: the one that tells us it is better to fail than ask for help. However, I have learned some valuable lessons of late. You just read my blog, you know that I have struggled the last few months. However, I am maintaining and am happy. All because I asked for help.

Thanks for your wonderful blog. You are my hero too! :)

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APPLEADAY2010 12/9/2010 11:49AM

    Thanks for a great blog - you have given me something to think about and reflect on. xx

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CATHERINEL66 12/9/2010 11:35AM

    John, you're right. We're all worth the self nurturing, the caretaking of our minds and spirits, and the best darned nutrition, fitness and self help available.

And in particular, we're worth the frustration, the sweat, the feel-good endorphins, the saying "no" to the small things to get the bigger thing (balanced health, happiness and heart), and defining our boundries.



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LOVEZ2SEW 12/9/2010 11:31AM

  Excellent, well said blog! I told my husband, I made up my mind that it's now or never on getting healthy. I will be 50 in two years, never ever did I think I would be at this cross road but I'm here. I was given a gift of chronic pain and illness and I'm learning each day I am worth taking care of myself. I appreciate my husband's support and love but I have to do this for me. ^5's

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GEEMAWEST 12/9/2010 10:34AM

    Well I'm certainly glad I hadn't put my mascara on yet or it would have been smeared all over my face from the tears.

You hit the nail on the head.....AGAIN!!

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HLPRATT 12/9/2010 10:15AM

    Great thoughts John. I do need other people too. I get off kilter when I start thinking I can go it alone.

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ELSEEBEE 12/9/2010 8:16AM

    Wonderful blog! You have beautifully said what I feel. I had hit "bottom" a few years ago and then was given the "gift" of cancer. When you're suddenly facing a death sentence, you values shift. Then I found Spark and started moving myself towards the goal of a lighter, but more importantly healthier, me. So, I must get off the computer now and head for my morning workout- it's what makes me feel great every day even if I'm "plateauing" these days.

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Painful Wisdom

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

One of the trainers at my gym was interviewed in our local newspaper. A comment he made caught my eye; “No pain, no gain,” he said. “Went out with leg warmers, if it hurts stop exercising!”

I was standing at the door of the local immediate care facility very early this morning. I had a hard time sleeping. I was running yesterday afternoon, when I felt a pain in my left leg and glute. It hurt enough that I finished the lap I was running and headed for the shower. I wasn’t in agony but it hurt. I went to bed and tossed and turned. I got up at five and waited in the cold for the door to open. After about ten minutes of poking and prodding the doctor asked me a question. “You enjoy horse racing?” I nodded. “Well you basically did what a horse does when his hoof lands on the track the wrong way. The upper part of your leg went one way and the lower part of your leg went another. You are really lucky you didn’t hurt your knee.” The diagnosis was a pulled muscle and I was told to rest. It hurts to sit, to stand, to lie down or simply to exist. This pain qualifies as an official “pain in the butt.” However, I do not feel guilty or down, or bummed out. I have to rest so I can run another day. I do not like it. It’s disrupted my routine and rhythm; but it is not the first time it happened and it won’t be the last.

Wisdom comes from not always liking the circumstances we are in but dealing with them positively. Sitting here this morning I realized I haven’t had a day off in about two weeks anyway. The doctor told me to take it a day at a time. In relation to my health journey I am maturing. This isn’t even a setback, just something I have to deal with. I'm not pleased to be in pain but it is what it is.

It’s not my first 5K or a ten pound loss or a motivator’s award but to me it is just as important. It shows I am growing up as a healthy person. That pleases me.

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/8/2010 11:45PM

    Sounds like the trainer is an idiot. Better listen to your M.D. and your own instincts. There is nothing worth risking a permanent injury for. Yes, exercise may be uncomfortable at times but it should not be painful.

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/8/2010 2:06PM

    So glad you didn't do anything too bad to yourself, John. Very wise to have it checked out AND to take the doctor's advice. Part of this process is learning to listen to our bodies and then to pay attention to what it's saying.

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JPRICE217 12/8/2010 8:27AM

    Take care of yourself hope you get to feeling better real soon.

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CARTOONB 12/7/2010 10:26PM

    That's a hard thing to do...take it easy and heal. Good for you for approaching this in a healthy, positive way. Enjoy your time as a pain in the butt!

