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Wednesday, May 12, 2010


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ROSE5328 5/13/2010 8:19AM

    Thank you John! This is something I really struggle with. I think I will watch this video at least once a week to remind myself that I am beautiful!


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SUSIE85251 5/13/2010 4:44AM

    Another wonderful, insightful blog. Thanks for reminding me of how special I am!

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SPARKENISTA 5/13/2010 12:36AM

    John--It is my observation that our appearance is a direct reflection of how we think of and care for/nurture ourselves. Therefore, when someone finds fault with their appearance they are really finding fault with some internal trait. It could be failure to follow through with plans and be consistent. It could be some other habit or trait.

While, in our society, vanity is frowned upon, self-care and the improvement that manifests in appearance are really critical to our self-esteem, welfare and ability to function as good role models to our children.

Therefore, while balance is necessary in all things, not addressing the issue of outward appearance is tantamount to denying our corporeal selves. It all begins with the self-esteem to paricipate in self-care.

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AMYTATH 5/12/2010 11:16PM

    I love this blog John!!! This is something that I have struggled with for years...As I dug out an old picture of me circa 2001 and looked at it, showed it to girls at work to show the amazing transformation I have made. I was about 230 (years before pregnancy), one girl says, "wow, doesnt even look like you" another "you didnt have a necke" ect you get the point...everyone is amazed at how far I have come (this being the 2nd time I have come this far 1st time being 5 years after that pic this time post pregnancy). But what I keep thinking to myself as I look at that picture and marvel at the 55 pound difference in then and now I just keep thinking to myself "but I had so much confidence then!!! I loved myself then!!! I dont now...whats wrong?" I know that I look like a completely different person, I know that I am many sizes smaller but I still dont like what I see therefore I dont value myself like I did then.

And realistically this is why I have been struggling with finding out Im pregnant, instead of focusing on how wonderful and amazing this blessing is I keep focusing on "but Im so close to my goal!!!"

I am slowly working on loving myself as I am and you are helping me do that!!

I really hope that the WKY team can still meet Sunday even if there are just three of us there. I get so much support from you guys and want so much to give you a hug and thank you in person!


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HDHAWK 5/12/2010 7:22PM

    Still something I'm working on! Thank you so very much for this topic. You are certainly a gift I'm thankful I've found this week!

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HAWAIILINDA 5/12/2010 7:05PM

    Hi John, Another good topic. I learned to look at this idea in a different perspective a few years ago. It is a truth that some people are more physically attractive then others and so I have trouble saying I'm beautiful. What I do believe though is that I'm a miracle, I believe that all life is a miracle. When your think of life even existing with all the things that can happen to make conception go astray it is amazing how often life happens. I take that blessing/miracle of life given to me and I believe I am here for a reason and I believe I have a responsibility to do the best I am able with the gift of life. And though not physically attractive I am an awesome, wonderful person. I have a lot to offer this world ,and society just aqs I am and if people choose to shun me because I don't meet their expectations of attractiveness then they are the ones that lose out. I accept myself for who I am right now, yes I hope to be healthier and with that my appearance will be more pleasing to some, including myself, but I won't be more worthwhile/valuable then I am right now.

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JOMOMMY 5/12/2010 5:36PM

    Your video blog was inspiring to me! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, you gave me something to think about today. emoticon

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ROTTLADY 5/12/2010 4:57PM

    Checked in but video email don't work well on my system.Will check back tomorrow

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ANGELSANDYBABY 5/12/2010 12:51PM

    Hi John! I loved your blog..Thanks!
I'm going to add you as a friend..please feel free to do the same.
You have a great day, too!


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IDALUKE 5/12/2010 12:41PM

    Once again, you hit wright on the nail, that is so true. made me look at my self in a different light, Thanks John emoticon

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TENDERLOVE1 5/12/2010 12:40PM

    You bring tears to my eyes with every blog of yours that I read! Great JOB thank you!

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GEEMAWEST 5/12/2010 12:29PM

    HOME RUN!!

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AZCUPCAKE 5/12/2010 11:32AM

    Once again, you hit the ball right out of the park, John. Your words could not have found a more concise target - and I am sure everyone seeing/listening to your blog today will take a new look at their PHYSICAL selves in a new light. We are SO critical of ourselves -- why is it that when a loved one tells me I look pretty today, I shrug it off and am self-conscious and embarrassed, but a passing acquaintance can tell me that 'I think a different kind of dress would be better for your shape?' and I take THAT comment to heart and hold it close to me, replaying it over and over, as if it is a TREASURE?! That is just so WRONG!

You really know how to provide the 'balm for the soul' regarding this journey we are on; you really understand. Thank you for a great start to my day.

p.s. I am going to tell myself I am pretty today and really BELIEVE it, thanks to you!! emoticon

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VICTORY-LEE 5/12/2010 10:21AM

    Hey Hey John!

I will tell you honestly that you made me cry! You pretty much said everything I feel about myself, about the people who love me. My 48th b-day was yesterday & it was "a little humbling". I always worried about my looks - I was never happy. I have always been overweight & like u had said, I too would look thru magazines & see what I wanted to be. Funny, because I really knew I couldn't.

Anyway, I finally have accepted myself for who I am...& I finally realized I LIKE ME - warts & all!!

God Bless You John!

Thank u for the great blog!!

Luv Ya
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JJSSKINNYGIRL 5/12/2010 10:05AM

    Thank You for another great blog!!

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DOLLBABE56 5/12/2010 10:05AM

    I think this is your best "video" blog yet! So true.

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MOMMABOF7 5/12/2010 10:03AM

    Thank You John!!! You are a Beautiful person. I'm greatful that you share your wisdom with me. I do feel lovely today even in my sweats headed to the elliptical.

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JAE_HENNINGTON 5/12/2010 9:49AM

  Once again John, You have nailed it. I have wrestled with these very issues myself. I grew up in a home of abuse, neglect and abandonment. I never felt loved or wanted. I was born with a physical disability, also with parents who were perfectionist. I knew from an early age that no matter how much I tried, I would never measure up to my families expectations. I have spent a lifetime trying to find a place to fit in..and to "feel" ok. I have always wanted to be accepted and loved. I have learned the first place you have to find this is within yourself. I have this "little girl" in me that "needs" to be loved. So while I know what you say is true and I work on it everyday of my waking life. There is a part of me that continues to wish I could find the acceptance through another person. Great blog John, as usual you have left us with much to ponder.

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/12/2010 9:17AM

    John, I love seeing and hearing your video blogs! Well said; are we building our houses upon the rock or upon the sand? If we don't have a foundational belief that we are beautiful just the way we are today, even though we are working towards looking and feeling better every day, we won't make it for the long haul. Good luck on the C25K training--most of all have FUN with it!


