Monday, June 28, 2010
It took me a few minutes to get it all straight in my head. Iím glad Mass lasts awhile. During the sermon our pastor talked about being on a weeklong youth retreat with one hundred eighth graders. He talked about how they played games and sports and had a lot of fun all day. The evenings he said were reserved for God.
ďThe main thing,Ē he said. ďIs to remember that the main thing is the main thing.Ē Itís really okay if you stop reading and take a few minutes to figure this out. I know it took me a few. Donít worry, this is not going to be a continuation of his sermon, LOL, Iím not that eloquent.
I thought about it and after a bit I thought how it applied to what we are about here at Spark. I can only speak for me, but my purpose in being here is to be healthier tomorrow than I am today. In order to do that I need the support of everyone who is willing to give it to me. Being healthier means I have a lot of choices I can make when it comes to what food goes in my mouth, the exercise I do and the teams and people here I associate with.
Last week while I was out doing my C25K training I jogged past a church that had a sign out front; on the sign was a saying that caught my eye:
ďIt wasnít the apple on the tree that caused the problem; it was the pair beneath the tree.Ē
Choices, LOL, from the beginning of time it has always been about choices. I canít say Iíve always made the best choices in my life. I was morbidly obese at one point in time. I am slowly cycling through obese on my way to simply being overweight. Thatís a choice I made.
I show up here every day on a regular basis and if I do nothing else I chart my food and exercise. At the end of some days I smile and at the end of other days I frown. The main thing is I am here. Itís my choice. I am challenged by many of you to grow in ways I never would have thought about even six months ago. It has opened a whole new world for me.
A healthier me is going to be a me who will be able to do everything he wants to and more importantly everything he is supposed to do. Being worth it and deserving it come with a price. It means that since I know what is expected of me, and how I should live, I have an obligation to pass that on to other people. Some days that can be a difficult choice. Some days I donít feel all ďSparkified.Ē Some days I feel like sitting in a corner and being smug and content. Some weeks if I gain weight I want to be left alone because it is so much easier to ignore the choices I made during the week. Or Maybe I was too tired to hit the gym one day. I donít always want to be reminded of that. Iíd rather sit here and let you think I am the guy who always makes the right choices. I always donít.
The good news is that since I have been here I see the meter trending more and more towards making those right choices on a regular basis. It is easy to forget what the main thing is all about. Itís about you being everything you were meant to be and that comes by choosing wisely.
The main thing has nothing to do with being perfect or being better than anyone else. It means knowing that when you have those glorious days when everything comes together for you that one day you will be able to share that vision with someone who, no matter how hard they are trying, just canít seem to make any progress. It means you will encourage and cajole and maybe sometimes even challenge someone else to be healthy.
ďThe main thing to remember is that main thing is the main thing.Ē If I donít, if I make all the wrong choices for me, and I never get the opportunity to go from disciple, one who learns, to apostle, one who teaches. The main thing is my health and my gratefulness to God for allowing me to find that health.
I am worth it, I do deserve it but really seeing and believing it in my life comes down to the choices I make. Thatís the main thing.
I made a choice to be your friend and you made a choice to be mine.
Thatís a pretty good start donít you think?
Friday, June 25, 2010
Availible on You Tube @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-PCGlRe0c8o
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
There is an old song that has a line it that goes, ďSome days are diamonds, some days are stones.Ē I have come to believe that there are diamonds every single day of my life. Itís just that some days I have to look a bit harder for them than others.
Itís only Wednesday and this week has already been a challenge and a half. My travel level increased dramatically which means my food options decreased in proportion. The challenge became closing my eyes, and repeating to myself over and over ĎI will not eat off the dessert tray. I will not eat off the dessert tray.Ē Before you ask, of course there hasnít been any fresh fruit!!! Breakfast has been okay because I have been able to get egg white omelet with fresh veggies and a banana. For lunch I ordered a chicken and veggie wrap that could have fed my family and I didnít eat the wrap. I have gone to bed early but I always toss and turn when I am in a different hotel every night.
Yesterday afternoon when we finished our session at the labor leader summit I changed clothes and went to do week three of C25K. I have repeated the first three weeks because I have not felt comfortable moving on. Thatís caused me inner anxiety because you know as a people pleaser I am always, always going to compare myself to other people and you know if Iím not better than Iím not equal. Why canít I be like the cool kids? LOL
I have been using Robert Ulleryís podcasts to train with. He seems like a really cool guy but basically going into my sixth week, well the music is starting to get on my nerves and my mind is playing one of these ďLetís hurry up and get this over with!!!Ē tunes. It was ninety seven in Nashville yesterday and running outside at 3:00 pm would probably be suicide. Fortunately the hotel has a really good gym. I got on the treadmill and decided since I knew my intervals I was going to use my own music. As I warmed up I started to think about how frustrating this was getting because having to be better than everyone I hadnít been able to run a 5K fifteen minutes after starting my training!!!
As I worked through the intervals something happened that has never happened to me before. I believe runners call it ďfinding your stride.Ē My mind was so distracted that it took a few seconds to realize I was jogging effortlessly and felt like I could do it forever. Thatís where I found my diamond. It came from the past six weeks of grinding it out, switching my routine a bit and hanging in there.
The diamond is surrounded by a lot of stones but you know what? Those stones make it shine that much brighter. It sustained me. When I woke up this morning all the stones were still there but I knew the hard work will produce another diamond soon.
I use my running simply as an example. You might struggle a bit in other areas and just wonder if all this life style change stuff is a bunch of bunk. I do at least a thousand times a day. But then in His mercy, wisdom and love, God gives me a diamond to treasure and it sustains me.
This is tough stuff. Itís hard work. Please remember:
YOU ARE WORTH IT
YOU DESERVE IT
Have a good Wednesday
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Did you know that thin people live in a perfect world? They must, otherwise they wouldnít be thin. Itís those of us who are overweight who have all those fatal character flaws. Thatís why we are overweight. I promise I wonít say this too very loud. We donít want the whole world to hear: We believe itís our fault. We believe there is something wrong with us.
Try this on for size. Did you ever think stuff just happens. That itís really no oneís fault and that when I believe itís always my fault and its one of the reasons I am over weight it is only a matter of how I perceive things and that its awfully arrogant of me to believe I can control the entire universe just because I have a pitiful self image some days? (That was a long sentence.)
I had one of those ďstuff happensĒ days yesterday. I am in Nashville facilitating a union/management leadership summit and had a curve ball thrown at my schedule yesterday morning that basically caused me to put ten pounds of sugar in a five pound sack. Stuff happens.
Back in my pre Spark days I would have thrown my hands up and blamed myself, my poor eating habits my unhealthy appearance, etc, etc. I am upset I didnít get my strength training in and I had to cut my cardio in half, but ďstuff happens.Ē
The minute I allow that stuff to take control is the minute I go from being in control to being a martyr. Thatís when the wheels fall off. I stayed well within my calorie guidelines and I slept well and I am looking forward to today being one of those great days that always follows the ďstuff happensĒ day.
I can say that with confidence because I know there will be more days like yesterday in my future. Whether the absolutely great days like today come into play is entirely up to me.
Good, bad or indifferent, stuff happens. Itís got nothing to do with how much I weigh, it has everything to do with how I view myself.
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