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HDHAWK 12/7/2010 9:19PM

    So sorry to hear about the muscle pull, but I know you'll weather it just like everything else that comes your way. I started my new ST routine today and only did 5 reps of push ups. My sprained thumb is healing, but it didn't like that exercise. I'm really learning to cut myself some slack. I did everything else, so what's the big deal. I used to think (a very short while ago) that doing that would put me behind and I would have to somehow make up what I missed. I'm focusing more on doing the best I can without having to get everything perfect. Think you did a blog on that not too long ago! emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/7/2010 5:25PM

    Awwwwww, YIKES!!!! You know you really are racking up the cool injury stories huh? ;-) Take this time for reflection you'll be back before you know it ! emoticon

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TRIPLE_EMME 12/7/2010 5:03PM

    So sorry to hear about your injury!

Take good care of yourself and hope you are enjoying your day of rest!

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WANDAH3 12/7/2010 4:48PM

    Sending healing thoughts your way. Good thing you are not a race horse that is badly hurt...they take them out a shoot them! *grin*

Hugs,
Wanda

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CATHERINEL66 12/7/2010 4:42PM

    John, get better soon. Let me know if you need some recommendations for the Netflix instant shows!

Seriously I'm glad you got it checked out. Get better soon.

Can you do some foam roller work and roll out your butt and thighs? That would help because it stimulates the blood flow and circulation.

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GEEMAWEST 12/7/2010 2:40PM

    At least you caused your own pain in the butt instead of someone else causing it for you.
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Hope you heal quickly! Enjoy the down time.

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CMBELISLE 12/7/2010 12:32PM

    I had a Yoga instructor who always started every class with, "No Pain, No Pain" as a reminder that if it hurts, stop.

It is good that you're taking it in stride too - no pun intended. Injuries are a part of life and how we handle them makes a big difference in our recovery.

Good luck - I'm glad you didn't do more damage - keep up the great work!

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CBLANK20091 12/7/2010 9:43AM

  I hope you get well real soon!!
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MYSTERY4EVER 12/7/2010 9:40AM

    Sorry to hear about your injury. I am dealing with a similar one right now. It is so hard not to exercise once it has become a part of daily life. Take care and rest up. I like your doctor's analogy. No fancy tests, just rest.

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TIME4AFITME 12/7/2010 9:35AM

    Sorry that you got hurt. Take care

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CATHYJR73 12/7/2010 9:03AM

    emoticonto hear about your injury but glad to see your positive attitude and see you working through it!! Keep up the great work and you will achieve your goals!!

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MARCYNA 12/7/2010 8:37AM

    Sorry for what happened you, I'm really sorry for this hurt.
The way you're accepting it all is marvellous, ain't it a sign you're becoming more & more the wonderful person you were supposed to be???
I'm really emoticonfor the pain hope the doc gave you some medication,,,anyway I'm glad it did not get any worse.
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I'm My Own Best Friend or

Monday, December 06, 2010

There was a fashion show in my living room yesterday afternoon. Both DD’s stopped by to share what they would be wearing during the holidays. I had the good sense to retreat downstairs and keep the NFL company for a while. When I did come upstairs I’d hear a variation of the following “How come it doesn’t look like it does on ……" Fill in the blank here with the names of people I am not aware of. I gathered up my back pack and headed to the gym. When I returned I met the DD’s and the DW walking out the door. “We have to return all of this. It’s not right.” I’ll have to admit to you I laughed a bit as I went inside the house. “Why buy it in the first place,” I thought.

Oh really?

It was too cold to walk outside this morning so I went to the gym. If you are not wide awake when you get there you will be after five minutes of listening to the 5:30AM spinning class instructor barking out orders to her attentive pupils. As I walked around the track I started to think I wasn’t a whole lot different than my daughters. I got caught up in all the hype and thought I was ready to spin. I am not. I will be in about thirty pounds, but I’m not today. If I did it today I would fail and who wants that? My personal trainer keeps dropping hints that I should start taking her power pump class. I will, when my body is ready. I audited that class one night. I am not ready and if I begin comparing myself to those sleek and svelte spinners and pumpers and not reach the mark………….. I have created a cocktail for disaster. I’m not knocking anyone who participates in those activities and I’m not slacking off either. They are GOALS. They are not within reach today, but my current activity is pointing me towards them, very soon.