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SATYAGRAHA 5/12/2010 9:03AM

    John! That was really wonderful. Thank you SOOOO MUCH for sharing your wisdom. You are truly beautiful, inside AND out! emoticon And you WILL get out of that chair and do C25K. emoticon emoticon

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BUGGYS 5/12/2010 8:52AM are right on once again...I joined SP not becasue of my appearance but because of my health...I love myself enough to want the inside to work well so that it shows through on the outside...sure, I would love to look good in a size 10 but that is never going to happen...I do want to get off my meds and live a long time, to enjoy life for as long as I can. I am amazed at this site because I have gotten to know sveral "friends" and I don't even know what they look like and you know, I don't even care...I love what they have to say ans what their comments mean to me. Thank you for instilling in all of us that we ARE worth it! emoticon

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MNABOY 5/12/2010 8:41AM

    Sorry couldn't get it to down load

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If You Learn To Wait, You'll Lose The Weight

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

When I begin work with a new coaching client I ask them to give me a one sentence definition of what success means to them. I stress one sentence. In most cases we start off with two pages that are full of good stuff, goals and objectives, but not a definition of success. The process usually takes about two weeks and when you are finished you have a pretty good idea of who you are and what you are about.

It’s very frustrating because the first time I did it I learned the most valuable lesson about John I will ever learn:

I had no clue where I was going and I had no clue how to get there.

I had a lot of “sound bites:” that I had used to define myself, but if you took them away I had a lot of goals and objectives lying around in my backyard like a bunch of flowers that weren’t quite sure where they needed to be planted.

Ask people how they define success and most likely you will hear things like “security,” “wealth,” “prosperity,” or maybe “peace of mind.” Those are all outcomes or end results. They are the finish line and as any runner will tell you, it’s a good idea to know where the finish line is. The preparation it takes to get there shouldn’t be over looked, otherwise the finish line is just a mirage.

“If you learn to wait, you will lose the weight.”

That is my current definition of success. If I am patient with myself, allow myself to evolve, to learn, to depend on the wisdom of other people who have gone before me, I will be successful. When I think about my failures it was because I wanted to rush everything and not allow my mind or my body to adjust to the changes it was going through. Quite simply they both rebelled and said “We will have none of this!” The end result became frustration, followed by failure and then despair. Can anyone say “hand me another donut?”

Spark has helped me learn to wait or if you want to apply another acronym, learn to be patient.

Lemme give ya two examples:

A few months ago I was contemplating embracing a vegetarian life style. I wrote a short blog one Sunday about my desires but also quickly added about all I knew how to do was spell “vegetarian.” (Thank goodness for spell check.) I was overwhelmed with positive response. People gave me all sorts of resources. Now the old John, the impatient one, the one that wanted to see results NOW would have thrown all the meat in the house away, read about half of each article, took a billboard out on the interstate proclaiming himself the holiest and purest vegetarian of all time, and promptly failed. He would have told himself that this stuff worked for other people but surely not for him and it became another thing he was no good at.

I would like to tell you I not eating meat at all, but I can’t do that. What I am doing is gradually changing my life style, and reducing the amount of meat I am taking in learned to be patient and allow their bodies to change.

The same is true about exercise. When I started Spark I was walking, cycling and using the elliptical. I had been down this road before and so as much as I wanted to do more because I felt, in my head, I was ready to try out for the Olympics, my body told me to be patient. I’ll admit to you I got bored, which is why I decided to shoot for walking in a 5K race. The closer I got to race day, the more I walked. Joan decided to come with me, so I had a walking buddy most days. It was a wonderful experience!!!

I jogged the last third of a mile or so and surprised myself. I had a false belief that if I ran more than ten feet I would fall over dead. I didn’t. Joan and I followed up Sunday with a two mile walk and as of yesterday we both started C25K training because we would like to jog a 5K in the fall. I got lots of support from friends here. I have learned that it will be okay if that first 5K run is in November, December, or even later. It will come, when my body is ready and I am comfortable with my success.

“If you learn to wait, you will lose the weight.”

We do not realize, our unhealthy life style was an evolution also. Four days out of five, I don’t like reading what I just wrote LOL. I want it now and I want it all.
Thanks to you and so many like you I am learning to wait, to be patient because the day will come when I will see the results and oh my gosh, will they be great.

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SOPHIETR 6/12/2010 8:23AM

    Thank you! continued Good luck! emoticon

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GLORY2WALKWHIM 6/3/2010 10:41AM


i wholeheartedly agree with you .. that's why my mantra this time around is,

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LISSA17SMITH 5/18/2010 2:48PM

  Thanks for the post!

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LUCI2010 5/15/2010 9:35PM

  thanks so much for this! emoticon

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SPROCKETJONES 5/14/2010 8:00PM

    The mindset that we didn't become overweight overnight so it's ridiculous to want to be healthy overnight is a tough one for me. Thanks for the great post.

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ZLQ1963 5/14/2010 11:31AM

    Great blog. It takes years to undo the damage done to our bodies - and we should love it and take our time as we persist in making healthly changes.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 5/14/2010 10:10AM

    Awesome sentence! Thanks for posting!!!!

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BECKYB73 5/13/2010 10:52PM

    Wow did I need this!

Thank YOU! emoticon

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COLDWINTER2010 5/13/2010 10:28PM

  Thank you. This was just what I needed to hear today. Your blogs are so positive and encouraging and a pleasure to read.

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GIGGLES204 5/13/2010 7:45PM

  Thank you for your amazing and inspiring post. It's so very true!! Here's to patience!!!!

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CHLOIANNA 5/13/2010 1:58PM

    Instant gratification has always been what I am about. I am learning that good things come to those who wait.

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TINARETTER 5/13/2010 10:15AM

    This is soo true. I usually give up because I'm not losing at a pace I think I should. I have stuck with it this time and several times almost gave up because there must be something wrong with me. But I have stuck with it. If i waver or even fall I get back after it. And you know what? I start losing weight, I start feeling stronger and I mentally feel like I can keep going.

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TINARETTER 5/13/2010 10:13AM

    This is soo true. I usually give up because I'm not losing at a pace I think I should. I have stuck with it this time and several times almost gave up because there must be something wrong with me. But I have stuck with it. If i waver or even fall I get back after it. And you know what? I start losing weight, I start feeling stronger and I mentally feel like I can keep going.

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    I like the idea of patience and putting things in perspective. thanks for the blog.

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46SHADOW 5/13/2010 7:30AM

    patience...a lesson for myself!