It all goes back to wanting to eat lunch with the cool kids. We all hoped for an invitation to “the table.” Most of us never got it and then spent the rest of our adult lives trying to prove we deserved that lunch invitation. As I walked this morning I got a big old goofy grin inside. It took me forty years to realize I never wanted to sit there to begin with. I just wanted to be like everyone else. Just like my daughters trying to look like…………… I want to be accepted and loved.

I am my own best friend. I know me, I know what makes me tick, and I know what works and what doesn’t. I will never accept you until I accept me. When I look at you, those people I truly love I don’t see what you want to be; I see who you are. I see your humor, your kindness, your creativity, your passion for healthy living and exercise. I don’t see a well sculpted model in designer workout clothes. I see three dimensional human beings who break their foot getting dressed for work in the morning, who hurt their backs riding their bikes and who gain nine pounds in a week and can’t explain why. The cool kids don’t exist. They never, ever did. The cool kids were a creation of my mind and yours in an attempt to resolve our inadequacies. They were figments of people who wanted to spin at 5:30 AM and weren’t ready to do it just yet.

I made out a running timeline last night. It started on May 10 when I began C25K Training and ended on October 29 when I ran five miles for the very first time. In between there were some mile stones. I’m not finished, running is one thing I am doing and doing well, but it started with a thirty second run back in May. I looked at the time line and felt a sense of satisfaction.

Who wants a best friend that’s no fun to be around? It’s better for me to make this journey with myself knowing what I can do right now and what becomes a short or long term goal to work towards. Thanks for being part of my journey.

  
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CIVIAV 12/13/2010 9:31AM

    Your words reach me where it counts. I'm subscribing and look forward to getting to know you.

Thanks for your writing!

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TRIPLE_EMME 12/7/2010 5:02PM

    This was another great blog, John!

It is so true that we need to enjoy hanging around ourselves... after all, we are who we hang with... right?!!!

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CHASINGOLIVE 12/7/2010 2:54PM

    Just what I needed this afternoon - your blogs are awesome& so powerful!

Hugs,
Aly

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REJ7777 12/6/2010 10:11PM

    I'm 60 years old. It was really helpful for me to read this blog, so I can remember to celebrate my progress, rather than be frustrated by my limitations. I've got a goofy grin on my face too. emoticon

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HDHAWK 12/6/2010 7:14PM

    Another gem! Glad you escaped the "girl drama" of trying on all those clothes!

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/6/2010 6:26PM

    They were figments of people who wanted to spin at 5:30 AM and weren’t ready to do it just yet.


POWERFUL stuff here John!!!!!! emoticon

Vanessa

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GIRANIMAL 12/6/2010 12:38PM

    Hey, John! I am so glad you were able to assess and be proud of your accomplishments while not beating down on yourself about places to which you've not yet made it. You will go as far as your body and spirit will allow, when they are ready in unison.

And emoticon for that reminder! My latest low-grade worry has been that I can't seem to break this weight for many months, regardless of how closely I am following my program or not. Also that I may never progress athletically -- "why can't I be a runner? or a REAL cyclist?" -- despite the fact that I am still contending with flaring, long-term injury-related pain. I mean, let's be realistic! emoticon Regardless of where I think I want to be, I cannot ignore where I am -- just how far I've really come! -- in relation to where I was.

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MARCYNA 12/6/2010 12:16PM

    Thanks for being my marvellous friend, whatever your mood.
I think it's so wise learning to be our best friends and it takes time & effort. I am visiting gyms and looking forward to finding the Right One because I know that otherwise I may not attend it , I am not ready to attend I gym I don't feel at ease in.
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BRYLIA 12/6/2010 11:34AM

    John, I love your blogs because they usually give me "food for thought" and most times put a smile on my face. Thanks for reminding us that we are all special and worth it. Anything we desire is achievable with faith, confidence and hard work! Keep up the good work doing what works and motivates you. I'd sit at your table anytime :)!! Have a great 4 days

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/6/2010 10:42AM

    I'm glad to see you standing firm and not allowing yourself to be pushed beyond your exercise limits. As an R.N. I can attest to the fact that it's a bad idea to push your body to places it does not want to go. You have to ease into this or often deal with a permanent injury.

I never buy anything I don't try on in the store. Sizes for women are all over the place.