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SUSIE85251 5/13/2010 4:02AM

    Thanks for the post. We do live in a society of instant gratification. Too many people want what they want NOW! Those of us who have been on this earth a little longer often realize that it is all the hard work and time that makes the success so sweet.

As a vegetarian, I commend you for reducing the amount of meat in your diet. Often people say to me that they could never be a vegetarian because they would miss meat too much. I guess I am not the stereotypical overly passionate type of vegetarian who believes it is all or nothing. I feel that any reduction in meat consumption is good for us and our planet. I will often say to someone that if they could just give up meat a few days a week, they are still doing a wonderful thing.

Blessings on your journey!

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KIMHALLMARK 5/13/2010 12:53AM

    Great and thanks

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PMWIGGI 5/13/2010 12:29AM

    Thanks for sharing. Patience is not a virtue I have. I stuggle with wanting things my way yesterday! You have inspired me to slow down a little and enjoy the ride.

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JENNERATOR13 5/12/2010 10:33PM

    Thanks for sharing!!! I guess I will have to be patient and wait. I have been getting upset because I haven't lost anything since I joined the gym 6 months ago. But I guess my body is getting used to using weights and new machines instead of just walking. THanks again.


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HAKU695 5/12/2010 9:13PM

    Thanks for the great mantra...If you learn to wait, you'll lose the weight. I'm trying to make several lifestyle changes at once, and finding that I'm getting exhausted and discouraged. Slow and steady wins the race, as the fable of the tortoise and the hare goes. Thanks again for the reminder of patience.

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PSSN4FITNESS 5/12/2010 7:12PM

    This was such a timely and motivational blog! Thanks so much for sharing. I actually just had this realization today. I was impatient and stressed. I need to take a step back and evaluate what I want from this. When I first started I was focused on getting healthy and the pounds came off almost effortlessly. In recent weeks, the scale has been tormenting me because I lost sight of what this is really about.

Anyway, thanks again for your words of wisdom and encouragement. emoticon

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EDWINA172 5/12/2010 5:51PM

    Your clients are very lucky to have you! I love your blogs, your quotes and your perspective.

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LUSHON 5/12/2010 4:59PM

    Great reminder that what we are doing is a journey and not a quick errand.

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SALUKFAN 5/12/2010 4:43PM

    I love this blog, because I tend to react in the all-or-nothing manner. I found myself doing that this morning; when I lamented that my clothes didn't feel looser after just a week. Impatience is one of the biggest detriments to my attempts to change.

I love your motto. "If I learn to wait..."

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YAMIASAZI 5/12/2010 4:35PM

  Great Blog. :D

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KRISTY_704 5/12/2010 3:49PM

    Great blog!

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TSK0128 5/12/2010 2:23PM

  Inspiration post! Thanks for helping us allow ourselves the time to see true results (i.e.: success).

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REACHNDREAM 5/12/2010 1:58PM

    How true is that? You wrote what a lot of people need to read, including me. When you make these lifestyle changes you expect to see changes immediately AND BIG ONES! However, like you've said...slow and steady wins the race.

Keep up the great work!
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JCKC77 5/12/2010 12:22PM

    Great Blog. I didnt put on all this weight in a week so I cant expect to take it off in one either.

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SCAVARET 5/12/2010 12:21PM

    I try to follow the philosophy of taking a compass on this weight loss journey, not a stopwatch. It doesn't matter how fast we get there, but what direction we're heading for success. Great blog!!


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TENDERLOVE1 5/12/2010 12:12PM

    Thank you for this! I feel the same way! I had to learn that I am at a different place in my journey than everyone else and just because I am not as far shouldn't be a reason for me to quit it should be something for me to strive for! Thank you! Great blog!

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SKIPPIE123 5/12/2010 10:29AM

    Well put...thanks! emoticon

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ERINLEIGHDV 5/12/2010 10:27AM

    I'm so excited for you and Joan. I did Couch to 5K and it is amazing. Sometimes its hard work, but it really builds you up at a good pace. I learned so much about myself doing it. My limitations and my ability to break through them for instance. I started C25k on 11/30/2009 after my cousin did it and raved about it. When I first ran for 20 minutes in a row I cried and laughed with joy all the way home. In less than 2 weeks I'm running a half-marathon. Never underestimate what the human body is capable of.
Enjoy your journey!!

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ANNLOUDERMILK 5/12/2010 9:57AM

    what an inspiration!!! I don't know anyone who doesn't want it ALL "NOW"....LOL, me most of all, but like yourself I am learning one day at a time and build on what I am learning here from all SP friends. The weight may not be melting away as fast as it appeared but I do feel better and more healthy than I did a month ago and I am happy about that!


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GEMINIJENNY25 5/12/2010 9:04AM

    i'm going to remember that phrase. ! emoticon

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JUSTFOXXY 5/12/2010 8:12AM

    Wonderful, wonderful blog. That is exactly my problem and as you point out, the problem of many others. I also think the evolution of technology has made us fat with instant gratification.

Thanks for taking us back to basics. emoticon

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BATYAFA 5/12/2010 7:58AM

    What a great motto to stick on the fridge! Thanx for this! emoticon

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WIGIME 5/12/2010 7:25AM

    Easy to say and hard to do! Thanks for the inspiration John!

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MIAYANAB 5/12/2010 7:16AM

    This blog is something that I so needed, as I had given up on myself. Yeah, instant gratification is great..but unrealistic. As of last week, I had accepted the fact that I would always be fat. I can't do it. I've tried for the last 37 years of my life, and the results are always the same...disappointing. I'm not going to go into a tangent about my problems, but to summarize my response..."thanks, I needed this."

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CLOVER2 5/11/2010 11:25PM

    Reading your thoughts is the highlight of my day. Thank you once again.

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ROTTLADY 5/11/2010 10:51PM

    Great words of wisdom.Being a tortoise is the best way to go.

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MISHKALA 5/11/2010 10:49PM

    Great blog!! Patience is certainly something I have trouble with. But now I'm slowly changing my tune. Some days I feel if I had any more "patience" I'd be a doctor! Thanks for the encouragement! emoticon

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MONTANA_ED 5/11/2010 10:11PM

    Thanks John - you wrapped everything up wonderfully with that quote. Things didn't go on overnight, it's not going to go away over night. I like this better than the other statement that I had heard and that has been going through my head "Slow and steady wins the race, not the one that sets the pace."


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GEEMAWEST 5/11/2010 9:41PM

    I'm not very good with patience either. I want to lose weight and I want to do it NOW! Thanks for the great blog.

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    You are such an inspiration!! Thanks for sharing!! emoticon emoticon

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The Path Before Us

Monday, May 10, 2010

Sometimes the lessons that help us the most are the hardest and most painful ones to learn. I know that’s true for me. So you sit there reading this and you say to yourself “Well, duh John. I know that.” Do we? I think if we did we wouldn’t as a wise man once said keep living up to the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

My son Matt has been divorced for almost two years. In a nutshell, his wife decided she enjoyed being single more than she enjoyed being married and decided to practice being single before she ended the marriage.

Before I go any further I want you to know this is not going to be one of those “My kid is perfect and he’s been wronged” rant. He’s not perfect. He was devastated when she left. She took their daughter and I can only imagine what he felt and continues to feel. He trusts no one. He was so happy to be married and I suspect from what he shares he feels as if he failed. He is thirty two and he feels lost and abandoned. To him there is no God. If there was, none of this would have happened.

I have spent a lot of sleepless nights. I cried, I prayed, I wondered if maybe I should have seen this coming and advised him about it before he got married. I got angry and irritable and just wasn’t much fun to be around.

Oh yeah, I ate. I ate a lot. Eating was something I could do. I couldn’t “make it all better.” I couldn’t control his life and it was like it kept raining and I kept wondering where they put the sun. Did I say I ate a lot? I felt cut off and I needed to fix this, because isn’t that what Dad’s are supposed to do?

I carried this inside of me for a long time. Some days it was right up front, other days pushed to the rear by other concerns. But it was there, this tension, this emotionally queasy feeling inside of me.

While all this is going on I begin my journey towards health and discovering who I really was under all these layers of physical and emotional fat. One night as I lie there wide awake that small voice spoke to my heart.

“You have your own journey to worry about. Leave him to me and concentrate on your own journey, John.”

I was stunned. This is my son. He needs me.

“Then he’ll ask if he needs you. Walk your own road John.”

I would like to tell you that I leapt out of bed, woke Joan up and said “Thank you, Jesus.” Far from it.

I got majorly angry. This wasn’t good advice. Kids look to their dads to fix stuff and by God I was going to do this come hell or high water.

“Why are you so afraid to look at yourself John?”

That one got my attention. Over the next few days this light of realization got brighter and brighter inside of me. I saw, that when I didn’t want to look at me and the areas I needed to improve in my life I found some crusade to go charging off on or some poor soul to help who needed me. I always made sure they were issues that no one would argue with. I became exhausted trying to right the wrongs and then never had the energy to deal with me.

That’s mainly because I was scared to look at me. I’m like you and you’re like me. We all know where the trap doors are inside of us, the ones marked “danger.” We are scared to open them because if we do, then we have to deal with what’s on the other side. Better I deal with your stuff rather than mine. Let’s all make nice and smile and the sun will come out and then we can hold hands and sing “Kumbaya!”

Yeah, I got my own road to walk, my own stuff to deal with. I bleed a lot, and Lord knows I cry a lot, but hey……. I am getting better and healthier every single day. Most of it is me facing me, but a lot of it is these bright lights along the side of the road that flicker a warm smile or a soft reassurance. You are holding one of those lights and while I cannot walk your road and you cannot walk mine we can encourage each other, care for each other and love each other as we move closer and closer to being who we are. We stand on the side of each other’s road with lights to help guide the way home.

I still love my son. I am here if he wants to talk. Joan and I are both here if he needs a shoulder to cry on, but it’s his journey and I have mine. All I can do is have faith and leave the rest to God. I am at peace with that.

I had a lot of difficulty accepting this. Joan told me she understood it about six months before I did. I asked her why she didn’t share it with me. She told me I had to find that peace all on my own. She loves me, she prays for me.

That’s the way it is for all of us, I think. We have to walk that road knowing that there are many others to help us, to guide us and to support us, but first we have to see the path ahead.

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LUCYSRAIN 5/15/2010 1:00PM

    Wow! It feels like you hit me right between the eyes with this one. I am the fixer.....

As I reflect on your words I can honestly say you are so right! It's so easy to focus on others, there problems, there pain.

I am guilty of this! NOT dealing with my demons, it's so much easier to focus on helping someone else, fixing them!

Lol....Miss Perfect isn't so perfect, it's time for me to fix me emoticon

Thank you so much for this blog...we all need to get to the root and start growing from there.

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BERGIE8771 5/13/2010 4:07PM

    I appreciate you sharing this. I really agree is is easier to see someone else's mote rather than dealing with my own. I think I will start doing this in my own life. THANK YOU!

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NANALD 5/13/2010 7:19AM

    Great blog! I think it probably hits home with a lot of us. Thanks!

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GEMINIJENNY25 5/13/2010 6:02AM

    you seem like an awesome guy. i understand wanting to protect your kids and save them from heartache. sometimes though it is best to just be there and let them find their own way. i have a hard time also, but now i think of something I heard once about if you rush in and fix everything for them it hurts their self confidence and makes tnem feel that you think they are not capable (when of course thats not what you mean to happen!). be there, but let go and let him know you have faith in him to grow & learn.

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LOVEMYBOY64 5/12/2010 7:56PM

    I definitely needed that...Thanks John emoticon

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CLEARLY44 5/12/2010 4:02PM

    Great blog. A person must take care of themselves before they can take care of another. Also your son needs to do it with his own power and God. If you take care of his problems, you are robbing him of his ability to do it on his own and learn from it.

Take it from me. I was majorly into co-dependence with my son. He was addicted to pain meds and was mean to everyone. His grandma finally kicked him out and she moved away. He was homeless and found his way back. He now has a loving wife and cute daughter who loves him very much. I had to let him see that he could do it on his own. There are still rough patches, but we all have them in life. I have to believe that it was the right thing to do. Our kids will be here after us and must fend for themselves like us. But they know that we love them enough to let them figure it out on their own.

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ZRAMOMMA 5/12/2010 11:10AM

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It really struck a cord with me.

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LIFE_IS_SO_GOOD 5/12/2010 8:42AM

    Thank you for sharing this blog.

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HEARTSTOPPER 5/12/2010 12:40AM

Love it!


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BLOOMING52 5/12/2010 12:24AM

    Thank you for sharing your story.

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KLOSH1 5/12/2010 12:22AM

    I love reading your blogs!

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KLOSH1 5/12/2010 12:22AM

    I love reading your blogs!

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    Thank you friend for writing this.. it is so amazing to read in anothers words.. what describes ourselves. You are so right.. I too will charge off on a mission to help those that need help and to distract myself from hearing my own little voice..crying out that I too..need my help.
Your words are what many need to read. Thank you for sharing a painful moment in your life.
You are an a wonderful dad... and he is learning from you every second. You are giving him wings..but while he is learning to fly alone.. you are right under him with open arms in case he falls..
You are wonderful

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JMCADE 5/11/2010 10:46PM

    great Blog. I know it is harder to see ourselves and do what we need to do fore ourselves and you really brought that home for me. I hope that I can be there someday if you need support, because your blogs have been support for me.