Great blog, John, and it would be nice if some people reading it would also get the message. The real prize isn't eating with the cool kids but having the ability to eat at any table and with anyone you choose and that is completely attainable as you well know. - To be able to flow in and out of the local caste system with ease is something that almost anyone can do. I, and to a lesser extent my son and husband, all have that ability and it's not difficult to achieve. If you value your worth others will as well. People are attracted to confidence. I've noticed that many of the prom candidates in the paper these days are often fairly overweight so if we are allowing our weight to hold us back it is most likely of our own doing. Yes, as a culture we don't embrace fatness but we don't necessarily hate fat people who love themselves. We have met the enemy and it is often us. We often determine how others view us. If you think of yourself as fat and repulsive then others may join you. If you think of yourself as fat and lovable then you most likely will be accepted in return. When have you ever told a really wonderful overweight friend, "Gosh, I could really love you a lot better if you would lose 10 pounds?" Few of us want to be fat but many of us are and will always be. We have to love ourselves as we are, warts and all.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 12/6/2010 10:00AM

    I never wanted to sit at the cool table, I wanted to create my own table that was fun and didn't exclude people. I hated that left out feeling so I wanted to fight it. LOL

Being my own best friend is still a dream at this point. I would never speak to another friend the way I do to me, but I'm working on that.

Glad to know you are taking care of you and doing what's best for your body.

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FREDIA2 12/6/2010 9:41AM

    How insightful. The idea of the lunch table was great. In college you were a girlfriend for one of 3 reasons-you did laundry, you did homework or you were arm candy. I did the homework- occasionally the laundry.

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WANDAH3 12/6/2010 9:35AM

    Thanks, I needed these words this morning.

Hugs,
Wanda

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MYSTERY4EVER 12/6/2010 9:26AM

    Great blog. I never thought about it in that way. I was a brain, never cool, never in the in-crowd. Despite many successes in life, that feeling of inadequacy has always been there. One more thing to work on as I change my lifestyle.

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WYNAMT 12/6/2010 9:03AM

    WOW, where does this stuff come from???!! You take a walk and all this insightfulness just pours out of you! I love that is does and love that you share it. It is making my journey easier. I look for things in my past that contribute to who i am and why food is an issue and don't seem to get far on my own. Then i read a blog like this and wow, things apply and open little cracks for me!

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CATHERINEL66 12/6/2010 8:54AM

    Thanks for the Monday morning blog, John! When you get to the spin class, I'll be there (3 dimensional with the foot) to cheer you on! (in spirit, not in the stalker way, LOL).

I think that they journey and appreciating how far you've come is HUGE. And also having the good sense to push yourself to do more, but at the same time, not push yourself over the edge!

Glad to see you keepin' on! Today is my first day of wearing "real" shoes to work and I'm hoping that I'm not overdoing it. Worst case, I end up shoe-less after our important guests depart about 1pm -- and go back to orthopedic friendly clogs tomorrow, LOL.

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Getting Square With Yourself

Sunday, December 05, 2010


Availible on YouTube @
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6hss3YuE
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This Vlog has visual aids..........Go Me!!!

  
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ANEPANALIPTI 12/15/2010 9:28AM

    REWATCH much needed!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JJSSKINNYGIRL 12/8/2010 9:24AM

    John, you are a Genius!! Thank you so much for more brain food!!

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JPRICE217 12/8/2010 8:24AM

    emoticonJohn very thought provoking. We all need to be more postive and focus on our good instead of the bad. We all have good in us and need to add to it everyday.

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CARTOONB 12/5/2010 9:42PM

    I'm gonna fill my rectangle with fun activites and happy thoughts. Thanks for the idea!

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BTINTERNET 12/5/2010 3:50PM

    Thank you John!

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_AIYANNA_ 12/5/2010 3:13PM

    Thank you so much for this, John. I'm going to do this and I'll give you my feedback on it. I promise not to fill my square or my mouth with things that are bad for me :)

Love always xxx

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REJ7777 12/5/2010 2:50PM

    I've got my visual reminder on the frig.
And I plan to be conscious of what I fill up my "square" with! emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/5/2010 11:43AM

    Jooooooooooooooooooohn, you're looking thin!!!

From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

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I'm going to do it. I think its GENIUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Dimitra<
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I'll be rewatching this!

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MYOWNHERO 12/5/2010 11:41AM

    I love the paper with the square. I'm going to use your idea, too. Thanks.