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SPARKANN 5/11/2010 10:44PM

    Wow... So true... How much time and energy I have expended putting things back together for other people--while my own body was falling apart. Thank you for sharing this, John. Very powerful words.

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SHANA100100 5/11/2010 10:10PM

    I'm humbled by the truth of this. It IS *so* much easier to focus on helping others (whether they want it or not) than taking care of ourselves. It is scary to face the insecurities, fears and limitless potential in ourselves. I'm trying to figure out how to face that myself. Your beautifully written blog is helping me move along that path.

Thank you for sharing this, and I'm wishing you and your family good health - especially the emotional kind.

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MOMGETSSPARK 5/11/2010 7:51PM

    I needed some motivation today, so I clicked on Blogs. Wow! I am ever so glad that I had the chance to read this today! Thank you so much for being able to articulate in a way that makes us all feel!

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JERRYRENE10 5/11/2010 7:38PM

    What I find incredible that I have been through the same thing, not the divorce but the I will handle it for you, but not deal with my own stuff. Thank you so much for writing it so eloquently and reminding me to take my own path and let others take theirs.

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  I needed to read that today :) Thanks for sharing!

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WYWIWOMAN 5/11/2010 6:06PM

    This is not only a stunningly insightful blog, but you have written it so well. Every paragraph hit home - and whether it was being a woman/mother/social worker, I cared for all those others for many many years and didn't take the time for me. I buried the anger with myself for giving and not caring for myself, but that and a lot of other emotions finally emerged. I dealt with them and became ready to take my own journey. And now here I am. On my journey, still working to deal with emotions to keep them uncovered.

Thank you!!
How wonderful that Joan and you can walk your roads side by side. emoticon

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WALKAWAY 5/11/2010 3:23PM

    emoticonblog. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm going to share this with a co-worker who is struggling.

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NEEDTOLOSE100LB 5/11/2010 1:46PM

    I will try and make sure I hold my light high each time you pass by my way.
God certainly knows our troubles, but He also sees our potential and He helps us to get there while He comforts us in our troubles.
Thank you for being so profound and so simple at the same time.

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KRISTY_704 5/11/2010 1:45PM

    What a great blog!

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GIVWIG 5/11/2010 1:16PM

    I know you can't take care of anyone else if you don't first take care of yourself. It's a tough lesson to learn, but it's the truth. Have faith in the Lord. He knows how much you can handle and won't give you more than you can handle. Good luck in your journey!

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LOSINGERIN 5/11/2010 12:57PM

  Being there as a parent and fixing things for our children, no matter what the age, are totally different things. It is very difficult to draw that line and accept their journey is there own. Good for you for finding the strength through God to care for yourself. I believe it is the greatest gift we can give our children. I will pray for you and your family. God is so good. Thanks for sharing your tenderness.

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STARINTHESKY 5/11/2010 12:55PM

    OMG amazing blog! I am POWERLESS over other people. God shows this to me in many ways INCLUDING your blog post! emoticon

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KELLIGIRL523 5/11/2010 12:54PM

    Profound. Thank you.

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ALLENDIANA 5/11/2010 9:55AM

    what a great blog- this really applies to my life. I have a son who is 24 and terminally ill. It has been a rough road to say the least but I am learning to accept it and move on with my life. I am learning that I can not control what is going to happen but I can work on me and the changes I need to make in my life to be a better person and to support my other children as they too are having to learn with the inevitable fact that their brother is going to die... it is not easy on them and I have to be the strong one to help carry them along the way.

Thanks for sharing such a great story.


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DOTTIEJANE1 5/11/2010 9:21AM

    Hay John it sure is hard for parents toremove themselves from there child(children) and let them move forward, but we all need to. Children mist walk there path as we walk ours God Bless us all.Good luck, stay strong ,and take care.

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DAWNDMOORE40 5/11/2010 8:59AM

    Isn't life funny sometimes? We get so focused on those we love and care about, that we rarely have time for our own lives. It sounds like you realized what was happening and wanted to make it better! I hope that things are better now! Have a good day and stay motivated! emoticon

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2BEEFIT 5/11/2010 7:57AM

    John, God bless you and your son. I wrote a similar blog a few days ago; speaking of avoidance and how we focus on others to take our minds off of us. Good luck.

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MARCYNA 5/11/2010 6:04AM

    This is wonderful.
'Do what you have to and I'll care for the rest'
Your son is in God's hand...and He'll beautifully care for him as well as for you.
It's a matter of growing in Faith.
Just pray for him, his daughter and his'll see wonders.
Big Hugs
Ps I'll pray for Matt, too.

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NYARAMULA 5/11/2010 2:23AM

    Wonderful blog, thanks for sharing.

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SPARKENISTA 5/11/2010 12:13AM

    John--As a parent, it is a knee-jerk reaction to come running to the rescue like a knight in shining armor or Maid Marion--whichever fits. This is a very notable insight.

The other thing I am discovering, as the mother of a 21-year-old is that as the active, hands-on parent of a child I was in the driver's seat. If something went wrong I went up to the school to straighten it out. I called the other parent. I even did a study on bullying in my son's school.

But now, the difficult part is not being in the driver's seat, but the back seat. Now, for better or worse, they are driving the car and all we can do is go along for the ride and maybe advise them on the direction or speed if they will listen. I'm having a very hard time with this, as are my friends and neighbors.

Thank G-d my son is a great kid. But how about his friend who got the nickname "93" b/c the police clocked him driving @ that speed? How about kids who make other bad choices. All we can do is be there to support and pick up the pieces.

I am going out on a limb here and thinking that you are not clairvoyant. There is no way you could have known, when your son got married, how it would end up. And even if you could have known, or did know, to a certainty, you can be your bottom dollar he would have married her, anyway.

Therefore, I can see that you are doing the right thing by focusing on yourself and growing in self-knowledge every single day. You have clearly chosen wisely when you found and kept Joan. You have raised a strong, independent son who happens to be going through a tough patch of long duration. You have done your job. Now take care of yourself.

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TERESATUCK2 5/10/2010 11:54PM

    You are amazing. Thank you for your blog.

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SHER11 5/10/2010 11:42PM

    Thank you John

I really enjoy your blog today and with much feeling and heart I see the lights on the path we all share together.

God bless

Sher emoticon

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GEEMAWEST 5/10/2010 9:19PM

    WOW, John, this blog really hit home with me.

Several years ago my son was involved in drugs and I thought I was going to lose him forever. I tried and tried to "fix" him. I had many sleepless nights and made myself sick with worry. As his mother, wasn't it my job to make it all better?

When I finally removed myself from the situation, my son finally got healthy. I had to let him do it himself and just take care of me. I cannot fix the world. Only myself.

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CATHERINEL66 5/10/2010 9:17PM

    John, such a great blog today! I have a 20 year old son who lives out of state. One of the hardest lessons for me to learn as a Mom was to let him walk his own path, experience his own lessons. If he'd only listen to me, LOL!

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BEANPOD77 5/10/2010 7:02PM

    This really moved me..I hope your son realizes what a gem he has for a father..And I am happy you are coming to terms with the realization that you must take care of yourself so you can continue to take care of others..I loved your "lights along the road" analogy..Truly inspirational., and something I will take with me.Thank you!!

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SAFFSTAR 5/10/2010 5:02PM

    Thank you John, every day your words inspire me and give me pause for (positive) thought. I wish you and your family all the very best. Last year I went through a tough time and found that the best thing for me was spending time with those family and friends who were happy in their own skin and had positive news to tell me about their lives - I knew they cared about me without them constantly focusing on my problems. Time spent with them was time away from my worries and reminded me that bad times do pass. You're giving the best gift to your son by giving him a happy and inspirational Dad


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IDALUKE 5/10/2010 3:26PM

    That is so true!!! We should always help the one's we love, but we should never forget about yourself, which I did when I was married. didn't care how I look, or about my weight because husband was so jealous

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JUDIL62 5/10/2010 3:13PM

    Amen! Love your this one this statement rang loud and resonated in my head!

"I became exhausted trying to right the wrongs and then never had the energy to deal with me."

We help those we love better when we take care of ourselves too. It's a great lesson, and I find that the example we set for them is just as important as anything, so by taking care of yourself you send your son a very strong message.


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MYSHARONA6 5/10/2010 2:56PM

    If you don't take care of yourself, then you are in no condition to help others. That is an important message.

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STORMTMB 5/10/2010 2:47PM

    John, you and Joan, your very wise wife, are already giving something very important to your son - an example of a long-standing and loving marriage. Matt may trust no one right now and, yes, it may take a long, long time, but by your example, he knows true and lasting and faithful love is possible. You are doing A LOT for him by your example as a husband and father. Keep on praying and he will find his own way. Probably when he least expects it.

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YES....Give your problems over to the Lord. What an awesome blog. emoticon

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AMBERROGUE 5/10/2010 1:26PM

    It's great to hear another's perspective. Here you are, the father trying to help your child. Here I am, the child just trying to live my life the way I see fit, with my father trying to control it. Maybe he's trying so hard now because he wasn't there for so long and doesn't trust himself to have instilled in me the ability to think for myself and trust myself.
That he didn't teach me how to think for myself and trust myself just exacerbates the problem. I learned how to think in college, when he first started waking up and taking notice of the things around him. I distanced myself. I had to, or I would have been swept along with the tide like I had allowed myself for my entire life.

And now that he has a masters in family counseling and has his own practice and is the minister of his church, he thinks - perhaps HOPES is a better word here - that I'm going to come running back.

You're right. It's not the parent's battle to fight. We must find our own ways in life. I've found a path that I am happy and content with. And I'm standing up for my path in my emailed arguments with my father that started about a week ago and have continued daily.

That I'm arguing with him or that I differ greatly in opinion and lifestyle doesn't mean that I don't love him. I do, or I would simply delete his emails without reading them, let alone responding to them.

Thanks for directing me to your blog. I enjoyed it, and look forward to reading more.


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For The Mom's

Sunday, May 09, 2010

My mother quit school when she was sixteen. Her father had died, it was the Depression and she had a younger sister. There were no programs to assist families back then. She did, as she so often told us, what she had to do. She never looked back, she never complained. She went to work at a dairy and worked there until she met my father some seven years later. I was born ten months after my mom and dad’s were married. My dad worked three jobs and my mom raised four kids. We weren’t poor, we weren't rich. We had three meals a day, sturdy clothes and a roof over our heads. If we were supposed to be unhappy someone forgot to tell me. Other than the occasional fights with my brother and sisters my life could be called pretty normal.

I was never greeted at the door by a woman wearing pearls and a plate of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. I don’t ever recall my mom saying or doing anything that could be categorized as inspirational. She was my mom. I got a feeling that she was, and still is, in a category most moms are in. She may never have looked across the table with an inspirational quote; she simply taught me the things that are of value in my life.

She taught me to always tell the truth, never to steal, or cheat anyone. She taught me to respect people, young, old or in between.

My mom is a very spiritual person but you wouldn’t know it if you talked to her. She said if you make a big deal out of things then you already got your reward. Better to pray, be quiet and wait for good things to happen. She taught us our prayers. She and my dad still go to Mass every morning. They are seventy eight and eighty six. Until my dad's vision started going bad a few years ago they walked to and from church daily, about two miles round trip.

I thought of my mom yesterday when i read a by C.S. Lewis it says; "The thing is to rely on God… Meanwhile, the trouble is that relying on God; you have to begin all over again every day as if nothing has yet been done."

That’s my mom. Every day you start over and every day you start with a clean slate. You work real hard and good things happen to you.

The success my mom had in life, she said, came from raising four decent children, who know the difference between right and wrong. I'll bet your moms the same.
I am almost fifty seven, yet every time I get sick I call my mom. She listens and then says "You'll live." I roll over and go back to sleep knowing I’ll be okay, because my mom said I would.

They are simple values, values that sometimes get lost in the modern mix. Today is an opportunity to reflect on what my mom taught me and issue myself a report card on how well I have done in learning.

Male or female we all share one common value: We all have moms. Some of you are lucky enough to be a mom. What a blessed and amazing opportunity you have to share who you are, with a child and help mold their future, just like yours and mine were molded.

I know I am right, coz my mom says so.

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NICE125 5/13/2010 8:16PM

  Thanks for this blog John.

But are you a writer in real life?? your blogs are good!

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DAWNBROKE 5/11/2010 8:23PM

    Thanks, John. You are blessed to still have your mom and dad.

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AZCUPCAKE 5/11/2010 12:59PM

    I am reading this a couple of days after Mother's Day, and it is bringing tears to my eyes! No wonder you turned out to be the man you are. Your mom is very proud of you, no doubt in my mind! What a gift you both are to EACH OTHER! emoticon

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STARLIGHT615 5/11/2010 9:29AM

    That was wonderful John! Thank you!!

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TINKERBELL200 5/10/2010 2:22AM

    Very cute John! I enjoyed it!

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ANNE-ELIZ 5/10/2010 1:24AM

    That was beautiful. Thanks, John.