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MARCYNA 12/5/2010 10:19AM

    I just love this blog!!!!
Thanks John!!!!!
My blank space is sometimes so small while fears & co are sooooooooo big. Luckily I've met you and people like you to help me enpowering myself - not only in my weight loss journey but also in my working career.
I'll give you a feedback on this experience.
I wanna do it!!!!
I wanna stay healthy, and I want YOU to stay healthy, too!!!! emoticon emoticon

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TEACHING1ST 12/5/2010 9:56AM

    John, your 3am musings and advice are as thought provoking as all the others...thanks for the insight you are willing to share. I tell my students that every day is a brand new chance to start over---why don't I give myself the same positive reinforcement? I'll use your visual and try to keep it balanced!

Mary

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.......What Works For Me. What Works For You?

Saturday, December 04, 2010

I received A Spark Mail the other day from someone I don’t know real well. The jest of what they wrote was to ask me to quit writing blogs that were, as they put it, “downers.” They told me I had a “great responsibility to other people,” and that I should “lead and inspire, not make people dwell on their short comings.” In all honesty I had to grin, simply because if I only wrote when I was on top of the world you might only here from me about once every three months or so. I grinned because I understood. I used to strive to be on top of the world 24/7, and when I didn’t I just knew there was something I had to have done wrong. (It’s the people pleaser/control freak/emotional eater in me!!!) One thing I am learning is “what works for me.”

What works for me does not always, if ever, work for you and vice versa. It would be like you and I going shopping. You find a hat that looks really great on you and you receive a million compliments on how well it looks before you even reach the counter to pay for it. I automatically assume it is the hat to end all hats, I run back to grab one even though it doesn’t fit, it’s the wrong color and I can’t afford to pay the sale price. All I see is that it works for you.

My wife, Joan, has weighed approximately the same weight for thirty seven years. Yes, she put weight on during pregnancies and the like, but basically she is within ten pounds of what she weighed when we got married. Her health is excellent, her blood work superb. She is a meat and potatoes eater and drinks enough Diet Pepsi to make it worthwhile for me to own stock in the company. I eat like that and I put on fifteen pounds in thirty minutes.

When I start being someone else other than who I am, I am no longer John and to be quite honest with you I did that for a long time and found out I wasn’t really happy. I call it lying to myself. I want to be accepted and loved and cared for so much that I’ll do just about anything to achieve that, even if it is not right for me. That’s when everything heads south.

I write what I think and feel and it is not always warm and fuzzy because I don’t always feel warm and fuzzy. I write what I write for two reasons. The first reason is that when I see it, write and speak it I can make it a real part of my life and either add it or remove it. It’s the same reason I read what so many of you write, it inspires me. The second reason is I write to share my struggles because maybe someone else is struggling and they read what I write they will not feel so alone.

I have gone back to walking two miles every morning. I just feel better when I do and I get to insert my reflective time during the walk. I am reaching three or four goals and feel much better the rest of the day. I still run and work with Jen and do all the other exercise things I enjoy, but that two mile walk sets my day off right. It works for me.

Far too often I get caught up in comparing and analyzing what I read and see and wonder about. I’m finding out that being honest about me and my life is what works for me.

What works for you?

  
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GIRANIMAL 12/6/2010 12:45PM

    I am baffled by the idea that "having a responsibility to others" can mean anything but being true to yourself. Isn't THAT your responsibility to others (if there is one)? Sincerity and honesty?

I agree with my dear friend TRIPLE_EMME and the others, and I am glad you already know it to be true: Your blog is about you, and you shouldn't ever censor yourself. If any of us care to partake, we should just be grateful for the free admission to such a wonderfully insightful and creative show! (Psst: And I am!) emoticon

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SMOCKON 12/6/2010 11:34AM

    Perhaps you have a responsibility to other people, but your first responsibility is to yourself. Somewhere along the line, people like us so internalized the "think about other people" talk that we put everyone ahead of ourselves. You are so right that we need to love us because we're us and not because we're good spouses, parents, children, or workers. I think SparkPeople blogs are supposed to be a tool for the writer. If the blogs help others, so much the better, but that is secondary.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/5/2010 10:51PM

    I'm the original individualist. The person who walks to the tune of a different drummer. But you probably knew that already. emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/5/2010 2:17PM

    Hmmmmmmm I think you wouldn't be a person if you only wrote positive things. That would be you attempting to be the database of spark articles.

The spark articles are there for whoever wants to read them, I find you fascinating for alllllllll of you though. You're REAL!