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SHER11 5/9/2010 10:12PM

    Thank you John for your thoughts and memories you have shared.
God bless you and all your family. You have given me a smile so big and brought me to remember many memories of my own Mother, Grandmother and my family too.
My hardest work but my best work is the work I have in my two sons and I thank God everyday for them.

emoticon Best wishes on your journey!

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PAULA3420 5/9/2010 8:28PM

    This blog has given me chills a lump in my throat and many head shaking moments of Yes, I agree.

What, I liked the best is when Mom said; "You'll live!" RIGHT ON

How true. Loved it.

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DOLLBABE56 5/9/2010 7:51PM

    Thanks John. I feel the same about my mom.

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JURI62 5/9/2010 6:59PM

    Beautiful blog John, made me laugh, brought tears to my eyes...
I miss my Mom everyday and know she's watching over us..and am
blessed with two daughters of my own...and now two stepsons.
God Bless! Judy

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GREENCAT1 5/9/2010 5:50PM

    Well said John. Your mother sounds like a wonderful woman. You are very blessed to have her. I have six children and i feel so privileged to be their mother. Next to may marriage it has been the biggest miracle in my life.

Cathy emoticon

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/9/2010 4:56PM

    Thanks for sharing about your mom, John; give her an extra hug today from me, she sounds a lot like mine. My mother passed away just over five years ago, and I still miss her.


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JUST_TRI_IT 5/9/2010 4:56PM

    Nice to know that you call your mom even now when you are sick! That is very sweet... She done good! and so have you :)

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JAE_HENNINGTON 5/9/2010 3:19PM

  Thank you John for this most uplifting blog. Mothers teach us so much mostly by example and not so much what is said but what is acted upon. My mother gave me some wonderful gifts. Most likely many that she didnt even realize she was doing... Actions really do speak louder than words.What a blessing for you to still have your mother with you.

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AMYTATH 5/9/2010 1:04PM

    Im not a high maintenance Mom either but Im a very proud Mom. VERY proud of my lil man and hope to instill in him those important values. Today we are building a car from the box one of my gifts came in. Not expensive but an experience with him I'll always remember even if he is too young to remember it himself.

Thanks for the reminder that Moms dont have to be perfect to be a good Mom


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JJSSKINNYGIRL 5/9/2010 12:47PM

    Thank you for the very nice blog. Heart warming to be exact and made me think about how different the children today are compared to how you and your mother where when you where young. You didn't complain about not having much. I see it every day, a kid/teen throwing a fit because of something they don't have.

This is simple: "It's not about having what you want, it's about wanting what you've got!"

I LOVE that phrase, I live by it and I try to teach it to my children every day. You know what? They don't complain about things they don't have!

CHEERS to all the Mothers out there! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

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DEVORA4 5/9/2010 12:46PM

  well written. My mother too was not the kind you saw on Father Knows Best or Leave It To Beaver. {I mean no frilly apron and not wearing high heels and having had her hair just done at the local beauty shop. She only went to the 7th grade and yet she was an extremely smart lady. She also had to work because her father died at an early age.}

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SHEILAKHS1 5/9/2010 12:31PM

    nice blog John are so right my mom and my dad for that matter taught us great values they were there and still are no matter is a great day to reflect on those values and i hope i give even half of those values to my kids have a great day and enjoy

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TAMMYFOX3 5/9/2010 12:21PM

    Thank god for our moms they are so wise!! I to want my mom when i am sick or feeling bad the word of her wisdom always pull me through and you know they are always there!!! My mom always says God never gives you more than you can handle, it is for you to learn and to grow from and i really believe this!!! God bless you and your mom and my mom too!!!! emoticonMoms hold their childrens hand for a while, but holds their hearts forever!! emoticon emoticon

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SPARKENISTA 5/9/2010 12:17PM

    We moms may not be very glamorous, but we get the job done. Thanks for this blog, John! emoticon

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Saturday Musings

Saturday, May 08, 2010

First and foremost a sincere thank you to everyone who comments on my blogs. I appreciate your insight and your support and when I use your wisdom with other people, rest assured you get the credit. I am stronger, wiser and much more confident because I know you guys are there and that whether I gain, weight, lose weight or stay the same I know I am accepted and I am loved here. That is an awesome feeling.

I am not, however an octopus. There have been close to four hundred responses on my blogs, this week alone. Each comment left was read and again I am grateful for the support and encouragement. I am physically unable to respond to that many postings. I feel terrible because some of what you guys write to me by way of encouragement has made a real difference in my life and I consider each of you a true friend. I want to apologize if any way, shape or form I have hurt anyone's feelings by not responding on their wall or sending a goodie as my token of thanks. Please know each of you is my thoughts and my prayers on a daily basis and I value your friendship more than I can express on this blog. I feel so overwhelmed some days when I see the volume of response. Please know I do care.

Okay on to the next part. I lost five pounds this week and basically as I related last week after a 1.2 pound gain I was going back to Phase One as detailed in The Spark. That's what I did. I sorta established John's boot camp to get back in line. It worked. While I am satisfied with the weight loss most importantly I saw where I was getting sloppy and I made the adjustments to correct them. So, way to go John, you are really your own hero.

This morning I participated in my first 5K. Before you get too terribly impressed Joan and I walked it. Three of the kids went along as well as one daughter-in-law and they ran. About two blocks from the finish I looked at Joan and said "What the heck......." and started to run. Joan started to run too. That was cool. The neatest thing for me was the discussion she and I had as we were walking it. She asked me if a year ago I thought we'd be doing something like this and my answer was no. Thank you Spark. No way without this process would I have ever even dreamed of walking like that. Next year I run it.

Now for the important stuff, explaining some status updates from earlier this week.

I made my doctor cry.

My doctor hadn't seen me since I started Spark. I had a sixty pound weight loss and she was so happy she started crying. Told me I made her day. I was glad I could make her happy.

My addiction to General Hospital

About three weeks ago I had a day off in the middle of the week. Because of my travel and how hectic things get I actually plan these off days. I was flipping through the channels, found General Hospital and began watching it and then I just had to know what was coming next. I started DVR'ing them and I watch them when I get home. Yesterday I had to catch up on Wednesday and Thursdays before I found out what sentence the judge passed on Michael for manslaughter.......

So there you go.

It's International Barbecue Festival weekend here so I get to go look at arts and crafts this afternoon.

Have a great Saturday.

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CMBELISLE 5/11/2010 11:38AM

    I love that you made your doctor cry! That is a special moment. Congrats!

As for answering every single response to your blogs - geez! With as many people as read your blogs, I'm surprised you have to time to read all the responses.

I walk almost a 5k about once a week. I even did a run/walk on my route once and it was exhilarating, although I'm going to keep the run/walks shorter until I get better at them.