(yeah my mouth dropped open when I read that someone asked you that, cause Ive gained so much from every single one of your blogs even the "downers"!)

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WATERMELLEN 12/4/2010 9:11PM

    No need to change a thing -- just keep on keeping on: it's working for you AND it's often helpful for many of the rest of us.



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GETFIT2LIVE 12/4/2010 4:57PM

    John, you have such a good attitude about that mail, well intentioned as I am sure it was. When you share your struggles as well as your victories, that gives me permission to be honest, too, both with myself and with others. The hat analogy says it well. This is not a one-size-fits-all process; that's one of the things I love about this place, we are given the tools to find what works for us individually instead of a 'you must eat THIS and do THAT' prescription. Thanks for staying true to yourself and sharing the journey, ALL of the journey, with us.

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CATHERINEL66 12/4/2010 4:31PM

    I am really giggling to myself about the random email about your great responsibility to lead with positive optimism. LOL! I mean, if you can share all your rainbows and unicorns, that's great -- but I agree with you -- waiting on sunshine and optimism is about as effective as waiting for motivation. Neither are predictable, or often enough, and in the middle times and meanwhiles, we still need to do the right things!

Keep on blogging, buddy. I like them all.

And by all means, if that morning walk cranks you up - go forth and walk!

(personally, I just want to run until I keel over or my feet fall off, but given my foot, that might not take long :)

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TRIPLE_EMME 12/4/2010 4:03PM

    John,

I will chime in with the general sentiment *here* --
it is YOUR blog and you should write for YOU -- however, you desire.

If the person that sent you the email doesn't like the content of your blogs, they can choose not to read it.

I, for one, appreciate the genuineness of your writing.

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MKPRINCESS007 12/4/2010 3:52PM

    I continue to be amazed by life. The last time I checked, most of us are living in a glass house, so people should be careful how they throw those stones around. That being said, I try to understand that at alot of times, people can't reach within to find the drive, motivation, inspiration.......and make it someone else responsibility. Guess that is human nature.

I love your blogs, no matter what you write about. Why? Because they come from the heart.

End of story.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 12/4/2010 3:33PM

    You always seem to take negative feedback with a grain of salt and a grin on your face, not many people can do that. I find people who share their ups and downs more inspiring than those who act like cheerleaders to the world. I like the real, the raw version - it's what works for me.

Thanks John for not always being the cheerleader but rather the leader.




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A-STRONGER-ME 12/4/2010 2:52PM

    John, I don't know you. This is the only blog of yours I have ever read. I ran across it simply by accident.

YOU are RIGHT ON TARGET with this blog. That is what a blog is for - to express YOURSELF - NOT OTHERS.

Might I suggest to the person that sparked you - go read someone else's stuff and leave John alone!!!

YOU keep true to yourself and do what works!!

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SPARKENISTA 12/4/2010 2:42PM

    John--I admire your desire and ability to "put it out there" every day. I have tried and I know how hard it is. Whatever else, you are true to yourself. That is the reason that you have attracted the followers that you inspire every day.

I am all for happiness, glow and great times. However, life is not all about that. Others have written to me privately, as well, and "suggested" things that are not in their purview (read: none of their business) particularly about religion, believe it or not.

Please, stay true to yourself and continue to state frankly what's on your mind. Your commentator has the choice of not reading blogs s/he doesn't want to.

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KAT573 12/4/2010 2:18PM

    GREAT blog, John! I really really appreciated your points and agree wholeheartedly with them. Life is not a linear progression, and we are NOT ever going to be perfect but we can and will move forward when we continue to search out and face who we are and accept what WE each need, and that in and of itself gives courage to many others who are dealing with the same issues, and we are legion. LOL! It is the entire point of Life, IMHO, and I realize it is MY opinion. But I have found that the continual review of my actions and my thoughts helps me to be more honest, and in doing so, helps me to find Joy; not Happiness: JOY!
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ZURDTA- 12/4/2010 2:15PM

    Blogging is supposed to be for YOU not other people. You are just a regular guy who is real and honest. And that's great.

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TIME4AFITME 12/4/2010 1:16PM

    I enjoy your blogs so thank you! emoticon

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LUV4CHOCOLATE 12/4/2010 12:44PM

    Well written blog and THANK YOU for sharing it! I think it is very important to be honest. We are here to help each other - through the good and bad. YES, continue to write what you feel. If someone doesn't like it, they don't need to read it!

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ATREAT4ME 12/4/2010 11:01AM

    Another excellent post. I have been following your posts for a short time but what drew me to them was the reflective nature of them. I love your label "people pleaser control freak" and I think I identify with it. But it almost sounds as an oxymoron. On the face of it, I always thought my people-pleasing was being out of control and when I stopped trying to do that, I was in full control-freak mode. But this idea that both are different sides of the same coin is really taking root in my mind.

I am not sure what works for me -- yet. I am discovering it, bit by bit. Daily exercise is key. I find that if I can get 60 to 90 minutes of activity in, then the food choices follow naturally. When I only get 30 to 45 minutes of activity, the food choices are more difficult.

Getting in touch with what I'm thinking/feeling is emerging as a key factor as well. Frankly, I have tried to avoid it for a long time and it simply makes me angry and that makes me eat. It takes a lot of time and effort for me to root through these things, so much like you, my activity serves as a good time to attempt this work.

In short, John, I am grateful to have found your posts. I become more enthused about my own journey as I read about yours and feel the light you're shining on your path illuminates part of mine as well. I am grateful for that and hope that one day I can do the same for someone else.

And this is not the people-pleaser side of me talking! ;-) Thank you.

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MYSTERY4EVER 12/4/2010 10:43AM

    I really think that this weight-loss journey is about being honest. It is important to be upbeat, but honesty about when you are having a problem is a way to connect with community and get support. Keep doing what you are doing.

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CARTOONB 12/4/2010 10:25AM

    The more I hear about Joan, the more I like her. I think I have Diet Pepsi running through my veins instead of blood! LOL!

What works for me? Protein. Planned meals. Almost daily exercise. Oh...and broccoli. emoticon

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TEACHING1ST 12/4/2010 10:14AM

    John, PLEASE continue to be you!! We love you, as Mr. Rogers used to say, 'Just the way you are.' What you have to say is what most of us need/want to hear and the delivery is just right. Congratulate Joan on keeping her weight steady. I was there once and want to be there again. So will you.

Happy Saturday,
Mary

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MARCYNA 12/4/2010 10:12AM

    Writing helps me a lot, trying to tell the truth, even when I feel sad and I want to quit SP & eat all the world's chocolate - I know it wouldn't work.
Blogging about how I feel helps a lot, and I think it also might help other people. Honesty is key and it keeps me away from Lindt & co. emoticon emoticon

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JESPAH 12/4/2010 10:12AM

    Yep.

And, by the way, write what you want, when you want to. It's YOUR blog and belongs to YOU.

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CELLCHIC 12/4/2010 10:05AM

    John,

I think it is important in everyones journey to share the ups and downs. We are all human and WILL have downs. It is inevitable. I have never felt that your blogs were negative in anyway.



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HDHAWK 12/4/2010 10:00AM

    That's why I (and many others) love reading your blogs. They are honest and hit on exactly the same things we're all going through at one time or another. You're just willing to put it out there. I'm going to try that "being who I am" instead of pleasing everyone else and see where it gets me! emoticon

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BREWMASTERBILL 12/4/2010 9:52AM

    The hat analogy is superb! I think that's why you can find "evidence" to support whatever diet and exercise plan you want to support. It does work for some people, but may not work for you. What's more is that whatever works for you today may not work tomorrow. I guess that's what they call a plateau. That further adds to the frustration and complication of this. So then you have to change something or many things to find the next "what works for you".

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DOLLBABE56 12/4/2010 9:49AM

    Very well put. And just for the record, your ups and downs help me realize that hey - he's human just like me! :)

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DOCYJK 12/4/2010 9:49AM

    Keep doing what you're doing, John!!! I enjoy the fact that you're so honest, because it allows us each to recognize that each day isn't perfect and we all face challenges. While losing weight and getting healthy is an individual experience, we can certainly share our ups and downs as a team! And none of us owe anything to anyone else - isn't that the beauty of this forum?!? Be true to yourself, keep blogging as you do and I'll keep reading and responding too! Have a wonderful TODAY!!!

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SEDONACAT 12/4/2010 9:37AM

    Keep writing as you have been. It's YOUR blog, right? I enjoyed it but I have to say with a wicked grin on my face, it's nice to see a man not be able to eat certain things without putting on wt. when his wife can eat them. As a woman, it is the opposite for me and my DH. AAGGGHH!

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