GH? Hmmm...been a long time, but when it's on in the break room, it's scary how many of the characters I recognize. Funny how quickly they can suck you in - gotta love TiVo!

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BRYLIA 5/11/2010 10:07AM

Dont worry about "getting back to each of us that responds". For many of us you have already given us so much already and we just want to extend our appreciation. It is funny how I have never met you but I feel I know you better than some of the people that I meet in person regularly. Thanks for the "conversation" that we share. Joan is one lucky lady...and I love how she has been walking or running sharing the experience right along with you! I hope that one day, Andy will share the experience with me.. but I will wait for that to happen!
Hugs, Lisa

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JAE_HENNINGTON 5/9/2010 3:23PM

  I am just happy to read your blogs everyday. I am happy to considered one of your friends... no worries, I know you care about each and everyone of your friends.

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LUCYJOY 5/9/2010 10:54AM

    What? You don't have time to talk to 400 individual people each and everyday? LOL

You can watch General Hospital only if you promise NOT to eat bon bons while you are doing it!

I'm starting over on my diet tomorrow(I'm required to make hot fudge sundaes for my extended family tonight so figured today was not the best starting point)

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GREENCAT1 5/9/2010 9:15AM

    Congrats on the 5 pound weight loss! emoticon emoticon

Cathy emoticon

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CATHERINEL66 5/9/2010 8:52AM

    Wow! 5 lbs lost! Congrats on getting back on track and kicking butt again!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/9/2010 3:03AM

    is general hospital still going?living in germany the last 14 years you don´t know what is still on and what not.i used to watch that when i was younger.
well done on the 5k to you and all the family i am certain you will run it all next is something to plan for.
like you i am also accessing and re committing to sp as like you i have let some things slide abit.lost 4lbs just by doing that.
see some things are ment to be.

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AZCUPCAKE 5/9/2010 1:36AM

    John, please don't feel like you are neglecting us when you don't respond to ALL of your posts! I know I speak for SO MANY of your fans/admirers/followers/cheerleader
s when I say that I just get so much out of your writings, that I need to say "wow!" and "thank you!" on a regular basis. You really provide your pals with such great insights into topics many of us are still scared to touch with a ten-foot pole! You are LOVED! emoticon

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SPARKENISTA 5/9/2010 12:45AM

    John--Don't worry about reaching everyone-especially every day. Your weight loss is
emoticon. Do you follow the suggestions Spark gives you or your own selections?

The 5K is amazing, no matter how you slice it. Great! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Good work getting your doctor to cry--That is amazing. Speak to you soon.

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JPRICE217 5/8/2010 9:15PM

    emoticon emoticon walking a 5 k is something to be proud of.

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/8/2010 6:20PM

    John, it's crazy how we parallel one another in so many ways (though not the weight loss, you beat me there!). My husband and I did our first 5K walk today as well, but I have to confess, I left hubby behind--I really wanted to do it in under an hour, and he was fine with me going on at a faster pace. My goal is to run it next year, too. No way would I have believed that either of us would be where we are today when we started this journey earlier this year. SparkPeople and people like you are what have made the difference; thanks for sharing your journey with the rest of us and being a part of the success we are achieving!


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DIASTER 5/8/2010 6:15PM

  Really do not think people expect a response from their comments, it is just that you touch our hearts and souls as you but into words all our feelings and dreams.
The doctor was probably so pleased as she or he finally had a patient that listened to advice, they do care what happens to us and spend time to make sure we understands the consequences of our actions but how few of their patients actually follow their advice? You might have just saved your life. Anyway thank you again and again for your words of wisdom.

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    John!!! A 5K!!! WOW!!! That's incredible!!! Congrats!!! I'm sooo..... Proud of you !!!! I'm rooting for you to run it next year!!

I personally do not have my feelings hurt by you not responding to these comments I leave to you. I offer them up willingly and expect nothing in return. You type the most amazing blogs I've ever read and that alone is enough. What you give me out of the blogs pails in comparison to what I can give back to you in these comments. HUGS!


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DOLLBABE56 5/8/2010 6:02PM

    That is so cool that you and Joan ran the last 2 blocks of the race. I know that it felt great! You can do anything that you put your mind to.

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KSHAGGY 5/8/2010 4:36PM

    Way to go, that is so fantastic & gives me hope.

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JUNEAU2010 5/8/2010 3:11PM

    Kudos on the 60 lbs lost! A couple of years ago, I lost 20 lbs and my doc didn't even notice! No reply expected - my intent is to encourage, not to burden!

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TRIPLE_EMME 5/8/2010 2:58PM


I like your Saturday musings! I'm so glad for you that you spent this past week focusing on the basics and making adjustments. (Not to mention, your loss!) I'm celebrating with you. emoticon

emoticon on bringing tears to your doctor's eyes!!!

emoticon on completing your first 5K!!! It doesn't matter if you walk or run. You accomplished your goal -- and from what you shared, it sounds like you and Joan had a good journey together, too.


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1WALKINGMAN 5/8/2010 2:56PM

    That is emoticonJohn, Terri Ann said she saw you there. Remember, you have start somewhere and to walk it for the first time is a great start. emoticon

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RONDAJONES 5/8/2010 2:46PM

    Great job on making the doctor cry! That is emoticon Just another sign that this is not an easy journey, however, YOU are doing it!!!! Congrats to you and Joan for finishing the race. Doesn't matter if you walk, run, crawl, or long as you finish what you started!! emoticon I am hoping that someday...I get the confidence to participate! emoticon (that wink icon is so creepy looking! LOL)

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JURI62 5/8/2010 2:37PM

    You are fortunate to have a doctor who cares! I do too, but every time my husband goes to his doctor he says it's like they are just meeting for the first time again...
Congrats on your 5K

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SHEILAKHS1 5/8/2010 2:30PM

    John I dont think you need to respond to everyone that comments on your blogs. it is just great for us to be able to read your inspiring words and keep motivated. so dont feel like you are letting me down ever because i think its amazing to read about you and the great things you have accomplished and learned and i feel blessed to be able to share it with you whether you stop by my page or not. just keep up the positive attitude and the unselfishness of sharing it with me and i will be forever greatful :)

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TABATHAMAX1 5/8/2010 2:14PM

    Congrats on your wonderful week John! I am a new reader and I totally understand how it can overwhelming when you have so many comments. I am sure everyone understands. I really like your blog you are a motivator! That must of been a wonderful feeling with your doctor....way to go! Awesome job on walking 5 miles also, just like your wife said what would of you been doing a year ago. Way to go!

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    emoticon on walking your first 5K, losing 5 pounds, finding out where you need to tweek your plan, and for making your doctor cry! emoticon

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